A Peace That Is Not Of The World

When Jesus spoke, he often said “Peace be with you“. Peace is something many people do not have. I’m talking about a genuine peace. The kind of peace where you find happiness when there is turmoil. The peace that is not disturbed by the hectic happenings created upon a havoc world.

The peace I speak of is a calm of the mind that illuminates from the spirit.

Like I’ve said before many times before within the past: “The world didn’t give it to me and the world cannot take it away from me“. It is pure and refreshing, unable to be sullied by upheaval.

I have been through a lot from a very early age and nothing was able to shake me or break my spirit. No matter what arose or entered into my life. I stayed intact mentally, physically and spiritually. I remained steadfast in the process continuing to learn and grow. I was maintained by the essence of the Holy Spirit.

All who love me will do what I say. My Father will love them, and we will come and make our home with each of them. Anyone who doesn’t love me will not obey me. And remember, my words are not my own. What I am telling you is from the Father who sent me. I am telling you these things now while I am still with you. But when the Father sends the Advocate as my representative—that is, the Holy Spirit—he will teach you everything and will remind you of everything I have told you“.

I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. Remember what I told you: I am going away, but I will come back to you again. If you really loved me, you would be happy that I am going to the Father, who is greater than I am. I have told you these things before they happen so that when they do happen, you will believe.
“I don’t have much more time to talk to you, because the ruler of this world approaches. He has no power over me,”

The Lord Is My Shepherd

“If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them gets lost, what will he do? Won’t he leave the ninety-nine others in the wilderness and go to search for the one that is lost until he finds it?  And when he has found it, he will joyfully carry it home on his shoulders. -Luke 15:4-5



I can actually identify with the verses above as they play out so descriptively true within my life. Jesus came looking for me-a major event that I never actually expected to happen.

I didn’t think he cared whether or not I had distanced myself from him.

Anger, and the misconceptions I developed about Jesus/God through out the ups and downs of my life had kept me from wanting to be bothered anymore. There are certain things I hadn’t learned or understood up until now.  Jesus approached me in such a very strong way. At first, his entrance seemed harsh, considering the situation that was at hand. My attention was fully grasped and focused strictly back upon him. 

Jesus arrived to me with an extreme seriousness, one I initially took as a retribution for having turned away from him with animosity.

Then, I soon realized off and on during the process that Jesus was just being a stern, but solicitous parent/father. Although I was hurt by the circumstance in which arose he wasn’t at all trying to hurt me. In fact, he’s been nothing but a tremendous help, comfort, protector, and loving guide through out it all.

Jesus wasn’t messing around this time. He’s got me in an intimate one on one relationship with him. One that is stronger and more intense than ever before and it is continuing to grow beautifully. I’ve also noticed that our relationship is guarded. Jesus is attentive and I am eager and hungry for all of his love, grace, knowledge and instruction. You have to ardently love someone to come at them that hard and keep them under a tight grip. I am utterly shocked. I really shouldn’t be after all Jesus/God has done for me in the past, however, that is what built up the faith that I had to instantly trust in him.

I feel genuine love in my heart for Jesus and I enjoy spending quality time talking to him in my prayers and reading the scriptures along with my devotionals day to day.

Sometimes we go by what we feel or see in the natural sense and when it comes to God we shouldn’t do that. We are to walk by faith and not by sight because even though we don’t see the lord we know that he is everywhere. And just because we may not feel he cares we know he does from the extraordinary acts that he does in our lives no matter how big or small and he does them with a consistency.

Like I said before, I didn’t think it fazed Jesus that I departed communication with him for several years when all along he was there and working it out for my own good and as a part of his plan.

In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps.-Proverbs 16: 9



Spiritual Gifts



I was always very sensitive spiritually as a child. I was highly empathic, perceptive/intuitive, and intelligent (wise beyond my years), and I had a strong connection to the spirit realm and to God. I was also very strong emotionally with a strong, enduring spirit.

Highly sensitive does not mean easily wounded (getting one’s feelings hurt or taking matters or things too personally and seriously) when it comes to people who have extrasensory perception.

People in my experience have the ability to feel deeply and to sense at a heightened level of capacity/range and are often misunderstood and/or mislabeled as being timid, having anxiety, or not being normal. None of which is true as we are all individuals. People tend to categorize when it is something they know nothing about.

We are just people with gifts who experience a touch of the supernatural (I’m not talking about fortune-telling, I’m talking about extraordinary faculties) and our God and Lord Jesus is indeed supernatural.


1 Corinthians 12: 1-11
Spiritual Gifts

Now, dear brothers and sisters, regarding your question about the special abilities the Spirit gives us. I don’t want you to misunderstand this. You know that when you were still pagans, you were led astray and swept along in worshiping speechless idols.  So I want you to know that no one speaking by the Spirit of God will curse Jesus, and no one can say Jesus is Lord, except by the Holy Spirit.
 There are different kinds of spiritual gifts, but the same Spirit is the source of them all.  There are different kinds of service, but we serve the same Lord.  God works in different ways, but it is the same God who does the work in all of us.

 A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other.  To one person the Spirit gives the ability to give wise advice; to another the same Spirit gives a message of special knowledge.  The same Spirit gives great faith to another, and to someone else the one Spirit gives the gift of healing.  He gives one person the power to perform miracles, and another the ability to prophesy. He gives someone else the ability to discern whether a message is from the Spirit of God or from another spirit. Still another person is given the ability to speak in unknown languages, while another is given the ability to interpret what is being said.  It is the one and only Spirit who distributes all these gifts. He alone decides which gift each person should have.





When The Lord Draws Near And Walks Close

“No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws them, and I will raise them up at the last day.” John 6:44

I was introduced to God as a child by my mother. I had a few other family members who were into God and who read the bible. God was no stranger within my early home life and I was drawn to him. I use to have a deep interest in the bible and God’s word and I had asked Jesus into my life as my lord and savior before I hit my teens.

I remember when I did enter my teenage years I had so much faith in what God could do.

Yet, I didn’t understand all of the scriptures and between the misbehavior of certain so-called Christians, church goers, everyday people, tribulation and my lack of interpretation to some of the bible I had a negative perception of what God appeared to be.

There came a time when I began to view God within a positive light when things in my life started to improve and I developed what I considered a closer relationship with God. I’d pray to him and he would give me the things that I asked for and I was trying to live accordingly to his approval the best way that I knew how from where I was at.

Nevertheless, there was always something within me that kept me conscious of God. Whether it was through spiritual intuition, intellectual curiosity, or a natural life connection there was a continuous leaning toward finding specific answers and making acquaintance.

Currently, in my older days, God has used a trial to bring me back to him after a long period of my having been angry with him. I already knew from the past what God had done for me and how he came through sufficiently. He was wonderful then and even more astonishing to me now.

I am getting to know him in a way I’ve never known or realized before and it is very real and supernatural. God is my ultimate comforter and he has drawn me closer to him than ever before. I can’t believe how good he’s been during my time of challenge.

God makes the unbearable bearable and in doing so creates a strong, intimate and personal relationship of sincere intention and reliability. God’s concern and providence is extremely nurturing.

He is holding on to me, not letting me go, constantly sustaining me in the power of his spirit. But whoever is united with the LORD is one with him in spirit.  

-1 Corinthians 6:17





God’s Holy Spirit At Work In Me

Hi, I’m LaToya Lawrence,

God has inspired me to help spread the good news (his good news!) And surely, I can also testify to give my own personal accounts of God’s outstanding work in my life.  

God wants us to know and remember that he sent Jesus to die for us so that we could no longer be separated from him and have the relationship with him that he had originally intended. 

God wants us to know and remember that through the life, crucifixion/death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ we have been pardoned through God’s grace and mercy to escape death and receive eternal life.

God loves us and desires for no one to perish but to grasp onto his word (read the bible faithfully) harken unto his voice, (listen to him for our best interest), and follow his lead (surrender and let him direct our path).

God also wants us to be inspired by his promises and to not be discouraged by our enemy (the devil/satan and his fellow demonic army) but to hold on and continue to have faith in him. 

As an ambassador of God, this blog is in devotion to my strong relationship with God in my journey motivated by his holy spirit, and inspires to share and bear witness. Scroll down to read the posts.

Answer Jesus’s knock at the door and allow him into your heart and accept all of the teachings and blessings that he has stored up in preparation to getting us ready for our permanent home.

“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. Matthew 7:13

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, Matthew 6:19

“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. John 14: 1-3



When I was a little girl my mother always told me, I had a gift. My great-grandmother told me that she believed I was going to be a missionary one day. When I got older, I was told by a teacher that I am a “messenger”. All glory goes to God as I am a servant/follower of Jesus Christ.  

On the contrary, we speak as those approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel. We are not trying to please people but God, who tests our hearts. 1 Thessalonians 2:4  

Jesus said, “My kingdom is not of this world. If it were, my servants would fight to prevent my arrest by the Jewish leaders. But now my kingdom is from another place.” John 18:36  

They are not of the world, even as I am not of itJohn 17:16  

“I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves. Matthew 10:16  

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.” Acts 1:8 

I was very young when I noticed the special abilities that I had, though, at the time I thought it was a trait that everyone had. It wasn’t until I had gotten older that I realized while most people experienced life through their natural senses I and certain others who were bestowed with discernment experienced life through our extraordinary senses. 

I was highly sensitive as a child growing up, able to feel and to sense things about people and environments that other people couldn’t sense. I’d have intuitive thoughts, visions, dreams and sensations that would alert me to my surroundings and to the happenings taking place within the spiritual realm.  

As one born with a caul/veil I naturally had a special link/sensitivity to the spiritual realm, often encountering demonic spirits or activity as well as the signs and presence of angelic energies around me.  

At the age of twelve, while I experienced a season of trial, I frequently saw before my eyes sparkles that twinkled in the sign of a cross. They were so beautiful and illuminating, a piercing silver-like. I use to wonder if I was really seeing what I was seeing, but I actually was. To this day I still see these sparkling signs yet they come in a different form. I’ve even seen gold and blue sparks of light on separate occasions. This manifest at the time had brought with it an internal message from the Lord stating “I’m here. I am with you. Everything is going to be alright”.  

God already knew the unique plans that he had in store for us even before he created the earth. He appointed our callings then furnished and equipped us for special talents and gifts before we were born. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.  Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them!  Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand— when I awake, I am still with you. Psalm 139: 13-18 

Counterfeit Christians And The Truth About Salvation

I never understood why people who’d done tons of dirt and/or who lived an iniquitous lifestyle before supposedly turning to Jesus Christ were so judgmental and harsh towards those who’d never done anything close to what they did within their lifetime.

And when you reach the limit in tolerating their hypocrisy and tell them the truth about themselves, they’re quick to respond with, “We all fall short of the glory of God”. These words are often used by them to undermine and to downplay the individual who confronts them on their own misdeeds and behaviors. Their traits of manipulation and deviousness conveniently resume instantly, yet they claim to be a born-again Christian.

They make irrational or petty comments about others based on preconceived ideas and notions even when they don’t know one all too well.

There actions definitely have more to show about them than they do anyone else. Sometimes it is derived from their own guilt that surface to haunt them and sometimes it is just a matter of jealousy, or both. Another person’s character may be a reminder to the opposite of what they once were and wish they could have been like from the beginning of their life journey, and they may feel inadequate or even resentful toward that person.

I know, I’ve been through it before with a relative who had just met me for the first time, however, she considered me the “judgmental one” because my spirit did not take to her, and it did not take to her rightfully so.

One of the gifts I was born with was the gift of discernment. I was always able to sense things about people that other people could not sense.

About nineteen years ago, this relative expressed to me that yes, the bible stated that there are seven gifts given out. So, she didn’t deny my gifts as her grandmother had also been born with the gift of extrasensory perception. Nevertheless, she also stated that one could have a gift without being saved. I was intuitive enough to know that she was snidely hinting around at me and insinuating that I was not saved.

During the time I had spent with her I had caught her in lies, intentional gossip, and a plan to do dirt towards me.

The Lord, of course, delivered me out of the circumstance safely and perfectly unharmed, but now I was even wiser to those wolves who walk around in sheep clothing. I had experienced people like this relative before yet not to this extent of sickness.

This relative even said to me that she tried to figure out how I had made it through particular hardships during my childhood still intact. She boggled me because if she was truly a Christian there would not have been anything to figure out. As a believer, to me, the situation was obvious. It was God. When us believers walk through fire we don’t get burned. Our Lord protects and shields us faithfully.

She was always talking about wishing someone would get saved and about who wasn’t saved. My question was who and what made her the authority on who was saved and what it actually meant to be saved?

This relative told me a person who died went straight to hell because they weren’t saved. I asked her how she knew they weren’t saved. She told me because of all the dancing that they use to do. She claimed if one had a gift that they weren’t exclusively using to glorify God than they were not saved. This person who she spoke of wasn’t a stripper or into any pornography or anything of that nature, and she was still young (in her early twenties).

This person sung and danced for audiences just as certain gospels singers and musicians do, they just weren’t singing gospel music or in the genre. Even some gospel entertainers are not all what they appear to be, neither are many active members of the congregations.

Jesus said himself, “Not everyone that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity. Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock“. -Matthew 7:21-24

Anyway, my point is, I was christened at a Catholic church when I was four months old. I also verbally accepted and received Jesus Christ as my Lord and savior when I was still a child or during my preteen years over thirty years ago. God was always with me and has always kept me and had did some very amazing things for me even when I had gotten angry at him and doubted his goodness for a period of time due to my particular trials in life. The purity within my spirit never left.

God is omniscient and only he knows who is a true believer and who is not. No one else can ultimately make that decision so those in particular need not to make subjective judgments in regard to who is and who is not a saved Christian based on their perception of one’s performance in life.

There are indeed sincere Christians who do exercise, carry out, and accomplish righteousness more effectively than certain others but God knows one’s heart and genuine efforts and he meets his people where they are and aides them with his Holy Spirit. There are different stages of transformation depending on each individual as everyone is unique. To whatever degree where one is at God is working things out for their own good and preparing a wonderful place for them.

True believers in God/Jesus Christ do not let the regrets or mistakes of their past negatively influence their conduct toward others who haven’t been down their same road. Yes, none of us are perfect, though one shouldn’t try to beat down other people on account of not being able to handle their own insecurities. It’s not about where one has been but where one is going as they are a new creation within God/Jesus. Forget the past as it is all forgiven through our savior and move on positively learning correctly and building each other and growing each other with our fellow sisters and brothers in Christ.

In all honesty, a lot of so called Christians are not really saved and were never truly Christians to begin with.I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth. Revelation 3:15-16

For such men are false apostles, deceitful workmen, disguising themselves as apostles of Christ. And no wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. So it is no surprise if his servants, also, disguise themselves as servants of righteousness. Their end will correspond to their deeds. 2 Corinthians 11:13-15

Examine yourselves, to see whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Or do you not realize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you fail to meet the test! 2 Corinthians 13:5

Having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid such people. 2 Timothy 3:5

For it is shameful even to speak of the things that they do in secret. Ephesians 5:12

Whoever walks in integrity walks securely, but he who makes his ways crooked will be found out. Proverbs 10:9

When a man’s ways please the Lord, he makes even his enemies to be at peace with him. Proverbs 16:7

I appeal to you, brothers, to watch out for those who cause divisions and create obstacles contrary to the doctrine that you have been taught; avoid them. For such persons do not serve our Lord Christ, but their own appetites, and by smooth talk and flattery they deceive the hearts of the naive. Romans 16:17-18

“Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Matthew 5:11

So they watched him and sent spies, who pretended to be sincere, that they might catch him in something he said, so as to deliver him up to the authority and jurisdiction of the governor. So they asked him, “Teacher, we know that you speak and teach rightly, and show no partiality, but truly teach the way of God. Is it lawful for us to give tribute to Caesar, or not?” But he perceived their craftiness, and said to them, “Show me a denarius. Whose likeness and inscription does it have?” They said, “Caesar’s.” … 

-Luke 20:20-24

Accepting God

As a child, my mother regularly attended a Baptist church and was baptized at the age of ten. Shortly after I was born, at four months, my mother had me christened at a Catholic church. We both had the spirit of the Lord within us early on in our lives, and she introduced me to the bible at an early stage of my youth.

My mother took notice of the special gifts and talents that I had growing up, observing how advanced I was as she herself was very smart, and highly intuitive.

The both of us went through a lot, however, my mother always believed and trusted in God no matter what. There were certain things that I could sense and feel and that I was repulsed by, and the devil would come hard against my mother and I, but we never gave in.

Instead, I had gotten angry.

I blamed God for a number of things. I was angry for being born into the world, for having to go through certain things I felt I shouldn’t have and that I didn’t deserve.

I believed God was trying to hurt me, that God was against me, that God was a mean, cruel, sick, unfair God who was apt to punishing at any opportunity in accordance to what displeased him or that he was just waiting for the moment to find fault with me just to send me to hell.

I felt it was impossible to love, trust, and live under a God successfully under those conditions and terms. It was very hard for me to perceive God as the good, loving, caring, trustworthy, merciful god that I’d often hear people claim that he was. I just couldn’t understand their reasoning.

My mother conveyed to me there was a time in her life where she felt similar to the way I did. Wondering why God allowed specific things to happen and tended to think negatively about him.

My mother did stress to me that the Lord wasn’t against me and that god was good. She explained how good God had been to her throughout her life, and this is what confused me at a period. I had to admit to myself that no matter what went on within our lives we had always come out okay, or even better than okay.

I can give testimony to the wonderful and amazing turnabouts from our trials and tribulations, regardless of what may have occurred and seemed unfavorable or impossible.

Life is full of ups and downs, in general. It is even more burdensome when trouble comes through the vile hands of malicious people as well as the malignant principalities of this world.

I loved when the good things would constantly happen, I wanted life to continue on in those ways permanently. It was easy to have faith and believe in God while experiencing the pleasant moments of life. Yet, I learned that true faith, or a deeper faith, comes with fully trusting God when things don’t go well, and when all seems hopeless.

This is when our belief is ultimately put to the test.

When we stick with the Lord during the worst, most devastating events of our lives, knowing in our hearts he will come through in a fashion we don’t clearly perceive-but expect, from his loyalty and truth, amid his past accounts-we can rest assured God has prepared a grand delivery. All of our distinct packages are wrapped, sealed, and distributed through our unwavering faith.