New Life

Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. –2 Corinthians 5:17

Those of us fortunate enough to have awaken to another day of life today have entered into another new year.

There is nothing greater to celebrate upon newness than to become a genuinely new creation in Jesus Christ.

These years on earth will eventually come to an end. This life we live here in the world now is only temporary. Do you know where your spirit/soul will go and be once you depart from this life? Why not let it be eternally spent with our wonderful heavenly father.

Instead of looking forward to new better years to come here on the earth- a place that is definitely not going to last- anticipate a future of greater hope and assurance by reserving a place truly to call home.

Let this new year of 2021 be a time to accept Jesus Christ into your life. Totally surrender everything to him and get to receive his promises of love, security, and true life.

All that you have to do is honestly believe in him, tell him you want him to become your lord and savior, repent for all your wrong doing, allow his holy spirit that will come to dwell within you to help you obey his beneficial instructions for you, pray to him constantly and read your bible/scripture daily so that you develop a deep personal relationship with God and you will be on your way!

Thank and praise the Lord for his grace, mercy and pure goodness. Be overjoyed for having made the best and most crucial decision of your life because you will have an eternity to be forever grateful for.

Above all, spend quality time with God. Include him within everything you say and do. Let him continuously be your guide and provider, he will always come through.

Get to know God intimately. You do this by talking to him (through prayer) and reading your bible/scripture as often as possible.

God loves you extremely, and he only wants the ultimate best for you and you will obtain this care by pure faith. Put all your trust in God then wait on him.


The eyes of the Lord are in every place, keeping watch on the evil and the good -Proverbs 15:3

Can a man hide himself in secret places so that I cannot see him? declares the Lord. Do I not fill heaven and earth? declares the Lord. -Jeremiah 23:24

Isn’t it incredible how God is able to be everywhere at any time?

With all the billions of people that exist throughout the world he knows every single detail of our lives, thoughts, actions and keeps a track of everyone and every thing simultaneously!


Satan cannot be everywhere at any time he’s only able to be in one place at a time while his demonic minions are scattered about to aid him in his dirty work.

The devil is far inferior to God he can’t do anything without God’s authority.

God is omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent. He is the all-powerful, all-knowing and ever-present creator!

Satan is just obscene, obnoxious and obtrusive in no way whatsoever does he compare to the attributes of our Lord.


Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4:7



Losing A loved One

God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted. -Matthew 5:4

Speaking honestly, If we don’t care about someone it may not bother or affect us when it comes to something that concerns them.

Many do have regard or compassion toward people who they don’t know as fellow humankind and their hearts may go out to the unfortunate or tragic events that effect the lives of other individuals.

When we grieve the loss of someone it is only because we have sincere feelings for them.

The more love we have for the person the greater the pain we endure through our intense affection toward them.

When we miss and hurt tremendously over someone who has departed from us that is the most beautiful expression and example of how much we loved and truly cared about them.

The tears we cry during our mourning and bereavement is a very healthy and relieving process in the release of these intense emotions.

There is absolutely no set limit or time limit on how one should or how long one should grieve their loss. Each of us individuals are different and experience grief uniquely and depending and according to our own state of being.

We’ll often be hit by wonderful or not so wonderful memories of our loved ones that we’ll look back on and treasure or wish that we could have changed because our loss can put us in a nurturing mode with an even deeper feeling of concern for what went on in that person’s life.

Yes, we do hurt badly and miss terribly the ones we loved through their death. However, for us believers in Jesus Christ, of course, we know that death loss it’s sting when he paid the penalty for our sins by dying for all of us on the cross.

So we as children of God don’t mourn as others who do not believe because we know that our loved ones who were also believers in Christ are no longer in our past, but they are in our future to come.

He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” -Revelation 21:4

Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. According to the Lord’s word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left until the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage one another with these words. -Thessalonians


A Peace That Is Not Of The World

When Jesus spoke, he often said “Peace be with you“. Peace is something many people do not have. I’m talking about a genuine peace. The kind of peace where you find happiness when there is turmoil. The peace that is not disturbed by the hectic happenings created upon a havoc world.

The peace I speak of is a calm of the mind that illuminates from the spirit.

Like I’ve said before many times before within the past: “The world didn’t give it to me and the world cannot take it away from me“. It is pure and refreshing, unable to be sullied by upheaval.

I have been through a lot from a very early age and nothing was able to shake me or break my spirit. No matter what arose or entered into my life. I stayed intact mentally, physically and spiritually. I remained steadfast in the process continuing to learn and grow. I was maintained by the essence of the Holy Spirit.

All who love me will do what I say. My Father will love them, and we will come and make our home with each of them. Anyone who doesn’t love me will not obey me. And remember, my words are not my own. What I am telling you is from the Father who sent me. I am telling you these things now while I am still with you. But when the Father sends the Advocate as my representative—that is, the Holy Spirit—he will teach you everything and will remind you of everything I have told you“.

I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. Remember what I told you: I am going away, but I will come back to you again. If you really loved me, you would be happy that I am going to the Father, who is greater than I am. I have told you these things before they happen so that when they do happen, you will believe.
“I don’t have much more time to talk to you, because the ruler of this world approaches. He has no power over me,”

Taking It Easy

In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat— for he grants sleep to those he loves. –Psalm 127:2

In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, LORD, make me dwell in safety. -Psalm 4:8


In my field of work, I have done a lot of traveling and long hours. I even traveled back and forth every day for three months out of the state. I was energetic, determined, and ready to earn the money I needed and wanted to help take care of myself and my responsibilities now and for the future.

I appreciated when I’d get the specific hours and days or nights that I was looking for although sometimes I had to take hours that were too early in the morning depending on the job and my position. Sometimes I’d even stay up for two or three nights in a row doing overnight shifts.

I did a lot of running around, put in a lot of hard work, endured a lot of tests, underwent adversary with certain undesirables, but I survived and remained unaffected by attempts to discourage me or to bring me down by others who were twisted and makers of trouble. I stood strong and prevailed throughout it all.

I was told once that I should have gave myself a pat on the back for the things that I had gone through in life, however, in reality God is the one who gives us that super strength to overcome and conquer. I’ve always been a strong person yet God built that strength in the accounts of my particular life circumstances from childhood on up. So, by the time I was partially spiritually trained I had become a fierce warrior without even realizing it.

I’ve made good money during my occupations and have enjoyed benefitting from my labor, nevertheless, I’m at a time in my life where I just wish I could retire. I’m tired. Mentally, I’ve always been older than my actual years but I’m tired, period. I can’t just stop working right now and I’m lucky to get work when I can because I do still have to support myself.

I found comfort within the Lord with this issue as he lets me know that It is alright for me to take time out for myself to rest. Rest from taking care of others and from not becoming overly concerned about future finances as I tend to think ahead of time.

I never take God for granted but I have to remember that he is the one in control-not the world. He is above and beyond anyone and anything and I don’t have to worry too much about my needs because as always-he will provide.

So, I get that extra sleep that I need. I take it easy, making sure that I eat well, and just breath and continue to heal from traumas. Most of all, I have the Lord in my life steering my path and carrying my load.

It feels good to let God take over everything. I want him to prepare my routes and show me in which lane to go down and what corners to turn as I know I’m in the best of hands. I’m not even living this life right now I am letting the Lord live in me.

I have a hunger for God, I really enjoy reading my bible and soaking myself up completely with him.


Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them,Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.” So they went away by themselves in a boat to a solitary place. -Mark 6:31-32

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.-Isaiah 26:3

The LORD replied, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.” -Exodus 33:14

Be Anxious For Nothing

Often times some of us find ourselves guilty of worrying even though the Lord tells us in his word, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done”. Philippians 4:6

The Lord has always provided for me and met my needs sufficiently yet tough times will still come along to test our faith and every now and then we may get discouraged even if we know deep down inside that God will inevitably see us through. We are able to depend on the Lord due to his past track record for carrying us out of our storms.

It is so easy for us to have faith while things are running smooth in our lives but real hope consists of endurance in the expectation of what God promises no matter how difficult the struggle may be or how impossible the outlook may appear. I had felt that I didn’t need to experience seasons of trial to recognize the delivering actions of the Lord, however, going through the trying events of life and looking back gives an account of why our God is so reliable.

He can be trusted as those undesirable tribulations seem unreasonable and unbearable because he enables us to bear them, giving us a reason to hold on if we’re inspired to persevere.

Our Lord is almighty powerful there isn’t anything he cannot do or make happen. After all, everything is designed and operated by him. He controls everything. What a deep an awe-inspiring Lord we have reigning over us. The supreme ruler who is able to accomplish indefinitely.

I knew since childhood what God was capable of doing that is how strong my faith was within his existence and power. Some of us are well aware through a strong belief of the efficiency of our lord we just may at times wonder or doubt whether or not he will grant us the help. We absolutely know that he could, though, we are not always confident in that he would.

Nevertheless, he surprises us with his unfailing love and mercy, and unwavering faithfulness.

Some people worry themselves to death, they can’t help it, especially when fear overcomes them. Fear is immobilizing and torturing. “Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand”. -Isaiah 41:10

When anxiety, worry and fear take over resulting from a periodic lack of faith run to God’s word to remain tightly secured in his truths. Continue to believe and adhere to what he acknowledges to us. God is our rock and refuge and he will never let his children go unattended. We’re incapable of deciphering his master plan so there is no other way but for us to accept our circumstances in the hope for what is to come.

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you-you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:25-34


The Lord Is My Shepherd

“If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them gets lost, what will he do? Won’t he leave the ninety-nine others in the wilderness and go to search for the one that is lost until he finds it?  And when he has found it, he will joyfully carry it home on his shoulders. -Luke 15:4-5



I can actually identify with the verses above as they play out so descriptively true within my life. Jesus came looking for me-a major event that I never actually expected to happen.

I didn’t think he cared whether or not I had distanced myself from him.

Anger, and the misconceptions I developed about Jesus/God through out the ups and downs of my life had kept me from wanting to be bothered anymore. There are certain things I hadn’t learned or understood up until now.  Jesus approached me in such a very strong way. At first, his entrance seemed harsh, considering the situation that was at hand. My attention was fully grasped and focused strictly back upon him. 

Jesus arrived to me with an extreme seriousness, one I initially took as a retribution for having turned away from him with animosity.

Then, I soon realized off and on during the process that Jesus was just being a stern, but solicitous parent/father. Although I was hurt by the circumstance in which arose he wasn’t at all trying to hurt me. In fact, he’s been nothing but a tremendous help, comfort, protector, and loving guide through out it all.

Jesus wasn’t messing around this time. He’s got me in an intimate one on one relationship with him. One that is stronger and more intense than ever before and it is continuing to grow beautifully. I’ve also noticed that our relationship is guarded. Jesus is attentive and I am eager and hungry for all of his love, grace, knowledge and instruction. You have to ardently love someone to come at them that hard and keep them under a tight grip. I am utterly shocked. I really shouldn’t be after all Jesus/God has done for me in the past, however, that is what built up the faith that I had to instantly trust in him.

I feel genuine love in my heart for Jesus and I enjoy spending quality time talking to him in my prayers and reading the scriptures along with my devotionals day to day.

Sometimes we go by what we feel or see in the natural sense and when it comes to God we shouldn’t do that. We are to walk by faith and not by sight because even though we don’t see the lord we know that he is everywhere. And just because we may not feel he cares we know he does from the extraordinary acts that he does in our lives no matter how big or small and he does them with a consistency.

Like I said before, I didn’t think it fazed Jesus that I departed communication with him for several years when all along he was there and working it out for my own good and as a part of his plan.

In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps.-Proverbs 16: 9



Spiritual Gifts



I was always very sensitive spiritually as a child. I was highly empathic, perceptive/intuitive, and intelligent (wise beyond my years), and I had a strong connection to the spirit realm and to God. I was also very strong emotionally with a strong, enduring spirit.

Highly sensitive does not mean easily wounded (getting one’s feelings hurt or taking matters or things too personally and seriously) when it comes to people who have extrasensory perception.

People in my experience have the ability to feel deeply and to sense at a heightened level of capacity/range and are often misunderstood and/or mislabeled as being timid, having anxiety, or not being normal. None of which is true as we are all individuals. People tend to categorize when it is something they know nothing about.

We are just people with gifts who experience a touch of the supernatural (I’m not talking about fortune-telling, I’m talking about extraordinary faculties) and our God and Lord Jesus is indeed supernatural.


1 Corinthians 12: 1-11
Spiritual Gifts

Now, dear brothers and sisters, regarding your question about the special abilities the Spirit gives us. I don’t want you to misunderstand this. You know that when you were still pagans, you were led astray and swept along in worshiping speechless idols.  So I want you to know that no one speaking by the Spirit of God will curse Jesus, and no one can say Jesus is Lord, except by the Holy Spirit.
 There are different kinds of spiritual gifts, but the same Spirit is the source of them all.  There are different kinds of service, but we serve the same Lord.  God works in different ways, but it is the same God who does the work in all of us.

 A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other.  To one person the Spirit gives the ability to give wise advice; to another the same Spirit gives a message of special knowledge.  The same Spirit gives great faith to another, and to someone else the one Spirit gives the gift of healing.  He gives one person the power to perform miracles, and another the ability to prophesy. He gives someone else the ability to discern whether a message is from the Spirit of God or from another spirit. Still another person is given the ability to speak in unknown languages, while another is given the ability to interpret what is being said.  It is the one and only Spirit who distributes all these gifts. He alone decides which gift each person should have.





Jesus Canceled Our Debt

Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son.- John 3:18

Satan is the God of this world and he is God’s main enemy. An abomination whose main intention is to promote and execute slavery, bondage, fear and destruction. God designed mankind within his own image to demonstrate his love. 

Satan who is also known as Lucifer wanted power and control over mankind. He was one of the great archangels that were created by God before he created us human beings. Satan was  beautiful, intelligent, talented, and self-willed. He didn’t want to serve God he wanted to be God and rule within his own prideful system of disobedience.

Where our true God is love, the God of this world is hate and reflects everything that is detestable to what is right and originally planned.

No matter how much confusion and havoc Satan produces upon the earth God is still in utter control and Satan’s capacity is limited. Satan isn’t able do anything without God’s permission or authority. Satan’s threat of death and the fear thereof through sin and bondage was conquered by Jesus Christ. We were set free to be lead into the new kingdom of God.

Satan has been defeated and knows that his time is short and he is eager to take as many of us down with him as he can in the most deceptive and misrepresentative of ways. He tries to manipulate through our thoughts, feelings, and actions.

As Jesus offers us new life we must draw near and stay close to God, seek out and incorporate his plan into our lives, and God will secure a triumph over Satan on our behalf as he fights our battles for us. We cannot do it by ourselves and we aren’t supposed to. The Lord tells all who hear his words-Jesus said, “Very truly I tell you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be judged but has crossed over from death to life. –John 5:24

In conclusion, we have authority over Satan. He has no true power over us who follow/believe in Jesus Christ. Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. -James 4:7


The Lord’s Prayer

Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give
us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us
not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

For thine is the kingdom and the power, and the glory, forever and ever.








When The Lord Draws Near And Walks Close

“No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws them, and I will raise them up at the last day.” John 6:44

I was introduced to God as a child by my mother. I had a few other family members who were into God and who read the bible. God was no stranger within my early home life and I was drawn to him. I use to have a deep interest in the bible and God’s word and I had asked Jesus into my life as my lord and savior before I hit my teens.

I remember when I did enter my teenage years I had so much faith in what God could do.

Yet, I didn’t understand all of the scriptures and between the misbehavior of certain so-called Christians, church goers, everyday people, tribulation and my lack of interpretation to some of the bible I had a negative perception of what God appeared to be.

There came a time when I began to view God within a positive light when things in my life started to improve and I developed what I considered a closer relationship with God. I’d pray to him and he would give me the things that I asked for and I was trying to live accordingly to his approval the best way that I knew how from where I was at.

Nevertheless, there was always something within me that kept me conscious of God. Whether it was through spiritual intuition, intellectual curiosity, or a natural life connection there was a continuous leaning toward finding specific answers and making acquaintance.

Currently, in my older days, God has used a trial to bring me back to him after a long period of my having been angry with him. I already knew from the past what God had done for me and how he came through sufficiently. He was wonderful then and even more astonishing to me now.

I am getting to know him in a way I’ve never known or realized before and it is very real and supernatural. God is my ultimate comforter and he has drawn me closer to him than ever before. I can’t believe how good he’s been during my time of challenge.

God makes the unbearable bearable and in doing so creates a strong, intimate and personal relationship of sincere intention and reliability. God’s concern and providence is extremely nurturing.

He is holding on to me, not letting me go, constantly sustaining me in the power of his spirit. But whoever is united with the LORD is one with him in spirit.  

-1 Corinthians 6:17




Only God/Jesus

My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand. I and the Father are one.” John 10:27-30

The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel that displays the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. 2 Corinthians 4:4

At the moment of an event a little while back, I paused, then immediately turned back to God/Jesus. I would have never been influenced by any human persuasion or on any other occasion. I was prompted with the foreknowledge and sole acknowledgement that God/Jesus was sovereign over my life and life itself, and my choice came natural.

Only God/Jesus could reach me. He had to come to me directly himself and he knew just what it would take to bring me back. I’ve even wondered why he wanted me back, even though he never really lost me because once we belong to him we’re his for keeps even if we don’t realize this fact. God is in control, knowing our true hearts and hurts and ready to help and heal to again make us whole within him.

I’ve always been intelligent and I’ve always had sense, therefore, I used these faculties that the Lord gave to me to wise up during a grave opportunity for him to get my attention.

I came across a scripture in Acts the day before yesterday that spoke to me dearly and that had touched my heart.

“Friends, why are you doing this? We too are only human, like you. We are bringing you good news, telling you to turn from these worthless things to the living God, who made the heavens and the earth and the sea and everything in them.  In the past, he let all nations go their own way.  Yet he has not left himself without testimony: He has shown kindness by giving you rain from heaven and crops in their seasons; he provides you with plenty of food and fills your hearts with joy.”  Acts 14: 15-17 This passage reminded me of how God still looked out for me and didn’t turn his back on me but how he mercifully continued to protect and bless me even though I was giving all honor and praise to “orishas” who I instead substituted as a loving and more dependable nicer means.

Oh Lord Jesus and father God I apologize again for my misperceptions and false ideas that caused me to give up on and turn away from you so harshly within the past as I once defined you harsh. Thank you for being so loving, caring, understanding and forgiving although I am unworthy and undeserving of your grace. You are a faithful father who came searching for their long lost daughter to welcome her readily into your reassuring arms and it feels so good to be back home where I truly belong. In Jesus precious name, Amen -latoya lawrence








God’s Holy Spirit At Work In Me

Hi, I’m LaToya Lawrence,

God has inspired me to help spread the good news (his good news!) And surely, I can also testify to give my own personal accounts of God’s outstanding work in my life.  

God wants us to know and remember that he sent Jesus to die for us so that we could no longer be separated from him and have the relationship with him that he had originally intended. 

God wants us to know and remember that through the life, crucifixion/death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ we have been pardoned through God’s grace and mercy to escape death and receive eternal life.

God loves us and desires for no one to perish but to grasp onto his word (read the bible faithfully) harken unto his voice, (listen to him for our best interest), and follow his lead (surrender and let him direct our path).

God also wants us to be inspired by his promises and to not be discouraged by our enemy (the devil/satan and his fellow demonic army) but to hold on and continue to have faith in him. 

As an ambassador of God, this blog is in devotion to my strong relationship with God in my journey motivated by his holy spirit, and inspires to share and bear witness. Scroll down to read the posts.

Answer Jesus’s knock at the door and allow him into your heart and accept all of the teachings and blessings that he has stored up in preparation to getting us ready for our permanent home.

“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. Matthew 7:13

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, Matthew 6:19

“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. John 14: 1-3



When I was a little girl my mother always told me, I had a gift. My great-grandmother told me that she believed I was going to be a missionary one day. When I got older, I was told by a teacher that I am a “messenger”. All glory goes to God as I am a servant/follower of Jesus Christ.  

On the contrary, we speak as those approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel. We are not trying to please people but God, who tests our hearts. 1 Thessalonians 2:4  

Jesus said, “My kingdom is not of this world. If it were, my servants would fight to prevent my arrest by the Jewish leaders. But now my kingdom is from another place.” John 18:36  

They are not of the world, even as I am not of itJohn 17:16  

“I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves. Matthew 10:16  

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.” Acts 1:8 

I was very young when I noticed the special abilities that I had, though, at the time I thought it was a trait that everyone had. It wasn’t until I had gotten older that I realized while most people experienced life through their natural senses I and certain others who were bestowed with discernment experienced life through our extraordinary senses. 

I was highly sensitive as a child growing up, able to feel and to sense things about people and environments that other people couldn’t sense. I’d have intuitive thoughts, visions, dreams and sensations that would alert me to my surroundings and to the happenings taking place within the spiritual realm.  

As one born with a caul/veil I naturally had a special link/sensitivity to the spiritual realm, often encountering demonic spirits or activity as well as the signs and presence of angelic energies around me.  

At the age of twelve, while I experienced a season of trial, I frequently saw before my eyes sparkles that twinkled in the sign of a cross. They were so beautiful and illuminating, a piercing silver-like. I use to wonder if I was really seeing what I was seeing, but I actually was. To this day I still see these sparkling signs yet they come in a different form. I’ve even seen gold and blue sparks of light on separate occasions. This manifest at the time had brought with it an internal message from the Lord stating “I’m here. I am with you. Everything is going to be alright”.  

God already knew the unique plans that he had in store for us even before he created the earth. He appointed our callings then furnished and equipped us for special talents and gifts before we were born. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.  Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them!  Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand— when I awake, I am still with you. Psalm 139: 13-18 

Salvation (Eternal Security)

In my late teens, while I was having a weekly bible study, I had mentioned to my group members the trouble I was undergoing in my neighborhood with fellow teens and adults who were jealous of me for not doing and not having done the things that they were doing. I lived a totally different lifestyle than what they all did.

One lady from my bible study specifically pointed to a particular verse of scripture and then spoke it out loud to me. It read: They are puzzled that you do not continue running with them in the same decadent course of debauchery, so they speak abusively of you. 1 Peter 4:4

Although I had never indulged within the same behaviors as certain neighborhood folk, I had cut loose those who I had grown up with and refused to be bothered with others who were not of good character as I had no desire to associate with wicked or undesirable people.

As a result, and out of resentment for my living “not of the world”, these affiliates (who came in legions) ventured upon me to lose my salvation. They believed if they could deliberately ensnare me into doing some deed I’d no longer be saved and end up going to hell where they were headed.

There are people in the world who actually believe that one’s salvation is dependent upon whether or not some disqualifying sin is committed. They think the precious gift of eternal life is contingent upon how well one refrains from offending God.

From what I have learned according to biblical scripture once we truly become saved, we’re always saved and nothing is able to forfeit that salvation.

Eternal life to begin with is based on God’s pure grace and mercy and not determined by any of our deeds or misdeeds. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of GodEphesians 2:8 And Romans 11:29 goes on to say, “For the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable”.

The bible doesn’t state that until we sin a number of times or carry out some huge sin that our future eternal state will remain unaltered.  God already knew each one of us who were going to follow his way long before he created us, And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorifiedRomans 8:30.

All of us believers in Jesus sin while we’re here on the earth, the concern is whether one continues to practice their sin in a type of way that may insinuate a heart that is unreformed.

The wages of sin are death, however, the gift of God is eternal life in our lord Jesus. For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. John 3: 16-18

God punished our sins through Jesus on the cross.

All of our sins were forgiven by Jesus’s death and resurrection and we are made righteous by what he did. For by one offering He has perfected forever those who are being sanctified. Hebrews 10:14

If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.  For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved. Romans 10: 9-10

Once we genuinely accept Jesus Christ as our lord and savior and repent, we receive the Holy Spirit which represents our assurance and security of eternal life as well as the renewal and regeneration of our moral and spiritual nature. The Holy Spirit aides us within desiring to do God’s will. You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ.  Romans 8:9

the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. John14:17

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Phil 1:6

l give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand. I and the Father are one.” John 10:28-30

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.  Romans 28:37-39

All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all those he has given me, but raise them up at the last day. For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.”  John 6:37-40

Although our salvation is guaranteed through God’s promises if we truly are saved, this precious gift of life eternal is not to be taken for granted. The law was brought in so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our LORD. Romans 5: 20-21 

This is a serious life event and we are required to honor our lord by abiding within accordance to his will. Our salvation will not be in jeopardy, but as followers of Jesus Christ we will all have to account for what we do as the measure or degree of rewards that we will receive in heaven depend on how well or poorly we serve God while we’re still here on the earth.

If we properly serve God fruitfully our work will survive God’s testing fire meaningfully, leading up to rewards.

If we don’t gain or achieve anything substantial within service to God our works will not stand up to the test and they will render of no value, burning up in the fire and we won’t receive any rewards, though we will still be saved.

For we are labourers together with God: ye are God’s husbandry, ye are God’s building. According to the grace of God which is given unto me, as a wise masterbuilder, I have laid the foundation, and another buildeth thereon. But let every man take heed how he buildeth thereupon. For other foundation can no man lay than that is laid, which is Jesus Christ. Now if any man build upon this foundation gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, stubble; Every man’s work shall be made manifest: for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try every man’s work of what sort it is. If any man’s work abide which he hath built thereupon, he shall receive a reward. If any man’s work shall be burned, he shall suffer loss: but he himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire. Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you? If any man defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy; for the temple of God is holy, which temple ye are. 1 Corinthians 3:9-17


If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.  For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved. Romans 10: 9-10

Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified. Romans 8:30

What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin that grace may abound? Certainly not! How shall we who died to sin live any longer in it? Romans 6: 1-2

Counterfeit Christians And The Truth About Salvation

I never understood why people who’d done tons of dirt and/or who lived an iniquitous lifestyle before supposedly turning to Jesus Christ were so judgmental and harsh towards those who’d never done anything close to what they did within their lifetime.

And when you reach the limit in tolerating their hypocrisy and tell them the truth about themselves, they’re quick to respond with, “We all fall short of the glory of God”. These words are often used by them to undermine and to downplay the individual who confronts them on their own misdeeds and behaviors. Their traits of manipulation and deviousness conveniently resume instantly, yet they claim to be a born-again Christian.

They make irrational or petty comments about others based on preconceived ideas and notions even when they don’t know one all too well.

There actions definitely have more to show about them than they do anyone else. Sometimes it is derived from their own guilt that surface to haunt them and sometimes it is just a matter of jealousy, or both. Another person’s character may be a reminder to the opposite of what they once were and wish they could have been like from the beginning of their life journey, and they may feel inadequate or even resentful toward that person.

I know, I’ve been through it before with a relative who had just met me for the first time, however, she considered me the “judgmental one” because my spirit did not take to her, and it did not take to her rightfully so.

One of the gifts I was born with was the gift of discernment. I was always able to sense things about people that other people could not sense.

About nineteen years ago, this relative expressed to me that yes, the bible stated that there are seven gifts given out. So, she didn’t deny my gifts as her grandmother had also been born with the gift of extrasensory perception. Nevertheless, she also stated that one could have a gift without being saved. I was intuitive enough to know that she was snidely hinting around at me and insinuating that I was not saved.

During the time I had spent with her I had caught her in lies, intentional gossip, and a plan to do dirt towards me.

The Lord, of course, delivered me out of the circumstance safely and perfectly unharmed, but now I was even wiser to those wolves who walk around in sheep clothing. I had experienced people like this relative before yet not to this extent of sickness.

This relative even said to me that she tried to figure out how I had made it through particular hardships during my childhood still intact. She boggled me because if she was truly a Christian there would not have been anything to figure out. As a believer, to me, the situation was obvious. It was God. When us believers walk through fire we don’t get burned. Our Lord protects and shields us faithfully.

She was always talking about wishing someone would get saved and about who wasn’t saved. My question was who and what made her the authority on who was saved and what it actually meant to be saved?

This relative told me a person who died went straight to hell because they weren’t saved. I asked her how she knew they weren’t saved. She told me because of all the dancing that they use to do. She claimed if one had a gift that they weren’t exclusively using to glorify God than they were not saved. This person who she spoke of wasn’t a stripper or into any pornography or anything of that nature, and she was still young (in her early twenties).

This person sung and danced for audiences just as certain gospels singers and musicians do, they just weren’t singing gospel music or in the genre. Even some gospel entertainers are not all what they appear to be, neither are many active members of the congregations.

Jesus said himself, “Not everyone that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity. Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock“. -Matthew 7:21-24

Anyway, my point is, I was christened at a Catholic church when I was four months old. I also verbally accepted and received Jesus Christ as my Lord and savior when I was still a child or during my preteen years over thirty years ago. God was always with me and has always kept me and had did some very amazing things for me even when I had gotten angry at him and doubted his goodness for a period of time due to my particular trials in life. The purity within my spirit never left.

God is omniscient and only he knows who is a true believer and who is not. No one else can ultimately make that decision so those in particular need not to make subjective judgments in regard to who is and who is not a saved Christian based on their perception of one’s performance in life.

There are indeed sincere Christians who do exercise, carry out, and accomplish righteousness more effectively than certain others but God knows one’s heart and genuine efforts and he meets his people where they are and aides them with his Holy Spirit. There are different stages of transformation depending on each individual as everyone is unique. To whatever degree where one is at God is working things out for their own good and preparing a wonderful place for them.

True believers in God/Jesus Christ do not let the regrets or mistakes of their past negatively influence their conduct toward others who haven’t been down their same road. Yes, none of us are perfect, though one shouldn’t try to beat down other people on account of not being able to handle their own insecurities. It’s not about where one has been but where one is going as they are a new creation within God/Jesus. Forget the past as it is all forgiven through our savior and move on positively learning correctly and building each other and growing each other with our fellow sisters and brothers in Christ.

In all honesty, a lot of so called Christians are not really saved and were never truly Christians to begin with.I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth. Revelation 3:15-16

For such men are false apostles, deceitful workmen, disguising themselves as apostles of Christ. And no wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. So it is no surprise if his servants, also, disguise themselves as servants of righteousness. Their end will correspond to their deeds. 2 Corinthians 11:13-15

Examine yourselves, to see whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Or do you not realize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you fail to meet the test! 2 Corinthians 13:5

Having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid such people. 2 Timothy 3:5

For it is shameful even to speak of the things that they do in secret. Ephesians 5:12

Whoever walks in integrity walks securely, but he who makes his ways crooked will be found out. Proverbs 10:9

When a man’s ways please the Lord, he makes even his enemies to be at peace with him. Proverbs 16:7

I appeal to you, brothers, to watch out for those who cause divisions and create obstacles contrary to the doctrine that you have been taught; avoid them. For such persons do not serve our Lord Christ, but their own appetites, and by smooth talk and flattery they deceive the hearts of the naive. Romans 16:17-18

“Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Matthew 5:11

So they watched him and sent spies, who pretended to be sincere, that they might catch him in something he said, so as to deliver him up to the authority and jurisdiction of the governor. So they asked him, “Teacher, we know that you speak and teach rightly, and show no partiality, but truly teach the way of God. Is it lawful for us to give tribute to Caesar, or not?” But he perceived their craftiness, and said to them, “Show me a denarius. Whose likeness and inscription does it have?” They said, “Caesar’s.” … 

-Luke 20:20-24

A Letter From Jesus

During the 1980’s, when I was around eleven or twelve years old, there was a Christian bookstore that opened up around the corner from where I lived.

At this store, my mother and I would pick out and purchase hand crafted religious plaques.


We bought a large-size, dark wood carving, scripted and pictured with the beauty of the sky, ocean, and sand, adorning the words of the timeless “Footprints” inspirational.

The Footprints poem, is one of the most wonderful reminders of the comfort we receive from the Lord within the certain times we may not feel he is around us.

There were a few other religious plaques that had caught our attention and spoke to our hearts, but one that I remember buying in particular was a favorite of mine.

I purchased this lovely plaque when I was about fourteen. I had bought two of them, one for myself, and one as a gift for someone else.

Over a decade later, I ran into the lady who told me she still had the plaque that I had given her all those years ago, and I still had mine at home too

The Plaque was an attractively designed carving on light-colored wood scripted as, “The Letter from Your Friend Jesus”:

Dear Friend,

How are you? I just had to send a note to tell you how much I care about you. I saw you yesterday as you were talking with your friends. I waited all day hoping you would want to talk with me too. I gave you a sunset to close your day and a cool breeze to rest you — and I waited. You never came. It hurt me — but I still love you because I am your friend.

I saw you sleeping last night and longed to touch your brow so I spilled moonlight upon your face. Again, I waited, wanting to rush down so we could talk. I have so many gifts for you! You awoke and rushed off to work. My tears were in the rain.

If you would only listen to me! I love you! I try to tell you in blue skies and in the quiet green grass. I whisper it in leaves on the trees and breathe it in colors of flowers, shout it to you in mountain streams, give the birds love songs to sing. I clothe you with warm sunshine and perfume the air with nature scents. My love for you is deeper than the ocean, and bigger than the biggest need in your heart!

Ask me! Talk with me! Please don’t forget me. I have so much to share with you!
I won’t hassle you any further. It is YOUR decision. I have chosen you and I will wait — because I love you.

Your friend,


This is such a beautiful inspirational! And oh, so timeless indeed. It was always enough to bring tears to my eyes as I discerned the heavy meaning of the recitation. The message is very touching, still to this day.

Accepting God

As a child, my mother regularly attended a Baptist church and was baptized at the age of ten. Shortly after I was born, at four months, my mother had me christened at a Catholic church. We both had the spirit of the Lord within us early on in our lives, and she introduced me to the bible at an early stage of my youth.

My mother took notice of the special gifts and talents that I had growing up, observing how advanced I was as she herself was very smart, and highly intuitive.

The both of us went through a lot, however, my mother always believed and trusted in God no matter what. There were certain things that I could sense and feel and that I was repulsed by, and the devil would come hard against my mother and I, but we never gave in.

Instead, I had gotten angry.

I blamed God for a number of things. I was angry for being born into the world, for having to go through certain things I felt I shouldn’t have and that I didn’t deserve.

I believed God was trying to hurt me, that God was against me, that God was a mean, cruel, sick, unfair God who was apt to punishing at any opportunity in accordance to what displeased him or that he was just waiting for the moment to find fault with me just to send me to hell.

I felt it was impossible to love, trust, and live under a God successfully under those conditions and terms. It was very hard for me to perceive God as the good, loving, caring, trustworthy, merciful god that I’d often hear people claim that he was. I just couldn’t understand their reasoning.

My mother conveyed to me there was a time in her life where she felt similar to the way I did. Wondering why God allowed specific things to happen and tended to think negatively about him.

My mother did stress to me that the Lord wasn’t against me and that god was good. She explained how good God had been to her throughout her life, and this is what confused me at a period. I had to admit to myself that no matter what went on within our lives we had always come out okay, or even better than okay.

I can give testimony to the wonderful and amazing turnabouts from our trials and tribulations, regardless of what may have occurred and seemed unfavorable or impossible.

Life is full of ups and downs, in general. It is even more burdensome when trouble comes through the vile hands of malicious people as well as the malignant principalities of this world.

I loved when the good things would constantly happen, I wanted life to continue on in those ways permanently. It was easy to have faith and believe in God while experiencing the pleasant moments of life. Yet, I learned that true faith, or a deeper faith, comes with fully trusting God when things don’t go well, and when all seems hopeless.

This is when our belief is ultimately put to the test.

When we stick with the Lord during the worst, most devastating events of our lives, knowing in our hearts he will come through in a fashion we don’t clearly perceive-but expect, from his loyalty and truth, amid his past accounts-we can rest assured God has prepared a grand delivery. All of our distinct packages are wrapped, sealed, and distributed through our unwavering faith.