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Wheat Grass

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Posted on September 29, 2007 by 

In my mid to late teens i use to visit and purchase certain items from a particular health food store in my area. During that time in my life which was about fifteen years ago i first learned about wheatgrass.

I had a juicer at home, but it was a high-speed juicer and not the appropriate one for extracting the juice from wheatgrass. Conveniently, the health food store had a slow-turning juicer (wheatgrass juicer) and i was able to sample out what it was like. Once wheatgrass is juiced there is a limited time that you have to drink it before it loses it’s potency.

It is said that the things that taste very nasty are the best things for you and i do have to say that wheatgrass juice was one of the nastiest things that i have ever tasted! Wheatgrass juice though is the most nutritious and cleansing juice that there is. Wheatgrass itself is seven inch tall grass that is grown from wheatberries on one inch of soil.

Wheatgrass juice benefits many parts of the body including the liver, kidneys, glands, spleen, muscles, bones, teeth, blood cells and hair.

Wheatgrass juice protects the lungs and blood from air, toxins, cigarette smoke, heavy metals and water pollution. The juice of wheatgrass can also be applied to the skin or scalp. It can be used to wash out the eyes, teeth, gums and sinuses. And, it can be implanted rectally to cleanse and heal the body’s large intestine.

Wheatgrass also works as a weight loss remedy by suppressing the appetite and by stimulating the metabolism and circulation. Not only do humans benefit from the abilities of wheatgrass but animals as well! It has aided the reproduction and maintenance in herbivorous mammals.

What i also learned back then is that wheatgrass contains a full spectrum of trace elements, minerals and vitamins. Those in particular include amino acids (protein) , special enzymes, magnesium, potassium, calcium, iron, chlorophyll, vitamins E, C, A and B complex.

And, just a few of the many conditions that are responsive to wheatgrass are ulcers, infection, anemia, hay fever, constipation, diabetes, colitis, bronchitis, asthma, skin disorders, acne, fatigue, hypoglycemia, heart disease, circulatory weakness, blood pressure (high or low) and aging.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/09/29/wheat-grass/

Ginkgo Biloba

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I’ve been taking Ginkgo Biloba as one of my daily supplements for nearly six years now and it has been beneficial for me. When i first begun to take the supplement i used the “Solgar” brand, which was a very good product.

After a while of taking it, though, i noticed on the label that there was a great drop in some of the contents.

Originally, the amount per capsule that i was intaking was 60mg of Ginkgo Biloba Extract ( standardized from the leaf ) and 375mg of Raw Ginkgo Biloba Powder ( also from the leaf ).

Then i noticed the raw powder was reduced to only 30mg. And even though the raw Ginkgo Biloba Powder is much less significant in affect ( compared to the standardized Ginkgo Biloba Extract ) regardless of mg, i still phoned the “Solgar” company to find out what was going on.

A particular person there at the company told me that there were numerous calls from others who were using the product and who had also noticed the drop in mg.

I was asked my telephone number as a general inquiry and told that i would be notified once a reason was determined. No one ever got back to me. So i just changed my brand.

I have been using “Ginkoba” for nearly three years now and it is just as great-if not better!

Ginkgo Biloba is an herb. It’s main benefit is to improve brain function by aiding the increase of “oxygen-rich” blood flow to the brain. It is also known as the “smart pill”.

Ginkgo Biloba is just not limited to the one main area that I’ve mentioned. More than 300 studies have shown over the past 30 years that not only does Ginkgo Biloba help improve mental functioning but has other benefits as well.

1. Ginkgo works by increasing blood flow to the brain and throughout the body’s network of blood vessels that supply blood and oxygen to organ systems.

2. It increases metabolism efficiency, regulates neurotransmitters, and boosts oxygen levels in the brain which uses 20% of the body’s oxygen.

3. Ginkgo also helps control the transformation of cholesterol to plaque associated with the hardening of arteries, and can relax constricted blood vessels.

4. The benefits of enhanced circulation in the brain include improved short and long term memory, increased reaction time and improved mental clarity.

5. Ginkgo has also been shown to be a supportive herb for treating infertility in males and impotence.

6. Ginkgo Biloba helps prevent damage to the organs from free radicals, and also blocks the platelet activating factor which causes some skin disorders such as psoriasis.

7. Ginkgo Biloba’s beneficial effects on the circulatory system also helps in the treatment of eye and ear disorders.

Gingko Biloba is a very good supplement unfortunately the company of SOLGAR was purchased by a Big Pharmaceutical Company a couple of years ago which would explain the considerable drop in the quality. I would go in another direction like GOTU KOLA which is Nerve Regenerative and Restorative Herb and a Nervine Herb meaning it’s calming.Gingko is an excellent herb but NOT when You are on Beta Blockers,ACE Inhibitors,or Statin drugs because they all thin blood and compete. Oh yeah that includes Coumadin AKA Warfarin this is the Most POTENT bloodthinner offered by Big Pharma so take that with Gingko and they will be fighting for the last seat on the Same Bus. Ecclectic Institute makes a NICE Gingko Biloba/Gotu Kola combination that has no fillers and binders in there like Magnesium Sterate or Stearic acid because these surpress the immune system. Taking Gingko with Vitamin E is also a bad idea too blood thinning if taken at all they should be taken at least 4-6 Hours apart. I hope this is helpful.

Thank you so much for your input. Personally, I been stopped taking Ginko Biloba a very long time ago. I’ve found something much greater that agrees with me and my body, however, I will leave your comment for those who it may be helpful towards.

I think You’re Wonderful By The Way For Having This Format.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/09/29/ginkgo-biloba/

As An ASexual Person I’m Sharing My Personal Views And Feelings

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One thing i don’t hear too much about is people who are Asexual. I personally am Asexual. I’m not into men or women. I would never judge anyone as myself because everyone is an individual.

From my personal experience, however, i’ve never sexually desired a penis and i know there are quite a few other women out there in the world who feel the same way that i do who are not lesbians.

During my teenage years i discovered my clitoris and experienced orgasms. I wasn’t at all afraid to explore my body. Why should i have been? It was my body.

I had never had sexual intercourse with a man. And after experiencing pleasurable sensations from stimulating my clitoris i still did not have the desire or curiosity to explore a penis.

During my mid twenties i decided that i wanted to have a child. It was then and for that reason only that i settled for dealing with a man sexually.

I would have preferred to go to a sperm bank but at that particular time i did not have the money to do so. So i engaged in sexual activity a few times at a very short time period in one month. And the act did not do anything for me.

I did not feel any sexual pleasure at all. To me, sexual intercourse is definitely a mind thing.

I did not have any feelings for the guy that i dealt with for that occasion. In fact, he disgusted me. He was into me and wanted a relationship. I had to get rid of him quick.

Some people will become sexually attached as he did. And, some men are so macho they think their penis can change your mind. But it is not at all in the stroke for me. Sex is all in the mind and can’t no man or his penis do a thing for me!

The thought of a man touching me in any way whether it is with a kiss, caress or touch by penetration turns me off.

My efforts didn’t work in the process. His ego got into the way.

This guy wanted me to want him. It sometimes takes months before conception occurs but i couldn’t let no man have sex with me over and over again!

And when he found out that i was never going to actually come around to desiring him he attempted to pretend that he would conceive a child with me. Just to get back at me.

I didn’t have time for any games. I wanted one thing and one thing only, and that was a baby. I considered having sex a sacrifice because the penetration of a man’s penis was and felt so unnatural to me.

I have not indulged in anymore sexual activity since and that was nearly ten years ago. I don’t ever plan on attempting to make a baby with the assistance of a man ever again.

As being Asexual, another thing in this society is really disgusting to me. And that is how some men try to destroy a women by making up sexual lies about them or telling about what may have went on in the bedroom between the two of them.

Certain types of people tend to believe men when they fabricate tales of sexual encounters and will join in with the slander by trying to degrade the women.

Words like “slut” don’t bother me because the word has nothing to do with me. It is beneath me.

You have those though that don’t look at it that way.

When most men and even some women call other women a derogatory name like “whore” or “slut” they expect it to hurt deep down inside to make the person feel very low. And in this day and age this society still accepts the act of letting men ruin some women’s reputations when it comes to sexual matters.

A man can go around sleeping with hundreds of women while he is considered a “king”. A woman as everybody knows on the other hand will be considered one of the most rotten things in the world.

Many still believe that most women will break down to lose their confidence if a man trashes their name by putting them out there as a skank. It gives them a great sense of power.

I can’t speak for anyone else personally on this matter although i know i’m not the only woman who feels this way since there are such a wide variety of people in our world, but no man or woman could ever lower or make me completely lose my self-confidence by using sexual gestures that are considered offensive in this society.

I am a human being who doesn’t go along with the many brainwashing and beliefs of what is suppose to maintain and lower a woman’s worth.

I don’t think that it is right for a woman to sleep around with many other people if she loves herself. The body is one’s temple and one should want to keep it very healthy and clean.

At the same time i do not believe that a woman who sleeps around lowers her value. I just believe it means that she does not value herself!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/28/as-an-asexual-person-im-sharing-my-personal-views-and-feelings/

A Revelation

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Posted on August 26, 2007 by 

All of my life i have been able to sense and see through people. There have also and always been those in particular who i have detested. No one is going to like or get along with everybody no matter what walk of life one comes from. The hatred that i have for those who i speak of goes deeper in the eye than what most if any are able to see. What is felt is not so much a part of my innate human tendency of being snooty but more of a divine awareness of what is here and subordinate.

Some looking at particular people with the “Human Eye”, and who are conscious of what they show, may see a sight they would clearly determine as undesirables and etc. When looking through with the “Third Eye”, however, the sight goes much deeper. They are then identified more in depth.  And they “Indeed” are “The Wicked”, the devil’s children. I’ve seen it in their appearance and have sensed it in their body language. I have also seen these particular people after death in spirit form-confirming the mark made to me of those who are here on earth.

They are very recognizable. Radar picks up on them instantly, alerting, verifying and sending warning of them. When i view them in person or if the thought of them comes into mind due to visions i see their presence literally makes me want to vomit. I keep clear away from these people as much as possible. And I don’t want any parts of them in my life if i can help it.

Understandably, my reasons are of course not defined as ”Fear” since these particular kinds are absolutely nothing to fear even though many of them want to intimidate others out of their own insecurities. Nevertheless, it has everything to do with negativity, and negative energies they continually carry within and without, and which can be detected and rejected. They are all an abomination. A reproach.

(These Particular People Are Warp-Minded. They Act Out In Illogical Ways. Reason Cannot Be Explained To Sick Individuals. I As A Human Being With Strong Spiritual Inclination Would Never Want Their Essence Up In Me, Outward Of Me, Or Around Me. Their Absences Brings About Peace, Happiness And Cleanliness To The Mind, Body, Spirit And Path)

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/a-revelation/

Rituals

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Sunday, April 15, 2007 at 11:34 AM EDT

This past Christmas eve when i was working at J.C. Penny’s a guy approached me. I’d never seen him before. I ignored him of course because i did not want to be bothered.

Not too long after and later that night when i got home i could feel him beginning to enter into my mind. I have very keen senses. My brain is like radar. I knew before he approached that something was up just like i do with everyone else.

Whenever a man is interested in me, out to do me harm, and etc. they stay inside my head for as long as their feelings towards me last. I feel their thoughts and emotions and i pick up things going on within their lives. People have no clue how Divine Spirit has gifted me.

This particular guy has been in my mind for three months and some change.

About a month after he first entered into my head i dreamed that he was still conscious of me but seeing another girl. Obviously there was nothing serious going on with him and her because i’ve been picking up on him very strongly all of this time.

On a Friday, the 30th of march, i heard his voice as i woke up from my sleep in the morning. His exact words were “I’m gonna fight for the woman i want”. Later that day i went to pick up my check from J.C. Penny’s and on my way back from cashing it out there in Garden City i think i may have saw him, i wasn’t too sure of that until the following palm Sunday.

On palm Sunday, the 1st of April, i was at home lying in my bed receiving a few messages and seeing a few visions when one particular vision of this guy appeared to me as the occurrence was actually taking place at that point in time.

In my vision i saw him around this man who may deal with the Islamic faith because the man communicated with me through telepathic means. He spoke to me in my thoughts and i responded to him and he mentioned Allah which is the name of God among Muslims.

Anyway, my deranged admirer stayed around this man while he performed a love ritual on me. I could see, hear, and feel everything that went on. This guy even had the nerve to inquire if i’d ever been intimate with some guy that i won’t mention because i never had feelings for anybody. He’s all in my business!

This past Easter Sunday on the 8th of April i received another vision of this guy.

He was nervous and worried. I’m not going to go into detail about what was causing his anxiety though. However, i will divulge this-he is still working his ritual. It is still in process right now. He did a marriage ritual and a ritual for me to have his children. I’ve been feeling his shit. It seems that he does certain rituals on Sundays and Wednesdays. He is also trying to take away my “energy”. He wants to make me weak and draw me to him.

There is absolutely no doubt that i don’t like the way the God of the bible created things, the way he sometimes goes about things (he works too slow for me) but i don’t believe in him and his power and there are many things i don’t like about him due to what i know and experienced here on earth (the things that he lets go on) i am one of the very special children ( born with a caul) Divine Spirit has my back.

He is in control and he will continue to work things out in his own way during his own “time”. My third eye and my spirits show and communicate with me to let me know the outcomes of my situations and they always turn out in my favor.

Almost a month ago now someone tried to harm me spiritually and it backfired right in her face. Soon after the incident the Lord of the bible came to me in my thoughts and told me to come to him for anything and that he is my source of protection, however, i did not accept his offer he turns me off.

I preferred the powers of my Ancestors and Orishas.

So whatever this particular guy is trying to do to me i guarantee that it will not work. It will all blow up in his face. Somebody told me that i should be flattered about what he is doing. To me it is never flattering for someone to try to control the will of another no matter what the motive may be.

Love and affection should come naturally and i am not the pathetic type to get off on somebody wanting me that bad regardless of the intentions.

Whenever negative Obeah, Santeria, Yoruba, Voodoo or whatever you want to call it is being worked and in affect, it is very unnatural and unhealthy. It is all black magic and i will continue to be protected by my spirituality.

I can’t wait to see how all of this is going to play out since i have the power to convert negative energy into positive energy.

( All Of The Voodoo In The World Could Never Make Me Desire A Man )

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/rituals/

Strength, Power

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Monday, April 02, 2007 at 11:21 AM EDT

You know, things are really looking up for me. I am getting ready to start a new career already! It will begin in a short time. I never worry about my future because i have always been able to see into the future. I’ve been looking to start something new for quite a while now. I get bored very quick. When something doesn’t hold my interest i have to move on to things that better suit me.

A door has closed in my life and a new door has opened and it is very exciting. I am anticipating this new part of my life that is on it’s way. I played a part in my life taking another new start.

The way that i feel is if i want a change i have to be the one to take charge and i absolutely have the power to do so spiritually and, nothing is able to stop me. I am a fighter, a survivor.

I’ve always been a very strong person who is not afraid of too much. And i haven’t been afraid to go about things in my own way and i realize that i am pushing forward more now in a way that is going full forward in my favor.

I’m feeling great bursts of positive energy. I’m feeling extreme confidence. I am very smart, strong and pretty. And, i think that i am more crazier now than ever.

I’ve always felt this good about myself but my feelings are heightened.

I found a greater method in developing and maintaining my spirituality. I had to build a new foundation. And all negative influences that are around me are becoming even more and more irrelevant.

Things are indeed still going on but it has nothing to do with me. It is about me yet it is all in my enemies (and those who don’t know any better) heads.

They are living in a world that i am not in. I’m here, i’ll just never adapt to the things that are not befitting to me so i stay in my real world that i belong in. I am in the world but not of it.

Aside from having the ability to handle adversity the way that i can sometimes i wonder if it is good to be too strong, not caring about things like what people say, think and feel. And not getting embarrassed and worrying about what is going to go down in life. I’ve always been that way and it can be bad because i have hurt people with my careless ways and attitude. I don’t dwell on the thought, though.

I am who i am naturally, and i can’t change.

Even if being too strong is not a good thing i still have my benefits because some can’t see me for who i really am. Some think i’m sweet and innocent. I am a good person but i am not as sweet as they think. And i’m innocent as far as never being lustful, in love before or damaged by anyone, and i don’t have no dirt on me, but that is about it.

Right now, i am getting very acquainted with this enhanced spiritual power that i have received. It is getting distinctly familiar with me and i am getting distinctly familiar with it and we are becoming ultimately unified.

( A Strong Faith Sees The Invisible. Believes The Impossible. And Receives The Incredible ) – A quote!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/strength-power/

Me And A Man

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Thursday, February 08, 2007 at 9:15 AM EST

I don’t understand why certain people are so concerned about me not wanting to have a man in my life. People have always judged me not for what i do but for the things that i do not do and it is really none of their business.

All of this man shit really didn’t get this big until after i severely hurt the feelings of three guys in the past by being very nasty toward them then coldly rejecting them because i did not want them and the outcome has really been ridiculous.

I have heard in my life of some men not being able to handle rejection very well, however, it is very sad when some get hurt so bad that they can’t move on by continuing to seek revenge through lies perpetuated by those who keep spreading them.

I don’t know what these niggers expect to happen to me. I am not going down. For some sick reason do to their stupid egos they want people to believe that my weakness is for a man and that i am the one who has been hurt by a man and i am so tired of this dumb bullshit.

People really need to grow up and get over the fact that i’m a happy, healthy, successful, independent woman who doesn’t and never has gave a fuck about a man.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/me-and-a-man-2/

Words To Live By

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 5:45 AM EDT

Everything that i write is original. My words all come from my own heart, soul and mind.

However, this that i am about to write is something i received in my email almost a year ago. I am copying it down on this post on my blog to share. It is inspirational and i totally agree with everything that it says.

The words are from a column in a magazine:

Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it.

Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many.

Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books.

Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders.

Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations.

But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.

-Buddha

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/words-to-live-by/

Denial

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 4:56 AM EDT

A lot of people do not want to accept certain things. And a lot of the time it is the things that are of “truth” that people don’t want to accept because sometimes they cannot deal with it or may not be able to handle whatever else comes along with it.

There are a lot of challenges that life brings and many of us do not want to see, hear, face or believe. Ready or not things are going to happen and it is up to the individual whether or not they are going to step up to it or run away. I wish the world wasn’t in the state that it is in but there is absolutely nothing that i can do about it so i just have to accept it but that doesn’t mean that i have to follow along in the state that the world is in.

I still be myself regardless and am able to handle whatever it is that comes around my way because i have a strong sense of myself and purpose. You have those though that for whatever reason who go by, masquerade and try to escape through many efforts. Lying to oneself is definitely not a comfortable way to escape. There is no peace in it. Lies will eventually eat you up inside and destroy you.

Some find a way to escape by believing in their own lies. Believing a lie is the truth brings a sense of security to some since it prevents them from facing a fear or shortcoming.

One lady i use to go to church with a long time ago got on my nerves so i told her how much she stunk when i’d sit next to her wherever we were in front of other church members. The next thing that i knew what i told her had gotten all over the church. One of the church members went back and spread it so i guess the lady got embarrassed.

Later after the incident the lady told me that she knew the reason i told her she stunk was just because i was angry. And that was a perfect example of denial. I was indeed angry when i told her that she smelled bad but i meant what i had said because it was the truth. Someone else i knew even acknowledged that the lady carried an odor. She just didn’t want to accept it.

And it is just the same thing with some of my enemies. They keep saying that i am putting up a big “front”. I don’t have a clue as to what they are talking about. A front for what?

Just because they tried to ruin me in ways that they wouldn’t be able to handle if people had done the same exact things to them does not mean that it affects me. I am not anything like them.

What pertains to them does not pertain to me. I am so much better than they are morally and intellectually.

I don’t know when they are going to wake up and realize that nothing that they did or do bothered or bothers me. I am a free happy spirit living with no worries or fears. I don’t care one bit about what they say or think and believe about me, however, they just can’t and won’t accept that. They are in “deep denial”.

The low level that my enemies are on is quite ridiculous.

It is unbelievable how stupid they all are. They are so stupid to believe that i am actually putting up a front when there is nothing for me to be putting up a front for. I don’t care how much trouble they went through to make my life miserable my Orisha is much, much stronger. The fact is that their efforts just did not work and never will work and whoever told them that their efforts did work flat out lied to them.

They are too stupid to see it though.

My enemies are making complete fools of themselves by continuing to believe what they think to be true then acting on it. When the day comes-and i know that very soon it will-when they all finally have to face reality and see, and truly acknowledge what the real deal is they are going to feel even stupider than they already are. For the meantime though you know the old saying, “Ignorance Is Bliss”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/denial/

Age

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 4:42 AM EDT

“Respect your elders”. “Wisdom comes with age”. I’ve heard people speak those words throughout my lifetime as i am sure others have. However, i strongly disagree with those words.

Just because someone is a little bit or a lot older than one does not mean that they automatically deserve their respect. And wisdom does come with age for some but definitely not for all. I learned that fact early on as a very young child. And it is a fact!

Grown ups had said and done things to me that wasn’t correct and right.

If i knew a little more about something than they did they didn’t want to hear it because in their mind they believed that they were the adult who knew better when in actuality they didn’t know what they were talking about. Often when a particular child, teen, or even young adult is knowledgeable and goes to express an idea or solution that someone older may not see, realize, or grasp the first thing that older person may be quick to verbalize is that the younger person is being “fresh” or “think that he or she knows everything”. And then continues on with “they’ll learn”.

They are very quick to generalize as most people do. It is not fair but it sometimes happens.

It’s been said and i’ve been told all throughout my life by those who have been able to recognize that i am too smart and that i know a lot for my age and that they were nowhere near the level that i’m on when they were at my age. There are decent rational adults out there who don’t have any problem acknowledging and accepting that people younger than them can know just as much as they do and even a little more.

You see, i have always carried a portion of wisdom. I have a good share of it. And i am very wise in ways that a lot of people don’t appreciate. There have been some who’ve misjudged me, accused me of things that i was not guilty of, lied on me, underestimated me, and treated me unfairly. There have been plenty of older peoples asses that i have wanted to kick. A lot of them make me so sick about how they think or thought that they were enlightening me by telling me something while all of the time i was way ahead of them.

Of course, there are those who are informative and beneficial to learn a little or a lot from. They are very helpful and they are the ones that i respect if they genuinely have understanding.

There have been older people who have tried to hurt me, test me, run games on me and so on because they believed and thought that they were so much more experienced.

And you see, that goes back to them making generalizations. Everybody is not the same but you can’t tell them that. So many of them have got it stored in their minds that they’ve been around and that they know and are able to read every type of person that they come across when they don’t know shit! They just think they do. And those are assholes that some of us are just going to run into at sometime or another. They are too ignorant to realize that it is not always necessarily age that makes you wiser but it is the insight and the “individual” experience. And just because one has the age does not mean that they have all of the experience.

A lot of people have gone through life living with the wrong information and mistaking one thing for another so when a younger person comes along knowing the answers he or she is sometimes considered as the one who is misguided, naive, or confused due to their own form of “misguidance”. And when some do come to a realization they are too embarrassed to admit to it.

There are plenty of younger people who indeed are naive, confused, and don’t know a whole lot about life and some of them are just stupid because their parents are stupid. But out here in the world there are older people who can learn from the young and the young who can learn from the old.

Our world is continually changing and while many things continue to change many of the things are going to remain the same.

I have a number of reasons why i don’t have respect for people just because they are older than me. Now that doesn’t mean that i go around disrespecting them. There is a difference between being courteous and having true respect for someone. I just do not underestimate anyone because they are younger than me and i do not overestimate someone simply because they are older. I go by the person within.

Nevertheless, i am aware that maturity also plays a part when it comes to certain people and their age.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/age/

Rumors

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 11:27 PM EDT

People have been telling lies since the beginning of time so they are definitely not going to stop now. No doubt, a lot of people are very nosy and love gossip. They gossip over anything, usually about a lot of silly shit. Some will say that everybody gossips. There is a big difference between having a discussion and straight out gossiping.

Most people who like to sit around waiting to hear and spread vicious rumors are pathetic, miserable people who don’t have a life of their own. They are full of envies and petty jealousies over the people that they talk about. As soon as gossip is spread about them though they can’t handle it and most of the time it is because what’s spread about them is the truth so they get mad and spread lies on others who are above them.

I have never spread rumors. I spread the truth.

And i, just like many others, have been the victim of quite a few ridiculous rumors. I’ve heard people say that they would go home and cry over lies that was said about them. I have never shed a tear over lies people told on me. Some of them may have pissed me off very much because i knew what they were trying to do but their talk didn’t affect me because i knew what was circulating was nowhere near the truth.

I know that it does hurt a lot of good people when others hear negative things that are false regarding them then they listen to it and may act accordingly to it. Treating them unfairly, and some of them got the nerve because they are the ones who actually have the dirt on them and the ones they criticize are the innocent ones.

The way i look at the matter is if you know who you are and you know what you did and did not do you shouldn’t give a fuck. People are going to talk about you anyway. Whether you do good or bad. Fuck them!

I scoff and laugh at people who spread rumors about me. I’m better than all of them. I can go and walk around anywhere holding my head up as high up in the sky as i want to because i haven’t done a damn thing! And if i had i’d still be strong enough to pick up and keep moving because i don’t do things that i’d be ashamed of.

People have all type of reasons why they make up lies and spread rumors. Most of the time it is done out of jealousy, hatred, ignorance, and sickness.

One time i hung out with this older woman who came out of jail a long time ago. Her name was Venus. The next thing that i knew people were assuming that because i was a good person and that she was a bad person that i was trying to help her get on her feet or something to that nature. The woman herself even went around lying, telling people that i was trying to save her. Save her from what? I don’t know what they were talking about. It was all news to me. That was a petty lie, unless she was really that dumb enough to perceive that through her own misunderstanding.

Then, later on, i was suppose to had went with her boyfriend (had a relationship with him). And then i became a ho’. And so on, an so on.

See, they are all crazy! And they are suppose to be grown folks. That’s why the dummy and her nigger both have been looking like skeletons for a while now and are rapidly dying from Aids.

You know, the truth always comes out no matter how long it may take. I don’t have no Aids and never had any other diseases for that matter.

That says a whole lot because they hung themselves with their own ropes.

People need to think about what they lie about before they do it. Their shit didn’t add up and now their being eaten up. I knew that they had Aids a long time ago and was waiting until the day for it to really show. I look at Venus and Omar and gloat like crazy. That is what they get for being so jealous of me, a death sentence.

It’s just sad when people’s lives get ruined over shit that they know is not true.

Since most of the time lies spread faster than the truth it gets to them how those who fall for the lies believe in it, and it bothers them how people think of them. I can’t get into any of that shit because it is a waste of energy. It’s not real so why pay any attention to it.

The way i keep looking at it is that they are living in a land of make-believe and i am in reality and i got to keep moving on because i’m not a sick person.

Some probably are making up rumors about why i write blogs. Is that going to discourage me from blogging? No way! I write because i am a natural born writer. I was told that the gift i have would be used to help people even though i did not set out to do so. I just followed the calling. It’s a talent. I’m not trying and never have tried to prove anything to anyone.

I don’t beg people to read my blogs. If nobody likes what i have to say they don’t have to visit and read my writings. I didn’t even tell people that i had blogs they found out on their own. I am expressing myself and i’m going to keep doing it.

And this may sound crazy but if i never got any visitors i’d still post.That is one of the major reasons i don’t and will continue not to be bothered with too many people because they are so stupid and ignorant, jealous, and inferior and not worth my time and energy.

I’m much, much happier being by myself, doing what i like.

Even when i am on my job i keep mostly to myself. So everybody can go on an keep talking while i’ll still be way ahead because i’ve been gone!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/rumors/

Confidence

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 9:18 PM EDT

I’ve always believed in myself. I know that i am worth a million. Is there conceit in me? Hell yeah! I know that i’m great. Do i have an exaggerated view of myself? Hell no! I am just as i know myself to be if not more, it is a fact. Will i continue to ride up on my high horse? You damn right! And i am riding so high.

Sure, there are and will always be people behind the scenes who will try to pull me down. They won’t get the chance though! If i go down in my life it will be because of my own doing. I am the only one who is able to bring myself down.

No matter what i may have been through in life no one has ever been able to take away my confidence. If they had, i never would’ve kept going, knowing, and believing that i’d be the one to prevail because of the person that i was. I knew something had to give. Does that make sense?

When a person loses their confidence they lose who they are. It is not so much about their actions but what they feel inside. It’s not what you do it’s how you feel about yourself. Do you understand what i mean?

A lot of the time people tend to judge other people on what they see on the outside rather than considering how their minds may be thinking or working. Most people don’t know what is going on inside of another person’s head unless they tell them. So how someone acts or reacts doesn’t necessarily have to do with what that person feels.

For example, an individual can know how attractive they are and won’t enter into a beauty competition, not because they don’t think they can win but because they just may not want to. Maybe it’s not their thing. They know how good they look and are able to give competitors a run for their money. The event just may not spark up their interest.

There are going to be certain types of people and things throughout life that will indeed try to discourage you. They’ll do their best to make you doubt yourself when they really know that you do have the capabilities or attributes. Even if someone doesn’t believe in you, underestimates you, or disregards you don’t let it stop you from believing in yourself.

You see, no one can tell me who i am or who i am not because i know and it makes their judgement of no value to me. That is how secure i am with myself and because i know how narrow-minded a lot of people are.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/confidence/

Brainwashed

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:51 PM EDT

It’s a huge world out there. There are so many people who don’t know what they be talking about. Then, you have many who do know what they are talking about. There are so many cultures, lifestyles, beliefs, opinions and ways that people are raised.

When you come into your own is when you really discover what is important since it partly develops into what may define some of your character. Some need to evaluate many of the things that they value or consider a value to them. They need to know where their ideas originated from-whether they made the decision on their own or let someone else decide for them.

Do you live by or go along with something because that is truly the way you feel in your heart or because it is the way that most people do so you just accepted it as the way to go or as it is said “the way it is suppose to be?”

I myself actually have never allowed society or any individual to dictate how i should live my life no matter how negatively or positively they may have decided to view me. I cannot and will not let the opinions of others faze me while i continue to take my journey through this life. Nobody is going to determine how i should feel about things, what i believe in and don’t believe in, and what i should agree with and don’t agree with.

No one can tell me what i don’t want to hear because i am going to have the last word when it comes to my life since i am the one living it! Nobody knows me better than i know myself.

Now, there is absolutely nothing wrong with hearing another person out if you decide what they are saying is worth hearing. It makes no sense to be oblivious to the diversities in the world. However, you don’t have to listen to it. It’s just vital for you to be aware of it and that it is going on and going on with these people.There is plenty of shit going on in the world that is not too kosher as far as i am concerned and i refuse to let my mind be molded and corrupted with some of the things that this society considers appropriate and not appropriate.

Of course, i may not know everything but i know a hell of a lot and enough to know that the so-called generalized way of how our life “in order” should be lived is a big mess. Yes, it is indeed true that whatever life is to one is the way they should live it because nobody’s path is the same.

We all have our own minds and ways of behavior-thank goodness for that! What i am talking about is being consciously or subconsciously programmed by what is displayed by myths, stereotypes, the media and even small things in life that we are taught. I don’t accept something as a fact as to what is right or wrong simply because it is said that it is the way it’s suppose to be or because so many people feel and are in a particular mode. I am also a person and i do count and my ways and thoughts differ greatly than the majority.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/brainwashed/

My Confessions

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Everyone makes mistakes and indeed this was a big one! Everything in my post is the truth except for what I mentioned about God.

I wrote this post about fives years ago and now I can come out with the total truth that I could not say at the time. I don’t really feel that I did anything wrong. I don’t really believe that the only true protection comes from The God Of The Bible.

My actions did not cause me to be open for any attack because I don’t believe in or follow that God of the bible’s sick “will” especially that garbage about a man and a woman becoming one flesh. I will always be whole and complete and no one flesh with nobody.

I truly feel that God was responsible for allowing those sick witchcraft experiences because I never cared for him and belonged to him, and I thank my lucky stars because I don’t ever want to be one of his children.

I have true supervision and protection from my Ancestors and Orishas like I had all through out my life I just had to get reconnected and reacquainted since I was attacked by witchcraft at such an early age ( ever since I was seven ).

Even though I didn’t truly from my heart mean what I said in this post regarding “God” I really regret having done so because I would never intentionally want to give him any type of glory or justification whatsoever!

And I know damn well that my beautiful soul will never enter a place of hell even if I ever did get an abortion. “I’ve seen where i’m going”, God Of The Bible has no claims over me. He does not apply to me or my life. And I am so glad that I am at a place in my life where I can acknowledge it and back it up fiercely. And I don’t give a damn what anyone who is blinded by him has to say about it!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:17 PM EDT

I don’t know why I’m calling this post my confessions. I’ve never had anything to hide. What i really mean by confessing is just acknowledging more in depth how i feel about particular things regarding myself.

I am a female. A woman. And I’m very glad to be. I am strong-minded, strong-willed, determined, stubborn, confident, opinionated, outspoken and a few other things. When i was a little girl i loved to have fun just like most children and i was very creative.

A lot of children have an idea of what they want to be when they become an adult. I knew by the age of ten that i would write and that is the age that i began writing the short stories that i use to. I also knew that when i grew up that i never wanted to marry. I am thirty-one years old now and have never had a boyfriend.

So i really did know what i did and did not want early on. I also knew that one day when i was ready i would want to have two children, preferably two female children. Two daughters. My two little girls. The only problem was how would i get them? I didn’t want no man on top of me.

I thought going to a sperm bank would cost too much money for me at the time since there was no guarantee that conception would occur during the first insemination. I’ve heard of women spending up to six thousands of dollars after numerous tries before actual conception occurred through being artificially inseminated by a doctor.

So if i really wanted to have a child I’d have to do what i had to do and that would mean lying down with a man that i didn’t want. It wouldn’t have been a problem. A whole lot of men were interested in me during my younger years. They just didn’t understand why i didn’t want to be bothered since most young women are man-crazy and are heavily into a man.

I was just the opposite. A few of the reasons i paid my admirers no attention was because the majority of them were nothing, nobodies. They were in my opinion unattractive and definitely undesirable as far as their physical appearance and level of mentality. What turned me off the most, though, is them approaching me like automatically without them even knowing me, that i was suppose to have an inclination for males.

They made a general assumption about me that was definitely not true. I am Asexual and very proud of it. I’ve never ever had any emotional or physical desire for a man. When guys had crushes on me and expressed their feelings in their own ways it disgusted me where others would think that it was cute or normal. And i am very sure most consider having a crush on someone then acting on it normal.

I felt if a guy was attracted to me and wanted to be with me he should have kept it to himself because he didn’t stand a chance with me. Then i began to think about it a little bit, and thought about using a man’s feelings for me to my advantage. You know when someone is into you and you are not into them then you have the upper hand.

Some of the guys who were interested in me had heard that i was a virgin and probably thought ( in their mind if they were to ever get the chance) by having sex with me they could turn me out or that i would change and become attached to them and fall all over them then a man would have some significance to me. Boy did they have me figured out wrong! Some of those male egos and ignorance’s need to go! There is a whole lot that some men really need to learn.

Yes, i was a virgin as far as never ever having intercourse with a man. A male penis had never penetrated my vagina but i had already experienced sexual pleasure without the aid of a man.

You see, i had discovered my clitoris years beforehand. It is a very sensitive area connected to nerves inside the body that with the educated touch of a finger ( i learned naturally on my own ) there are very nice sensations and climaxes to experience. There is absolutely nothing wrong with self experimentation, getting to know and love your own self sexually before letting someone else take control. But when a man is inside of you he is not the one really in control of giving you your pleasure.

It is all up to you and your mind whether or not your body will allow his penis to ignite those sensations. You have to already have an attraction or desire for a man in order to feel any pleasure from him. This particular subject is not embarrassing and it should not be. It is important.

When i was a little girl i curiously took a mirror to see what my vagina looked like. What’s wrong with that? Nothing! None of these things mean that you are being a bad girl or fresh. It is being smart and knowledgeable.

During the very first and only time period i tried to get pregnant by attempting sexual intercourse i felt absolutely nothing, no kind of sensation or pleasure whatsoever from the penis i endured because i had no desire and emotion to be with any male. On the other hand though, i could go and stimulate my clitoris on my own while i was alone and feel all the pleasure in the world because my mind was happily accepting that i was the one who was causing sensations received by myself.

My mind and body was and is not receptive to the thought of being touched by a man since nothing about a man arouses me. My body doesn’t want something pounding inside and out, that is just plain stupid! During clitoral stimulation, there is no penetration. Only i can arouse myself as i am in love with myself. And i haven’t ever been with any other man since. That was years ago. And for the future there won’t be another one.

My vagina is strictly off limits as it has always been. There is no man anywhere around me or in my neighborhood who can honestly say that they had me or will have me because now i have the money to go to a sperm bank if i really want to.

Even if i didn’t have the money i still would not resort to lying down with a man because that is not who i am and because to me it is so unnatural. My clitoris is natural. I was born with it. I know how to take care of myself. If i want a vaginal massage, i prefer myself.

When and if i eventually do get pregnant, like i mentioned before I’d prefer to have girls. My girls because i know they’d be very similar to me i have very strong genes. If i unfortunately get pregnant with a boy I’d be very pissed off and disappointed then I’d go seek an abortion. You see, there is no way in the world that i would want or have anything male growing up inside of me.

I know the way that i feel goes against God’s will just as fornication. God would prefer that i get married then have children and accept the children no matter what the sex is especially since I’m so spiritually blessed the way that i am.

However, i have my own will. And it goes against God’s. Now i live a very clean life as it is. I never went astray. I fornicated on only one occasion and that was done purely to make a baby and not out of any type of lust but i think the act itself left me open and vulnerable to the attack of evil spirits when my enemies worked their witchcraft.

Protection comes with God’s Holy Spirit and his spirit is not to be defiled by any spiritual uncleanliness. Now while witchcraft was unable to affect my strength, mind, actions and emotions it was able to affect my progress in life by interfering with my destiny.

So it wasn’t so much about my enemies having the ability to attack me it was that at the hands of my own actions i gave them the opportunity by disobeying God and defiling his Holy Spirit. If i had been married the act would’ve been clean.

Nevertheless, you know what? I still say even though i am spiritually restored now i don’t think that was fair. And life is not fair. I am a very good person and i don’t deny the power and works of the Lord but my heart is hardened against the way God set certain things.

The only real big sin that i was and am guilty of is rebellion. I still refuse to want to do it the Lord’s way by getting married to have a child and I’d still get an abortion or want to if i ever get pregnant with a male child. If i did get married I’d just be using the man for what i want. It just wouldn’t work out.

I lose patience in just two weeks of being around a man. And like i said before I’d never have any sexual dealings with a man as long as i live so if i lose God’s partial protection again by trying to conceive a child out of wedlock through going to a sperm bank and getting rid of a fetus because it turns out to be a boy then the Lord is just not right. My feelings will never change even if i risk spending an eternity burning in hell for it.

The All Seeing Truth Not Blinded By The Lies

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-confessions/

I’m Steps Ahead

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Thursday, September 21, 2006 at 9:15 AM EDT

As some may know at birth i was born with a double veil which means that i have very strong spiritual abilities. Aside from already being intelligent the reason i have so much knowledge is because i am a very accurate clairvoyant.

This is the month of September, there is only about three and a half more months left before a new year comes in and still my enemies won’t stop endeavoring to destroy me. I’m so tired of having to mention them but they just won’t leave me alone.

I don’t write about each an everything they do and have done but i write about a great deal of their actions because they definitely need to be exposed and because i’m not afraid to and will continue to speak on the things going on in the world that aren’t right.

While there are some in the world aware of my enemies wrongdoings due to their own experiences or through the experiences of others or through things that get wind there are still a great deal who aren’t aware and Divine Spirit may be using me to get the word out to deserving people who are in the dark.

I know i am not the only one who these type of sick people are doing this to it just so happens that i’m a spiritually gifted person who is well aware an in tune with what is going on around me. And i also have a significant source of protection in my favor that my enemies don’t seem and choose to accept.

Obviously they have greatly underestimated my strength, knowledge, power, and purpose. I am set way apart from them and this world-if not they would have been had me by now. They’ll never get me. No one can stop what my higher power almighty “Orisha” puts out!

I am a person who is pure in heart and in mind.

I don’t, and never have smoked, indulged in drugs or alcohol, and i don’t have sexual relations with anyone and that is my business. It is who i am what keeps me strong and standing. My physical self as well as spiritual-but more so my spiritual self because my spirit has got me the way that i am.

I’m truly a good person. This is all a part of my character. I live a clean life which causes no strains in my life because i am naturally this way. In the same it is in a way making me a target.

The way that i am may be foreign to a lot of people but i feel the same way about them. Their way of life is foreign to me and i may think of some of their lifestyles as crazy nevertheless i don’t care.

To me, smoking is stupid, alcohol unnecessary, and men the easiest thing to stay away from.

Now, i don’t knock anybody for what they do because i don’t do it, it’s just i don’t stand for any belittlement for the way how i live my life especially since i’m very proud of the person i was born to be.

This past Sunday and Monday things got a little heated “as far as my enemies are concerned”.

They started their usual crap when they “think” they’re “doing something”. I guess they spent a lot of time indulging in their chanting and candle burning to try to have an affect on my emotions that never really works on me anyway. So when they see me they proceed with talk that is suppose to make me paranoid, nervous, or feel down.

You see, i’ve always known these things because i’m fed knowledge through spirits and intelligence.

Within those two days, as soon as i came into their view, they began referring to me in a sexual nature. In other words insinuating that i’m a wild sex-crazed person who sleeps around all of the time.

As smart as i am i don’t understand why they stay on this particular subject when it comes to them using witchcraft to try to bring me down. With all of the other lies that they can use to say at me they stay on this whore tip. They don’t make any utterances about me being a crackhead, lesbian, or thief. It’s always mostly about me being the big whore that they absolutely wish i was. And it’s so interesting since i know i have never actually done any of the things they are describing yet they feel it should bother me.

So on Monday night when a small crowd finished uttering things about me which never existed i overheard one say to another “It’s not working”.

And, the other responded “It’s okay” or “Don’t worry about it” something to that nature.

They gave themselves away!

Why should it work on me? What they are doing is crazy. They even got certain people on my job going along with it by acting stupid. How can i get paranoid or feel down about things that don’t have anything to do with me? Shit they all created?

Like i mentioned before they have greatly underestimated me.

I know they want me to have a mental and emotional breakdown but i never have, i’m far from it, and so on to them. I wonder how many people they’ve succeeded with who didn’t know any better. It is such a shame. I hope more an more people catch on to these type of sick peoples games because for so many years they have been destroying the lives of so many good people who may have thought that they were crazy due to the subtlety of this matter.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/im-steps-ahead/

Games, Mind Games

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 10:57 AM EDT

I can understand testing someone to see where they may be coming from and a lot of people do it. Then you have those who are out to deceive as a way of life. I despise game-players. Their actions have always been so obvious to me as they thought they were at their slickest.

I’ve watched people run games on other people, messing with their minds in order to gain something from them, to hurt them, or to mislead them for their own personal self-satisfaction.

If someone comes to me playing games it really burns me up because i have never been anybody’s fool.

What kills me about these sick people is when they actually think that they’re getting over with their false words and false actions, and by mixing lies with the truth.

I ask myself “Are they that dumb?” And “Do they think that i am suppose to be dumb?” I know a lot of the time it’s not personal since they do these tricks on a lot of people but some need to realize that they’re making an ass out of themselves.

People are not so stupid.

They may let you believe that you’re fooling them because i have done it. I played the game right along back to assholes who thought they were smart yet too stupid to realize i was way onto them.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/games-mind-games/

Level, Mentality

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 4:04 AM EDT

I’ve mentioned before in the past that people believe and think what they want to think even if it is not the truth. And how i’ve always hated ignorant people since i was a child.

I’m not the smartest person in the entire world but i’m very far from a dummy.

There are so many people walking around with false knowledge. Plenty of those who are up there in age still have misconceptions about certain things going on in life. And if you dare to tell them that their information is wrong they don’t want to hear it especially if it’s coming from a person that is much younger who knows what they’re talking about.

One person’s truth is another person’s lie due to the difference in their points of view and how they may see things.

I’ve learned in life that many people generalize, they don’t know any other way of life and when they get around those who differ from them in ways of thinking and behavior they don’t understand then choose to classify them by their limited definitions of what they’re use to.

As far as i am concerned the world is fucked up period. And all that i know is that i don’t have any time for shit that don’t make no sense to me and i have seen and heard a lot of crazy stuff that is considered normal among many.

It is very important to have an accurate amount of street-smarts, book smarts, and spiritual smarts to survive in this world.

A whole lot of people are getting high these days so they’re in their own world making up their own rules, and whatever age they started experimenting with drugs and then continue on to use them, will be the same mind-set that will carry them for the rest of their life. So if a person begins taking drugs at sixteen and is still on them by the age of sixty he or she remains on that sixteen year old level.

Even the little children these days are born crazy. Seven and eight year old girls are wearing thongs. I’m thirty-one years old and have never walked around with shit sticking up my ass in between the cheeks.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/level-mentality/

Hatred

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 12:58 AM EDT

I’ve heard some people say that it isn’t good or healthy for one to go around carrying hate in their heart. And that it’s a waste of time to hate when it comes to feeling that particular way towards another person because they may not know how you feel about them.

I say that may be true for some but not for all.

I have hatred for certain people in the world and it’s not the hate itself that is the problem it is not being able to do anything with the hatred. Nasty things that we may want to do to people may get us in serious trouble and things that we may want to happen to them sometimes don’t.

And those who may hate us also often feel the same way. So to me it’s not the hatred that is agitating it is when you’re not able to put your hatred into action.

Everyone is an individual so people have their own minds.

I personally don’t focus on the people i hate every day. It’s sometimes when one of them or their kind fucks with me or someone who shares my opinions that makes me think of what needs to be done to them. Otherwise i’m fine.

Hatred does not interfere in my happiness because it’s a come and go thing.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/hatred/

Kill People With Kindness?

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 12:39 AM EDT

I have never been the type to kiss anybody’s ass especially when they talk shit to me. However, there are times when you do have to hold back even if you don’t really want to.

Around the first week at my job i met a couple of managers i didn’t like right away. I have come in contact with many types of people throughout my life and i’ve always been able to read people. I know who is good, i know who is no good and i know who is in between. So when i saw the few managers that i knew would be trouble i knew how to handle them. And it worked.

I got a promotion, not all just for my work, but for my positive attitude. I don’t put on airs i just be extra courteous to those who may not deserve it.

I don’t like that i have to behave so humbly on a job that ain’t all that fabulous but i’m motivated by the money, nothing else. My mind is more on what i’m really meant to be and do in life and i’ll get there soon. A customer even came into the store and said please don’t do this forever because i’m way too smart too be working there. I told her i had other plans.

Meanwhile, i make sure to avoid conflicts.

The day before yesterday, one of the female managers over me didn’t want to admit that she failed to include certain information while instructing me to do something and she got a little stink in her attitude and i definitely didn’t like it. I wanted to put her in her place because i knew i was in the right but i had to hold my tongue to keep my job.

She is a manager so she is going to cover her ass because if she leaves things out it shows irresponsibility on her part to those higher over her so naturally she’ll put the shit on me. She doesn’t deny though that i’m a very good worker and that she was on the warpath that particular day but that it wasn’t with me. This was a hint to me to be on guard with her and it confirms things that i read about her when i first met her.

What is wrong with making a mistake? Nobody is perfect. She didn’t want to take fault for one of her own actions and it was something minor.

Last month i overheard a co-worker saying how once this woman became a manager the position went to her head and i see it in more ways than one. I know things like this go on all throughout life in many circumstances. Sometimes us as people have to do what we don’t want just to get where we need to be. We have to put up with people who we don’t like just to keep the peace or to be professional. And we sometimes have to go along with the program while we’re interacting with others.

I don’t have to live with these people so it’s really no big deal. I always keep aware that there will always be people who will cause trouble at some point or another, though. And incidents like these are reminders.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/kill-people-with-kindness/

Set Ups

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 12:06 AM EDT

When i first started working at my job my enemies who i don’t even know personally tried to discourage me by attempting to intimidate me in their own ignorant ways. All their efforts were definitely in vain because nobody has ever been able to scare me or to stop me from doing what i have or wanted to accomplish.

It is a shame how far people will go when they want to destroy another person’s life due to the fact that they don’t have a life of their own that is worth anything.

Most of my days here on earth people have been interfering with my progress through the works of witchcraft and my great-grandmother Amanda Byars was one of the ringleaders.

The witchcraft never gave my enemies the results they were looking for as far as controlling me and my mind because i was too strong and good of a person so my Ancestors and Orishas protected me in that aspect. But it worked as a blockage in certain areas of my life by preventing a lot of wonderful things that were suppose to come my way.

I was born to have strong success through my intelligence and talents which my destiny has bestowed on me. I was supposed to have a totally different life than what i have now. I should be on a much higher level when it comes to “setting”. I put all my enemies witchcraft to an end! It’s been put to an end for a while now. I’m not going to tell how i did it but their shit is finally over. They can keep trying out of their ignorance and denial but like i said they’re doomed. Just take my word for it! I have a new beginning now with no more interference.

I’m doing everything that my enemies never wanted to see. I never had a breakdown or a major downfall. I’ve managed to maintain myself all of these years with a healthy growth and more knowledge that they’ll never recognize in me or be able to acquire for themselves. And just to think, that they actually thought they could stop me. They were too stupid to realize that their kind aren’t anything to me or compared to me.

And i don’t give a darn what they feel about me.

They ain’t shit to be scared or worried about. I can see right through them. But they believed that because there was so many of them against me they would overcome me. To me, it’s not the quantity but the quality of something. There can be just one person who is of substance with true backbone who is able to conquer such as myself while there are millions who are garbage that will fall as they did.

I’m working at a J.C. Penny’s department store located inside a mall. It’s no big deal to me but the money is good for me while i build back up my writing career that was put to a halt when the witchcraft my enemies had worked on me backfired then affected the success i was suppose to been have achieved.

I intend to work there at the store until my career takes off.

And, my enemies had the nerve to try to stop this little job that i have. They sent this woman there who tried to pick an argument with me which i didn’t feed into. So she went and found a manager who happened to be the same male manager that i mentioned in my “Love Spell” post on this blog and i found that quite “fishy”.

Out of all the managers who work there. Approximately three hundred people work at my J.C. Penny’s department store and she just so happens to run into that asshole.

The woman told lies on me to get me fired but it didn’t turn out the way she and the others who were in on this set up planned.

Managers there didn’t believe her story and she was stupid because cameras are hooked up all over the place and there are plenty of co-workers around who listen and see things that go on. Their dirt and lies aren’t going far as the way that it use to when they had binding spells and spells to destroy me in action.

Things are reversed now and are still reversing. They have a lifetime of their own dirt to reap.

I can just imagine how many good people these low-lifes destroyed and tried to destroy, it is so sickening to me. But i’m a fighter and a conqueror by nature. I am one who will always take a chunk out of them in a battle of good vs bad.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/set-ups/

Love Spells

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Friday, July 28, 2006 at 12:57 AM EDT

As my faithful readers who believe in me may already know i’m not and have never been interested in men. Nevertheless, there have always been men who were interested in me whether their motives were negative or positive and it didn’t matter to me at all since i’d never had any sexual or emotional feelings or desires for a man.

Well, on my job this Caucasian guy took an interest in me not too long ago and i definitely did not want to be bothered with him (in my opinion, interracial dating or relations is great for those who are interested, If I ever got the chance to go to a sperm bank I’d definitely purchase the sperm of a white person).

My second day at work two months ago he’d just become manager over me and it wasn’t so long after that i noticed that he was attracted to me. And right around that same particular time during my first week i lost a set of keys to my locker. From then on my new manager was overly attentive to me in two ways that i immediately caught on to. He’d compliment me on my work as did many of the other managers did and there was absolutely nothing wrong with that.

However, giving me praise was just an excuse to lean his way on over to chat with me. I never really gave him too much conversation i kept my words strictly business.

He usually talks and jokes around with other co-workers also just like a lot of outgoing people do. With me though, he had a purpose, an ulterior motive which didn’t take me long to figure out completely.

Three days after i lost my keys thoughts of him invaded my mind and i instantly knew that he was attempting to set me up for a downfall. I am very spiritually inclined due to the unique gift i have so my warning took me steps ahead of him.

No, he didn’t know me well enough or at all to have a fair initiative to want to harm me though i was quite sure he knew people who know of me who’d just love to stir up some stupid shit. They’ve already spread billions of lies about me in the past that have greatly failed to discourage me so why not try to do me in some more until they get it right!

Anyway, to make a short story even shorter.

My manager’s plans didn’t work by trying to make me attracted then drawing me nearer to him by the use of evil witchcraft so now he’s mad and extremely embarrassed because i know about it. Believe it or not witchcraft is being practiced more so now than ever, it is a way of life for many but i’m not going to get into that particular subject right now.

I will mention this though, if i were into men he still would have never stood a chance with me since i smelled his nasty stinking ass.

And, the summer hadn’t even came yet. It was the spring and he stunk real bad. I smelled my manager on three occasions. I don’t know if he’d slept with a woman then hadn’t washed for a couple of days but whatever the situation was the odor was terrible.

Currently, i ignore this asshole as he has tried to pettily annoy me in indirect ways. He’s jealous of me because he was at the job longer and i got a promotion real quick. He’s the type to think that all young black women are loose and stupid. It eats him up inside to see one that has it all together and who could go real far in life. That is totally all his problem! I don’t speak to him, i keep my distance. I never bothered him anyway. He was always approaching me.

This past Monday he brought some girl (a black female) where we work holding her hand to try to take the slack off of him but i know that game and he saw it didn’t work with me.

He is as guilty as sin and got caught red handed so there is no need to try to cover it up with me to ease up his embarrassment. He’s a nothing, a nobody. He can try to start and talk as much shit as he wants to but he better wake up because i am definitely not a woman that he should fuck with! And he needs to realize this before he regrets it!

Thank goodness he’s not my manager any more. Since i got promoted i have a female manager over me.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/love-spells/

My Job

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006 at 2:47 PM EDT

I’ve been very busy lately as i work evenings and weekends. I don’t have the time to write like i use to but when i do get the chance i write as often as i can. I’ll never give up my first love!

Today is one of my off days and i usually spend my Tuesdays and Wednesdays chillin’ out.

I have been working hard at my new job for exactly one whole month now and my good efforts have definitely paid off for me.

The people over me at my place of work give me nothing but praise and compliments regarding the work that i do and already after the first two weeks of my employment i got a promotion. Wasn’t that very quick?! It usually takes months for people to receive a promotion after just being hired.

Luckily i was recognized early on and got moved a step up.

I like what i do. I love the money that i make, i earn a really good salary. I love the hours i have. I like the hour long bus ride i take just to get to work, and i love the area and environment where my job is located at. I got it goin’ on!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-job/

Body Image

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Friday, May 12, 2006 at 10:07 AM EDT

I’m not self-conscious about anything when it comes to me. I really appreciate the things that i am blessed with. I like the way i look, i like how i talk, i like the way i think, i like the way i walk. and i like how i act. Everything about me is real, natural, and extraordinary!

I have a very slim figure. I love the shape and size of my body, and if nobody else does that is their problem. What does anyone else’s opinion have to do with me?

I listen to some people and how they are so obsessed with their appearance due to what they feel are society’s standards of how one should be displayed.

And, some people starve themselves to be thin by eating then intentionally vomiting up their food or by just not eating at all. Anorexia and Bulimia are quite ridiculous.

I use to be much heavier when i was in my early teens.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with being solid or chubby if you are healthy. The reason i felt i had to get rid of the weight that i had is because my thighs started rubbing together and i’d run out of breath easily. But i don’t cut off my food supply to look a certain way. My metabolism has changed since then so i can eat whatever i want and don’t gain anything.

I do a lot of walking and my energy burns fat off.

But for those who’s food does stick to them rather quickly, so what? Who has the right to say extra meat on one’s bones is not attractive? I’d never compromise myself to be so-called “beautified” to anyone’s bullshit standards. As a black person i may be considered too skinny to some. A lot of black women’s trademarks are having huge behinds, thick thighs, and big hips. I’ve been there, it doesn’t mean a thing to me! I’m little now. I’ve had a little body for a long time now and i love it!

We have to be happy with ourselves and make ourselves happy.

No one can ever make me feel bad about myself because i love myself way too much. If someone doesn’t approve of the way you appear maybe they’re not good enough to be around you, and that goes for anyone- an associate, boyfriend, relative and whoever else!

When i style my hair i do it for me and not to impress people that i come into contact with on the outside. I’ll do my hair when i don’t go out! When i wear my clothes it’s to look good and decent for myself because i may like “my own shit”.

And when others do appreciate or compliment anything about you it can be cool but it shouldn’t be the most important because when you completely and genuinely are secure and approve of yourself anything that anyone feels about you-nice or nasty-won’t be of any deep “fazing”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/body-image/

Skeletons In The Closet

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Friday, April 07, 2006 at 5:20 PM EDT

I’ve heard some people say that everybody has skeletons in their closet, shameful things they regret and want to keep as a secret. Yes, everybody makes mistakes and may have regrets, nevertheless, everything is not a “Skeleton In The Cupboard”.

Some people just don’t want to be alone in the things that they do, and have done. So it’s more comforting for them to believe everybody has something dirty on their slate. I’ve also heard people say that some need to stop thinking they’re better than other people because everybody has problems. Yeah, a lot do have problems but why should that count as to whether or not they feel more superior if they want to? Sometimes it is people who give other people their problems. They don’t always make problems on their own.

I have never cared what anyone did in their life as long as they stayed out of my business but sometimes there are those who get so insecure about certain things that they wish they could take back, and try to poke a finger at someone else to make them not feel they’re as high as they think they are.

Some people have tried that shit with me, insinuating that because i didn’t work for anyone for a long period of time (before i became an adult and in my early twenties) that i never tried to do anything for myself or took care of my self financially. Those rumors came from my jealous and crazy great-grandmother who couldn’t do nothing in her life but iron clothes. How much effort does it take to get wrinkles out? There’s no brain work in it.

I didn’t pay it no attention, it’s was all bullshit! I had my own money before i started publishing books, buying my own and paying my way. I just don’t like authority so i prefer to work on my own.

A lot of people have their own hang-ups. And they have to deal with their own unresolved issues without using others as a scapegoat. Some think if one was put into their particular predicament of things that they would do or make the same choices they did.

I know one thing, and i can speak beforehand. I don’t care what hardships life may hand over there are certain things i know i’ll refuse to bring myself to do-even if my life depended on it! I’ll never sell my ass, i’ll never use drugs, and i’ll never commit a murder for anyone.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/skeletons-in-the-closet/

Anger

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Friday, March 24, 2006 at 8:34 PM EST

Anger is a normal emotion. It’s okay to get angry. The important thing is what you do with your anger, how you handle it.

It takes a lot to get me significantly angry. And when i get mad sometimes the outcome is not good because i have a ferocious temper.

I have gotten revenge on people who have done me wrong and in my eyes i was justified in doing so. Sometimes though, you have to think before giving in to actions initiated by anger. Some matters that lead to trouble are easy to get in then hard to get out of.

So far, i haven’t experienced any serious consequences due to retaliating out of my anger, nevertheless, there is a first time for everything and some things aren’t worth the effort.

People often get back what they deserve so priceless time doesn’t have to be wasted when life will naturally make them reap whatever they may have sowed, and you can move on satisfied without having had to lift a finger.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/anger/

The Company One Keeps

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Friday, March 24, 2006 at 8:23 PM EST

Many believe in the expression “birds of a feather flock together” and i believe that most of the time the saying is true because people usually get along and hang around with people who have things in common with them. Then, there is a similar saying, “people judge you by the company you keep”.

I grew up in a neighborhood where i’m nothing like the majority of the people, i don’t relate to them at all. However, i use to be around them. You don’t really have to share the same characteristics as a person to be in their company. Everybody in my immediate family smoked and i never did, or picked the habit up. Some of them drank alcohol too. If i wasn’t influenced and copied anything which i’ve seen members of my family do why would i be influenced by anybody on the outside?

Some people think that if you keep in the same company with those who are considered bad news long enough you may eventually go in their particular direction. I’ve been around plenty of no good people, and not always by choice. But when i did associate with those who wasn’t in my class i had my own specific reasons that weren’t negative.

It is good and beneficial to have experience with people who are not like you because you’ll know what to watch out for, how to handle them, and why it can be so very important to stay away from them if they’re not your “cup of tea”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/the-company-one-keep/

Hurt/Embarrassment

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Friday, March 24, 2006 at 8:08 PM EST

Everybody gets hurt in one way or another in their lives whether it is physical or emotional. What i had to learn growing up is that some people get their feelings hurt by certain things that are said to them. I’ve also learned that some people will say or do things to hurt others with the same particular things that would hurt them.

Believe it or not, there have been people who have lashed out on me about things they automatically assumed would be hurtful but their words and actions didn’t affect me. And they either considered me to be crazy or just a very strong person. The way i see it is that it may have to do with the level some people are on. If you think and feel a certain way about certain things in life and are knowledgeable regarding them, what some consider to be hurtful won’t necessarily have any bearing.

People have told me that i hurt their feelings and i wasn’t even aware of it because i didn’t find what i said or done to be anything harmful. I didn’t intentionally set out to hurt them and it taught me how there are things which seem little to me that mean a whole lot to someone else.

I got hit by a car when i was ten years old. The moment it happened i was taken off guard. Instantly, right after i got hit i flew up into the air and luckily landed on my behind without any broken bones. I did feel soreness days later. I learned as i grew older that a lot of people consider an incident like that one to be an embarrassing situation, especially since i was able to get up and run afterwards. But what i really had felt was startled. I was in shock. I didn’t feel any shame or awkwardness because people witnessed the scene. If anything, it scared me because i didn’t realize what was going on until i flew up into the air, heard a woman scream, then hit the ground.

I am aware that people don’t want to be seen, or deny the way something happened and affected them, when they are embarrassed. In spite of that, everybody’s actions aren’t the result of generalized perceptions held by most. People often get embarrassed due to how they feel others will view them and their situation.

What embarrasses a lot of people doesn’t embarrass me, half the time i don’t even know why they give people the power to make them feel self-conscious about certain things that are inevitable.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/hurtembarrassment/

People In The Church

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Saturday, February 11, 2006 at 8:46 AM EST

Some people in the church are the worst people out there. They use their God as a cover, to hide what they really are. Some feel that everybody has skeletons in their closet and that nobody is a saint because everyone has done something wrong and made mistakes in life. But there is a difference between being unscrupulous and making honest mistakes. And everybody who has done something bad is not innately a bad person.

People often have their own interpretations of what is right or wrong and judge others by their own standards. What i’ve observed though, is that people who are too religious and act overly self-righteous have serious issues with themselves. They’ve done things in life that they can’t handle and tend to put their own insecurities on others to mask what they regret.

Sometimes what they see in another person is just a reminder of what they could have been. There is just as much gossip and dirt going on in some churches as there is anywhere else in the world. Some people just go to church for a fashion show, dressing to impress. Some go to church to meet a man. And some just keep putting on airs. Going to church doesn’t prove that one is a good person. You can have church in your own home. Having your God or deity in your heart is what truly matters.

 

i think you have a point here. but i’ve grown so much in my faith by
being around others who have a genuine faith in God… and they’re out
there… and they help me stay on the right path when i get all messed
upby life. so, yeah, some Christians are just putting on a show… but other
Christians show me what its all supposed to be about.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/people-in-the-church/

Knucklehead Men

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006 at 2:11 PM EST
I’m a nice-looking woman but i don’t understand why knucklehead men continue to try to talk to me. They should be able to look at me and see that they don’t stand a chance. They’re undesirable and i don’t even mess around with men anyway.

Men have always been the easiest thing for me to stay away from. “All men are not the same” or, ” have you been in a bad relationship?” Is what some have said and asked me after hearing how i feel about men. And it has nothing to do with either one. I know that all men aren’t the same and that there are good nice men out there i just naturally don’t want to be with one and i’m tired of hearing about it.

“Why you don’t get married?” “You should be married”. What is the big deal with these people? I don’t need a man! They don’t do anything for me. I’m not telling them not to be with a man, i don’t care what people do with their life. Why be worried about me? I’ve never been in a bad romantic relationship because i never had any feelings for a man. I’ve seen other’s around me who were in relationships and i don’t understand it. When they find out their man is cheating they go crazy, i couldn’t care less where a man sticks his penis, how would it hurt me? His body doesn’t belong to me.

And these knucklehead men, you can tell them that you don’t want them and they push themselves on you anyway. Some of them like a challenge or they’re just plain sick because to get back at you and to impress their stupid friends they’ll sometimes say they had you! They use other women to try an make you jealous and you don’t even want them, or women who do want them they try to use you to make them jealous-a bunch of silly shit. And these be full grown men!

More than once i’ve watched guys profile in front of me, trying to make me have a crush on them, and some thinking if they get me i’ll fall all over them. Bullshit! That will never happen. Not in a million years. Can’t no penis take my mind. I know a girl on my block who got sexually whipped by a guy and he married her and got her eating out of his hand. He cheats on her too.

I can’t count how many male associates who were in relationships with women that told me what they be doing behind their girlfriends back. And some women are so stupid they won’t even believe it, they’ll get mad at you for telling them and their man will deny it ,of course, and make you out to be the bad person. But i never got involve with that.

I have a relative who loves to watch the Maury show and Jerry Springer, and almost every day it’s the same ole thing. Somebody fighting over somebody else’s man or woman, and women crying because they don’t know who their baby’s daddy is or because the man don’t want to take care of the child.

If i had a baby it darn sure wouldn’t matter to me if the man didn’t want to be there. I don’t understand none of that nonsense. I couldn’t sit up and watch them kind of shows every day. There are knucklehead women out there too who won’t leave men who don’t want to be bothered alone but when it comes to a man it’s a little worse because they have those pathetic egos.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/knucklehead-men-2/

AIDS

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Sunday, February 05, 2006 at 4:37 PM EST

I watch the news every day and yesterday i heard that HIV is on the rise more so now than ever. That 80,000 people are infected with AIDS, and 20,000 are infected and they don’t even know it.

I heard it is said that AIDS doesn’t have a look, that you can’t tell who might have it but that is not true. A neighbor and i have even discussed this issue. HIV shows up a lot in a person’s face. Sometimes their cheeks are sucked in. And some of them have twitches similar to a drug-addict, their bodies may appear stiff and they talk out of their heads.

Some people with HIV or full blown AIDS are very hurt, angry, or depressed and when they find out that they’ve contracted the deadly disease they intentionally go out and spread it to other people. Instead of doing this they should go and seek some serious counseling. But all can’t be reached by this method they are going to go do what they feel while they’re in their emotional state.

So the only thing that i can say to anyone who is having sex and cares about their bodies be very cautious in this day and age because people don’t care. Even if it’s someone that you think you can trust beware, you never know. Protect yourself the best way you know how. You only get one life to live and life is too short to be miserable living with such a foul incurable disease when you could be enjoying a happy healthy life.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/aids/

Happiness

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Saturday, February 04, 2006 at 11:13 AM EST

I find joy in having a peace of mind. I find joy in the strength that my ancestors gave me.

I found joy during bad times because when darkness was around me my light still shined, leading me straight to the path of my success.

True joy comes from the Orishas.

And the joy that i have the world didn’t give it to me, and the world can’t take it away.

 

 

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It is nice to know that somewhere along the road of discovering ourselves, whether struggles or lessons, We come across realizing that we meet half conciousness of the society we belong too. Keep track knowing God deeply, cause i am sure innate happiness is so intimate that nobody could ever take it away from you. The feeling of security comes with solitude cause God is with you.Godbless. :)

Posted by Life_Quest on Monday, April 17, 2006 10:15 AM EDT

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Cultural Mix

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Saturday, February 04, 2006 at 11:06 AM EST

Ever since i was a little girl i’ve been exposed to all races of people. My mother wanted me to learn about other different cultures because that is what our world is made up of. I’m a black woman who from kindergarten on up went to school with a wide range of different nationalities and that experience was very beneficial to me and my life.

It is no good to be limited in life. The more you know the further you can go.There will always be prejudice out there in the world and everybody doesn’t have to like everybody but i can get along with anybody if i want to be bothered because i know how to socialize on many levels. I just don’t get along with low-life people, i can’t tolerate them, however knuckleheads come in a variety of races.

There have been a few people of other nationalities who were bias against me but i didn’t take it personal because i didn’t care, to me that was their problem. Then there have been quite a few who were very generous to me, one trusting me with her ATM card, and some trusting that i had their best interest but i think that was more of a trust issue than a racial one.

Other races, more so white people, always tried to help me get ahead in life. They treated me better than those of my own nationality. A lot of blacks don’t like to see their own kind prosper if they don’t have anything good going on for them. They are too busy being ignorant and jealous, gossiping and trying to hold people back by doing underhanded things. Instead of putting effort into ruining someone else’s life they need to learn how to conduct themselves and raise their black children right! Some people also don’t like race mixing.

I have blood relatives who are of another race so that matter doesn’t faze me. Some black people want to mix with other races for stupid reasons, because they want their children to come out pretty with light skin and nice hair, when they should be getting with someone for more sincere reasons.

I never really judged people solely on what nationality they were but i will admit that my family didn’t like Haitian and Jamaican people. We didn’t have any of them in our family. Like i said, everybody don’t have to like everybody-nobody’s perfect. We should be good to those who are good to us.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/cultural-mix/

Self Love/Self Esteem

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 at 3:54 PM EST

If someone puts you down do you feel bad about yourself? If someone doesn’t like the way you look or the way that you live your life do you alter yourself or your ways? Do you change what makes you happy to please somebody else?

When i was a child there were other children who didn’t like me and who criticized me or made fun of me, and as i grew up i learned to be grateful to those experiences because it helped to make me who i am today. Most of the time individuals who go around intentionally trying to hurt others are suffering from their own battles with low self esteem. So they inadvertently tell on themselves by irrationally acting out. Lashing out at another makes them feel good, giving them a false sense of security.

It is sad when some feel that they have to make other people feel bad just to feel good about themselves. Things in life can either make you or break you and i learned at a very early age that i am suppose to love everything about myself even if nobody else does. And i always did! None of us are perfect human beings but you have to put yourself first and never let anybody walk all over you and take advantage of your kindness. There are plenty who will take kindness for weakness.

And a lot of people have some type of insecurity that affects them in their life. Jealousy has never been an insecurity of mine. That is one of the worse things out there. Certain people have always been jealous of me though. So i do know about other peoples insecurities. And when you love yourself ultimately and learn how to carry yourself that way there will be no need for you to be jealous of another.

In general, people should respect themselves and make sure that they are respected by others!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/self-loveself-esteem/

Wisdom

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 at 3:08 PM EST

Does wisdom really come with age? For some it may, but definitely not for all and i know this from my own experience. Every old person is not wise and every young person is not dumb. I’m not all that young and i’m definitely not old and i have a hell of a lot on the cap! And i’ve seen in life quite a few brilliant young people and a lot of stupid older people.

Don’t get me wrong, i like and respect wise old people who are open-minded and who know what they are talking about but nothing is worse than a ignorant person who won’t listen to reason. When i was a little girl growing up there were people older than me that i hated because they would underestimate me and accuse me of being a way that i wasn’t.

However, there were smarter adults who liked me and could see that i was a very smart and good child who had to grow up around a lot of no good people. And my great-grandmother was one devilish person that i had to grow up around, always interfering in my mother’s life trying to destroy us.

The old bat is still alive. She’s about ninety or ninety-one now. When my “greasy great-granny” was in her early eighties she was still having sexual intercourse, and with a married man. She even let this man take pictures of her as she wore a light-blue see-through negligee. I saw the pictures a while back in the mid-nineties, she was sitting on her couch with her large droopy tits sagging upon her belly rolls that slapped over one another.

My great-grandmother is definitely not a good example of a wise older person, in fact, she’s a dumb old broad. And i’m not going to go any further in explaining by airing dirty laundry it’s not necessary. My point is, one is never too old to learn something in life and a lot of older people may be surprised to find out just how much knowledge someone younger has stored up inside their mind. Sometimes it is what you have experienced within your time and not how much time you’ve experienced!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/wisdom/

Talk

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 at 1:46 PM EST

People are going to talk about you whether you do good or whether you do bad. And people spread lies about people each and every day. People will smile in your face and then talk behind your back. Jealousy and envy are two of the worst things in life and often creates much hatred.

The way that i see it if you don’t like somebody stay away from them. If you can’t be happy for them stay away from them. I’m the type if i have something to say about someone i have the guts to tell them to their face i’ve always been like that. And if someone has so much to say about me behind my back go ahead just as long as you tell the truth!

There is one thing that i’ve always hated in life and that is a liar. Some people are so sick that they will believe their own lies. I am thirty years old going on thirty-one and i have never cared what people said or thought about me, i never let people interfere with my well-being.

A lot of people say they don’t care about what others say or think about them but when it really comes down to it some of them really do care. I’ve been tested many times in my life by jealous people who tried to bring me down with their bull-crap.

People in my neighborhood had the nerve to spread rumors about me running around with lots of different men then catching herpes and AIDS, all that didn’t faze me one bit especially since those were the things that they were doing and the nasty diseases that they actually have. They thought by spreading those lies i would feel bad and stay inside my house but how could i feel bad about something that i know i never did or never had? I don’t even have sex.

My advice to all those who are the victim of envious jealous people is to keep your head up and continue on with your business, day to day activities, and the things that make you happy in your life.

A lie may make you very angry but remember that you must be a very important person for a bunch of people to take out time in their lives to put a lot of their energy into trying to bring you down. If they can’t keep your name out their mouth and you are not bothering anybody you’re worth a million, and should flaunt it!

And that should make you even more determined to want to get ahead in life because obviously these particular people are going nowhere but to jail! I see them all the time standing in the same spot- on a corner, in front of their houses, talking about nothing. And most of these people be grown men with no jobs.There is absolutely nothing wrong with constructive criticism that can be helpful but no the difference when someone is trying to improve you because they care about you or if they are just insulting you to try to discourage you.

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Sex Without Emotion

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Sunday, March 12, 2006 at 3:20 PM EST

To some people sex has meaning. I’ve heard women say that a lot of emotions go into having intercourse and i don’t understand that.

To me, sex is a mind thing. I don’t see how a man sticking his penis up inside of a woman’s vagina is an expression of love.

I’ve even heard that some women will fall in love with a man after being pleasured greatly by sex. And, i don’t understand that either. I don’t see how people let sexual sensations affect their emotions. What does one have to do with the other?

It seems to me that sex is nothing but a feeling and a penis is not necessarily needed to experience pleasure. Every woman does not feel sensations from a man’s penis during sexual intercourse.

The clitoris can satisfy a woman when a man cannot and that has nothing to do with emotion or love.

If i was to engage in sexual behavior my only worthwhile reason for doing so would be for reproductive purposes. I don’t have to love, care, or have an attraction for someone to make a baby with them. I would just be sacrificing my body to get what i want and i don’t see no better reason than for a child.

There are people who believe that if a woman has sex with a man that she has no feelings for she’s being whorish. And she is considered a bad girl. Men do it all of the time but it is accepted. Some men can’t handle the thought of a woman who is naturally able to go to bed with them without having any emotions attached.

Well it exists, and i’m living proof.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/sex-without-emotion/

Witchcraft/Streetcraft

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Monday, January 30, 2006 at 10:28 AM EST

Voodoo is practiced among millions of people all over the world. To some it is a religion, a way to achieve something ordinarily unattainable to them, or to harm someone.

An old evil street-game involves the use of “Brujeria” a Spanish word for witchcraft that is a part of Santeria and Obeah. Often, a big evil spell called the “tie” which is to bind or destroy someone is invoked. “Brujeria” is a blockage. A negative energy prohibiting one from succeeding in all aspects of their life, and to make them look bad in the public eye.

These sick people take a picture or personal item of their victim and then take their belongings out into the woods and do animal sacrifices. Chickens are mostly used in their rituals. Snakes are also used sometimes. The blood from snakes are used in killing hurts. Once a spell is cast through casual contact with an item that has been conjured to unleash evil spirits to the intended victim, the street-trash begin with their game.

They harass their victim in the streets to make them paranoid if they want them to have a breakdown of some sort. They spread evil lies and gossip, and put negative thoughts and ideas into their minds to also bring them down.

Santeria changes one’s destiny, preventing them from enjoying the natural life and happiness that was preordained for them. It interferes with relationships by turning people against you, it can stop one from having children, making money, having a career and so on. It can really slow down a progression.

“Brujeria” can make one mentally or physically ill. A medical doctor won’t be able to detect what may appear as an illness because Santeria is not a medical problem it is spiritual. Only a “special” person or a person educated about Voodoo can detect when someone is “crossed”

These low-lifes do this mainly out of envy and jealousy. Most of them have screwed up their lives and hate to see someone else who is happy and living their life the right way. It is very sad that because of their own feelings of inadequacy they want to ruin another instead of accepting whatever shortcomings that they may have and try to better themselves.

The street-trash don’t have anything going on for them in their lives, they are just here in the world taking up space. These sickos need to die!

Luckily, there is a “Divine Spirit” up in the spiritual realm who puts an end to the work of evildoers.He makes their wicked devices of none effect. They worship inferior forces -which is the devil and his demons, using their limited powers to harm others. The low-lifes laugh at their victims as they are doing them in. They are very confident about getting the results that they want since they may have “crossed” more than one person in the past and destroyed them.

But just like other things in life “Brujeria” can backfire. And the evil spell goes back ten times worse than how it was sent out. And as the low-life people believe they’ve won, thinking that they’re getting away with the dirt that was done, they get struck with a very big blow!

They fail to realize that “Divine Spirit” is in charge, he is the only supreme force who is in control of all particular things, making all their sick efforts in vain.

He gives them just enough rope to hang themselves. But they’re too stupid to see their own downfall in the making. They think that their victim is the stupid one as they continue on working their witchcraft, actually believing they are the ones in control of things.

And that’s when their own feet are taken in the net that they prepared for someone else!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/witchcraftstreetcraft/