Category Archives: inspiration

Name-Calling

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Monday, January 30, 2006 at 9:53 AM EST

Words such as “Bitch” or “Slut” seem to be a verbal weapon among many, especially from a man towards a woman. But do those words really have any significance? Not to me they don’t!

The only power a person gets by saying those words is the power that you give to them.

Those type of words do offend a lot of women. But if you really dig down deep into it, words like that are stupid and don’t have to be hurtful. By putting emphasis on them then you give them meaning. And that can go for any word someone may throw at you as an insult.

Remember, even if someone thinks that you are putting up a front because you don’t respond to their nonsense keep ignoring them, that way of thinking is just a result of their own small-mindedness.

A great mind doesn’t have time to store garbage that does not apply to them! Never place value on idle words.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/name-calling/

My Book Club

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Monday, January 30, 2006 at 9:39 AM EST

When my first book came out some were very happy for me, but to me having a book published was really no big deal because i’d been writing ever since i was a child. I was born with the natural ability to write. I could have gotten the short stories that i use to write as a child published when i had the opportunity however i declined on the offer.

Now that i actually do have books out there on the market it caused a lot of jealousy among people who were already envious of me to begin with. Certain people don’t like my books because they don’t like to hear the truth. Some like to downplay what i write because they don’t really want to believe that i have the abilities that i have, and they don’t appreciate my knowledge.

Other peoples opinions have no bearing on me because i know who i am and what i’m about and what i’m very capable of doing. There is too big a world out here for me to care about who does or does not like me or what i write about. There are people who are fond of my writing and there are people who are not that’s their prerogative.

It’s a shame that people like to see you fail when they are jealous of you. And when they see that you’re not going to fail they interfere with your career to make it appear as if you failed on your own. Surely, there have been quite a few who have tried to get in my way but they are going to have to do a hell of a lot more than work evil on me, spread vicious lies and rumors, and threaten me because i’m not going to stop what i want to do for anybody!

Order My Cup Overflows for 13.00 Written By Me, Latoya Lawrence Call 1-800-788-7654

It’s a biographical tale of my life growing up as a child. And it’s a story of love, violence, jealousy, street-life and the supernatural.

Order Danielle’s Diary for 14.50 Written By Me, Latoya Lawrence Call 1-888-280-7715

It’s a fictional tale of a neglected teenage girl and her younger siblings. And it’s a story of a mother who sits by and lets her daughter be abused at the hands of her degenerate boyfriend.

My books can also be ordered through Barnes&Noble.com and Amazon.com and other online stores.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-book-club-2/

Special Wisdom

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 4:17 PM EDT

I’ve always been able to take large peeks into the future. And no, that at all does not make me a genius. But it does make me very aware of what i can expect to happen in my life and in the lives of certain others.

All of my years here on earth i’ve been criticized, misjudged, lied on, hated, and the object of much envy and jealousy among some just like a lot of others have.

One thing i know to count on though and that is i eventually come out on top regardless of the trials i have to sometimes go through or the peoples predictions of what me and my life will turn out to be.

There have been older people in their fifties who were beneath me and who had the nerve to talk down to me, telling me that because they were older than me that made them more knowledgeable and more experienced when it came to going through things. They were sheer fools when they spoke those words to me!

I, one of the people down here on earth who can tell them all about the life that they think they’ve lived and what they will live ahead, am experienced in a way they’ll never know and they need to be more respectful toward people who are able to stir up that type of power.

I feel i’ve been here before, and when i die i don’t want to come back again. I don’t think i know everything because i don’t, but i do know a lot and nothing in this world really excites or surprises me. I’m just making do until “Divine Spirit” uses me for whatever it is that he wants me to do, and brings me into whatever it is that is meant.

And i admit that while i kill time here, it gets boring going over the same shit with certain kinds of people that i already know the answers to, i’m not learning anything new through their actions and way of life as i watch them. And, maybe i just don’t care! I’d benefit more from those who have and seek foundation, we all learn and grow when we’re on that path.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/special-wisdom/

God

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:56 PM EDT

It is said that nobody is above God and that we are not suppose to ask “why?” Why things have to be the way they are, and why whatever else.

And i may cross the line when i say this but i feel that i do have the right to ask why because life isn’t fair and because i didn’t ask to come into this world. It is not doing me any great favor by me being here that i should go along with the way life is.

I know none of us are suppose to be “perfect” in God’s eyes and that none of us truly see things the way that he does because we are suppose to be incapable of comprehending his knowledge.

And me, being human, of course do not like all of the rules that he sets and i guess it’s because we’re all born into “so call” sin and are suppose to be sinners by nature.

I feel some things that God sees as a sin should not be. Nevertheless, it is also said that God gives us his laws to abide by not to make us unhappy but for our protection. Very few of his rules maybe i can accept with no problem, and there are the rest that i strongly disagree with.

To be even more honest though. I always thought the bible to be one of the sickest books that i’ve ever read. And as a spiritual person by birth and by nature i have never truly felt any connection with this “God” and have uncovered things about him and life ( things i have always speculated since childhood ) that i will not disclose.

Contrary to the bible and popular belief life (definitely my life in particular) is so much purer, happier, better, fulfilling and peaceful without him.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/god/

A Peace Of Mind

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:43 PM EDT

My spirit doesn’t take too well to negativity. And that goes for negative people as well as negative things. Even though i was able to survive many types of negativity that was set before me by demented individuals i totally despise having to be around it.

There is a particular feeling i’ve experienced on more than one occasion. It’s an intense feeling of natural pure ecstasy. A genuine exalted rapture. And no matter what may be going on around me at the time the mood cannot be spoiled.

I don’t know if there is a name for it but it definitely is spiritual and i wish that i could feel that way all of the time. Unfortunately, in reality nobody feels a great deep mystical emotional high everyday so maybe it’s just a temporary sign of what’s to come eventually.

In the meantime, i’ll settle for the little things that mean a lot to me and make me happy. And, that is being independent! I like to be alone, i like to do things on my own, and when i choose to be around a small number of people they are of genuinely good quality because i am very particular.

It may sound snobbish but my tolerance is very low. I was that way when i was younger-now it’s even worse. I can’t be bothered with what i don’t like and i don’t care at what stake.

Nothing is more important than my well-being. I don’t put up with idle gossip, trouble, and people who are a waste of my time. And those are the few things that contribute to me having a Peace Of Mind.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/a-peace-of-peace/

Spiritual Healing

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Monday, March 27, 2006 at 4:28 PM EST

I’m Not Saying That I Believe In Christianity Or Serve The God Of The Bible So According To Those Scriptures:

Anyone familiar with religion or spirituality knows that God’s holy spirit heals any and everything. Many people know and believe that Jesus cured people from all types of diseases, ailments and demon possessions when he was alive on earth many years ago.

But some don’t believe that Jesus and his father works that way with us nowadays; though he still does. He’s not here in person. He’s here in spirit and he works the same by himself and through others. In 1 Corinthians, all throughout chapters 12, 13, and 14 the bible backs up every one of the gifts which God gives out to people.

And there are those who receive the holy spirit then get healed and have the power to heal others.

Evil principalities are the cause of many afflictions that interfere in the lives of people. With the great amount of devil worshippers who bow down to false idols to do witchcraft more and more people need spiritual healing.

Now What I, Miss LaToya Know And Believe:

A specific result of voodoo that is in some cases not too serious is the manifestation of skin eruptions.

Witchcraft makes things appear natural or by chance to those who don’t know any better. Illnesses are made to look like common problems that affect anyone. Some people develop itchy rashes or sore pimples. Some women even experience excessive bleeding from their vagina so that it seems to be a menstrual or menopausal problem.

One particular affect of voodoo that i’ve noticed since i was a child that stands out in the sickliest way is when practitioners tamper with a person’s complexion. For some reason i don’t understand-they like to make peoples faces break out then play on their mind about it. I know this for a fact.

To me, if a person has a few pimples on their body it’s no big deal. However, to those doing the witchcraft it is, or is suppose to be a big deal and they want to make it a big concern for their victim.

Like i said before, it stands out as one of the most sickliest things with them. They try to get their victim to believe they’re unattractive and defected to knock down their self-esteem when all along it was them who caused what is really nothing drastic in the first place.

These people usually work skin lesions through putting voodoo substances in peoples food. I’ve mentioned the “skin eruption trick” for ones who may be in the dark, thinking they have a medical problem that others criticize them about, because it’s done to have people pick at them out of ignorance. For people to exaggerate the condition when most of the time there is nothing wrong with their skin.

It all can be healed with faith in your own “beliefs” but it is important not to give in to the “mind game” of feeling self-conscious and taking blame for having a phony physical complex created purely by the sickos who want satisfaction.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/spiritual-healing/

Prayers/Blessings

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006 at 2:59 PM EST

I’m strong in prayer. In the past, nearly everything that i prayed for came to me.

I’ve had my trials and tribulations. And i’ve had my fun and happiness-in fact, i still do. Everything is not always bad. Some good people experience many afflictions, and we go through them to make us strong enough to endure the things that are ahead of us.

There are prayers and meditations i’ve uttered that haven’t came yet but i know they’re on the way no matter how things look or how long it may take.

I’ve visioned, and often felt the things i want making a transition over into my life. And i will continue to wait until all of those things fully arrive.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/prayersblessings/

Victorious!

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006 at 2:51 PM EST

My enemies are still at it, trying their hardest to prevent me from enjoying the life that i was destined to have. I am so sick and tired of them. I wish they’d all drop dead.

I feel them as they make efforts to get inside of my mind to control my thoughts and affect my emotions. I am the only one who is in control of me, except for Divine Spirit. I’m always aware when my enemies want me to not be strong, not be confident, not be happy, and not have any hope through their workings of “roots”. This shit has been going on too long and i’m about to put an end to it for good.

For a while now there has been a conspiracy against me where more and more sickos get involved when certain things don’t go as they plan. I’ve never feared any of my enemies, i’ve just felt hatred for them. I hate them more than they could ever hate me.

People who acted friendly toward me were down with doing me harm but i was aware of them lying on me and trying to set me up behind my back to trap me, i had to play the part also. It wasn’t wise for me to let them know that i was on to them at the time. So i’d throw them off with things and they’d fall for my words and actions, thinking they’d had me, or found a weak spot.

And, while my enemies continue to laugh at me, speak badly about me, and plot against me i’ll be prevailing regardless of how they may see things. They don’t want to accept defeat because there are and were so many of them and because they worked so hard to conquer me. But as always i overcame. I defeated them.

And as they perpetually endeavor to ruin my life i will ruthlessly destroy theirs. They’ve pushed me to the limits so now it is time for me to explode on them with every bit of spiritual energy that i possess!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/victorious/

My Dreams

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Saturday, March 11, 2006 at 4:36 PM EST

Precognitive dreams are always accurate. You just have to learn how to discern them. Sometimes you may dream the opposite of what will happen.

All of my dreams come true, no matter how long it takes for them to appear as a reality in my life.

If people only knew the things that i dream about they’d be stunned. But, of course not everybody cares! A lot of us aren’t interested and don’t give a darn about what’s going on with another person.

Anyway, i dream about people i don’t even know, places i’ve never been-well not yet. I don’t understand what every dream means and why i dream all of the things that i do but dreams can be a better reality than what we may be presently living.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/my-dreams/

Me, Myself, And I

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Sunday, March 05, 2006 at 4:42 PM EST

I love being a woman. I don’t know anything else. I love my breasts and i love my vagina, they belong to me. Carnal knowledge of a man does not make me a woman. Not wanting a man does not make me a lesbian. I am who i am, and who i am comes from within.

Born a female does not mean that i am weak, vulnerable, or docile. And it doesn’t mean that a man can break me down with so-called harsh words. I don’t know who came up with society’s definition of what a woman is supposed to be because i am the complete opposite.

I was born this way. I am smart, strong, independent, confident, trustworthy, and spiritually inclined. I’m not marriage material, but i’m mother material.

I was told that if i ever experience the penis i won’t be able to stay away from it. And those words came from a whore.

I knew that wasn’t true. My vagina has no use for the penis. It doesn’t need or want it. If a man can’t stimulate my mind he can’t stimulate my precious vagina. And i’m all woman, black and proud.

I am nowhere near ugly.

I’m not the best person in the world and i’m not the worst. However, i am enough for myself. I love who i am and what i can do. Some think that i’m crazy, some think that i’m just deep.

I don’t give a fuck because i know that i am unique.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/me-myself-and-i/

Nature’s Way

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Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 7:54 PM EST

If you’re in tune and you’re paying attention you’ll receive the certain messages of the outdoors. And if you’re highly in tune you’ll automatically receive the messages even when you’re not paying attention.

The sky, the wind, the trees, and so on all have a way of speaking to us.

Sometimes it doesn’t look right outside, the certain days in particular may appear to be too bright.

There is a quietness during particular nights of the summer season when you are out that will assure you of safety no matter how late the hours may be. The leaves of the trees also blow a certain way in corroboration to this revelation.

There are also warnings during the calm summer nights that are similar to the warning in particular cool winter night airs, reminders of the dangers that lurk around us.

The beautiful sunlight of a warm clear day can reveal things.

The tidal waves of the oceans also tell us things, especially when the sun or pink-blue-orange skies colorfully mask around the clouds and reflect upon it’s large body of sparkling waters.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/natures-way/

Meditation

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Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 7:35 PM EST

Desires:

The mind is a very powerful tool. I learned throughout my young life how to make my mind work for me.

Spiritually gifted people have the power to draw things to them just by thinking of it. If we strongly wish for something and it’s in compliance with the Divine Spirit we can have it.

I’ve done this many times. Special energy acts in accordance with the universe that attributes to the supernatural. And the energy can work to your advantage if you know how to use it. Though, it is important to not abuse the special energy you have by using it in the wrong way.

Maintenance:

Automatically, my eyes close when i am comfortable and at peace. My body naturally goes into a meditation, revitalizing me and keeping me alert. If i need a answer to something in my life i ponder deeply then ask and i do receive accurate answers.

Meditation is healthy and good for the soul. And it is one of the strongest methods in developing your supernatural powers.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/meditation/

The Third Eye

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Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 7:22 PM EST

A while back (years ago), I lay asleep in bed during the evening having a strong dream that i’d felt very intensely, and one that i won’t reveal.

Right after the dream ended i awoke from my sleep but my eyes were still closed. As i continued to rest on my back a live picture behind the form of a circle materialized.

In the background surrounding the circle was what i called at the time a black and white snow just as it appears on a television channel that you’re unable to get, like channel 3 if you don’t have cable ( And all that the station will do is make a lot of noise that a very bad reception usually does).

However, in this particular vision that i was seeing and about to see, there was no sound.

As i went to view farther into the picture that had also appeared in black and white, and that i could see very clearly, the circle grew larger. The more i went to see the more the circle expanded until it eventually came into full view. I was in total control of what i wanted to see. Whichever direction of the vision that i wanted to examine i was able to go. And, the thing about it was that i wasn’t viewing the information through my two closed eyes. It was an eye in between that was showing me this precognition.

The picture first begun on the staircase inside of a home that i soon recognized to be my very own. When i chose to view the upstairs of the house by controlling the eye that i slightly had to put a strain on, i was shown something very important. Then, the entire vision that appeared like a short cinematic film completely shut off. It went blank, leaving me not knowing what was going to take place next. I was told by more than one person that this vision will return around the time that i may need it.

That was the very first experience i remember using my third eye in that particular manner. Times after that i have seen in color. Other visions i’ve seen with my third eye have always been in vivid color ever since i was a very young child. But no matter what color or in what form or in what type of way a vision is shown there are certain feelings, warnings, and messages that go along with them and they are to be heeded.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/the-third-eye/

Spiritual Protection

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006 at 11:04 PM EST

There is a certain amount of violence in my neighborhood. Shootouts are not uncommon. A lot of drug dealers and stuff, fighting over territory and always endeavoring to intimidate somebody to prove a point.

Well, i’m not very much well liked in my neighborhood amongst the no good people so they had the nerve to try to take me out on more than one occasion. And they couldn’t understand why they were unable to. They spread around what they were intending to do.

It was a done deal. These people have killed before.

Nevertheless, nothing ever became of their attempts on my life and i know why. Divine Spirit is in control. He’s in charge. I’m not at all bragging because we all have a day when our luck may run out.

But i know that i’m not going anywhere until my “protector” is ready for me. And can’t nobody really do no major damage to me while his angels surround me.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/spiritual-protection/

In The World But Not Of It

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006 at 10:38 PM EST

The world is a place of much activity. There are a bunch of things going on. And people have to stay in motion to make the world go around. We all need money, food, and shelter to survive.

Some are unfortunate, they don’t have places to live, food to eat, or money to spend. So many of us take so much for granted and some of us don’t care that we take things for granted.

There are things on this earth that make us happy. There are things that make us sad.

Some people are always optimistic, some people may give up hope. Some take things too much to heart then waste time worrying because they have no faith.

I personally don’t place much value on the things of this world because this is not my permanent home and i know i don’t belong here. I don’t need other people’s approval to make me feel good. I make myself feel good because i love myself and i know all that i’m worth.

When people in the world want to make me feel bad they’re unable to, my mind and my spirit is too strong for that. I can’t be touched as i’m shielded by Divine Spirit’s grace and knowledge, a feeling only his children know.

When my enemies tried to take away my money and hindered my career (spiritually) then spread lies about me it didn’t destroy me because those things don’t define me.

If i was a big zero they wouldn’t have tried to stop me.

All their actions showed me is that those particular conditions mattered to them. People usually try to hurt you with things that would bother and affect them. But i’m nothing like them.

Nobody can really take away my success. I have my mind, my health, a place to live, and my “Divine Spirit” on my side. Who can beat that?!

My enemies have actually promoted me. But they’d never understand that, they’re not able to reach that level. They made me realize even more how lucky i am in life. I’d hate to be in their shoes. I knew their outcome while they thought they were finalizing mine.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/in-the-world-but-not-of-it/

A Special Friend

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Monday, February 13, 2006 at 1:22 PM EST

A lot of people love their pets. I had a dog that i had for seventeen years, ever since she was a puppy. Her name was Brandie and she was a mixed breed.

My collie’s shepherd genes were stronger and her legs gave out so i had to put her down.

I always remember how she wasn’t an ordinary animal. There are those dogs that only come around once in a lifetime. Those animals who are just as human as we are.

I had quite a few dogs growing up but none were intelligent as Brandie.

She knew and could feel things the way i did. It was in her behavior. She still did the same things that a regular dog often does just in her own way. My Brandie was psychic, she helped me out a lot when we were together and she now visits me in my dreams.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/a-special-friend/

In Tune

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Monday, February 13, 2006 at 1:12 PM EST

I’ve always been different. Very different. I have my own way of thinking and my own way of doing things. I was born with a double veil and my psychic abilities are very intuitive. I’m very spiritually inclined.

I can foretell the future. I see and communicate with spirits. I can prevent bad incidents from happening. I know what’s going on around me at all times. I can be inside my house and know what’s taking place outside. I can sense things about people that other people can’t sense.

I can be standing right next to a person and pick up on what they’re about or what they have done. Extra Sensory Perception runs on both sides of my family and it’s a real thing. Some people don’t believe in things of this nature, they think people like me are crazy but we are not we’re just unique. We are special.

Some of my writings are dedicated to I, and to those alike who have special spiritual powers, who have had spiritual experiences, or who are just interested in the things that us spiritually gifted people go through and encounter.

I don’t reveal everything that i know because there are things that i hold sacred. But i do share what may be helpful to those who may need the insight. Good spirits guide and inspire me to send out certain messages.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/in-tune/

Praise To All Of My Spirits

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Monday, April 16, 2007 at 12:41 AM PDT

My Likes: “Energy”

I Feel Good Vibrations. Ultimate Sensations.

My Dislikes: “Odors”

I Hate Funky Underarms. I Hate Stinky Feet. I Don’t Like Shit Messy I Like When Things Are Neat.

You all care for me. You are always there for me. I can depend on you. You all continue to see me through.
You know, i can just call. Whenever i am in trouble. I don’t even have to ask. You will endeavor to keep me strong. Just to make sure that i won’t fall.

If it weren’t for you i wouldn’t know what to do. I’d be lost and alone without any knowledge of my own.

I don’t have to ever be scared. You all taught me not to fear. So i don’t have to worry like i never did i don’t have to shed a tear.

I don’t need anything in this world. You won’t hear me shout, clap, or stomp. I’ll love you all till my death. Won’t even stop chanting praise as i’m on my last breath.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/praise-to-all-of-my-spirits/

 

 

My LiL Brandie ( The Best Human Dog I Ever Had! )

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Thursday, November 30, 2006 at 4:43 PM PST

I think about her almost every day. How she always did things in her own special way. I miss her. I want to kiss her. I look forward to the day when i will reminisce with her.

We are still together as she comes back to me during times that i dream. And we continue to be forever communicating our messages throughout every scene.

We share a bond that no one can break and we have a love that no one can take. Indeed there was no mistake how fate gave then made us powerful enough that we could relate. We were made for one another. We worked so well for each other.

There is an absolute connection. A source of my protection. And a day never goes by where i don’t understand why. She is one of my angels up in the heavens, one of the loyal spirits around me guarding my life.

I recognized what she was while she was down here on this earth and would be a fool now not to know how much more she is really worth.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/my-lil-brandie-the-best-human-dog-i-ever-had/

The Beauty Of Good Versus Evil

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Thursday, May 18,2006 at 8:43 am PDT

I don’t belong to you. I’m too strong for you. Don’t want me to be who i am since your life is nothing but a sham. I don’t give a damn!

You all keep hating on me. Continuing to act crude. I know you all are still jealous because i don’t screw a bunch of dudes. It doesn’t bother me, though. I know i seem to be rude. I remember when you all planted that shit in my food. Trying to prevent me from creating a superior brood.

Want to contaminate my soul with the many evils of spells. You are all still amazed at how i wouldn’t quit, holla, and yell. I wasn’t suppose to. The joke was on you! I laugh at you now. Your dirt is reversed. No longer am i bound by a bullshit curse.

I doubt strongly that you will ever be able to test me again. If so, your body won’t survive long enough to make an amends.

I though, i am alive and here. Now and forever, all so clear! It’s way past the time for you all to discover-that my power which was given shall remain there until the end. Until the second time he is risen a new world will begin.

So get it right! Get it right today. Really what is this delay? Don’t you know tomorrow could be your doomsday.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/the-beauty-of-good-versus-evil/

Bright Lights, Big City!

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007 at 10:19 AM EDT

Ever since i was a little girl i loved when my mother use to take me with her into Manhattan. Then when i got old enough to travel on my own i’d take the train and go all of the time.

I’ve always been so carefree. I just loved everything about Manhattan. I always said when i could i would move there because Manhattan says everything about me!

On the 20th of April of this year i had to take care of some business on 34th st and i hadn’t been down there in that part for a while so when i finished what i had to do i walked all over and around, and spent hours enjoying the scenery. I ate around 42nd street then visited some stores, went and bought a DVD, then went on home.

A beautiful place somewhere in Manhattan will be my home one day.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/bright-lights-big-city/

My New Schedule

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Friday, May 12, 2006 at 3:33 PM EDT

I’ll always be an author no matter what. In the meantime though, i will focus on other capabilities that i have since i love having my own money and being independent.

Two and a half weeks ago i got accepted into a college. I was going to study being a medical assistant. My financial aid was being processed since i was qualified for it. I’d gotten my uniform and i was to pick up my medical books on the first day that i started school. My representative had a part time job hooked up for me too.

However, just the weekend before i was to begin classes i changed my mind.

There was no doubt that i would successfully complete my courses, however, i didn’t want to spend a whole year or more in school when i could be free now making a second career while having my own space. I prefer to work full time rather than go to school then work part time. So i went on a interview and got a job that i like!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/my-new-schedule/

Rest And Relaxation

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007 at 10:34 AM EDT

I have a lot of spiritual experiences day to day.

So i go through a lot spiritually and it can be exhausting at times. So before i soon start my new job back out on the outside, i have been taking it easy with meditation and good sleep when i’m not running an errand or on my computer.

It feels so good to rest and enjoy the positive energies that i feel throughout my body, mind and spirit. It is quite rejuvenating.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/rest-relaxation/

My Lil’ Childhood Buddy

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Sunday, April 16, 2006 at 2:48 PM EDT

When i was about five or six years old i met a nice girl in my first grade class. She looked like a little old lady as she’d wear her glasses and carry her tote book bag in the crease of her arm.

Before school would end, mostly everyday our class would spend the last ten to fifteen minutes in the auditorium with the lights out watching brief segments of educational films. We’d sit our little behinds in the front row seats all the time then sneak out a notebook from our bags to check one another’s school work.

If we saw an “x” marked where there should have been a “check” we’d playfully slap each other on the hand and say “bad girl!” That took place back in 1980 or 1981 and it was a more innocent time to grow up compared to now.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/my-lil-childhood-buddy/

Character/Reputation

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Sunday, April 16, 2006 at 2:39 PM EDT

A person’s character represents who they actually are. And, a person’s reputation is just what others think of them to be. It is important for one to truly know who he or she is. Some people don’t like who they are and become insecure and easily influenced. Some pretend to have qualities that they actually do not in order to impress another.

Instead of worrying about whether or not you measure up to someone else or up to the standards of what the world may tell you that you should be, learn to accept yourself if you’re lacking in positive self-image. Think more about the things that you have to offer and what you are capable of doing and spend less time focusing on what you do not.

You should be glad for restrictions in certain areas of your life when it comes to the development of your personality and what you can accomplish. Shortcomings and advantages sometimes help us out into building our character, making us all the unique individuals that we’re meant to be.

It lets you decide if you’re going to settle for what is, or strive for much better! There is absolutely nothing wrong with admiring another person’s attributes, you can like and be happy for someone then at the same time like and be happy for yourself.

For example, i always admired people who could draw beautifully and professionally but i can’t do it. And i don’t want to! I just like to see others who are able to create art do good at their work. I have abilities of my own that i find contentment in and what makes me into who i am.

To some, their reputation means everything to them. How others view them plays a very significant part in their lives and that can either make them or break them. And, that is not good at all! I understand some are not able to deal with the mistreatment from others.

And i guess i shouldn’t say that everyone should not completely care what others think when sometimes peoples perceptions and beliefs ruin other people’s lives. Look at innocent individuals who’ve been sentenced to jail by jurors who were wrong about them.

So depending on the circumstances involving a situation caring about what another person thinks does have it’s place. Nevertheless, to me, when it comes to peoples personal views i can honestly say that i don’t give a hoot to the thoughts of others concerning who i am, what i’m able to do, and how i may look. If one bases all things in their life on what everybody else has to say then that is what they’ll be built an broken on, and that is pretty sad!

What is the most important is that you know, and that is what will definitely and always show in the long run. And whoever thought otherwise about you will have to eat their words and feel stupid!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/characterreputation/

Nosy Bodies

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Tuesday, March 28, 2006 at 1:10 PM EST

I can’t stand people who don’t know how to stay out of other peoples affairs. Always in somebody else’s business when they can’t take care of their own. When people are miserable they don’t like to see you carefree and happy.

Some of these people think they know everything and those are usually the ignorant ones, thinking that they know more about your life than you actually do when they don’t know shit! Every little thing they see they poke and pick at making more out of it than what it really is.

They all love gossip but they can’t handle it when other people talk about them. They are total freaks when it comes to what is considered “juicy rumors” that they enjoy then continue to spread. They do it to everybody.

I thank goodness i am not in the same category of people like them. I’m into living a productive life. Making sure that i am healthy, content, and achieving the things i want. I don’t have time for their pathetic way of life. I prefer my own lifestyle any day of the week! I have a peace of mind, respect for myself, and a great sense of purpose.

If they all had something truly substantial in their life maybe they wouldn’t have so much extra time on their hands worrying about what others are doing.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/nosy-bodies/

My Family Tree

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Tuesday, March 28, 2006 at 12:56 PM EST

There are sayings, “the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree” and “God bless the child who has it’s own”. You can indeed pick your friends but you can’t pick your family. And if i had the choice to decide before i was born what type of family to enter into it definitely wouldn’ve been the one i have now.

Some people believe that we as people are able to choose what family we’re born into-that we pick the parents we have and are just not permitted to remember. Well, i got lucky. I’m not like anybody in my family. I don’t personally know every member of my family and that goes for close as well as long distance relatives.

However, the ones i am quite familiar with are pure degenerates-including my father. My mother and i get along very well. She is not one i have a problem with. It is only the others who i despise. All they like to do is lie and keep things going. They’re ignorant, undesirable, and worthless.

My mother and i are the smartest and upstanding ones in our family. The other members of the family who were equal to us in mind and capabilities have long ago passed away. I don’t know why life sometimes works like that. The good ones should be here alive while these no good ones need to be in their graves.

I thank goodness that my mother wasn’t married to my father. He knew me when i was a baby but the youngest i remember of him is when i was seven. And even at that early age i could tell he was a piece of shit. I’m so glad he wasn’t around while i was growing up.

Just because a man helps to make a baby doesn’t mean that he’s equipped to be a good father and raise a child. When i first saw him i perceived that since he was trash other members in his family had to be too and i was right.

When i got into my late twenties i met some of his relatives and the first impression i had years ago was confirmed without a doubt. My father’s family weren’t shit either-not so much different from my mother’s side, maybe worse. And that is devastatingly bad.

I don’t understand how or why my mother gave my father the time of day and that is a huge compliment going out to my mom. He didn’t at all deserve to be around her, he wasn’t worth her time. He never abused her or anything but people in his own family don’t even like him and they’re no good.

I am a grown woman now so i don’t have to associate with any of them. I don’t ever want any of them in my life. I, to this day can’t believe people like them are actually related to me and my mother. Some people in life have to make their own family and that suits me just fine!

And since i have firsthand experience with their type of people i surely know not to have anything to do with others in society who are just like them.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/my-family-tree/

Sex Without Emotion

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Sunday, March 12, 2006 at 3:20 PM EST

To some people sex has meaning. I’ve heard women say that a lot of emotions go into having intercourse and i don’t understand that.

To me, sex is a mind thing. I don’t see how a man sticking his penis up inside of a woman’s vagina is an expression of love.

I’ve even heard that some women will fall in love with a man after being pleasured greatly by sex. And, i don’t understand that either. I don’t see how people let sexual sensations affect their emotions. What does one have to do with the other?

It seems to me that sex is nothing but a feeling and a penis is not necessarily needed to experience pleasure. Every woman does not feel sensations from a man’s penis during sexual intercourse.

The clitoris can satisfy a woman when a man cannot and that has nothing to do with emotion or love.

If i was to engage in sexual behavior my only worthwhile reason for doing so would be for reproductive purposes. I don’t have to love, care, or have an attraction for someone to make a baby with them. I would just be sacrificing my body to get what i want and i don’t see no better reason than for a child.

There are people who believe that if a woman has sex with a man that she has no feelings for she’s being whorish. And she is considered a bad girl. Men do it all of the time but it is accepted. Some men can’t handle the thought of a woman who is naturally able to go to bed with them without having any emotions attached.

Well it exists, and i’m living proof.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/sex-without-emotion/

Asexual

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Sunday, March 12, 2006 at 3:06 PM EST

I was born asexual and i am very proud to be that way. Some believe it isn’t normal to not have no nature. It doesn’t bother me what people think i couldn’t imagine myself any different than what i am. I’m not attracted to men or women. I gratefully don’t have any sexual desires.

When some people in the past found out that i didn’t want to be bothered with men they automatically assumed that it was because i was worried about a man only trying to use me for one thing like “sex”, or that maybe i saw or experienced some type of negativity involving a man somewhere along down the line in my life. But neither of those things were true.

I hate when people make ignorant generalizations. I’ve never been in a bad relationship and i’ve never been raped. And, i’ve never seen any of my female family members in any serious abusive relationships with men.

Most people say a man and a woman are suppose to be together. I understand that God made it that way, nevertheless, i still don’t care. I am nowhere near ashamed of who i am. If i get ridiculed because everybody else may enjoy the company of a man and are having sex and i am not-too bad!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/asexual/

Double Standards

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Friday, March 10, 2006 at 2:23 PM EST

It is something how most of this society makes more out of a man than what he is worth. As far as i am concerned a man is no better than a woman. We are equal when it comes down to gender.

When i was a child growing up i use to play with boys and we’d genuinely have fun together.

My best childhood pal at the time was a boy. During my teenage years i’d sit and talk with grown men as well as certain women, just having general conversations, and i didn’t see anything wrong with that.

Older people have always conversed with me.

I’ve never been sheltered in my childhood because of the type of family that i come from and my mother wanted me to be aware of the things that were around me.

When i began to reach my mid teenage years i realized just how serious certain people’s ignorance was regarding the relationship between a male and a female.

I realized that everybody’s intentions weren’t as innocent as mine.

I could be under men without having any sexual interest in them but everyone else wasn’t that way so they didn’t take it that way. I never messed around with guys because i’m asexual.

In my neighborhood, there are certain types of people who try to belittle or bring other people down with scandalous gossip. And whenever they want to get at a woman they tend to use things that are of a sexual nature against her just the way most of our society does.

I’ve seen it done over and over again with people who are on that particular street-level. And, it really pissed me off when jealous people in my neighborhood tried it with me.

You see, i think very highly of myself. I have a high self-esteem and that’s my business because i don’t bother nobody. I never cared what anybody did in their life, good or bad, just as long as they didn’t try to interfere with mine. But, that is what they did anyway.

They’re in everybody’s business, especially people who seem to be doing a little better than they are.

Any way, there wasn’t any substantial gossip going around about me sleeping with men. People who don’t know better will assume what they want because most people believe every young girl is having sex that is just the way some think. So to them all, they felt i thought i was better because i wasn’t doing the same things that everybody else was doing.

All i did though is live my life the way i wanted to and not to be looking good in other peoples eyes. I’m just genuinely an upstanding person who has her own view on things. My jealous enemies would send certain men after me to get me hooked up with them so that if i had sex with anyone of those guys they would have what they considered “dirt on me”.

However, i didn’t get involved with anyone, i knew what they were doing. The last thing that were on those stupid peoples minds were that i could actually be asexual. They don’t think that way.

A while back, my trouble truly begun with two low-lifes that i rejected. They’d come around me, wanting people to believe something was going on between me an them. They cared what people thought and were trying to back up whatever lies they were telling about me. Some people will think a man is going with a woman that he’s always under so they played on that.

When i lost patience and decided to be rudely blunt about how i did not want them and how nothing was ever going to develop into a relationship they went and trashed my name in the street thinking their rumors might break me. Boy were they in for a surprise! They knew i didn’t care what people thought so they both went to the extreme with the help of others who didn’t like me.

It is believed by many that men are emotionally stronger than women, however, that is not true. I wasn’t raised that way. I was raised to be my own person.

Everybody is an individual. There are a lot of women who are highly emotional and easily hurt by things in life but i and other particular women that i know aren’t one of them.

These two guys spoke severely of me in a negative way and had a chosen few other males and even females call me names. And their generalized notions were that i would feel bad, get embarrassed, and come down from my high horse.

But i was too strong and conceited and fought back by continuing to be myself. I have a level-head of conceit though. I considered them all to be crazy for trying to berate me and they considered me a psychopath for thinking the way that i did.

I’m tired of generalizations and stereotypical views of where a woman stands in this society and how she is supposed to feel and conduct herself. A man can go sleep around with a bunch of women and it’s alright. If a woman sleeps around with a bunch of men she’s got to be the worst thing in the world.

In my opinion, how many men a woman sleeps with really does not make her any less valuable than anyone else, however, i do believe that by disrespecting herself shows that she has no self-value.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/double-standards/

Appearances Sake

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Friday, March 10, 2006 at 1:35 PM EST

I do believe that beauty is in the eye of the beholder and that it is not wise to always judge a book by it’s cover because looks can be deceiving.

Our society often tends to place a lot of value on the way people appear.

Are looks that important when it involves getting into a relationship? To some, it does matter importantly. To others it does not. Most of the time it is physical attraction that gets a person interested in the first place. Caring about how you look does show and can build self-esteem.

A person doesn’t have to be a sharp dresser to prove that she or he is, or feels worth something though.

I’m laid-back. As long as i’m clean with my body and dress decently i’m good to go. I don’t dress to impress anyone. When i look in the mirror i like what i see and don’t care who else doesn’t.

A lot of females do care about how they look in front of a guy. They worry if their hair isn’t done right or if they have a pimple. I’ve even heard that some people believe if you get pimples it’s because of a lack of sexual activity. To me that is absurd.

Many people have breakouts due to hormonal imbalances. Some males even use that line, “If we have sex it’ll make our bumps go away”. Like getting a pimple is the worst thing in the world.

You have certain women who dress provocative to attract a man’s attention. I don’t think that it is wrong for a woman who feels good and confident about her body to wear tank tops and short skirts as long as she appears tasteful and she’s doing it for herself because she likes the style of the clothing.

I’ve seen women let men dictate how they should appear while they were in relationships with them.

If their men considered that they were gaining too much weight they’d criticize them and tried to control what they ate and made them pop diet pills.

One girl that i hung out with went and bought a negligee to put on for an intimate night with her boyfriend. Then when she told him about the purchase she’d made for the lingerie he told her, “What did you buy it for, you can’t fit in it”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/appearancess-sake/