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Dirty, Rotten, And Pitiful

Sunday, April 15, 2007 at 11:34 AM EDT

This past Christmas eve when i was working at J.C. Penny’s a guy approached me. I’d never seen him before. I ignored him of course because i did not want to be bothered.

Not too long after and later that night when i got home i could feel him beginning to enter into my mind. I have very keen senses. My brain is like radar. I knew before he approached that something was up just like i do with everyone else.

Whenever a man is interested in me, out to do me harm, and etc. they stay inside my head for as long as their feelings towards me last. I feel their thoughts and emotions and i pick up things going on within their lives. People have no clue how Divine Spirit has gifted me.

This particular guy has been in my mind for three months and some change.

About a month after he first entered into my head i dreamed that he was still conscious of me but seeing another girl. Obviously there was nothing serious going on with him and her because i’ve been picking up on him very strongly all of this time.

On a Friday, the 30th of march, i heard his voice as i woke up from my sleep in the morning. His exact words were “I’m gonna fight for the woman i want”. Later that day i went to pick up my check from J.C. Penny’s and on my way back from cashing it out there in Garden City i think i may have saw him, i wasn’t too sure of that until the following palm Sunday.

On palm Sunday, the 1st of April, i was at home lying in my bed receiving a few messages and seeing a few visions when one particular vision of this guy appeared to me as the occurrence was actually taking place at that point in time.

In my vision i saw him around this man who may deal with the Islamic faith because the man communicated with me through telepathic means. He spoke to me in my thoughts and i responded to him and he mentioned Allah which is the name of God among Muslims.

Anyway, my deranged admirer stayed around this man while he performed a love ritual on me. I could see, hear, and feel everything that went on. This guy even had the nerve to inquire if i’d ever been intimate with some guy that i won’t mention because i never had feelings for anybody. He’s all in my business!

This past Easter Sunday on the 8th of April i received another vision of this guy.

He was nervous and worried. I’m not going to go into detail about what was causing his anxiety though. However, i will divulge this-he is still working his ritual. It is still in process right now. He did a marriage ritual and a ritual for me to have his children. I’ve been feeling his shit. It seems that he does certain rituals on Sundays and Wednesdays. He is also trying to take away my “energy”. He wants to make me weak and draw me to him.

There is absolutely no doubt that i don’t like the way the God of the bible created things, the way he sometimes goes about things (he works too slow for me) but i don’t believe in him and his power and there are many things i don’t like about him due to what i know and experienced here on earth (the things that he lets go on) i am one of the very special children ( born with a caul) Divine Spirit has my back.

He is in control and he will continue to work things out in his own way during his own “time”. My third eye and my spirits show and communicate with me to let me know the outcomes of my situations and they always turn out in my favor.

Almost a month ago now someone tried to harm me spiritually and it backfired right in her face. Soon after the incident the Lord of the bible came to me in my thoughts and told me to come to him for anything and that he is my source of protection, however, i did not accept his offer he turns me off.

I preferred the powers of my Ancestors and Orishas.

So whatever this particular guy is trying to do to me i guarantee that it will not work. It will all blow up in his face. Somebody told me that i should be flattered about what he is doing. To me it is never flattering for someone to try to control the will of another no matter what the motive may be.

Love and affection should come naturally and i am not the pathetic type to get off on somebody wanting me that bad regardless of the intentions.

Whenever negative Obeah, Santeria, Yoruba, Voodoo or whatever you want to call it is being worked and in affect, it is very unnatural and unhealthy. It is all black magic and i will continue to be protected by my spirituality.

I can’t wait to see how all of this is going to play out since i have the power to convert negative energy into positive energy.

( All Of The Voodoo In The World Could Never Make Me Desire A Man )

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/rituals/

Strength, Power

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Monday, April 02, 2007 at 11:21 AM EDT

You know, things are really looking up for me. I am getting ready to start a new career already! It will begin in a short time. I never worry about my future because i have always been able to see into the future. I’ve been looking to start something new for quite a while now. I get bored very quick. When something doesn’t hold my interest i have to move on to things that better suit me.

A door has closed in my life and a new door has opened and it is very exciting. I am anticipating this new part of my life that is on it’s way. I played a part in my life taking another new start.

The way that i feel is if i want a change i have to be the one to take charge and i absolutely have the power to do so spiritually and, nothing is able to stop me. I am a fighter, a survivor.

I’ve always been a very strong person who is not afraid of too much. And i haven’t been afraid to go about things in my own way and i realize that i am pushing forward more now in a way that is going full forward in my favor.

I’m feeling great bursts of positive energy. I’m feeling extreme confidence. I am very smart, strong and pretty. And, i think that i am more crazier now than ever.

I’ve always felt this good about myself but my feelings are heightened.

I found a greater method in developing and maintaining my spirituality. I had to build a new foundation. And all negative influences that are around me are becoming even more and more irrelevant.

Things are indeed still going on but it has nothing to do with me. It is about me yet it is all in my enemies (and those who don’t know any better) heads.

They are living in a world that i am not in. I’m here, i’ll just never adapt to the things that are not befitting to me so i stay in my real world that i belong in. I am in the world but not of it.

Aside from having the ability to handle adversity the way that i can sometimes i wonder if it is good to be too strong, not caring about things like what people say, think and feel. And not getting embarrassed and worrying about what is going to go down in life. I’ve always been that way and it can be bad because i have hurt people with my careless ways and attitude. I don’t dwell on the thought, though.

I am who i am naturally, and i can’t change.

Even if being too strong is not a good thing i still have my benefits because some can’t see me for who i really am. Some think i’m sweet and innocent. I am a good person but i am not as sweet as they think. And i’m innocent as far as never being lustful, in love before or damaged by anyone, and i don’t have no dirt on me, but that is about it.

Right now, i am getting very acquainted with this enhanced spiritual power that i have received. It is getting distinctly familiar with me and i am getting distinctly familiar with it and we are becoming ultimately unified.

( A Strong Faith Sees The Invisible. Believes The Impossible. And Receives The Incredible ) – A quote!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/strength-power/

Age

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 4:42 AM EDT

“Respect your elders”. “Wisdom comes with age”. I’ve heard people speak those words throughout my lifetime as i am sure others have. However, i strongly disagree with those words.

Just because someone is a little bit or a lot older than one does not mean that they automatically deserve their respect. And wisdom does come with age for some but definitely not for all. I learned that fact early on as a very young child. And it is a fact!

Grown ups had said and done things to me that wasn’t correct and right.

If i knew a little more about something than they did they didn’t want to hear it because in their mind they believed that they were the adult who knew better when in actuality they didn’t know what they were talking about. Often when a particular child, teen, or even young adult is knowledgeable and goes to express an idea or solution that someone older may not see, realize, or grasp the first thing that older person may be quick to verbalize is that the younger person is being “fresh” or “think that he or she knows everything”. And then continues on with “they’ll learn”.

They are very quick to generalize as most people do. It is not fair but it sometimes happens.

It’s been said and i’ve been told all throughout my life by those who have been able to recognize that i am too smart and that i know a lot for my age and that they were nowhere near the level that i’m on when they were at my age. There are decent rational adults out there who don’t have any problem acknowledging and accepting that people younger than them can know just as much as they do and even a little more.

You see, i have always carried a portion of wisdom. I have a good share of it. And i am very wise in ways that a lot of people don’t appreciate. There have been some who’ve misjudged me, accused me of things that i was not guilty of, lied on me, underestimated me, and treated me unfairly. There have been plenty of older peoples asses that i have wanted to kick. A lot of them make me so sick about how they think or thought that they were enlightening me by telling me something while all of the time i was way ahead of them.

Of course, there are those who are informative and beneficial to learn a little or a lot from. They are very helpful and they are the ones that i respect if they genuinely have understanding.

There have been older people who have tried to hurt me, test me, run games on me and so on because they believed and thought that they were so much more experienced.

And you see, that goes back to them making generalizations. Everybody is not the same but you can’t tell them that. So many of them have got it stored in their minds that they’ve been around and that they know and are able to read every type of person that they come across when they don’t know shit! They just think they do. And those are assholes that some of us are just going to run into at sometime or another. They are too ignorant to realize that it is not always necessarily age that makes you wiser but it is the insight and the “individual” experience. And just because one has the age does not mean that they have all of the experience.

A lot of people have gone through life living with the wrong information and mistaking one thing for another so when a younger person comes along knowing the answers he or she is sometimes considered as the one who is misguided, naive, or confused due to their own form of “misguidance”. And when some do come to a realization they are too embarrassed to admit to it.

There are plenty of younger people who indeed are naive, confused, and don’t know a whole lot about life and some of them are just stupid because their parents are stupid. But out here in the world there are older people who can learn from the young and the young who can learn from the old.

Our world is continually changing and while many things continue to change many of the things are going to remain the same.

I have a number of reasons why i don’t have respect for people just because they are older than me. Now that doesn’t mean that i go around disrespecting them. There is a difference between being courteous and having true respect for someone. I just do not underestimate anyone because they are younger than me and i do not overestimate someone simply because they are older. I go by the person within.

Nevertheless, i am aware that maturity also plays a part when it comes to certain people and their age.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/age/

Rumors

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 11:27 PM EDT

People have been telling lies since the beginning of time so they are definitely not going to stop now. No doubt, a lot of people are very nosy and love gossip. They gossip over anything, usually about a lot of silly shit. Some will say that everybody gossips. There is a big difference between having a discussion and straight out gossiping.

Most people who like to sit around waiting to hear and spread vicious rumors are pathetic, miserable people who don’t have a life of their own. They are full of envies and petty jealousies over the people that they talk about. As soon as gossip is spread about them though they can’t handle it and most of the time it is because what’s spread about them is the truth so they get mad and spread lies on others who are above them.

I have never spread rumors. I spread the truth.

And i, just like many others, have been the victim of quite a few ridiculous rumors. I’ve heard people say that they would go home and cry over lies that was said about them. I have never shed a tear over lies people told on me. Some of them may have pissed me off very much because i knew what they were trying to do but their talk didn’t affect me because i knew what was circulating was nowhere near the truth.

I know that it does hurt a lot of good people when others hear negative things that are false regarding them then they listen to it and may act accordingly to it. Treating them unfairly, and some of them got the nerve because they are the ones who actually have the dirt on them and the ones they criticize are the innocent ones.

The way i look at the matter is if you know who you are and you know what you did and did not do you shouldn’t give a fuck. People are going to talk about you anyway. Whether you do good or bad. Fuck them!

I scoff and laugh at people who spread rumors about me. I’m better than all of them. I can go and walk around anywhere holding my head up as high up in the sky as i want to because i haven’t done a damn thing! And if i had i’d still be strong enough to pick up and keep moving because i don’t do things that i’d be ashamed of.

People have all type of reasons why they make up lies and spread rumors. Most of the time it is done out of jealousy, hatred, ignorance, and sickness.

One time i hung out with this older woman who came out of jail a long time ago. Her name was Venus. The next thing that i knew people were assuming that because i was a good person and that she was a bad person that i was trying to help her get on her feet or something to that nature. The woman herself even went around lying, telling people that i was trying to save her. Save her from what? I don’t know what they were talking about. It was all news to me. That was a petty lie, unless she was really that dumb enough to perceive that through her own misunderstanding.

Then, later on, i was suppose to had went with her boyfriend (had a relationship with him). And then i became a ho’. And so on, an so on.

See, they are all crazy! And they are suppose to be grown folks. That’s why the dummy and her nigger both have been looking like skeletons for a while now and are rapidly dying from Aids.

You know, the truth always comes out no matter how long it may take. I don’t have no Aids and never had any other diseases for that matter.

That says a whole lot because they hung themselves with their own ropes.

People need to think about what they lie about before they do it. Their shit didn’t add up and now their being eaten up. I knew that they had Aids a long time ago and was waiting until the day for it to really show. I look at Venus and Omar and gloat like crazy. That is what they get for being so jealous of me, a death sentence.

It’s just sad when people’s lives get ruined over shit that they know is not true.

Since most of the time lies spread faster than the truth it gets to them how those who fall for the lies believe in it, and it bothers them how people think of them. I can’t get into any of that shit because it is a waste of energy. It’s not real so why pay any attention to it.

The way i keep looking at it is that they are living in a land of make-believe and i am in reality and i got to keep moving on because i’m not a sick person.

Some probably are making up rumors about why i write blogs. Is that going to discourage me from blogging? No way! I write because i am a natural born writer. I was told that the gift i have would be used to help people even though i did not set out to do so. I just followed the calling. It’s a talent. I’m not trying and never have tried to prove anything to anyone.

I don’t beg people to read my blogs. If nobody likes what i have to say they don’t have to visit and read my writings. I didn’t even tell people that i had blogs they found out on their own. I am expressing myself and i’m going to keep doing it.

And this may sound crazy but if i never got any visitors i’d still post.That is one of the major reasons i don’t and will continue not to be bothered with too many people because they are so stupid and ignorant, jealous, and inferior and not worth my time and energy.

I’m much, much happier being by myself, doing what i like.

Even when i am on my job i keep mostly to myself. So everybody can go on an keep talking while i’ll still be way ahead because i’ve been gone!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/rumors/

Brainwashed

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:51 PM EDT

It’s a huge world out there. There are so many people who don’t know what they be talking about. Then, you have many who do know what they are talking about. There are so many cultures, lifestyles, beliefs, opinions and ways that people are raised.

When you come into your own is when you really discover what is important since it partly develops into what may define some of your character. Some need to evaluate many of the things that they value or consider a value to them. They need to know where their ideas originated from-whether they made the decision on their own or let someone else decide for them.

Do you live by or go along with something because that is truly the way you feel in your heart or because it is the way that most people do so you just accepted it as the way to go or as it is said “the way it is suppose to be?”

I myself actually have never allowed society or any individual to dictate how i should live my life no matter how negatively or positively they may have decided to view me. I cannot and will not let the opinions of others faze me while i continue to take my journey through this life. Nobody is going to determine how i should feel about things, what i believe in and don’t believe in, and what i should agree with and don’t agree with.

No one can tell me what i don’t want to hear because i am going to have the last word when it comes to my life since i am the one living it! Nobody knows me better than i know myself.

Now, there is absolutely nothing wrong with hearing another person out if you decide what they are saying is worth hearing. It makes no sense to be oblivious to the diversities in the world. However, you don’t have to listen to it. It’s just vital for you to be aware of it and that it is going on and going on with these people.There is plenty of shit going on in the world that is not too kosher as far as i am concerned and i refuse to let my mind be molded and corrupted with some of the things that this society considers appropriate and not appropriate.

Of course, i may not know everything but i know a hell of a lot and enough to know that the so-called generalized way of how our life “in order” should be lived is a big mess. Yes, it is indeed true that whatever life is to one is the way they should live it because nobody’s path is the same.

We all have our own minds and ways of behavior-thank goodness for that! What i am talking about is being consciously or subconsciously programmed by what is displayed by myths, stereotypes, the media and even small things in life that we are taught. I don’t accept something as a fact as to what is right or wrong simply because it is said that it is the way it’s suppose to be or because so many people feel and are in a particular mode. I am also a person and i do count and my ways and thoughts differ greatly than the majority.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/brainwashed/

My Confessions

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Significance Of The Caul/A Caulbearer Who Cannot Be Defeated

January 28th, 2012

Everyone makes mistakes and indeed this was a big one! Everything in my post is the truth except for what I mentioned about God.

I wrote this post about fives years ago and now I can come out with the total truth that I could not say at the time. I don’t really feel that I did anything wrong. I don’t really believe that the only true protection comes from The God Of The Bible.

My actions did not cause me to be open for any attack because I don’t believe in or follow that God of the bible’s sick “will” especially that garbage about a man and a woman becoming one flesh. I will always be whole and complete and no one flesh with nobody.

I truly feel that God was responsible for allowing those sick witchcraft experiences because I never cared for him and belonged to him, and I thank my lucky stars because I don’t ever want to be one of his children.

I have true supervision and protection from my Ancestors and Orishas like I had all through out my life I just had to get reconnected and reacquainted since I was attacked by witchcraft at such an early age ( ever since I was seven ).

Even though I didn’t truly from my heart mean what I said in this post regarding “God” I really regret having done so because I would never intentionally want to give him any type of glory or justification whatsoever!

And I know damn well that my beautiful soul will never enter a place of hell even if I ever did get an abortion. “I’ve seen where i’m going”, God Of The Bible has no claims over me. He does not apply to me or my life. And I am so glad that I am at a place in my life where I can acknowledge it and back it up fiercely. And I don’t give a damn what anyone who is blinded by him has to say about it!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:17 PM EDT

I don’t know why I’m calling this post my confessions. I’ve never had anything to hide. What i really mean by confessing is just acknowledging more in depth how i feel about particular things regarding myself.

I am a female. A woman. And I’m very glad to be. I am strong-minded, strong-willed, determined, stubborn, confident, opinionated, outspoken and a few other things. When i was a little girl i loved to have fun just like most children and i was very creative.

A lot of children have an idea of what they want to be when they become an adult. I knew by the age of ten that i would write and that is the age that i began writing the short stories that i use to. I also knew that when i grew up that i never wanted to marry. I am thirty-one years old now and have never had a boyfriend.

So i really did know what i did and did not want early on. I also knew that one day when i was ready i would want to have two children, preferably two female children. Two daughters. My two little girls. The only problem was how would i get them? I didn’t want no man on top of me.

I thought going to a sperm bank would cost too much money for me at the time since there was no guarantee that conception would occur during the first insemination. I’ve heard of women spending up to six thousands of dollars after numerous tries before actual conception occurred through being artificially inseminated by a doctor.

So if i really wanted to have a child I’d have to do what i had to do and that would mean lying down with a man that i didn’t want. It wouldn’t have been a problem. A whole lot of men were interested in me during my younger years. They just didn’t understand why i didn’t want to be bothered since most young women are man-crazy and are heavily into a man.

I was just the opposite. A few of the reasons i paid my admirers no attention was because the majority of them were nothing, nobodies. They were in my opinion unattractive and definitely undesirable as far as their physical appearance and level of mentality. What turned me off the most, though, is them approaching me like automatically without them even knowing me, that i was suppose to have an inclination for males.

They made a general assumption about me that was definitely not true. I am Asexual and very proud of it. I’ve never ever had any emotional or physical desire for a man. When guys had crushes on me and expressed their feelings in their own ways it disgusted me where others would think that it was cute or normal. And i am very sure most consider having a crush on someone then acting on it normal.

I felt if a guy was attracted to me and wanted to be with me he should have kept it to himself because he didn’t stand a chance with me. Then i began to think about it a little bit, and thought about using a man’s feelings for me to my advantage. You know when someone is into you and you are not into them then you have the upper hand.

Some of the guys who were interested in me had heard that i was a virgin and probably thought ( in their mind if they were to ever get the chance) by having sex with me they could turn me out or that i would change and become attached to them and fall all over them then a man would have some significance to me. Boy did they have me figured out wrong! Some of those male egos and ignorance’s need to go! There is a whole lot that some men really need to learn.

Yes, i was a virgin as far as never ever having intercourse with a man. A male penis had never penetrated my vagina but i had already experienced sexual pleasure without the aid of a man.

You see, i had discovered my clitoris years beforehand. It is a very sensitive area connected to nerves inside the body that with the educated touch of a finger ( i learned naturally on my own ) there are very nice sensations and climaxes to experience. There is absolutely nothing wrong with self experimentation, getting to know and love your own self sexually before letting someone else take control. But when a man is inside of you he is not the one really in control of giving you your pleasure.

It is all up to you and your mind whether or not your body will allow his penis to ignite those sensations. You have to already have an attraction or desire for a man in order to feel any pleasure from him. This particular subject is not embarrassing and it should not be. It is important.

When i was a little girl i curiously took a mirror to see what my vagina looked like. What’s wrong with that? Nothing! None of these things mean that you are being a bad girl or fresh. It is being smart and knowledgeable.

During the very first and only time period i tried to get pregnant by attempting sexual intercourse i felt absolutely nothing, no kind of sensation or pleasure whatsoever from the penis i endured because i had no desire and emotion to be with any male. On the other hand though, i could go and stimulate my clitoris on my own while i was alone and feel all the pleasure in the world because my mind was happily accepting that i was the one who was causing sensations received by myself.

My mind and body was and is not receptive to the thought of being touched by a man since nothing about a man arouses me. My body doesn’t want something pounding inside and out, that is just plain stupid! During clitoral stimulation, there is no penetration. Only i can arouse myself as i am in love with myself. And i haven’t ever been with any other man since. That was years ago. And for the future there won’t be another one.

My vagina is strictly off limits as it has always been. There is no man anywhere around me or in my neighborhood who can honestly say that they had me or will have me because now i have the money to go to a sperm bank if i really want to.

Even if i didn’t have the money i still would not resort to lying down with a man because that is not who i am and because to me it is so unnatural. My clitoris is natural. I was born with it. I know how to take care of myself. If i want a vaginal massage, i prefer myself.

When and if i eventually do get pregnant, like i mentioned before I’d prefer to have girls. My girls because i know they’d be very similar to me i have very strong genes. If i unfortunately get pregnant with a boy I’d be very pissed off and disappointed then I’d go seek an abortion. You see, there is no way in the world that i would want or have anything male growing up inside of me.

I know the way that i feel goes against God’s will just as fornication. God would prefer that i get married then have children and accept the children no matter what the sex is especially since I’m so spiritually blessed the way that i am.

However, i have my own will. And it goes against God’s. Now i live a very clean life as it is. I never went astray. I fornicated on only one occasion and that was done purely to make a baby and not out of any type of lust but i think the act itself left me open and vulnerable to the attack of evil spirits when my enemies worked their witchcraft.

Protection comes with God’s Holy Spirit and his spirit is not to be defiled by any spiritual uncleanliness. Now while witchcraft was unable to affect my strength, mind, actions and emotions it was able to affect my progress in life by interfering with my destiny.

So it wasn’t so much about my enemies having the ability to attack me it was that at the hands of my own actions i gave them the opportunity by disobeying God and defiling his Holy Spirit. If i had been married the act would’ve been clean.

Nevertheless, you know what? I still say even though i am spiritually restored now i don’t think that was fair. And life is not fair. I am a very good person and i don’t deny the power and works of the Lord but my heart is hardened against the way God set certain things.

The only real big sin that i was and am guilty of is rebellion. I still refuse to want to do it the Lord’s way by getting married to have a child and I’d still get an abortion or want to if i ever get pregnant with a male child. If i did get married I’d just be using the man for what i want. It just wouldn’t work out.

I lose patience in just two weeks of being around a man. And like i said before I’d never have any sexual dealings with a man as long as i live so if i lose God’s partial protection again by trying to conceive a child out of wedlock through going to a sperm bank and getting rid of a fetus because it turns out to be a boy then the Lord is just not right. My feelings will never change even if i risk spending an eternity burning in hell for it.

The All Seeing Truth Not Blinded By The Lies

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-confessions/

I’m Steps Ahead

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Thursday, September 21, 2006 at 9:15 AM EDT

As some may know at birth i was born with a double veil which means that i have very strong spiritual abilities. Aside from already being intelligent the reason i have so much knowledge is because i am a very accurate clairvoyant.

This is the month of September, there is only about three and a half more months left before a new year comes in and still my enemies won’t stop endeavoring to destroy me. I’m so tired of having to mention them but they just won’t leave me alone.

I don’t write about each an everything they do and have done but i write about a great deal of their actions because they definitely need to be exposed and because i’m not afraid to and will continue to speak on the things going on in the world that aren’t right.

While there are some in the world aware of my enemies wrongdoings due to their own experiences or through the experiences of others or through things that get wind there are still a great deal who aren’t aware and Divine Spirit may be using me to get the word out to deserving people who are in the dark.

I know i am not the only one who these type of sick people are doing this to it just so happens that i’m a spiritually gifted person who is well aware an in tune with what is going on around me. And i also have a significant source of protection in my favor that my enemies don’t seem and choose to accept.

Obviously they have greatly underestimated my strength, knowledge, power, and purpose. I am set way apart from them and this world-if not they would have been had me by now. They’ll never get me. No one can stop what my higher power almighty “Orisha” puts out!

I am a person who is pure in heart and in mind.

I don’t, and never have smoked, indulged in drugs or alcohol, and i don’t have sexual relations with anyone and that is my business. It is who i am what keeps me strong and standing. My physical self as well as spiritual-but more so my spiritual self because my spirit has got me the way that i am.

I’m truly a good person. This is all a part of my character. I live a clean life which causes no strains in my life because i am naturally this way. In the same it is in a way making me a target.

The way that i am may be foreign to a lot of people but i feel the same way about them. Their way of life is foreign to me and i may think of some of their lifestyles as crazy nevertheless i don’t care.

To me, smoking is stupid, alcohol unnecessary, and men the easiest thing to stay away from.

Now, i don’t knock anybody for what they do because i don’t do it, it’s just i don’t stand for any belittlement for the way how i live my life especially since i’m very proud of the person i was born to be.

This past Sunday and Monday things got a little heated “as far as my enemies are concerned”.

They started their usual crap when they “think” they’re “doing something”. I guess they spent a lot of time indulging in their chanting and candle burning to try to have an affect on my emotions that never really works on me anyway. So when they see me they proceed with talk that is suppose to make me paranoid, nervous, or feel down.

You see, i’ve always known these things because i’m fed knowledge through spirits and intelligence.

Within those two days, as soon as i came into their view, they began referring to me in a sexual nature. In other words insinuating that i’m a wild sex-crazed person who sleeps around all of the time.

As smart as i am i don’t understand why they stay on this particular subject when it comes to them using witchcraft to try to bring me down. With all of the other lies that they can use to say at me they stay on this whore tip. They don’t make any utterances about me being a crackhead, lesbian, or thief. It’s always mostly about me being the big whore that they absolutely wish i was. And it’s so interesting since i know i have never actually done any of the things they are describing yet they feel it should bother me.

So on Monday night when a small crowd finished uttering things about me which never existed i overheard one say to another “It’s not working”.

And, the other responded “It’s okay” or “Don’t worry about it” something to that nature.

They gave themselves away!

Why should it work on me? What they are doing is crazy. They even got certain people on my job going along with it by acting stupid. How can i get paranoid or feel down about things that don’t have anything to do with me? Shit they all created?

Like i mentioned before they have greatly underestimated me.

I know they want me to have a mental and emotional breakdown but i never have, i’m far from it, and so on to them. I wonder how many people they’ve succeeded with who didn’t know any better. It is such a shame. I hope more an more people catch on to these type of sick peoples games because for so many years they have been destroying the lives of so many good people who may have thought that they were crazy due to the subtlety of this matter.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/im-steps-ahead/

Happiness

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Saturday, February 04, 2006 at 11:13 AM EST

I find joy in having a peace of mind. I find joy in the strength that my ancestors gave me.

I found joy during bad times because when darkness was around me my light still shined, leading me straight to the path of my success.

True joy comes from the Orishas.

And the joy that i have the world didn’t give it to me, and the world can’t take it away.

 

 

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It is nice to know that somewhere along the road of discovering ourselves, whether struggles or lessons, We come across realizing that we meet half conciousness of the society we belong too. Keep track knowing God deeply, cause i am sure innate happiness is so intimate that nobody could ever take it away from you. The feeling of security comes with solitude cause God is with you.Godbless. :)

Posted by Life_Quest on Monday, April 17, 2006 10:15 AM EDT

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Special Wisdom

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 4:17 PM EDT

I’ve always been able to take large peeks into the future. And no, that at all does not make me a genius. But it does make me very aware of what i can expect to happen in my life and in the lives of certain others.

All of my years here on earth i’ve been criticized, misjudged, lied on, hated, and the object of much envy and jealousy among some just like a lot of others have.

One thing i know to count on though and that is i eventually come out on top regardless of the trials i have to sometimes go through or the peoples predictions of what me and my life will turn out to be.

There have been older people in their fifties who were beneath me and who had the nerve to talk down to me, telling me that because they were older than me that made them more knowledgeable and more experienced when it came to going through things. They were sheer fools when they spoke those words to me!

I, one of the people down here on earth who can tell them all about the life that they think they’ve lived and what they will live ahead, am experienced in a way they’ll never know and they need to be more respectful toward people who are able to stir up that type of power.

I feel i’ve been here before, and when i die i don’t want to come back again. I don’t think i know everything because i don’t, but i do know a lot and nothing in this world really excites or surprises me. I’m just making do until “Divine Spirit” uses me for whatever it is that he wants me to do, and brings me into whatever it is that is meant.

And i admit that while i kill time here, it gets boring going over the same shit with certain kinds of people that i already know the answers to, i’m not learning anything new through their actions and way of life as i watch them. And, maybe i just don’t care! I’d benefit more from those who have and seek foundation, we all learn and grow when we’re on that path.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/special-wisdom/

God

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:56 PM EDT

It is said that nobody is above God and that we are not suppose to ask “why?” Why things have to be the way they are, and why whatever else.

And i may cross the line when i say this but i feel that i do have the right to ask why because life isn’t fair and because i didn’t ask to come into this world. It is not doing me any great favor by me being here that i should go along with the way life is.

I know none of us are suppose to be “perfect” in God’s eyes and that none of us truly see things the way that he does because we are suppose to be incapable of comprehending his knowledge.

And me, being human, of course do not like all of the rules that he sets and i guess it’s because we’re all born into “so call” sin and are suppose to be sinners by nature.

I feel some things that God sees as a sin should not be. Nevertheless, it is also said that God gives us his laws to abide by not to make us unhappy but for our protection. Very few of his rules maybe i can accept with no problem, and there are the rest that i strongly disagree with.

To be even more honest though. I always thought the bible to be one of the sickest books that i’ve ever read. And as a spiritual person by birth and by nature i have never truly felt any connection with this “God” and have uncovered things about him and life ( things i have always speculated since childhood ) that i will not disclose.

Contrary to the bible and popular belief life (definitely my life in particular) is so much purer, happier, better, fulfilling and peaceful without him.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/god/

A Peace Of Mind

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:43 PM EDT

My spirit doesn’t take too well to negativity. And that goes for negative people as well as negative things. Even though i was able to survive many types of negativity that was set before me by demented individuals i totally despise having to be around it.

There is a particular feeling i’ve experienced on more than one occasion. It’s an intense feeling of natural pure ecstasy. A genuine exalted rapture. And no matter what may be going on around me at the time the mood cannot be spoiled.

I don’t know if there is a name for it but it definitely is spiritual and i wish that i could feel that way all of the time. Unfortunately, in reality nobody feels a great deep mystical emotional high everyday so maybe it’s just a temporary sign of what’s to come eventually.

In the meantime, i’ll settle for the little things that mean a lot to me and make me happy. And, that is being independent! I like to be alone, i like to do things on my own, and when i choose to be around a small number of people they are of genuinely good quality because i am very particular.

It may sound snobbish but my tolerance is very low. I was that way when i was younger-now it’s even worse. I can’t be bothered with what i don’t like and i don’t care at what stake.

Nothing is more important than my well-being. I don’t put up with idle gossip, trouble, and people who are a waste of my time. And those are the few things that contribute to me having a Peace Of Mind.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/a-peace-of-peace/

Incubus/Succubus

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:07 PM EDT

As some may know, an incubus is a male demon believed to have sexual intercourse with women while they are asleep. And succubus is just the opposite-a female demon believed to have sexual intercourse with men while they’re sleeping.

Seven years ago, i read a book titled “The Hand I Fan With” a continuation to “Baby Of The Family” both written by Tina McElroy Ansa. In the sequel about a woman born with a veil, the main character and her friend conjure a spirit who she later has a sexual relationship with.

I wondered if it was really possible for a spirit-being to actually make sexual contact with a living human being. I’ve read a book on the Santeria religion that claims spirits from past lives sometimes seek out to find their long lost loves then make love to them once they’ve tracked them down.

And, when i was a young child i watched a movie based on a true story titled “The Entity”. A film about a spirit who’d come rape a woman during the night while she was in her bed.

Well, i can honestly say that it’s very possible.

From my own experience spirits have made different kinds of contact with me-including sexual. They kiss, fondle, and penetrate but it isn’t in the same exactness as with a living being. Spirits have a distinct touch, however, they still have the ability to cause a significant feeling of pain and sensation.

If one does think they are or have made such contacts with spirits they should try to make sure that it is a real experience and not psychosomatic. I weigh out all things.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/incubussuccubus/

Telepathy

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Monday, March 27, 2006 at 3:54 PM EST

I don’t speak on things that i don’t know anything about. I only speak on things that i know definitely through my experience and my familiarity with them.

I never intentionally went around trying to find out what was going on inside of anyone’s mind. Other people’s feelings and doings often have a way of coming to me all on their own through the interaction of spirits who continually keep me posted.

I do know that it is definitely possible for one to communicate with another through their mind and through other spiritual means if they have the power to do so. Human spirits are able to connect with each other no matter how many miles away they are in distance.

Now, i am not quite sure if those who don’t have the power are able to communicate mind-wise with someone who does. If they want to get into contact with a person who has second-sight a spirit will make their object aware without them even knowing about it.

Other clairvoyants have spoken to me in my mind, transferring to me information, and they were also able to pick up on my thoughts whether i was right there near them or very far away. And, in return, i was able to do just the same.

There are dogs that exist who also have this remarkable ability. My dog that i use to have could read my thoughts then would act accordingly to them.

 

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Demons

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006 at 6:59 PM EST

I had a very insightful dream two or three years ago. There were demons actually walking around here on earth disguised as people. And they were after me and certain other people.

What i believe this dream was telling me was that people down here on earth are carrying the mark of the beast (666), and are seeking the souls of opposite followers. Since the devil has such little time left he wants to recruit and take as many down to hell with him as he can. And i believe it!

 

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I agree! I had a friend, he was nice and everything (I thought!). I was friends with him for a long time…untill he told me he worshiped the Devil. Its so sad what Saten is doing to people. There ARE demons among us, I believe that, it makes me feel terible at that thought, but it IS true.

Posted by wolfmaiden on Monday, March 27, 2006 5:33 PM EST

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Prayers/Blessings

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006 at 2:59 PM EST

I’m strong in prayer. In the past, nearly everything that i prayed for came to me.

I’ve had my trials and tribulations. And i’ve had my fun and happiness-in fact, i still do. Everything is not always bad. Some good people experience many afflictions, and we go through them to make us strong enough to endure the things that are ahead of us.

There are prayers and meditations i’ve uttered that haven’t came yet but i know they’re on the way no matter how things look or how long it may take.

I’ve visioned, and often felt the things i want making a transition over into my life. And i will continue to wait until all of those things fully arrive.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/prayersblessings/

Psychics

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006 at 2:28 PM EST

There are quite a few names for people who are able to foretell the future such as seers, soothsayers, oracles, prophets, and sensitives.

Not everyone claiming to have psychic abilities does. And not everybody who can see into the future is gifted from the “light”. A lot of psychics have gotten their abilities by selling their souls to the devil. They have Satan’s power.

Within the last past ten years i’ve visited and have spoken with literally over seventy so-called spiritual advisers. Some were legitimate and some were not. And some of the legitimate readers knew exactly what they were talking about when others did not.

I’m the type of person who doesn’t believe everything that she hears. That goes with me for anything in life. I was skeptical during my very first visit inside of a psychic’s home years ago. I knew real ones existed in the world because i know the abilities that i have but to be on the safe side i will test a person.

And i have caught psychics in minor lies and they knew what i had some just didn’t know the depth of my powers. Not all of them are on the same levels of development.

I had dreams where my enemies went and threatened certain spiritual advisers that i use to see-to prevent them from helping me cleanse myself from the evil they’d put on me. So some of the psychics were put in a position to lie, however, they didn’t deny what my enemies were doing.

I don’t visit readers anymore. I was going mainly to confirm the things that i already knew.Some people are jealous of people who can see into the future. Some people who are unable to want to so bad that they become delusional. A lot of people have some form of extra sensory perception without truly being clairvoyant.

And, of course, there are people who don’t believe it is possible for anybody to see or know things before they happen. There are some who don’t want to believe that i actually have the strong abilities that i do. Then, there are those who definitely know that i do.

Who cares? The most important thing is that you know who you are and that you’re very sure of yourself.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/psychics/

My Dreams

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Saturday, March 11, 2006 at 4:36 PM EST

Precognitive dreams are always accurate. You just have to learn how to discern them. Sometimes you may dream the opposite of what will happen.

All of my dreams come true, no matter how long it takes for them to appear as a reality in my life.

If people only knew the things that i dream about they’d be stunned. But, of course not everybody cares! A lot of us aren’t interested and don’t give a darn about what’s going on with another person.

Anyway, i dream about people i don’t even know, places i’ve never been-well not yet. I don’t understand what every dream means and why i dream all of the things that i do but dreams can be a better reality than what we may be presently living.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/my-dreams/

Spirits

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Saturday, March 11, 2006 at 4:28 PM EST

Some spirits come around you with certain smells. Some have sweet scents. Then there are the ones that have an offensive odor.

When spirits materialize they are transparent, whether they are in human form or inhuman form. Some even show up in the image of a spark. There are some spirits that you can’t see. You can just hear or feel them around you.

Then, there may not be spirits, but visual signs that materialize to give you certain messages.

Spirits don’t always come around to be helpful. There are good and bad motives everywhere including in the spirit world because the demons are down here loose on earth.

However, there are things that can be done to be shielded from the influence of evil spirits.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/spirits/

Vibes

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Saturday, March 11, 2006 at 4:20 PM EST

People have instincts. Some get hints, gut feelings, whatever you want to call it. Then you have those who can actually feel another person’s emotions. It can pierce so deep that their emotions may seem to be your own, but they’re not.

That is just a part of being spiritually sensitive. Keenly picking up on what another person is going through. You may just hear someone speak an individual’s name, see that person walk into a room, or just be thinking about them.

There could be an object belonging to a person that you may touch then you can receive information relating to them.

You can listen to the tone of someone’s voice and know their personal business, what they said about you behind your back, or what someone said to them about you. They could be talking or just having a conversation regarding something entirely different than what you’re being informed of.

Body language is something that anybody can read. But when you’re spiritually sensitive you can see and feel deeper.

A person can be standing right next to you, not saying a word, or standing a block away within your sight, and you can’t hear what’s going on around them yet pick up on their situation.

And to go even deeper, you don’t have to see, hear, think, or be anywhere around any particular person and place but know what exactly is being said and done!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/vibes/

My Power/Ability

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Saturday, March 11, 2006 at 4:06 PM EST

When i was two and a half years of age my mother taught me to read. When i was three i learned to write. And, at the age of three is when i first began to take notice of my psychic powers. I didn’t exactly know what the abilities were i just knew whatever i saw, thought, or heard would end up happening not so long after.

I’d never spoke to anyone about it during that early age. What i was experiencing came natural as breathing. By the time i was seven i thought having visions, reading thoughts, and sensing things before they occurred was something that everybody had. I was very young, i didn’t know. But my mother knew about me. She told me all the time how gifted i was, she observed it in me early. I didn’t know what being gifted meant, though. My mother also has certain spiritual abilities.

I saw my first spirit at the age of three.

When i turned seven i was honored in the auditorium of my elementary school for being one of the most exceptional readers attending there. When i was ten i past tests that high school students couldn’t pass. My IQ was tested when i was fourteen and the results came out above average. And i have an outstanding comprehension. So anybody who would consider me crazy for the way that i think, feel, or behave about certain things would have to put a “handle on it”. They’d have to call me knowledgeably crazy!

In the year of 1982, my evil wicked great-grandmother took my mother and i to one of those Botanica stores. She had this Haitian man read my mother’s palm then had him dress up a candle for her to take home to burn. We didn’t live with my great-grandmother, we were visiting her in Manhattan at the time.

So when my mother brought the candle home to burn i had got a very bad feeling but i didn’t speak up about it. I was only seven. My mother would’ve listened to me. She never underestimated me because of my age. But that is one thing i regret and have hated about myself, sometimes not speaking up when i get the inkling that something is wrong. And, doing something when i knew better.

This has followed me to adulthood, however, i put a stop to it. It is said that some things are better left unsaid. I’ll say everything i feel should be said nowadays. I’ve always spoken my mind i just speak it a little more.

Anyway, after the candle burned for seven days negative things started to happen in our life. I noticed that something was trying to block me from succeeding in school, and when it couldn’t all of a sudden all of my classmates who use to like me turned against me. People harassed my mother in the streets trying to encourage her to have a nervous breakdown, then my teenage aunt got gang-raped.

My great-grandmother worked witchcraft on us to prevent us from succeeding in our life.

We struggled with “Brujeria” for a long while. My mother was and still is a very intelligent woman and so am i. My great-grandmother hates us for what we have and what we were able to achieve.

As i get older, my powers get even stronger.

Certain sick people see me as a threat so they joined in with my great-grandmother and one of my aunts to try to block my spiritual powers and to literally destroy me. I’m not going to get into all of the details as to what went on, however, i will let you know that Divine Spirit works in ways that are incredibly awesome!

Not everybody believes in witchcraft and not everybody believes in people having innate supernatural abilities and experiences.

They believe it is myth or mere delusion due to a mental illness.

I know the real deal.

I have a neighbor who’s mother was born with a veil and she inherited the power of seeing spirits. She’s eighty-six years of age now and has much experience with spiritual matters. She told my mother how people killed her sister by working witchcraft.

I feel sorry for the people who are in the dark about these things.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/my-power/

Nature’s Way

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Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 7:54 PM EST

If you’re in tune and you’re paying attention you’ll receive the certain messages of the outdoors. And if you’re highly in tune you’ll automatically receive the messages even when you’re not paying attention.

The sky, the wind, the trees, and so on all have a way of speaking to us.

Sometimes it doesn’t look right outside, the certain days in particular may appear to be too bright.

There is a quietness during particular nights of the summer season when you are out that will assure you of safety no matter how late the hours may be. The leaves of the trees also blow a certain way in corroboration to this revelation.

There are also warnings during the calm summer nights that are similar to the warning in particular cool winter night airs, reminders of the dangers that lurk around us.

The beautiful sunlight of a warm clear day can reveal things.

The tidal waves of the oceans also tell us things, especially when the sun or pink-blue-orange skies colorfully mask around the clouds and reflect upon it’s large body of sparkling waters.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/natures-way/

The Third Eye

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Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 7:22 PM EST

A while back (years ago), I lay asleep in bed during the evening having a strong dream that i’d felt very intensely, and one that i won’t reveal.

Right after the dream ended i awoke from my sleep but my eyes were still closed. As i continued to rest on my back a live picture behind the form of a circle materialized.

In the background surrounding the circle was what i called at the time a black and white snow just as it appears on a television channel that you’re unable to get, like channel 3 if you don’t have cable ( And all that the station will do is make a lot of noise that a very bad reception usually does).

However, in this particular vision that i was seeing and about to see, there was no sound.

As i went to view farther into the picture that had also appeared in black and white, and that i could see very clearly, the circle grew larger. The more i went to see the more the circle expanded until it eventually came into full view. I was in total control of what i wanted to see. Whichever direction of the vision that i wanted to examine i was able to go. And, the thing about it was that i wasn’t viewing the information through my two closed eyes. It was an eye in between that was showing me this precognition.

The picture first begun on the staircase inside of a home that i soon recognized to be my very own. When i chose to view the upstairs of the house by controlling the eye that i slightly had to put a strain on, i was shown something very important. Then, the entire vision that appeared like a short cinematic film completely shut off. It went blank, leaving me not knowing what was going to take place next. I was told by more than one person that this vision will return around the time that i may need it.

That was the very first experience i remember using my third eye in that particular manner. Times after that i have seen in color. Other visions i’ve seen with my third eye have always been in vivid color ever since i was a very young child. But no matter what color or in what form or in what type of way a vision is shown there are certain feelings, warnings, and messages that go along with them and they are to be heeded.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/the-third-eye/

Spiritual Protection

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006 at 11:04 PM EST

There is a certain amount of violence in my neighborhood. Shootouts are not uncommon. A lot of drug dealers and stuff, fighting over territory and always endeavoring to intimidate somebody to prove a point.

Well, i’m not very much well liked in my neighborhood amongst the no good people so they had the nerve to try to take me out on more than one occasion. And they couldn’t understand why they were unable to. They spread around what they were intending to do.

It was a done deal. These people have killed before.

Nevertheless, nothing ever became of their attempts on my life and i know why. Divine Spirit is in control. He’s in charge. I’m not at all bragging because we all have a day when our luck may run out.

But i know that i’m not going anywhere until my “protector” is ready for me. And can’t nobody really do no major damage to me while his angels surround me.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/spiritual-protection/

In Tune

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Monday, February 13, 2006 at 1:12 PM EST

I’ve always been different. Very different. I have my own way of thinking and my own way of doing things. I was born with a double veil and my psychic abilities are very intuitive. I’m very spiritually inclined.

I can foretell the future. I see and communicate with spirits. I can prevent bad incidents from happening. I know what’s going on around me at all times. I can be inside my house and know what’s taking place outside. I can sense things about people that other people can’t sense.

I can be standing right next to a person and pick up on what they’re about or what they have done. Extra Sensory Perception runs on both sides of my family and it’s a real thing. Some people don’t believe in things of this nature, they think people like me are crazy but we are not we’re just unique. We are special.

Some of my writings are dedicated to I, and to those alike who have special spiritual powers, who have had spiritual experiences, or who are just interested in the things that us spiritually gifted people go through and encounter.

I don’t reveal everything that i know because there are things that i hold sacred. But i do share what may be helpful to those who may need the insight. Good spirits guide and inspire me to send out certain messages.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/in-tune/

Praise To All Of My Spirits

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Monday, April 16, 2007 at 12:41 AM PDT

My Likes: “Energy”

I Feel Good Vibrations. Ultimate Sensations.

My Dislikes: “Odors”

I Hate Funky Underarms. I Hate Stinky Feet. I Don’t Like Shit Messy I Like When Things Are Neat.

You all care for me. You are always there for me. I can depend on you. You all continue to see me through.
You know, i can just call. Whenever i am in trouble. I don’t even have to ask. You will endeavor to keep me strong. Just to make sure that i won’t fall.

If it weren’t for you i wouldn’t know what to do. I’d be lost and alone without any knowledge of my own.

I don’t have to ever be scared. You all taught me not to fear. So i don’t have to worry like i never did i don’t have to shed a tear.

I don’t need anything in this world. You won’t hear me shout, clap, or stomp. I’ll love you all till my death. Won’t even stop chanting praise as i’m on my last breath.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/praise-to-all-of-my-spirits/

 

 

Rest And Relaxation

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007 at 10:34 AM EDT

I have a lot of spiritual experiences day to day.

So i go through a lot spiritually and it can be exhausting at times. So before i soon start my new job back out on the outside, i have been taking it easy with meditation and good sleep when i’m not running an errand or on my computer.

It feels so good to rest and enjoy the positive energies that i feel throughout my body, mind and spirit. It is quite rejuvenating.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/rest-relaxation/

Miss Popularity

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Thursday, May 18, 2006 at 8:44 AM PDT

You know, i’ve always liked the person that i am. I live my life on my own terms. I never cared to be in the spotlight but certain people have made a habit of making me the center of attention.

Ever since i was a child i’ve been a private person and at the same time an open and honest person. I also am so unique that i sometimes stick out like a sore thumb. I have always been known to a certain extent by people who i don’t know.

That factor is not too uncommon since people are very communicative with one another and are always gossiping. You never know who knows who and who are pointing you out. I was born with extra sensory perception so it’s not hard for me at all to spot out any funny business.

We are indeed living in a world with plenty of sick people and they seem to be getting sicker if you can imagine that being possible, but the dangerous part of the problem is these particular people don’t consider themselves to be ill. If you ask them it’s the healthy person who has the problem.

Well, i wonder if i’d never experienced the wild & crazy things that i have within my life would i believe them after hearing it from another person. I guess i’ll never know the answer to my own question.

Certain things in particular i’ve experienced would seem like paranoia to the unsuspecting person who is not familiar with street people’s behavior. Anyway, i’m the type who does things then moves on.

I keep going. Once i get bored that is totally it for me! If i fall out with a person i never talk to them again-the way i see it i’d just be going back to what turned me off from them in the first place. I’m always naturally reinventing myself i grow in all aspects of my life which even strengthens my identity.

Unfortunately, there are certain types of people in this world who are unable to do that. They are sadly stuck in their own misery then choose lucky people like me to stalk. I am a book writer. And my writings have sparked much attention in my neighborhood toward me among those who did or did not like what i wrote.

Nevertheless, the attention i receive and have received from those who are not in my class is quite demented and hilarious.

Jealousy and ignorance is definitely a major cause for their behavior but mostly it is an extreme unworthiness and particular mental instability on their part.

They obviously have issues.Sure, they go and do things to occupy some of their time then it’s back to spying on others. They can’t go anywhere in life. They continue to dwell on the same things, unable to move on.

Their world is-”trying to screw up yours!” I can’t believe the lengths they’ve tried with me. Some thought that they were slick by snapping a picture of me while we road the same train.

And, by following me to places to find out what i buy and talk about when i interact with people. They’ve went to places i go attempting to turn people against me or to have them and others they’ve pointed me out to mock and talk at me. All in an effort to bring down my self-esteem.

They have even sent people in my home posing as workers.

They may have really been doing their job but they were planted. That is just how badly those sickos want to bring me down. I am so on to them all and i have been for a very long time now.

And the thing about this interesting situation is that i’m unaffected by their actions. I’ve never been afraid of anyone or to keep on doing the activities that i do.

Of course, in this day and age we have to watch our backs for our own safety but when i’m out they can’t stop me. They’re intimidated by me! I have an innate energy and drive that inspires me and makes me happy so if i notice any of them acting stupid towards me it’s like they’re not even there!

And when i’m home they and what they do does not be on my mind. And that is why it is very hard for me to comprehend how certain people are preoccupied with and doing the same exact thing year after year.

I will say this though. If i and others who are in my predicament are that darn important enough to be the focus of so many’s attention just by living a normal life that we ourselves have not tarnished there needs to be a whole new type of Asylum built on the planet for those who should be put away.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/miss-popularity/