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Wheat Grass

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Posted on September 29, 2007 by 

In my mid to late teens i use to visit and purchase certain items from a particular health food store in my area. During that time in my life which was about fifteen years ago i first learned about wheatgrass.

I had a juicer at home, but it was a high-speed juicer and not the appropriate one for extracting the juice from wheatgrass. Conveniently, the health food store had a slow-turning juicer (wheatgrass juicer) and i was able to sample out what it was like. Once wheatgrass is juiced there is a limited time that you have to drink it before it loses it’s potency.

It is said that the things that taste very nasty are the best things for you and i do have to say that wheatgrass juice was one of the nastiest things that i have ever tasted! Wheatgrass juice though is the most nutritious and cleansing juice that there is. Wheatgrass itself is seven inch tall grass that is grown from wheatberries on one inch of soil.

Wheatgrass juice benefits many parts of the body including the liver, kidneys, glands, spleen, muscles, bones, teeth, blood cells and hair.

Wheatgrass juice protects the lungs and blood from air, toxins, cigarette smoke, heavy metals and water pollution. The juice of wheatgrass can also be applied to the skin or scalp. It can be used to wash out the eyes, teeth, gums and sinuses. And, it can be implanted rectally to cleanse and heal the body’s large intestine.

Wheatgrass also works as a weight loss remedy by suppressing the appetite and by stimulating the metabolism and circulation. Not only do humans benefit from the abilities of wheatgrass but animals as well! It has aided the reproduction and maintenance in herbivorous mammals.

What i also learned back then is that wheatgrass contains a full spectrum of trace elements, minerals and vitamins. Those in particular include amino acids (protein) , special enzymes, magnesium, potassium, calcium, iron, chlorophyll, vitamins E, C, A and B complex.

And, just a few of the many conditions that are responsive to wheatgrass are ulcers, infection, anemia, hay fever, constipation, diabetes, colitis, bronchitis, asthma, skin disorders, acne, fatigue, hypoglycemia, heart disease, circulatory weakness, blood pressure (high or low) and aging.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/09/29/wheat-grass/

Ginkgo Biloba

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I’ve been taking Ginkgo Biloba as one of my daily supplements for nearly six years now and it has been beneficial for me. When i first begun to take the supplement i used the “Solgar” brand, which was a very good product.

After a while of taking it, though, i noticed on the label that there was a great drop in some of the contents.

Originally, the amount per capsule that i was intaking was 60mg of Ginkgo Biloba Extract ( standardized from the leaf ) and 375mg of Raw Ginkgo Biloba Powder ( also from the leaf ).

Then i noticed the raw powder was reduced to only 30mg. And even though the raw Ginkgo Biloba Powder is much less significant in affect ( compared to the standardized Ginkgo Biloba Extract ) regardless of mg, i still phoned the “Solgar” company to find out what was going on.

A particular person there at the company told me that there were numerous calls from others who were using the product and who had also noticed the drop in mg.

I was asked my telephone number as a general inquiry and told that i would be notified once a reason was determined. No one ever got back to me. So i just changed my brand.

I have been using “Ginkoba” for nearly three years now and it is just as great-if not better!

Ginkgo Biloba is an herb. It’s main benefit is to improve brain function by aiding the increase of “oxygen-rich” blood flow to the brain. It is also known as the “smart pill”.

Ginkgo Biloba is just not limited to the one main area that I’ve mentioned. More than 300 studies have shown over the past 30 years that not only does Ginkgo Biloba help improve mental functioning but has other benefits as well.

1. Ginkgo works by increasing blood flow to the brain and throughout the body’s network of blood vessels that supply blood and oxygen to organ systems.

2. It increases metabolism efficiency, regulates neurotransmitters, and boosts oxygen levels in the brain which uses 20% of the body’s oxygen.

3. Ginkgo also helps control the transformation of cholesterol to plaque associated with the hardening of arteries, and can relax constricted blood vessels.

4. The benefits of enhanced circulation in the brain include improved short and long term memory, increased reaction time and improved mental clarity.

5. Ginkgo has also been shown to be a supportive herb for treating infertility in males and impotence.

6. Ginkgo Biloba helps prevent damage to the organs from free radicals, and also blocks the platelet activating factor which causes some skin disorders such as psoriasis.

7. Ginkgo Biloba’s beneficial effects on the circulatory system also helps in the treatment of eye and ear disorders.

Gingko Biloba is a very good supplement unfortunately the company of SOLGAR was purchased by a Big Pharmaceutical Company a couple of years ago which would explain the considerable drop in the quality. I would go in another direction like GOTU KOLA which is Nerve Regenerative and Restorative Herb and a Nervine Herb meaning it’s calming.Gingko is an excellent herb but NOT when You are on Beta Blockers,ACE Inhibitors,or Statin drugs because they all thin blood and compete. Oh yeah that includes Coumadin AKA Warfarin this is the Most POTENT bloodthinner offered by Big Pharma so take that with Gingko and they will be fighting for the last seat on the Same Bus. Ecclectic Institute makes a NICE Gingko Biloba/Gotu Kola combination that has no fillers and binders in there like Magnesium Sterate or Stearic acid because these surpress the immune system. Taking Gingko with Vitamin E is also a bad idea too blood thinning if taken at all they should be taken at least 4-6 Hours apart. I hope this is helpful.

Thank you so much for your input. Personally, I been stopped taking Ginko Biloba a very long time ago. I’ve found something much greater that agrees with me and my body, however, I will leave your comment for those who it may be helpful towards.

I think You’re Wonderful By The Way For Having This Format.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/09/29/ginkgo-biloba/

Street People

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Posted on September 2, 2007 by 

I know all about the street people. There is not anything that anyone can tell me about them that i don’t already know. I grew up around them and i have them on both sides of my family.

I could write a book about those in particular and, it wouldn’t be a very pleasurable one since there is nothing too pleasing about their unwanted existence.

Before i began, i just want to acknowledge that certain misfortunes in life can cause any human being to become homeless. There have been very successful people such as doctors, lawyers and so on who for whatever reason may be have loss everything and had to somehow make a way for themselves out in the streets. I am not talking about them in this post.

I’m mainly referring to those with innate tendencies to become bums, drug addicts, drug dealers, and whores that choose the lifestyles of the street. The streets are their comfortable habitat. The only place where they can function.

Most street people are mentally and emotionally disturbed. Many of them are uneducated and unintelligent.

Some have come from good homes where they had their parents in their corner, encouraging them to do what was right in their life.

And then there are the others who have come from dysfunctional homes and didn’t have any guidance at all.

Many of the drug addicted street woman continue the use of drugs during their pregnancies, messing their children up only to bring a burden on society. Many of the drug addicted parents also sit up and get high with their own children.

I know dope addicts who have raised their children by “training” them to be thieves. It is just the blind leading the blind.

The street people for the most part are a very sad group of people. And the level that they are on is quite appalling and unacceptable.

They are very convincing liars to those who are naive to their schemes. They are sometimes so convincing to some because they believe in their own lies. And aside from being notoriously devious they are extremely malicious, treacherous to a fault, especially when their feelings get hurt.

Through first hand experience and a keen intuitive sense of “understanding” I’ve never been oblivious to the type of people i grew up around. They have always been transparent to me, very easy to read. I will admit with no apologies that i have never at all liked their particular kind.

I tried to keep the peace since i sometimes had to be around them in areas when i went to school, work, or whatever, but there is only so much that i could tolerate when it came to their kind.

You see, they are all on that “street-level”. And one with intelligence would have to come down to their level in order for them to be able to relate to them. They are not equipped enough mentally to rise from where they are. And the thing about it is that the junkies think that they are the one who is smart and, that you are the dumb one!

There is a whole lot of information that i could give on the street people, nevertheless, it would take quite a few pages rather then a single post so I’ll just continue on with just a few more brief paragraphs.

From my personal experience with particular street people have been their ongoing jealousy toward me.

They are indeed sick but one will never truly know the depth of their sickness until they experience it in such a way as i have. They’ve tried at numerous attempts to bring down my character simply because I’ve talked about them and their lifestyle in ways that they didn’t like and couldn’t handle because it was the truth.

You see, when you are not one of them (their kind) and you insult them they get very offended because you haven’t been in their same shoes doing the dirt that they have done. So they automatically assume and know when one thinks that they are better than them.

So to retaliate the street people will endeavor to find a way to “put you in their shoes” by trying to make you the victim of what their life is about by literally ruining you. However, it all depends on the individual target.

Most street people are weak-minded and easily influenced so someone else of that nature will be easy to pull down. A strong-minded, intelligent person of substance and back bone on the other hand is a totally different story. They will be unaffected by the nonsense as the street-life is a whole different life and experience from what they are accustomed to but not necessarily unfamiliar with.

Yes, my street enemies have went around my town trying to defame my character by making up outrageous lies hoping that it would affect me. Unfortunately for them their efforts did not faze me, if anything it inspired me to be even more determined to go out and accomplish the many things in life that i do want to achieve.

And that also inspired them to interfere with certain jobs that i was suppose to get by trying to give me a bad name.

They never stop. They don’t want to lose at their games. But they loss this one because i was never a player in their world.

They’d like for me to have no means of financial support for myself so i could become a bum out in the streets. Too bad they don’t know that day will never come for me. I believe in a higher power, and a power that will dig them in the same exact grave they have dug for me. And they are the one’s who will be buried in it.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/09/02/street-people/

As An ASexual Person I’m Sharing My Personal Views And Feelings

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One thing i don’t hear too much about is people who are Asexual. I personally am Asexual. I’m not into men or women. I would never judge anyone as myself because everyone is an individual.

From my personal experience, however, i’ve never sexually desired a penis and i know there are quite a few other women out there in the world who feel the same way that i do who are not lesbians.

During my teenage years i discovered my clitoris and experienced orgasms. I wasn’t at all afraid to explore my body. Why should i have been? It was my body.

I had never had sexual intercourse with a man. And after experiencing pleasurable sensations from stimulating my clitoris i still did not have the desire or curiosity to explore a penis.

During my mid twenties i decided that i wanted to have a child. It was then and for that reason only that i settled for dealing with a man sexually.

I would have preferred to go to a sperm bank but at that particular time i did not have the money to do so. So i engaged in sexual activity a few times at a very short time period in one month. And the act did not do anything for me.

I did not feel any sexual pleasure at all. To me, sexual intercourse is definitely a mind thing.

I did not have any feelings for the guy that i dealt with for that occasion. In fact, he disgusted me. He was into me and wanted a relationship. I had to get rid of him quick.

Some people will become sexually attached as he did. And, some men are so macho they think their penis can change your mind. But it is not at all in the stroke for me. Sex is all in the mind and can’t no man or his penis do a thing for me!

The thought of a man touching me in any way whether it is with a kiss, caress or touch by penetration turns me off.

My efforts didn’t work in the process. His ego got into the way.

This guy wanted me to want him. It sometimes takes months before conception occurs but i couldn’t let no man have sex with me over and over again!

And when he found out that i was never going to actually come around to desiring him he attempted to pretend that he would conceive a child with me. Just to get back at me.

I didn’t have time for any games. I wanted one thing and one thing only, and that was a baby. I considered having sex a sacrifice because the penetration of a man’s penis was and felt so unnatural to me.

I have not indulged in anymore sexual activity since and that was nearly ten years ago. I don’t ever plan on attempting to make a baby with the assistance of a man ever again.

As being Asexual, another thing in this society is really disgusting to me. And that is how some men try to destroy a women by making up sexual lies about them or telling about what may have went on in the bedroom between the two of them.

Certain types of people tend to believe men when they fabricate tales of sexual encounters and will join in with the slander by trying to degrade the women.

Words like “slut” don’t bother me because the word has nothing to do with me. It is beneath me.

You have those though that don’t look at it that way.

When most men and even some women call other women a derogatory name like “whore” or “slut” they expect it to hurt deep down inside to make the person feel very low. And in this day and age this society still accepts the act of letting men ruin some women’s reputations when it comes to sexual matters.

A man can go around sleeping with hundreds of women while he is considered a “king”. A woman as everybody knows on the other hand will be considered one of the most rotten things in the world.

Many still believe that most women will break down to lose their confidence if a man trashes their name by putting them out there as a skank. It gives them a great sense of power.

I can’t speak for anyone else personally on this matter although i know i’m not the only woman who feels this way since there are such a wide variety of people in our world, but no man or woman could ever lower or make me completely lose my self-confidence by using sexual gestures that are considered offensive in this society.

I am a human being who doesn’t go along with the many brainwashing and beliefs of what is suppose to maintain and lower a woman’s worth.

I don’t think that it is right for a woman to sleep around with many other people if she loves herself. The body is one’s temple and one should want to keep it very healthy and clean.

At the same time i do not believe that a woman who sleeps around lowers her value. I just believe it means that she does not value herself!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/28/as-an-asexual-person-im-sharing-my-personal-views-and-feelings/

A Revelation

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Posted on August 26, 2007 by 

All of my life i have been able to sense and see through people. There have also and always been those in particular who i have detested. No one is going to like or get along with everybody no matter what walk of life one comes from. The hatred that i have for those who i speak of goes deeper in the eye than what most if any are able to see. What is felt is not so much a part of my innate human tendency of being snooty but more of a divine awareness of what is here and subordinate.

Some looking at particular people with the “Human Eye”, and who are conscious of what they show, may see a sight they would clearly determine as undesirables and etc. When looking through with the “Third Eye”, however, the sight goes much deeper. They are then identified more in depth.  And they “Indeed” are “The Wicked”, the devil’s children. I’ve seen it in their appearance and have sensed it in their body language. I have also seen these particular people after death in spirit form-confirming the mark made to me of those who are here on earth.

They are very recognizable. Radar picks up on them instantly, alerting, verifying and sending warning of them. When i view them in person or if the thought of them comes into mind due to visions i see their presence literally makes me want to vomit. I keep clear away from these people as much as possible. And I don’t want any parts of them in my life if i can help it.

Understandably, my reasons are of course not defined as ”Fear” since these particular kinds are absolutely nothing to fear even though many of them want to intimidate others out of their own insecurities. Nevertheless, it has everything to do with negativity, and negative energies they continually carry within and without, and which can be detected and rejected. They are all an abomination. A reproach.

(These Particular People Are Warp-Minded. They Act Out In Illogical Ways. Reason Cannot Be Explained To Sick Individuals. I As A Human Being With Strong Spiritual Inclination Would Never Want Their Essence Up In Me, Outward Of Me, Or Around Me. Their Absences Brings About Peace, Happiness And Cleanliness To The Mind, Body, Spirit And Path)

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/a-revelation/

Rituals

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Sunday, April 15, 2007 at 11:34 AM EDT

This past Christmas eve when i was working at J.C. Penny’s a guy approached me. I’d never seen him before. I ignored him of course because i did not want to be bothered.

Not too long after and later that night when i got home i could feel him beginning to enter into my mind. I have very keen senses. My brain is like radar. I knew before he approached that something was up just like i do with everyone else.

Whenever a man is interested in me, out to do me harm, and etc. they stay inside my head for as long as their feelings towards me last. I feel their thoughts and emotions and i pick up things going on within their lives. People have no clue how Divine Spirit has gifted me.

This particular guy has been in my mind for three months and some change.

About a month after he first entered into my head i dreamed that he was still conscious of me but seeing another girl. Obviously there was nothing serious going on with him and her because i’ve been picking up on him very strongly all of this time.

On a Friday, the 30th of march, i heard his voice as i woke up from my sleep in the morning. His exact words were “I’m gonna fight for the woman i want”. Later that day i went to pick up my check from J.C. Penny’s and on my way back from cashing it out there in Garden City i think i may have saw him, i wasn’t too sure of that until the following palm Sunday.

On palm Sunday, the 1st of April, i was at home lying in my bed receiving a few messages and seeing a few visions when one particular vision of this guy appeared to me as the occurrence was actually taking place at that point in time.

In my vision i saw him around this man who may deal with the Islamic faith because the man communicated with me through telepathic means. He spoke to me in my thoughts and i responded to him and he mentioned Allah which is the name of God among Muslims.

Anyway, my deranged admirer stayed around this man while he performed a love ritual on me. I could see, hear, and feel everything that went on. This guy even had the nerve to inquire if i’d ever been intimate with some guy that i won’t mention because i never had feelings for anybody. He’s all in my business!

This past Easter Sunday on the 8th of April i received another vision of this guy.

He was nervous and worried. I’m not going to go into detail about what was causing his anxiety though. However, i will divulge this-he is still working his ritual. It is still in process right now. He did a marriage ritual and a ritual for me to have his children. I’ve been feeling his shit. It seems that he does certain rituals on Sundays and Wednesdays. He is also trying to take away my “energy”. He wants to make me weak and draw me to him.

There is absolutely no doubt that i don’t like the way the God of the bible created things, the way he sometimes goes about things (he works too slow for me) but i don’t believe in him and his power and there are many things i don’t like about him due to what i know and experienced here on earth (the things that he lets go on) i am one of the very special children ( born with a caul) Divine Spirit has my back.

He is in control and he will continue to work things out in his own way during his own “time”. My third eye and my spirits show and communicate with me to let me know the outcomes of my situations and they always turn out in my favor.

Almost a month ago now someone tried to harm me spiritually and it backfired right in her face. Soon after the incident the Lord of the bible came to me in my thoughts and told me to come to him for anything and that he is my source of protection, however, i did not accept his offer he turns me off.

I preferred the powers of my Ancestors and Orishas.

So whatever this particular guy is trying to do to me i guarantee that it will not work. It will all blow up in his face. Somebody told me that i should be flattered about what he is doing. To me it is never flattering for someone to try to control the will of another no matter what the motive may be.

Love and affection should come naturally and i am not the pathetic type to get off on somebody wanting me that bad regardless of the intentions.

Whenever negative Obeah, Santeria, Yoruba, Voodoo or whatever you want to call it is being worked and in affect, it is very unnatural and unhealthy. It is all black magic and i will continue to be protected by my spirituality.

I can’t wait to see how all of this is going to play out since i have the power to convert negative energy into positive energy.

( All Of The Voodoo In The World Could Never Make Me Desire A Man )

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/rituals/

Strength, Power

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Monday, April 02, 2007 at 11:21 AM EDT

You know, things are really looking up for me. I am getting ready to start a new career already! It will begin in a short time. I never worry about my future because i have always been able to see into the future. I’ve been looking to start something new for quite a while now. I get bored very quick. When something doesn’t hold my interest i have to move on to things that better suit me.

A door has closed in my life and a new door has opened and it is very exciting. I am anticipating this new part of my life that is on it’s way. I played a part in my life taking another new start.

The way that i feel is if i want a change i have to be the one to take charge and i absolutely have the power to do so spiritually and, nothing is able to stop me. I am a fighter, a survivor.

I’ve always been a very strong person who is not afraid of too much. And i haven’t been afraid to go about things in my own way and i realize that i am pushing forward more now in a way that is going full forward in my favor.

I’m feeling great bursts of positive energy. I’m feeling extreme confidence. I am very smart, strong and pretty. And, i think that i am more crazier now than ever.

I’ve always felt this good about myself but my feelings are heightened.

I found a greater method in developing and maintaining my spirituality. I had to build a new foundation. And all negative influences that are around me are becoming even more and more irrelevant.

Things are indeed still going on but it has nothing to do with me. It is about me yet it is all in my enemies (and those who don’t know any better) heads.

They are living in a world that i am not in. I’m here, i’ll just never adapt to the things that are not befitting to me so i stay in my real world that i belong in. I am in the world but not of it.

Aside from having the ability to handle adversity the way that i can sometimes i wonder if it is good to be too strong, not caring about things like what people say, think and feel. And not getting embarrassed and worrying about what is going to go down in life. I’ve always been that way and it can be bad because i have hurt people with my careless ways and attitude. I don’t dwell on the thought, though.

I am who i am naturally, and i can’t change.

Even if being too strong is not a good thing i still have my benefits because some can’t see me for who i really am. Some think i’m sweet and innocent. I am a good person but i am not as sweet as they think. And i’m innocent as far as never being lustful, in love before or damaged by anyone, and i don’t have no dirt on me, but that is about it.

Right now, i am getting very acquainted with this enhanced spiritual power that i have received. It is getting distinctly familiar with me and i am getting distinctly familiar with it and we are becoming ultimately unified.

( A Strong Faith Sees The Invisible. Believes The Impossible. And Receives The Incredible ) – A quote!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/strength-power/

Words To Live By

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 5:45 AM EDT

Everything that i write is original. My words all come from my own heart, soul and mind.

However, this that i am about to write is something i received in my email almost a year ago. I am copying it down on this post on my blog to share. It is inspirational and i totally agree with everything that it says.

The words are from a column in a magazine:

Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it.

Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many.

Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books.

Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders.

Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations.

But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.

-Buddha

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/words-to-live-by/

Denial

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 4:56 AM EDT

A lot of people do not want to accept certain things. And a lot of the time it is the things that are of “truth” that people don’t want to accept because sometimes they cannot deal with it or may not be able to handle whatever else comes along with it.

There are a lot of challenges that life brings and many of us do not want to see, hear, face or believe. Ready or not things are going to happen and it is up to the individual whether or not they are going to step up to it or run away. I wish the world wasn’t in the state that it is in but there is absolutely nothing that i can do about it so i just have to accept it but that doesn’t mean that i have to follow along in the state that the world is in.

I still be myself regardless and am able to handle whatever it is that comes around my way because i have a strong sense of myself and purpose. You have those though that for whatever reason who go by, masquerade and try to escape through many efforts. Lying to oneself is definitely not a comfortable way to escape. There is no peace in it. Lies will eventually eat you up inside and destroy you.

Some find a way to escape by believing in their own lies. Believing a lie is the truth brings a sense of security to some since it prevents them from facing a fear or shortcoming.

One lady i use to go to church with a long time ago got on my nerves so i told her how much she stunk when i’d sit next to her wherever we were in front of other church members. The next thing that i knew what i told her had gotten all over the church. One of the church members went back and spread it so i guess the lady got embarrassed.

Later after the incident the lady told me that she knew the reason i told her she stunk was just because i was angry. And that was a perfect example of denial. I was indeed angry when i told her that she smelled bad but i meant what i had said because it was the truth. Someone else i knew even acknowledged that the lady carried an odor. She just didn’t want to accept it.

And it is just the same thing with some of my enemies. They keep saying that i am putting up a big “front”. I don’t have a clue as to what they are talking about. A front for what?

Just because they tried to ruin me in ways that they wouldn’t be able to handle if people had done the same exact things to them does not mean that it affects me. I am not anything like them.

What pertains to them does not pertain to me. I am so much better than they are morally and intellectually.

I don’t know when they are going to wake up and realize that nothing that they did or do bothered or bothers me. I am a free happy spirit living with no worries or fears. I don’t care one bit about what they say or think and believe about me, however, they just can’t and won’t accept that. They are in “deep denial”.

The low level that my enemies are on is quite ridiculous.

It is unbelievable how stupid they all are. They are so stupid to believe that i am actually putting up a front when there is nothing for me to be putting up a front for. I don’t care how much trouble they went through to make my life miserable my Orisha is much, much stronger. The fact is that their efforts just did not work and never will work and whoever told them that their efforts did work flat out lied to them.

They are too stupid to see it though.

My enemies are making complete fools of themselves by continuing to believe what they think to be true then acting on it. When the day comes-and i know that very soon it will-when they all finally have to face reality and see, and truly acknowledge what the real deal is they are going to feel even stupider than they already are. For the meantime though you know the old saying, “Ignorance Is Bliss”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/denial/

Age

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 4:42 AM EDT

“Respect your elders”. “Wisdom comes with age”. I’ve heard people speak those words throughout my lifetime as i am sure others have. However, i strongly disagree with those words.

Just because someone is a little bit or a lot older than one does not mean that they automatically deserve their respect. And wisdom does come with age for some but definitely not for all. I learned that fact early on as a very young child. And it is a fact!

Grown ups had said and done things to me that wasn’t correct and right.

If i knew a little more about something than they did they didn’t want to hear it because in their mind they believed that they were the adult who knew better when in actuality they didn’t know what they were talking about. Often when a particular child, teen, or even young adult is knowledgeable and goes to express an idea or solution that someone older may not see, realize, or grasp the first thing that older person may be quick to verbalize is that the younger person is being “fresh” or “think that he or she knows everything”. And then continues on with “they’ll learn”.

They are very quick to generalize as most people do. It is not fair but it sometimes happens.

It’s been said and i’ve been told all throughout my life by those who have been able to recognize that i am too smart and that i know a lot for my age and that they were nowhere near the level that i’m on when they were at my age. There are decent rational adults out there who don’t have any problem acknowledging and accepting that people younger than them can know just as much as they do and even a little more.

You see, i have always carried a portion of wisdom. I have a good share of it. And i am very wise in ways that a lot of people don’t appreciate. There have been some who’ve misjudged me, accused me of things that i was not guilty of, lied on me, underestimated me, and treated me unfairly. There have been plenty of older peoples asses that i have wanted to kick. A lot of them make me so sick about how they think or thought that they were enlightening me by telling me something while all of the time i was way ahead of them.

Of course, there are those who are informative and beneficial to learn a little or a lot from. They are very helpful and they are the ones that i respect if they genuinely have understanding.

There have been older people who have tried to hurt me, test me, run games on me and so on because they believed and thought that they were so much more experienced.

And you see, that goes back to them making generalizations. Everybody is not the same but you can’t tell them that. So many of them have got it stored in their minds that they’ve been around and that they know and are able to read every type of person that they come across when they don’t know shit! They just think they do. And those are assholes that some of us are just going to run into at sometime or another. They are too ignorant to realize that it is not always necessarily age that makes you wiser but it is the insight and the “individual” experience. And just because one has the age does not mean that they have all of the experience.

A lot of people have gone through life living with the wrong information and mistaking one thing for another so when a younger person comes along knowing the answers he or she is sometimes considered as the one who is misguided, naive, or confused due to their own form of “misguidance”. And when some do come to a realization they are too embarrassed to admit to it.

There are plenty of younger people who indeed are naive, confused, and don’t know a whole lot about life and some of them are just stupid because their parents are stupid. But out here in the world there are older people who can learn from the young and the young who can learn from the old.

Our world is continually changing and while many things continue to change many of the things are going to remain the same.

I have a number of reasons why i don’t have respect for people just because they are older than me. Now that doesn’t mean that i go around disrespecting them. There is a difference between being courteous and having true respect for someone. I just do not underestimate anyone because they are younger than me and i do not overestimate someone simply because they are older. I go by the person within.

Nevertheless, i am aware that maturity also plays a part when it comes to certain people and their age.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/age/

Rumors

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 11:27 PM EDT

People have been telling lies since the beginning of time so they are definitely not going to stop now. No doubt, a lot of people are very nosy and love gossip. They gossip over anything, usually about a lot of silly shit. Some will say that everybody gossips. There is a big difference between having a discussion and straight out gossiping.

Most people who like to sit around waiting to hear and spread vicious rumors are pathetic, miserable people who don’t have a life of their own. They are full of envies and petty jealousies over the people that they talk about. As soon as gossip is spread about them though they can’t handle it and most of the time it is because what’s spread about them is the truth so they get mad and spread lies on others who are above them.

I have never spread rumors. I spread the truth.

And i, just like many others, have been the victim of quite a few ridiculous rumors. I’ve heard people say that they would go home and cry over lies that was said about them. I have never shed a tear over lies people told on me. Some of them may have pissed me off very much because i knew what they were trying to do but their talk didn’t affect me because i knew what was circulating was nowhere near the truth.

I know that it does hurt a lot of good people when others hear negative things that are false regarding them then they listen to it and may act accordingly to it. Treating them unfairly, and some of them got the nerve because they are the ones who actually have the dirt on them and the ones they criticize are the innocent ones.

The way i look at the matter is if you know who you are and you know what you did and did not do you shouldn’t give a fuck. People are going to talk about you anyway. Whether you do good or bad. Fuck them!

I scoff and laugh at people who spread rumors about me. I’m better than all of them. I can go and walk around anywhere holding my head up as high up in the sky as i want to because i haven’t done a damn thing! And if i had i’d still be strong enough to pick up and keep moving because i don’t do things that i’d be ashamed of.

People have all type of reasons why they make up lies and spread rumors. Most of the time it is done out of jealousy, hatred, ignorance, and sickness.

One time i hung out with this older woman who came out of jail a long time ago. Her name was Venus. The next thing that i knew people were assuming that because i was a good person and that she was a bad person that i was trying to help her get on her feet or something to that nature. The woman herself even went around lying, telling people that i was trying to save her. Save her from what? I don’t know what they were talking about. It was all news to me. That was a petty lie, unless she was really that dumb enough to perceive that through her own misunderstanding.

Then, later on, i was suppose to had went with her boyfriend (had a relationship with him). And then i became a ho’. And so on, an so on.

See, they are all crazy! And they are suppose to be grown folks. That’s why the dummy and her nigger both have been looking like skeletons for a while now and are rapidly dying from Aids.

You know, the truth always comes out no matter how long it may take. I don’t have no Aids and never had any other diseases for that matter.

That says a whole lot because they hung themselves with their own ropes.

People need to think about what they lie about before they do it. Their shit didn’t add up and now their being eaten up. I knew that they had Aids a long time ago and was waiting until the day for it to really show. I look at Venus and Omar and gloat like crazy. That is what they get for being so jealous of me, a death sentence.

It’s just sad when people’s lives get ruined over shit that they know is not true.

Since most of the time lies spread faster than the truth it gets to them how those who fall for the lies believe in it, and it bothers them how people think of them. I can’t get into any of that shit because it is a waste of energy. It’s not real so why pay any attention to it.

The way i keep looking at it is that they are living in a land of make-believe and i am in reality and i got to keep moving on because i’m not a sick person.

Some probably are making up rumors about why i write blogs. Is that going to discourage me from blogging? No way! I write because i am a natural born writer. I was told that the gift i have would be used to help people even though i did not set out to do so. I just followed the calling. It’s a talent. I’m not trying and never have tried to prove anything to anyone.

I don’t beg people to read my blogs. If nobody likes what i have to say they don’t have to visit and read my writings. I didn’t even tell people that i had blogs they found out on their own. I am expressing myself and i’m going to keep doing it.

And this may sound crazy but if i never got any visitors i’d still post.That is one of the major reasons i don’t and will continue not to be bothered with too many people because they are so stupid and ignorant, jealous, and inferior and not worth my time and energy.

I’m much, much happier being by myself, doing what i like.

Even when i am on my job i keep mostly to myself. So everybody can go on an keep talking while i’ll still be way ahead because i’ve been gone!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/rumors/

Confidence

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 9:18 PM EDT

I’ve always believed in myself. I know that i am worth a million. Is there conceit in me? Hell yeah! I know that i’m great. Do i have an exaggerated view of myself? Hell no! I am just as i know myself to be if not more, it is a fact. Will i continue to ride up on my high horse? You damn right! And i am riding so high.

Sure, there are and will always be people behind the scenes who will try to pull me down. They won’t get the chance though! If i go down in my life it will be because of my own doing. I am the only one who is able to bring myself down.

No matter what i may have been through in life no one has ever been able to take away my confidence. If they had, i never would’ve kept going, knowing, and believing that i’d be the one to prevail because of the person that i was. I knew something had to give. Does that make sense?

When a person loses their confidence they lose who they are. It is not so much about their actions but what they feel inside. It’s not what you do it’s how you feel about yourself. Do you understand what i mean?

A lot of the time people tend to judge other people on what they see on the outside rather than considering how their minds may be thinking or working. Most people don’t know what is going on inside of another person’s head unless they tell them. So how someone acts or reacts doesn’t necessarily have to do with what that person feels.

For example, an individual can know how attractive they are and won’t enter into a beauty competition, not because they don’t think they can win but because they just may not want to. Maybe it’s not their thing. They know how good they look and are able to give competitors a run for their money. The event just may not spark up their interest.

There are going to be certain types of people and things throughout life that will indeed try to discourage you. They’ll do their best to make you doubt yourself when they really know that you do have the capabilities or attributes. Even if someone doesn’t believe in you, underestimates you, or disregards you don’t let it stop you from believing in yourself.

You see, no one can tell me who i am or who i am not because i know and it makes their judgement of no value to me. That is how secure i am with myself and because i know how narrow-minded a lot of people are.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/confidence/

Brainwashed

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:51 PM EDT

It’s a huge world out there. There are so many people who don’t know what they be talking about. Then, you have many who do know what they are talking about. There are so many cultures, lifestyles, beliefs, opinions and ways that people are raised.

When you come into your own is when you really discover what is important since it partly develops into what may define some of your character. Some need to evaluate many of the things that they value or consider a value to them. They need to know where their ideas originated from-whether they made the decision on their own or let someone else decide for them.

Do you live by or go along with something because that is truly the way you feel in your heart or because it is the way that most people do so you just accepted it as the way to go or as it is said “the way it is suppose to be?”

I myself actually have never allowed society or any individual to dictate how i should live my life no matter how negatively or positively they may have decided to view me. I cannot and will not let the opinions of others faze me while i continue to take my journey through this life. Nobody is going to determine how i should feel about things, what i believe in and don’t believe in, and what i should agree with and don’t agree with.

No one can tell me what i don’t want to hear because i am going to have the last word when it comes to my life since i am the one living it! Nobody knows me better than i know myself.

Now, there is absolutely nothing wrong with hearing another person out if you decide what they are saying is worth hearing. It makes no sense to be oblivious to the diversities in the world. However, you don’t have to listen to it. It’s just vital for you to be aware of it and that it is going on and going on with these people.There is plenty of shit going on in the world that is not too kosher as far as i am concerned and i refuse to let my mind be molded and corrupted with some of the things that this society considers appropriate and not appropriate.

Of course, i may not know everything but i know a hell of a lot and enough to know that the so-called generalized way of how our life “in order” should be lived is a big mess. Yes, it is indeed true that whatever life is to one is the way they should live it because nobody’s path is the same.

We all have our own minds and ways of behavior-thank goodness for that! What i am talking about is being consciously or subconsciously programmed by what is displayed by myths, stereotypes, the media and even small things in life that we are taught. I don’t accept something as a fact as to what is right or wrong simply because it is said that it is the way it’s suppose to be or because so many people feel and are in a particular mode. I am also a person and i do count and my ways and thoughts differ greatly than the majority.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/brainwashed/

My Confessions

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Everyone makes mistakes and indeed this was a big one! Everything in my post is the truth except for what I mentioned about God.

I wrote this post about fives years ago and now I can come out with the total truth that I could not say at the time. I don’t really feel that I did anything wrong. I don’t really believe that the only true protection comes from The God Of The Bible.

My actions did not cause me to be open for any attack because I don’t believe in or follow that God of the bible’s sick “will” especially that garbage about a man and a woman becoming one flesh. I will always be whole and complete and no one flesh with nobody.

I truly feel that God was responsible for allowing those sick witchcraft experiences because I never cared for him and belonged to him, and I thank my lucky stars because I don’t ever want to be one of his children.

I have true supervision and protection from my Ancestors and Orishas like I had all through out my life I just had to get reconnected and reacquainted since I was attacked by witchcraft at such an early age ( ever since I was seven ).

Even though I didn’t truly from my heart mean what I said in this post regarding “God” I really regret having done so because I would never intentionally want to give him any type of glory or justification whatsoever!

And I know damn well that my beautiful soul will never enter a place of hell even if I ever did get an abortion. “I’ve seen where i’m going”, God Of The Bible has no claims over me. He does not apply to me or my life. And I am so glad that I am at a place in my life where I can acknowledge it and back it up fiercely. And I don’t give a damn what anyone who is blinded by him has to say about it!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:17 PM EDT

I don’t know why I’m calling this post my confessions. I’ve never had anything to hide. What i really mean by confessing is just acknowledging more in depth how i feel about particular things regarding myself.

I am a female. A woman. And I’m very glad to be. I am strong-minded, strong-willed, determined, stubborn, confident, opinionated, outspoken and a few other things. When i was a little girl i loved to have fun just like most children and i was very creative.

A lot of children have an idea of what they want to be when they become an adult. I knew by the age of ten that i would write and that is the age that i began writing the short stories that i use to. I also knew that when i grew up that i never wanted to marry. I am thirty-one years old now and have never had a boyfriend.

So i really did know what i did and did not want early on. I also knew that one day when i was ready i would want to have two children, preferably two female children. Two daughters. My two little girls. The only problem was how would i get them? I didn’t want no man on top of me.

I thought going to a sperm bank would cost too much money for me at the time since there was no guarantee that conception would occur during the first insemination. I’ve heard of women spending up to six thousands of dollars after numerous tries before actual conception occurred through being artificially inseminated by a doctor.

So if i really wanted to have a child I’d have to do what i had to do and that would mean lying down with a man that i didn’t want. It wouldn’t have been a problem. A whole lot of men were interested in me during my younger years. They just didn’t understand why i didn’t want to be bothered since most young women are man-crazy and are heavily into a man.

I was just the opposite. A few of the reasons i paid my admirers no attention was because the majority of them were nothing, nobodies. They were in my opinion unattractive and definitely undesirable as far as their physical appearance and level of mentality. What turned me off the most, though, is them approaching me like automatically without them even knowing me, that i was suppose to have an inclination for males.

They made a general assumption about me that was definitely not true. I am Asexual and very proud of it. I’ve never ever had any emotional or physical desire for a man. When guys had crushes on me and expressed their feelings in their own ways it disgusted me where others would think that it was cute or normal. And i am very sure most consider having a crush on someone then acting on it normal.

I felt if a guy was attracted to me and wanted to be with me he should have kept it to himself because he didn’t stand a chance with me. Then i began to think about it a little bit, and thought about using a man’s feelings for me to my advantage. You know when someone is into you and you are not into them then you have the upper hand.

Some of the guys who were interested in me had heard that i was a virgin and probably thought ( in their mind if they were to ever get the chance) by having sex with me they could turn me out or that i would change and become attached to them and fall all over them then a man would have some significance to me. Boy did they have me figured out wrong! Some of those male egos and ignorance’s need to go! There is a whole lot that some men really need to learn.

Yes, i was a virgin as far as never ever having intercourse with a man. A male penis had never penetrated my vagina but i had already experienced sexual pleasure without the aid of a man.

You see, i had discovered my clitoris years beforehand. It is a very sensitive area connected to nerves inside the body that with the educated touch of a finger ( i learned naturally on my own ) there are very nice sensations and climaxes to experience. There is absolutely nothing wrong with self experimentation, getting to know and love your own self sexually before letting someone else take control. But when a man is inside of you he is not the one really in control of giving you your pleasure.

It is all up to you and your mind whether or not your body will allow his penis to ignite those sensations. You have to already have an attraction or desire for a man in order to feel any pleasure from him. This particular subject is not embarrassing and it should not be. It is important.

When i was a little girl i curiously took a mirror to see what my vagina looked like. What’s wrong with that? Nothing! None of these things mean that you are being a bad girl or fresh. It is being smart and knowledgeable.

During the very first and only time period i tried to get pregnant by attempting sexual intercourse i felt absolutely nothing, no kind of sensation or pleasure whatsoever from the penis i endured because i had no desire and emotion to be with any male. On the other hand though, i could go and stimulate my clitoris on my own while i was alone and feel all the pleasure in the world because my mind was happily accepting that i was the one who was causing sensations received by myself.

My mind and body was and is not receptive to the thought of being touched by a man since nothing about a man arouses me. My body doesn’t want something pounding inside and out, that is just plain stupid! During clitoral stimulation, there is no penetration. Only i can arouse myself as i am in love with myself. And i haven’t ever been with any other man since. That was years ago. And for the future there won’t be another one.

My vagina is strictly off limits as it has always been. There is no man anywhere around me or in my neighborhood who can honestly say that they had me or will have me because now i have the money to go to a sperm bank if i really want to.

Even if i didn’t have the money i still would not resort to lying down with a man because that is not who i am and because to me it is so unnatural. My clitoris is natural. I was born with it. I know how to take care of myself. If i want a vaginal massage, i prefer myself.

When and if i eventually do get pregnant, like i mentioned before I’d prefer to have girls. My girls because i know they’d be very similar to me i have very strong genes. If i unfortunately get pregnant with a boy I’d be very pissed off and disappointed then I’d go seek an abortion. You see, there is no way in the world that i would want or have anything male growing up inside of me.

I know the way that i feel goes against God’s will just as fornication. God would prefer that i get married then have children and accept the children no matter what the sex is especially since I’m so spiritually blessed the way that i am.

However, i have my own will. And it goes against God’s. Now i live a very clean life as it is. I never went astray. I fornicated on only one occasion and that was done purely to make a baby and not out of any type of lust but i think the act itself left me open and vulnerable to the attack of evil spirits when my enemies worked their witchcraft.

Protection comes with God’s Holy Spirit and his spirit is not to be defiled by any spiritual uncleanliness. Now while witchcraft was unable to affect my strength, mind, actions and emotions it was able to affect my progress in life by interfering with my destiny.

So it wasn’t so much about my enemies having the ability to attack me it was that at the hands of my own actions i gave them the opportunity by disobeying God and defiling his Holy Spirit. If i had been married the act would’ve been clean.

Nevertheless, you know what? I still say even though i am spiritually restored now i don’t think that was fair. And life is not fair. I am a very good person and i don’t deny the power and works of the Lord but my heart is hardened against the way God set certain things.

The only real big sin that i was and am guilty of is rebellion. I still refuse to want to do it the Lord’s way by getting married to have a child and I’d still get an abortion or want to if i ever get pregnant with a male child. If i did get married I’d just be using the man for what i want. It just wouldn’t work out.

I lose patience in just two weeks of being around a man. And like i said before I’d never have any sexual dealings with a man as long as i live so if i lose God’s partial protection again by trying to conceive a child out of wedlock through going to a sperm bank and getting rid of a fetus because it turns out to be a boy then the Lord is just not right. My feelings will never change even if i risk spending an eternity burning in hell for it.

The All Seeing Truth Not Blinded By The Lies

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-confessions/

Garbage

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Thursday, September 28, 2006 at 1:49 PM EDT

No doubt, i was born a person of substance and there is no way in the world that i will ever have any regard or respect for those who are worthless. And i’m talking about the trash, of course. I’m tired of living around them, i’m tired of working around them.

I detected what they were from a very young age and ever since then i’ve always had a deep hatred for them.

I resent God for giving them life and if he had any sense he’d correct his mistake by opening up the grounds around them to let them all be swallowed up to their magnificent death.

There is a definite pattern when it comes to their physical appearance, attitude, and behavior. And no matter how much they dress up or what position they may hold at work it is still obvious to tell just how much they aren’t shit.

It is no secret how i feel about them knuckleheads. They are incompetent, sick-minded, and ignorant. And they really kill me how they think if they talk about you severely it’s suppose to mean something and be effective.

I’m a person of substance. Those people don’t count to me.What they say doesn’t mean shit to me!

They can go around talking and trying to turn as many against me as they want and i’ll say “more power to you” because anybody who listens to people like that are just as fucked up as they are and are doing me a favor by keeping their distance. I don’t want no type of trash in my life and in my world!

I should keep my mouth shut but i am going to write this because it is the truth about how i feel and because i don’t care. I came close to killing a mother fucker years ago. One of those nothings. I tried to smother the mother fucker and it felt so good. The only thing is it happened to be a guy who was built a little stronger than me.

See, i’m little in size but i do have a good amount of physical strength and the position where i had him in was perfect. I had a good grip on him. But he struggled until he broke free and he was scared because even though he may have been able to over power me physically i absolutely had and showed no fear.

I was serious, pissed off ,and burning with a passion to get rid of his ass.

I’m in no way joking or trying to be big and bad i am very serious when it comes to my dislike for those types of people. I was born under the sign Taurus and we are very strong people who have violent tempers when we are provoked enough.

I don’t get into the business of others because it never concerns me. When i’m at my job i do my work. I live my life the way i want to and nothing is going to change me. I have my own views, beliefs, and directions about life and my powers are leading me securely.

I don’t care who may think that i’m stupid or a psychopath. I am very special and very wise.

And i am here in this crazy world for a very strong purpose even though i don’t want to be considering the way that it is. I feel i belong in a much better place, nevertheless, i can be here and am here without actually being a part of this because i’m definitely no part of this world.

No matter how i feel i know i have a very long life to live here on earth to experience more of the things that i deserve and am entitled to. And my one an only problem is not life itself, but what is a lot of other peoples problem also, and that is “garbage”.

Yes, they definitely need to go. They all need to be destroyed.

I’m so in tune that my spirit rejects their presence when they’re around me. It lets me know the depth of what they are and how they need to be on a planet of their very own if they really have to exist at all.

They don’t know how to mind their own business, they are big liars, they’re envious and jealous of everybody, they’re petty, they are trouble, and they make me sick.

I really enjoy it when them types are out of view, their auras are dark. Most of them are the devil’s children (demonic) and they need to go straight to hell.

The garbage keep on multiplying and infesting the world with their children and they keep fucking up the world even though it’s already fucked up.

I’d never give birth to one of those things. I’d be very, very particular who’s sperm to get pregnant by.

No matter what goes on or how many fall under i will always be one to be counted on when it comes to cleaning up, getting rid of, and preventing as much of the stinking “garbage” from the further contamination of the world.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/garbage/

I’m Steps Ahead

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Thursday, September 21, 2006 at 9:15 AM EDT

As some may know at birth i was born with a double veil which means that i have very strong spiritual abilities. Aside from already being intelligent the reason i have so much knowledge is because i am a very accurate clairvoyant.

This is the month of September, there is only about three and a half more months left before a new year comes in and still my enemies won’t stop endeavoring to destroy me. I’m so tired of having to mention them but they just won’t leave me alone.

I don’t write about each an everything they do and have done but i write about a great deal of their actions because they definitely need to be exposed and because i’m not afraid to and will continue to speak on the things going on in the world that aren’t right.

While there are some in the world aware of my enemies wrongdoings due to their own experiences or through the experiences of others or through things that get wind there are still a great deal who aren’t aware and Divine Spirit may be using me to get the word out to deserving people who are in the dark.

I know i am not the only one who these type of sick people are doing this to it just so happens that i’m a spiritually gifted person who is well aware an in tune with what is going on around me. And i also have a significant source of protection in my favor that my enemies don’t seem and choose to accept.

Obviously they have greatly underestimated my strength, knowledge, power, and purpose. I am set way apart from them and this world-if not they would have been had me by now. They’ll never get me. No one can stop what my higher power almighty “Orisha” puts out!

I am a person who is pure in heart and in mind.

I don’t, and never have smoked, indulged in drugs or alcohol, and i don’t have sexual relations with anyone and that is my business. It is who i am what keeps me strong and standing. My physical self as well as spiritual-but more so my spiritual self because my spirit has got me the way that i am.

I’m truly a good person. This is all a part of my character. I live a clean life which causes no strains in my life because i am naturally this way. In the same it is in a way making me a target.

The way that i am may be foreign to a lot of people but i feel the same way about them. Their way of life is foreign to me and i may think of some of their lifestyles as crazy nevertheless i don’t care.

To me, smoking is stupid, alcohol unnecessary, and men the easiest thing to stay away from.

Now, i don’t knock anybody for what they do because i don’t do it, it’s just i don’t stand for any belittlement for the way how i live my life especially since i’m very proud of the person i was born to be.

This past Sunday and Monday things got a little heated “as far as my enemies are concerned”.

They started their usual crap when they “think” they’re “doing something”. I guess they spent a lot of time indulging in their chanting and candle burning to try to have an affect on my emotions that never really works on me anyway. So when they see me they proceed with talk that is suppose to make me paranoid, nervous, or feel down.

You see, i’ve always known these things because i’m fed knowledge through spirits and intelligence.

Within those two days, as soon as i came into their view, they began referring to me in a sexual nature. In other words insinuating that i’m a wild sex-crazed person who sleeps around all of the time.

As smart as i am i don’t understand why they stay on this particular subject when it comes to them using witchcraft to try to bring me down. With all of the other lies that they can use to say at me they stay on this whore tip. They don’t make any utterances about me being a crackhead, lesbian, or thief. It’s always mostly about me being the big whore that they absolutely wish i was. And it’s so interesting since i know i have never actually done any of the things they are describing yet they feel it should bother me.

So on Monday night when a small crowd finished uttering things about me which never existed i overheard one say to another “It’s not working”.

And, the other responded “It’s okay” or “Don’t worry about it” something to that nature.

They gave themselves away!

Why should it work on me? What they are doing is crazy. They even got certain people on my job going along with it by acting stupid. How can i get paranoid or feel down about things that don’t have anything to do with me? Shit they all created?

Like i mentioned before they have greatly underestimated me.

I know they want me to have a mental and emotional breakdown but i never have, i’m far from it, and so on to them. I wonder how many people they’ve succeeded with who didn’t know any better. It is such a shame. I hope more an more people catch on to these type of sick peoples games because for so many years they have been destroying the lives of so many good people who may have thought that they were crazy due to the subtlety of this matter.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/im-steps-ahead/

Hatred

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 12:58 AM EDT

I’ve heard some people say that it isn’t good or healthy for one to go around carrying hate in their heart. And that it’s a waste of time to hate when it comes to feeling that particular way towards another person because they may not know how you feel about them.

I say that may be true for some but not for all.

I have hatred for certain people in the world and it’s not the hate itself that is the problem it is not being able to do anything with the hatred. Nasty things that we may want to do to people may get us in serious trouble and things that we may want to happen to them sometimes don’t.

And those who may hate us also often feel the same way. So to me it’s not the hatred that is agitating it is when you’re not able to put your hatred into action.

Everyone is an individual so people have their own minds.

I personally don’t focus on the people i hate every day. It’s sometimes when one of them or their kind fucks with me or someone who shares my opinions that makes me think of what needs to be done to them. Otherwise i’m fine.

Hatred does not interfere in my happiness because it’s a come and go thing.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/hatred/

Set Ups

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 12:06 AM EDT

When i first started working at my job my enemies who i don’t even know personally tried to discourage me by attempting to intimidate me in their own ignorant ways. All their efforts were definitely in vain because nobody has ever been able to scare me or to stop me from doing what i have or wanted to accomplish.

It is a shame how far people will go when they want to destroy another person’s life due to the fact that they don’t have a life of their own that is worth anything.

Most of my days here on earth people have been interfering with my progress through the works of witchcraft and my great-grandmother Amanda Byars was one of the ringleaders.

The witchcraft never gave my enemies the results they were looking for as far as controlling me and my mind because i was too strong and good of a person so my Ancestors and Orishas protected me in that aspect. But it worked as a blockage in certain areas of my life by preventing a lot of wonderful things that were suppose to come my way.

I was born to have strong success through my intelligence and talents which my destiny has bestowed on me. I was supposed to have a totally different life than what i have now. I should be on a much higher level when it comes to “setting”. I put all my enemies witchcraft to an end! It’s been put to an end for a while now. I’m not going to tell how i did it but their shit is finally over. They can keep trying out of their ignorance and denial but like i said they’re doomed. Just take my word for it! I have a new beginning now with no more interference.

I’m doing everything that my enemies never wanted to see. I never had a breakdown or a major downfall. I’ve managed to maintain myself all of these years with a healthy growth and more knowledge that they’ll never recognize in me or be able to acquire for themselves. And just to think, that they actually thought they could stop me. They were too stupid to realize that their kind aren’t anything to me or compared to me.

And i don’t give a darn what they feel about me.

They ain’t shit to be scared or worried about. I can see right through them. But they believed that because there was so many of them against me they would overcome me. To me, it’s not the quantity but the quality of something. There can be just one person who is of substance with true backbone who is able to conquer such as myself while there are millions who are garbage that will fall as they did.

I’m working at a J.C. Penny’s department store located inside a mall. It’s no big deal to me but the money is good for me while i build back up my writing career that was put to a halt when the witchcraft my enemies had worked on me backfired then affected the success i was suppose to been have achieved.

I intend to work there at the store until my career takes off.

And, my enemies had the nerve to try to stop this little job that i have. They sent this woman there who tried to pick an argument with me which i didn’t feed into. So she went and found a manager who happened to be the same male manager that i mentioned in my “Love Spell” post on this blog and i found that quite “fishy”.

Out of all the managers who work there. Approximately three hundred people work at my J.C. Penny’s department store and she just so happens to run into that asshole.

The woman told lies on me to get me fired but it didn’t turn out the way she and the others who were in on this set up planned.

Managers there didn’t believe her story and she was stupid because cameras are hooked up all over the place and there are plenty of co-workers around who listen and see things that go on. Their dirt and lies aren’t going far as the way that it use to when they had binding spells and spells to destroy me in action.

Things are reversed now and are still reversing. They have a lifetime of their own dirt to reap.

I can just imagine how many good people these low-lifes destroyed and tried to destroy, it is so sickening to me. But i’m a fighter and a conqueror by nature. I am one who will always take a chunk out of them in a battle of good vs bad.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/set-ups/

Love Spells

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Friday, July 28, 2006 at 12:57 AM EDT

As my faithful readers who believe in me may already know i’m not and have never been interested in men. Nevertheless, there have always been men who were interested in me whether their motives were negative or positive and it didn’t matter to me at all since i’d never had any sexual or emotional feelings or desires for a man.

Well, on my job this Caucasian guy took an interest in me not too long ago and i definitely did not want to be bothered with him (in my opinion, interracial dating or relations is great for those who are interested, If I ever got the chance to go to a sperm bank I’d definitely purchase the sperm of a white person).

My second day at work two months ago he’d just become manager over me and it wasn’t so long after that i noticed that he was attracted to me. And right around that same particular time during my first week i lost a set of keys to my locker. From then on my new manager was overly attentive to me in two ways that i immediately caught on to. He’d compliment me on my work as did many of the other managers did and there was absolutely nothing wrong with that.

However, giving me praise was just an excuse to lean his way on over to chat with me. I never really gave him too much conversation i kept my words strictly business.

He usually talks and jokes around with other co-workers also just like a lot of outgoing people do. With me though, he had a purpose, an ulterior motive which didn’t take me long to figure out completely.

Three days after i lost my keys thoughts of him invaded my mind and i instantly knew that he was attempting to set me up for a downfall. I am very spiritually inclined due to the unique gift i have so my warning took me steps ahead of him.

No, he didn’t know me well enough or at all to have a fair initiative to want to harm me though i was quite sure he knew people who know of me who’d just love to stir up some stupid shit. They’ve already spread billions of lies about me in the past that have greatly failed to discourage me so why not try to do me in some more until they get it right!

Anyway, to make a short story even shorter.

My manager’s plans didn’t work by trying to make me attracted then drawing me nearer to him by the use of evil witchcraft so now he’s mad and extremely embarrassed because i know about it. Believe it or not witchcraft is being practiced more so now than ever, it is a way of life for many but i’m not going to get into that particular subject right now.

I will mention this though, if i were into men he still would have never stood a chance with me since i smelled his nasty stinking ass.

And, the summer hadn’t even came yet. It was the spring and he stunk real bad. I smelled my manager on three occasions. I don’t know if he’d slept with a woman then hadn’t washed for a couple of days but whatever the situation was the odor was terrible.

Currently, i ignore this asshole as he has tried to pettily annoy me in indirect ways. He’s jealous of me because he was at the job longer and i got a promotion real quick. He’s the type to think that all young black women are loose and stupid. It eats him up inside to see one that has it all together and who could go real far in life. That is totally all his problem! I don’t speak to him, i keep my distance. I never bothered him anyway. He was always approaching me.

This past Monday he brought some girl (a black female) where we work holding her hand to try to take the slack off of him but i know that game and he saw it didn’t work with me.

He is as guilty as sin and got caught red handed so there is no need to try to cover it up with me to ease up his embarrassment. He’s a nothing, a nobody. He can try to start and talk as much shit as he wants to but he better wake up because i am definitely not a woman that he should fuck with! And he needs to realize this before he regrets it!

Thank goodness he’s not my manager any more. Since i got promoted i have a female manager over me.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/love-spells/

My Job

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006 at 2:47 PM EDT

I’ve been very busy lately as i work evenings and weekends. I don’t have the time to write like i use to but when i do get the chance i write as often as i can. I’ll never give up my first love!

Today is one of my off days and i usually spend my Tuesdays and Wednesdays chillin’ out.

I have been working hard at my new job for exactly one whole month now and my good efforts have definitely paid off for me.

The people over me at my place of work give me nothing but praise and compliments regarding the work that i do and already after the first two weeks of my employment i got a promotion. Wasn’t that very quick?! It usually takes months for people to receive a promotion after just being hired.

Luckily i was recognized early on and got moved a step up.

I like what i do. I love the money that i make, i earn a really good salary. I love the hours i have. I like the hour long bus ride i take just to get to work, and i love the area and environment where my job is located at. I got it goin’ on!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-job/

Body Image

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Friday, May 12, 2006 at 10:07 AM EDT

I’m not self-conscious about anything when it comes to me. I really appreciate the things that i am blessed with. I like the way i look, i like how i talk, i like the way i think, i like the way i walk. and i like how i act. Everything about me is real, natural, and extraordinary!

I have a very slim figure. I love the shape and size of my body, and if nobody else does that is their problem. What does anyone else’s opinion have to do with me?

I listen to some people and how they are so obsessed with their appearance due to what they feel are society’s standards of how one should be displayed.

And, some people starve themselves to be thin by eating then intentionally vomiting up their food or by just not eating at all. Anorexia and Bulimia are quite ridiculous.

I use to be much heavier when i was in my early teens.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with being solid or chubby if you are healthy. The reason i felt i had to get rid of the weight that i had is because my thighs started rubbing together and i’d run out of breath easily. But i don’t cut off my food supply to look a certain way. My metabolism has changed since then so i can eat whatever i want and don’t gain anything.

I do a lot of walking and my energy burns fat off.

But for those who’s food does stick to them rather quickly, so what? Who has the right to say extra meat on one’s bones is not attractive? I’d never compromise myself to be so-called “beautified” to anyone’s bullshit standards. As a black person i may be considered too skinny to some. A lot of black women’s trademarks are having huge behinds, thick thighs, and big hips. I’ve been there, it doesn’t mean a thing to me! I’m little now. I’ve had a little body for a long time now and i love it!

We have to be happy with ourselves and make ourselves happy.

No one can ever make me feel bad about myself because i love myself way too much. If someone doesn’t approve of the way you appear maybe they’re not good enough to be around you, and that goes for anyone- an associate, boyfriend, relative and whoever else!

When i style my hair i do it for me and not to impress people that i come into contact with on the outside. I’ll do my hair when i don’t go out! When i wear my clothes it’s to look good and decent for myself because i may like “my own shit”.

And when others do appreciate or compliment anything about you it can be cool but it shouldn’t be the most important because when you completely and genuinely are secure and approve of yourself anything that anyone feels about you-nice or nasty-won’t be of any deep “fazing”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/body-image/

Skeletons In The Closet

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Friday, April 07, 2006 at 5:20 PM EDT

I’ve heard some people say that everybody has skeletons in their closet, shameful things they regret and want to keep as a secret. Yes, everybody makes mistakes and may have regrets, nevertheless, everything is not a “Skeleton In The Cupboard”.

Some people just don’t want to be alone in the things that they do, and have done. So it’s more comforting for them to believe everybody has something dirty on their slate. I’ve also heard people say that some need to stop thinking they’re better than other people because everybody has problems. Yeah, a lot do have problems but why should that count as to whether or not they feel more superior if they want to? Sometimes it is people who give other people their problems. They don’t always make problems on their own.

I have never cared what anyone did in their life as long as they stayed out of my business but sometimes there are those who get so insecure about certain things that they wish they could take back, and try to poke a finger at someone else to make them not feel they’re as high as they think they are.

Some people have tried that shit with me, insinuating that because i didn’t work for anyone for a long period of time (before i became an adult and in my early twenties) that i never tried to do anything for myself or took care of my self financially. Those rumors came from my jealous and crazy great-grandmother who couldn’t do nothing in her life but iron clothes. How much effort does it take to get wrinkles out? There’s no brain work in it.

I didn’t pay it no attention, it’s was all bullshit! I had my own money before i started publishing books, buying my own and paying my way. I just don’t like authority so i prefer to work on my own.

A lot of people have their own hang-ups. And they have to deal with their own unresolved issues without using others as a scapegoat. Some think if one was put into their particular predicament of things that they would do or make the same choices they did.

I know one thing, and i can speak beforehand. I don’t care what hardships life may hand over there are certain things i know i’ll refuse to bring myself to do-even if my life depended on it! I’ll never sell my ass, i’ll never use drugs, and i’ll never commit a murder for anyone.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/skeletons-in-the-closet/

Gossip & People In The Street

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Friday, April 07, 2006 at 4:31 PM EDT

Ignorance is everywhere. In all walks of life there will always be people who read things wrong and spread rumors. One doesn’t have to be a street person to not have accurate knowledge of things or to place high value on the relevance of what people think when it comes to gossip.

I’ve been around street people all of my life and as far as i am concerned they are the most stupidest kind that i have ever come across. Gossip is the only real weapon they have against people who are deeply bothered by being talked about-aside from their practice of working witchcraft.

Of course, all people who constantly hang out in the street are not into or even believe in voodoo, but for those who do it is a major weapon of theirs. A lot of street people are down on their luck and are very envious of those who have it better. Then you have some who may have a little something and still don’t measure up. They talk about everybody-whether they’re in a higher category or a lower one. If you’re in a higher category, though, and you know it and show it, they’ll work their best to try to bring you down lower than where they’re at.

And i know this from my own experiences. Most of the time i am very aware when rumors are being or have been spread about me. The trash have a pattern of making things known to you by verbalizing what they think they know about you. Nevertheless, i am aware of most things because i’m very spiritually inclined to my surroundings.

One summer i was walking down the street of my block when a kid half my age uttered to his playmate “Everybody knows about her and Omar”, a jealous street guy in his fifties who went around our neighborhood spreading sexual lies because he couldn’t get over on me.

“Everybody knows what?” i say, and that is exactly my point! It wasn’t what they knew. It’s what they thought they knew because a lie is the truth to street-trash. And, street people keep their lies up for years. They play on the minds of other street people and people alike because through their prior experience they know what some people will fall for due to the level they are on and the way they think.

For some reason trash feel they have the right to speak at you about the things they may have heard, believing it will do some major damage to someone emotionally. The men especially think that they have control when another man is the source of nasty gossip concerning a woman. Not so long ago males i didn’t know would call me “bitch” or “slut” because in their ignorant mind it was suppose to hurt me and if i acted as their words didn’t bother me they’d prefer to believe that i was just putting up a front. But, i was being my actual self. Their words went through one ear and out the other they did not faze me, what a man says or does has no bearing on me. I just don’t understand why as a woman in this society i’m suppose to be the weaker sex when i’m far from it.

Omar, the man who was taken advantage of and who was jealous of me thought if people believed his lies about me then treated me unkindly that it would affect me. However, it did not and i’ve never been the type to care and worry over what others thought of me. If people believe him and act on it that is purely their stupidity, and it definitely will not stop me from doing anything in my life.

Omar couldn’t handle the fact that i was younger and smarter than him. He made an ass out of himself for chasing after me in the first place, he found out the hard way that i wasn’t the average young girl walking around not knowing too much about life. I do know a lot for my age so he fucked with the wrong one! And i know it! He can tell all the lies in the world he just showed me how deeply his pride got hurt. Everyone isn’t as strong and fortunate as me when it comes to people lashing out at them.

I’ve always been a loner so i can survive without the approval of others.

Some people think that i run my mouth too much, but guess what? I’m going to keep running my mouth. Some think that i’m stupid or headed for trouble because of the way i am, but guess what? I’m going to keep being me.

Some even believe i’m crazy and incapable of doing anything other than my passion for writing, but guess what? I’m exceptionally sane, multi-talented, highly intelligent, and the world will hear of me one day even though i’m not interested in having fame-then all of my haters will have to hate me even more!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/gossip-people-in-the-street/

Anger

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Friday, March 24, 2006 at 8:34 PM EST

Anger is a normal emotion. It’s okay to get angry. The important thing is what you do with your anger, how you handle it.

It takes a lot to get me significantly angry. And when i get mad sometimes the outcome is not good because i have a ferocious temper.

I have gotten revenge on people who have done me wrong and in my eyes i was justified in doing so. Sometimes though, you have to think before giving in to actions initiated by anger. Some matters that lead to trouble are easy to get in then hard to get out of.

So far, i haven’t experienced any serious consequences due to retaliating out of my anger, nevertheless, there is a first time for everything and some things aren’t worth the effort.

People often get back what they deserve so priceless time doesn’t have to be wasted when life will naturally make them reap whatever they may have sowed, and you can move on satisfied without having had to lift a finger.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/anger/

Hurt/Embarrassment

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Friday, March 24, 2006 at 8:08 PM EST

Everybody gets hurt in one way or another in their lives whether it is physical or emotional. What i had to learn growing up is that some people get their feelings hurt by certain things that are said to them. I’ve also learned that some people will say or do things to hurt others with the same particular things that would hurt them.

Believe it or not, there have been people who have lashed out on me about things they automatically assumed would be hurtful but their words and actions didn’t affect me. And they either considered me to be crazy or just a very strong person. The way i see it is that it may have to do with the level some people are on. If you think and feel a certain way about certain things in life and are knowledgeable regarding them, what some consider to be hurtful won’t necessarily have any bearing.

People have told me that i hurt their feelings and i wasn’t even aware of it because i didn’t find what i said or done to be anything harmful. I didn’t intentionally set out to hurt them and it taught me how there are things which seem little to me that mean a whole lot to someone else.

I got hit by a car when i was ten years old. The moment it happened i was taken off guard. Instantly, right after i got hit i flew up into the air and luckily landed on my behind without any broken bones. I did feel soreness days later. I learned as i grew older that a lot of people consider an incident like that one to be an embarrassing situation, especially since i was able to get up and run afterwards. But what i really had felt was startled. I was in shock. I didn’t feel any shame or awkwardness because people witnessed the scene. If anything, it scared me because i didn’t realize what was going on until i flew up into the air, heard a woman scream, then hit the ground.

I am aware that people don’t want to be seen, or deny the way something happened and affected them, when they are embarrassed. In spite of that, everybody’s actions aren’t the result of generalized perceptions held by most. People often get embarrassed due to how they feel others will view them and their situation.

What embarrasses a lot of people doesn’t embarrass me, half the time i don’t even know why they give people the power to make them feel self-conscious about certain things that are inevitable.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/hurtembarrassment/

Jealousy In The Family

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006 at 1:12 PM EST

Most jealousy starts at home within the family. And this has been going on since the beginning of time, just like with the story of Cain and Abel. I had the potential and “energy” to make a lot of money from the books that i wrote and most of my big bucks never reached me (a spiritual freeze) because of my two most envious relatives. They never wanted me to have anything.

My great-grandmother Amanda and aunt Tina are two of the dirtiest dogs walking the face of the earth. I call them dogs because they’re not worthy of the title “women”. They’ve tried to have me raped and killed but those things didn’t go through, i was able to avoid those situations.

Amanda and Tina used outsiders to aide them in going against me to try to ruin my life. They lied to some people to get them to go along with doing their dirt. And those particular people fell for the lies because some wouldn’t think that a grandmother would go around lying on their grandchildren to destroy them, and since she was old they probably figured that she knew what she was talking about.

Some people are blinded by age. Others went along with them because they were in the same category as Amanda and Tina, low-down and no good.

Amanda and Tina are both dykes. Well, they’re really bisexual ’cause they mess with men too. They have a lot in common. They were beat up and dogged by men before and mistreated by some who were supposed to be their friends, and they are so sick that they both practice evil voodoo. I’ve never let no man or anybody use and abuse me, people can only do that if you allow them to.

Amanda is jealous of other’s within our family also, not just me, and they know about it because we’ve discussed it. She’s talked about all of us like a dog to one another. But we know she’s just mad that our lives turned out better than her’s. Some man that Amanda use to go with had sex with her when she was young and busted her vagina wide open because his penis was too big and she had to get stitched up. I guess that is enough to make anybody mad but it’s not our fault that she was stupid enough to let some man bang her up so badly. What goes around comes back around and every evil thing that Amanda and Tina did to me and my other family members has caught up with them.

They are both dying from AIDS, a disease that the doctor’s can’t cure. My uncle got his too he died from the disease two years ago. I’ve watched them waste away. The two of them are both miserable and are taking their sins slowly but surely to their grave while we-my other family members and i-still have plenty more life to live harmoniously and without regret. And the sad thing about it is that even though Amanda and Tina have a little bit of time left they are still using it to do more dirt. But the good thing is that they can’t touch us anymore. They never really had total power over us, it’s just that their ability to work evil has finally come to an end.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/jealousy-in-the-family/

Happiness

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Saturday, February 04, 2006 at 11:13 AM EST

I find joy in having a peace of mind. I find joy in the strength that my ancestors gave me.

I found joy during bad times because when darkness was around me my light still shined, leading me straight to the path of my success.

True joy comes from the Orishas.

And the joy that i have the world didn’t give it to me, and the world can’t take it away.

 

 

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It is nice to know that somewhere along the road of discovering ourselves, whether struggles or lessons, We come across realizing that we meet half conciousness of the society we belong too. Keep track knowing God deeply, cause i am sure innate happiness is so intimate that nobody could ever take it away from you. The feeling of security comes with solitude cause God is with you.Godbless. :)

Posted by Life_Quest on Monday, April 17, 2006 10:15 AM EDT

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Class Versus Trash

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Friday, February 03, 2006 at 2:37 PM EST

There are all types of people all over the world but is anybody really better than anyone else? My answer is yes. I am sure there are people who would disagree, however, it is a fact.

Everybody is not equal. Everybody doesn’t fit into the same category. There are people who are knuckleheads, they were born to be nothing. And i know because i grew up with and around people like that.

Some of these particular people are in denial they don’t want to accept that they are about nothing. And there are different levels of trash. They try to be more than what they are ( and berate those who actually are the better ones), especially if they have money but money doesn’t make a person. Fancy clothes and a fancy car doesn’t make one anything either. Neither does the color of their skin. It takes character to be somebody.

Knuckleheads are all not necessarily people who hang out on street corners bumming and idling. Some of them have homes and jobs. A lot of them are extremely ignorant yet they think that they’re experts on life. Most of them aren’t capable of doing too many things right because they are worthless. They resort to drugs and alcohol because they can’t cope with their lives and they try to take people who or better down with them if they can.

These knuckleheads love to prey on peoples minds, hoping they are able to mess up a few because somebody was able to mess up their’s. They play so many stupid games and believe nobody can see through it. And when they do get caught they pretend they don’t know what you’re talking about. They are so transparent.They think on a very low level. They can’t function around people with class. They don’t know anything about substance.

All the trash know about is robbing, killing, raping, selling drugs, whoring around, spreading diseases, and lies. And they contaminate the world with their presence. They shouldn’t have life. They are just taking up space. Knuckleheads don’t respond very well to logic, it doesn’t register to them. They’re not intelligent. You have to go down to their stupid level for them to understand what you are explaining.

I’ve always hated the low-life trashy scum of the world, ever since i was a little girl. I loathe them. I can’t express how much i detest them. I can spot their kind a mile away. Most of them have a look. It’s in their mannerism. It’s in their body features and it’s in the way they talk.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/class-versus-trash/

Wisdom

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 at 3:08 PM EST

Does wisdom really come with age? For some it may, but definitely not for all and i know this from my own experience. Every old person is not wise and every young person is not dumb. I’m not all that young and i’m definitely not old and i have a hell of a lot on the cap! And i’ve seen in life quite a few brilliant young people and a lot of stupid older people.

Don’t get me wrong, i like and respect wise old people who are open-minded and who know what they are talking about but nothing is worse than a ignorant person who won’t listen to reason. When i was a little girl growing up there were people older than me that i hated because they would underestimate me and accuse me of being a way that i wasn’t.

However, there were smarter adults who liked me and could see that i was a very smart and good child who had to grow up around a lot of no good people. And my great-grandmother was one devilish person that i had to grow up around, always interfering in my mother’s life trying to destroy us.

The old bat is still alive. She’s about ninety or ninety-one now. When my “greasy great-granny” was in her early eighties she was still having sexual intercourse, and with a married man. She even let this man take pictures of her as she wore a light-blue see-through negligee. I saw the pictures a while back in the mid-nineties, she was sitting on her couch with her large droopy tits sagging upon her belly rolls that slapped over one another.

My great-grandmother is definitely not a good example of a wise older person, in fact, she’s a dumb old broad. And i’m not going to go any further in explaining by airing dirty laundry it’s not necessary. My point is, one is never too old to learn something in life and a lot of older people may be surprised to find out just how much knowledge someone younger has stored up inside their mind. Sometimes it is what you have experienced within your time and not how much time you’ve experienced!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/wisdom/

Witchcraft/Streetcraft

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Witchcraft/Streetcraft
Monday, January 30, 2006 at 10:28 AM EST

Voodoo is practiced among millions of people all over the world. To some it is a religion, a way to achieve something ordinarily unattainable to them, or to harm someone.

An old evil street-game involves the use of “Brujeria” a Spanish word for witchcraft that is a part of Santeria and Obeah. Often, a big evil spell called the “tie” which is to bind or destroy someone is invoked. “Brujeria” is a blockage. A negative energy prohibiting one from succeeding in all aspects of their life, and to make them look bad in the public eye.

These sick people take a picture or personal item of their victim and then take their belongings out into the woods and do animal sacrifices. Chickens are mostly used in their rituals. Snakes are also used sometimes. The blood from snakes are used in killing hurts. Once a spell is cast through casual contact with an item that has been conjured to unleash evil spirits to the intended victim, the street-trash begin with their game.

They harass their victim in the streets to make them paranoid if they want them to have a breakdown of some sort. They spread evil lies and gossip, and put negative thoughts and ideas into their minds to also bring them down.

Santeria changes one’s destiny, preventing them from enjoying the natural life and happiness that was preordained for them. It interferes with relationships by turning people against you, it can stop one from having children, making money, having a career and so on. It can really slow down a progression.

“Brujeria” can make one mentally or physically ill. A medical doctor won’t be able to detect what may appear as an illness because Santeria is not a medical problem it is spiritual. Only a “special” person or a person educated about Voodoo can detect when someone is “crossed”

These low-lifes do this mainly out of envy and jealousy. Most of them have screwed up their lives and hate to see someone else who is happy and living their life the right way. It is very sad that because of their own feelings of inadequacy they want to ruin another instead of accepting whatever shortcomings that they may have and try to better themselves.

The street-trash don’t have anything going on for them in their lives, they are just here in the world taking up space. These sickos need to die!

Luckily, there is a “Divine Spirit” up in the spiritual realm who puts an end to the work of evildoers.He makes their wicked devices of none effect. They worship inferior forces -which is the devil and his demons, using their limited powers to harm others. The low-lifes laugh at their victims as they are doing them in. They are very confident about getting the results that they want since they may have “crossed” more than one person in the past and destroyed them.

But just like other things in life “Brujeria” can backfire. And the evil spell goes back ten times worse than how it was sent out. And as the low-life people believe they’ve won, thinking that they’re getting away with the dirt that was done, they get struck with a very big blow!

They fail to realize that “Divine Spirit” is in charge, he is the only supreme force who is in control of all particular things, making all their sick efforts in vain.

He gives them just enough rope to hang themselves. But they’re too stupid to see their own downfall in the making. They think that their victim is the stupid one as they continue on working their witchcraft, actually believing they are the ones in control of things.

And that’s when their own feet are taken in the net that they prepared for someone else!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/witchcraftstreetcraft/

My Book Club

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Monday, January 30, 2006 at 9:39 AM EST

When my first book came out some were very happy for me, but to me having a book published was really no big deal because i’d been writing ever since i was a child. I was born with the natural ability to write. I could have gotten the short stories that i use to write as a child published when i had the opportunity however i declined on the offer.

Now that i actually do have books out there on the market it caused a lot of jealousy among people who were already envious of me to begin with. Certain people don’t like my books because they don’t like to hear the truth. Some like to downplay what i write because they don’t really want to believe that i have the abilities that i have, and they don’t appreciate my knowledge.

Other peoples opinions have no bearing on me because i know who i am and what i’m about and what i’m very capable of doing. There is too big a world out here for me to care about who does or does not like me or what i write about. There are people who are fond of my writing and there are people who are not that’s their prerogative.

It’s a shame that people like to see you fail when they are jealous of you. And when they see that you’re not going to fail they interfere with your career to make it appear as if you failed on your own. Surely, there have been quite a few who have tried to get in my way but they are going to have to do a hell of a lot more than work evil on me, spread vicious lies and rumors, and threaten me because i’m not going to stop what i want to do for anybody!

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It’s a fictional tale of a neglected teenage girl and her younger siblings. And it’s a story of a mother who sits by and lets her daughter be abused at the hands of her degenerate boyfriend.

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http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-book-club-2/

Special Wisdom

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 4:17 PM EDT

I’ve always been able to take large peeks into the future. And no, that at all does not make me a genius. But it does make me very aware of what i can expect to happen in my life and in the lives of certain others.

All of my years here on earth i’ve been criticized, misjudged, lied on, hated, and the object of much envy and jealousy among some just like a lot of others have.

One thing i know to count on though and that is i eventually come out on top regardless of the trials i have to sometimes go through or the peoples predictions of what me and my life will turn out to be.

There have been older people in their fifties who were beneath me and who had the nerve to talk down to me, telling me that because they were older than me that made them more knowledgeable and more experienced when it came to going through things. They were sheer fools when they spoke those words to me!

I, one of the people down here on earth who can tell them all about the life that they think they’ve lived and what they will live ahead, am experienced in a way they’ll never know and they need to be more respectful toward people who are able to stir up that type of power.

I feel i’ve been here before, and when i die i don’t want to come back again. I don’t think i know everything because i don’t, but i do know a lot and nothing in this world really excites or surprises me. I’m just making do until “Divine Spirit” uses me for whatever it is that he wants me to do, and brings me into whatever it is that is meant.

And i admit that while i kill time here, it gets boring going over the same shit with certain kinds of people that i already know the answers to, i’m not learning anything new through their actions and way of life as i watch them. And, maybe i just don’t care! I’d benefit more from those who have and seek foundation, we all learn and grow when we’re on that path.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/special-wisdom/

God

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:56 PM EDT

It is said that nobody is above God and that we are not suppose to ask “why?” Why things have to be the way they are, and why whatever else.

And i may cross the line when i say this but i feel that i do have the right to ask why because life isn’t fair and because i didn’t ask to come into this world. It is not doing me any great favor by me being here that i should go along with the way life is.

I know none of us are suppose to be “perfect” in God’s eyes and that none of us truly see things the way that he does because we are suppose to be incapable of comprehending his knowledge.

And me, being human, of course do not like all of the rules that he sets and i guess it’s because we’re all born into “so call” sin and are suppose to be sinners by nature.

I feel some things that God sees as a sin should not be. Nevertheless, it is also said that God gives us his laws to abide by not to make us unhappy but for our protection. Very few of his rules maybe i can accept with no problem, and there are the rest that i strongly disagree with.

To be even more honest though. I always thought the bible to be one of the sickest books that i’ve ever read. And as a spiritual person by birth and by nature i have never truly felt any connection with this “God” and have uncovered things about him and life ( things i have always speculated since childhood ) that i will not disclose.

Contrary to the bible and popular belief life (definitely my life in particular) is so much purer, happier, better, fulfilling and peaceful without him.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/god/

A Peace Of Mind

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:43 PM EDT

My spirit doesn’t take too well to negativity. And that goes for negative people as well as negative things. Even though i was able to survive many types of negativity that was set before me by demented individuals i totally despise having to be around it.

There is a particular feeling i’ve experienced on more than one occasion. It’s an intense feeling of natural pure ecstasy. A genuine exalted rapture. And no matter what may be going on around me at the time the mood cannot be spoiled.

I don’t know if there is a name for it but it definitely is spiritual and i wish that i could feel that way all of the time. Unfortunately, in reality nobody feels a great deep mystical emotional high everyday so maybe it’s just a temporary sign of what’s to come eventually.

In the meantime, i’ll settle for the little things that mean a lot to me and make me happy. And, that is being independent! I like to be alone, i like to do things on my own, and when i choose to be around a small number of people they are of genuinely good quality because i am very particular.

It may sound snobbish but my tolerance is very low. I was that way when i was younger-now it’s even worse. I can’t be bothered with what i don’t like and i don’t care at what stake.

Nothing is more important than my well-being. I don’t put up with idle gossip, trouble, and people who are a waste of my time. And those are the few things that contribute to me having a Peace Of Mind.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/a-peace-of-peace/

Botanica Shops

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Update: February 4, 2012

All Botanica Shops Indeed Are Not Good. My Spirit Led Me To The One Best Suited For Me. So For Four Years Now I’ve Been Able To Go Get My Spiritual Supplies That Sustain My Spiritual Life!

Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:28 PM EDT

Botanica stores can be the devil’s workshop for those who abuse the items that are located there inside the place. There are many good things available at Botanica’s but most are for the use of evil anyway.

I first entered into a shop of that kind when i was seven due to my great-grandmother taking me and my mom there. The old woman always lit incenses and burned candles. I admit when i got older i was a little drawn to enter into one. I’d go from time to time for curiosity.

Something would subconsciously lure me there. Later on in my life i found out why. I had to go back to the place where my trouble begun in order to put a finish to it.

I’ve been to quite a few Botanica stores to purchase candles and to check out the surroundings. I’d feel spirits just as soon as i came through the door, but that was nothing. I could feel spirits on the street if spiritual tools were left placed about. Often when someone dies people put candles and things down by a pole in grass or on a sidewalk with writings.

From what i saw and heard inside one particular shop there are plenty of people who don’t mind spending a great quantity of time and money on doing negativity. The way that i see it, if you’re going to get involved in those type of spiritual activities why not put all that money and effort into conjuring up something good for yourself and for someone you care about.

One young guy who was there came in agitated, anxious for the voodoo doll he’d ordered. He purchased two red candles along with the doll that finally arrived. Then, a lady came in with an empty bottle of “Jinx Removal”. She wanted to purchase another bottle by the same brand but the shop was out of it.

I overheard her explaining to the man who worked there that someone on her job was trying to win her affections. The guy asked her out on a date and she refused him. She said she wasn’t interested in the man then all of a sudden she became attracted to him.

I haven’t set foot in a Botanica shop for three years straight and i never will again. I get my candles elsewhere!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/botanica-shops-3/

Incubus/Succubus

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:07 PM EDT

As some may know, an incubus is a male demon believed to have sexual intercourse with women while they are asleep. And succubus is just the opposite-a female demon believed to have sexual intercourse with men while they’re sleeping.

Seven years ago, i read a book titled “The Hand I Fan With” a continuation to “Baby Of The Family” both written by Tina McElroy Ansa. In the sequel about a woman born with a veil, the main character and her friend conjure a spirit who she later has a sexual relationship with.

I wondered if it was really possible for a spirit-being to actually make sexual contact with a living human being. I’ve read a book on the Santeria religion that claims spirits from past lives sometimes seek out to find their long lost loves then make love to them once they’ve tracked them down.

And, when i was a young child i watched a movie based on a true story titled “The Entity”. A film about a spirit who’d come rape a woman during the night while she was in her bed.

Well, i can honestly say that it’s very possible.

From my own experience spirits have made different kinds of contact with me-including sexual. They kiss, fondle, and penetrate but it isn’t in the same exactness as with a living being. Spirits have a distinct touch, however, they still have the ability to cause a significant feeling of pain and sensation.

If one does think they are or have made such contacts with spirits they should try to make sure that it is a real experience and not psychosomatic. I weigh out all things.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/incubussuccubus/

Spiritual Healing

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Monday, March 27, 2006 at 4:28 PM EST

I’m Not Saying That I Believe In Christianity Or Serve The God Of The Bible So According To Those Scriptures:

Anyone familiar with religion or spirituality knows that God’s holy spirit heals any and everything. Many people know and believe that Jesus cured people from all types of diseases, ailments and demon possessions when he was alive on earth many years ago.

But some don’t believe that Jesus and his father works that way with us nowadays; though he still does. He’s not here in person. He’s here in spirit and he works the same by himself and through others. In 1 Corinthians, all throughout chapters 12, 13, and 14 the bible backs up every one of the gifts which God gives out to people.

And there are those who receive the holy spirit then get healed and have the power to heal others.

Evil principalities are the cause of many afflictions that interfere in the lives of people. With the great amount of devil worshippers who bow down to false idols to do witchcraft more and more people need spiritual healing.

Now What I, Miss LaToya Know And Believe:

A specific result of voodoo that is in some cases not too serious is the manifestation of skin eruptions.

Witchcraft makes things appear natural or by chance to those who don’t know any better. Illnesses are made to look like common problems that affect anyone. Some people develop itchy rashes or sore pimples. Some women even experience excessive bleeding from their vagina so that it seems to be a menstrual or menopausal problem.

One particular affect of voodoo that i’ve noticed since i was a child that stands out in the sickliest way is when practitioners tamper with a person’s complexion. For some reason i don’t understand-they like to make peoples faces break out then play on their mind about it. I know this for a fact.

To me, if a person has a few pimples on their body it’s no big deal. However, to those doing the witchcraft it is, or is suppose to be a big deal and they want to make it a big concern for their victim.

Like i said before, it stands out as one of the most sickliest things with them. They try to get their victim to believe they’re unattractive and defected to knock down their self-esteem when all along it was them who caused what is really nothing drastic in the first place.

These people usually work skin lesions through putting voodoo substances in peoples food. I’ve mentioned the “skin eruption trick” for ones who may be in the dark, thinking they have a medical problem that others criticize them about, because it’s done to have people pick at them out of ignorance. For people to exaggerate the condition when most of the time there is nothing wrong with their skin.

It all can be healed with faith in your own “beliefs” but it is important not to give in to the “mind game” of feeling self-conscious and taking blame for having a phony physical complex created purely by the sickos who want satisfaction.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/spiritual-healing/