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Wheat Grass

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Posted on September 29, 2007 by 

In my mid to late teens i use to visit and purchase certain items from a particular health food store in my area. During that time in my life which was about fifteen years ago i first learned about wheatgrass.

I had a juicer at home, but it was a high-speed juicer and not the appropriate one for extracting the juice from wheatgrass. Conveniently, the health food store had a slow-turning juicer (wheatgrass juicer) and i was able to sample out what it was like. Once wheatgrass is juiced there is a limited time that you have to drink it before it loses it’s potency.

It is said that the things that taste very nasty are the best things for you and i do have to say that wheatgrass juice was one of the nastiest things that i have ever tasted! Wheatgrass juice though is the most nutritious and cleansing juice that there is. Wheatgrass itself is seven inch tall grass that is grown from wheatberries on one inch of soil.

Wheatgrass juice benefits many parts of the body including the liver, kidneys, glands, spleen, muscles, bones, teeth, blood cells and hair.

Wheatgrass juice protects the lungs and blood from air, toxins, cigarette smoke, heavy metals and water pollution. The juice of wheatgrass can also be applied to the skin or scalp. It can be used to wash out the eyes, teeth, gums and sinuses. And, it can be implanted rectally to cleanse and heal the body’s large intestine.

Wheatgrass also works as a weight loss remedy by suppressing the appetite and by stimulating the metabolism and circulation. Not only do humans benefit from the abilities of wheatgrass but animals as well! It has aided the reproduction and maintenance in herbivorous mammals.

What i also learned back then is that wheatgrass contains a full spectrum of trace elements, minerals and vitamins. Those in particular include amino acids (protein) , special enzymes, magnesium, potassium, calcium, iron, chlorophyll, vitamins E, C, A and B complex.

And, just a few of the many conditions that are responsive to wheatgrass are ulcers, infection, anemia, hay fever, constipation, diabetes, colitis, bronchitis, asthma, skin disorders, acne, fatigue, hypoglycemia, heart disease, circulatory weakness, blood pressure (high or low) and aging.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/09/29/wheat-grass/

Ginkgo Biloba

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I’ve been taking Ginkgo Biloba as one of my daily supplements for nearly six years now and it has been beneficial for me. When i first begun to take the supplement i used the “Solgar” brand, which was a very good product.

After a while of taking it, though, i noticed on the label that there was a great drop in some of the contents.

Originally, the amount per capsule that i was intaking was 60mg of Ginkgo Biloba Extract ( standardized from the leaf ) and 375mg of Raw Ginkgo Biloba Powder ( also from the leaf ).

Then i noticed the raw powder was reduced to only 30mg. And even though the raw Ginkgo Biloba Powder is much less significant in affect ( compared to the standardized Ginkgo Biloba Extract ) regardless of mg, i still phoned the “Solgar” company to find out what was going on.

A particular person there at the company told me that there were numerous calls from others who were using the product and who had also noticed the drop in mg.

I was asked my telephone number as a general inquiry and told that i would be notified once a reason was determined. No one ever got back to me. So i just changed my brand.

I have been using “Ginkoba” for nearly three years now and it is just as great-if not better!

Ginkgo Biloba is an herb. It’s main benefit is to improve brain function by aiding the increase of “oxygen-rich” blood flow to the brain. It is also known as the “smart pill”.

Ginkgo Biloba is just not limited to the one main area that I’ve mentioned. More than 300 studies have shown over the past 30 years that not only does Ginkgo Biloba help improve mental functioning but has other benefits as well.

1. Ginkgo works by increasing blood flow to the brain and throughout the body’s network of blood vessels that supply blood and oxygen to organ systems.

2. It increases metabolism efficiency, regulates neurotransmitters, and boosts oxygen levels in the brain which uses 20% of the body’s oxygen.

3. Ginkgo also helps control the transformation of cholesterol to plaque associated with the hardening of arteries, and can relax constricted blood vessels.

4. The benefits of enhanced circulation in the brain include improved short and long term memory, increased reaction time and improved mental clarity.

5. Ginkgo has also been shown to be a supportive herb for treating infertility in males and impotence.

6. Ginkgo Biloba helps prevent damage to the organs from free radicals, and also blocks the platelet activating factor which causes some skin disorders such as psoriasis.

7. Ginkgo Biloba’s beneficial effects on the circulatory system also helps in the treatment of eye and ear disorders.

Gingko Biloba is a very good supplement unfortunately the company of SOLGAR was purchased by a Big Pharmaceutical Company a couple of years ago which would explain the considerable drop in the quality. I would go in another direction like GOTU KOLA which is Nerve Regenerative and Restorative Herb and a Nervine Herb meaning it’s calming.Gingko is an excellent herb but NOT when You are on Beta Blockers,ACE Inhibitors,or Statin drugs because they all thin blood and compete. Oh yeah that includes Coumadin AKA Warfarin this is the Most POTENT bloodthinner offered by Big Pharma so take that with Gingko and they will be fighting for the last seat on the Same Bus. Ecclectic Institute makes a NICE Gingko Biloba/Gotu Kola combination that has no fillers and binders in there like Magnesium Sterate or Stearic acid because these surpress the immune system. Taking Gingko with Vitamin E is also a bad idea too blood thinning if taken at all they should be taken at least 4-6 Hours apart. I hope this is helpful.

Thank you so much for your input. Personally, I been stopped taking Ginko Biloba a very long time ago. I’ve found something much greater that agrees with me and my body, however, I will leave your comment for those who it may be helpful towards.

I think You’re Wonderful By The Way For Having This Format.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/09/29/ginkgo-biloba/

Rituals

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Sunday, April 15, 2007 at 11:34 AM EDT

This past Christmas eve when i was working at J.C. Penny’s a guy approached me. I’d never seen him before. I ignored him of course because i did not want to be bothered.

Not too long after and later that night when i got home i could feel him beginning to enter into my mind. I have very keen senses. My brain is like radar. I knew before he approached that something was up just like i do with everyone else.

Whenever a man is interested in me, out to do me harm, and etc. they stay inside my head for as long as their feelings towards me last. I feel their thoughts and emotions and i pick up things going on within their lives. People have no clue how Divine Spirit has gifted me.

This particular guy has been in my mind for three months and some change.

About a month after he first entered into my head i dreamed that he was still conscious of me but seeing another girl. Obviously there was nothing serious going on with him and her because i’ve been picking up on him very strongly all of this time.

On a Friday, the 30th of march, i heard his voice as i woke up from my sleep in the morning. His exact words were “I’m gonna fight for the woman i want”. Later that day i went to pick up my check from J.C. Penny’s and on my way back from cashing it out there in Garden City i think i may have saw him, i wasn’t too sure of that until the following palm Sunday.

On palm Sunday, the 1st of April, i was at home lying in my bed receiving a few messages and seeing a few visions when one particular vision of this guy appeared to me as the occurrence was actually taking place at that point in time.

In my vision i saw him around this man who may deal with the Islamic faith because the man communicated with me through telepathic means. He spoke to me in my thoughts and i responded to him and he mentioned Allah which is the name of God among Muslims.

Anyway, my deranged admirer stayed around this man while he performed a love ritual on me. I could see, hear, and feel everything that went on. This guy even had the nerve to inquire if i’d ever been intimate with some guy that i won’t mention because i never had feelings for anybody. He’s all in my business!

This past Easter Sunday on the 8th of April i received another vision of this guy.

He was nervous and worried. I’m not going to go into detail about what was causing his anxiety though. However, i will divulge this-he is still working his ritual. It is still in process right now. He did a marriage ritual and a ritual for me to have his children. I’ve been feeling his shit. It seems that he does certain rituals on Sundays and Wednesdays. He is also trying to take away my “energy”. He wants to make me weak and draw me to him.

There is absolutely no doubt that i don’t like the way the God of the bible created things, the way he sometimes goes about things (he works too slow for me) but i don’t believe in him and his power and there are many things i don’t like about him due to what i know and experienced here on earth (the things that he lets go on) i am one of the very special children ( born with a caul) Divine Spirit has my back.

He is in control and he will continue to work things out in his own way during his own “time”. My third eye and my spirits show and communicate with me to let me know the outcomes of my situations and they always turn out in my favor.

Almost a month ago now someone tried to harm me spiritually and it backfired right in her face. Soon after the incident the Lord of the bible came to me in my thoughts and told me to come to him for anything and that he is my source of protection, however, i did not accept his offer he turns me off.

I preferred the powers of my Ancestors and Orishas.

So whatever this particular guy is trying to do to me i guarantee that it will not work. It will all blow up in his face. Somebody told me that i should be flattered about what he is doing. To me it is never flattering for someone to try to control the will of another no matter what the motive may be.

Love and affection should come naturally and i am not the pathetic type to get off on somebody wanting me that bad regardless of the intentions.

Whenever negative Obeah, Santeria, Yoruba, Voodoo or whatever you want to call it is being worked and in affect, it is very unnatural and unhealthy. It is all black magic and i will continue to be protected by my spirituality.

I can’t wait to see how all of this is going to play out since i have the power to convert negative energy into positive energy.

( All Of The Voodoo In The World Could Never Make Me Desire A Man )

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/rituals/

Strength, Power

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Monday, April 02, 2007 at 11:21 AM EDT

You know, things are really looking up for me. I am getting ready to start a new career already! It will begin in a short time. I never worry about my future because i have always been able to see into the future. I’ve been looking to start something new for quite a while now. I get bored very quick. When something doesn’t hold my interest i have to move on to things that better suit me.

A door has closed in my life and a new door has opened and it is very exciting. I am anticipating this new part of my life that is on it’s way. I played a part in my life taking another new start.

The way that i feel is if i want a change i have to be the one to take charge and i absolutely have the power to do so spiritually and, nothing is able to stop me. I am a fighter, a survivor.

I’ve always been a very strong person who is not afraid of too much. And i haven’t been afraid to go about things in my own way and i realize that i am pushing forward more now in a way that is going full forward in my favor.

I’m feeling great bursts of positive energy. I’m feeling extreme confidence. I am very smart, strong and pretty. And, i think that i am more crazier now than ever.

I’ve always felt this good about myself but my feelings are heightened.

I found a greater method in developing and maintaining my spirituality. I had to build a new foundation. And all negative influences that are around me are becoming even more and more irrelevant.

Things are indeed still going on but it has nothing to do with me. It is about me yet it is all in my enemies (and those who don’t know any better) heads.

They are living in a world that i am not in. I’m here, i’ll just never adapt to the things that are not befitting to me so i stay in my real world that i belong in. I am in the world but not of it.

Aside from having the ability to handle adversity the way that i can sometimes i wonder if it is good to be too strong, not caring about things like what people say, think and feel. And not getting embarrassed and worrying about what is going to go down in life. I’ve always been that way and it can be bad because i have hurt people with my careless ways and attitude. I don’t dwell on the thought, though.

I am who i am naturally, and i can’t change.

Even if being too strong is not a good thing i still have my benefits because some can’t see me for who i really am. Some think i’m sweet and innocent. I am a good person but i am not as sweet as they think. And i’m innocent as far as never being lustful, in love before or damaged by anyone, and i don’t have no dirt on me, but that is about it.

Right now, i am getting very acquainted with this enhanced spiritual power that i have received. It is getting distinctly familiar with me and i am getting distinctly familiar with it and we are becoming ultimately unified.

( A Strong Faith Sees The Invisible. Believes The Impossible. And Receives The Incredible ) – A quote!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/strength-power/

Me And A Man

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Thursday, February 08, 2007 at 9:15 AM EST

I don’t understand why certain people are so concerned about me not wanting to have a man in my life. People have always judged me not for what i do but for the things that i do not do and it is really none of their business.

All of this man shit really didn’t get this big until after i severely hurt the feelings of three guys in the past by being very nasty toward them then coldly rejecting them because i did not want them and the outcome has really been ridiculous.

I have heard in my life of some men not being able to handle rejection very well, however, it is very sad when some get hurt so bad that they can’t move on by continuing to seek revenge through lies perpetuated by those who keep spreading them.

I don’t know what these niggers expect to happen to me. I am not going down. For some sick reason do to their stupid egos they want people to believe that my weakness is for a man and that i am the one who has been hurt by a man and i am so tired of this dumb bullshit.

People really need to grow up and get over the fact that i’m a happy, healthy, successful, independent woman who doesn’t and never has gave a fuck about a man.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/me-and-a-man-2/

Words To Live By

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 5:45 AM EDT

Everything that i write is original. My words all come from my own heart, soul and mind.

However, this that i am about to write is something i received in my email almost a year ago. I am copying it down on this post on my blog to share. It is inspirational and i totally agree with everything that it says.

The words are from a column in a magazine:

Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it.

Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many.

Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books.

Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders.

Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations.

But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.

-Buddha

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/words-to-live-by/

Denial

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 4:56 AM EDT

A lot of people do not want to accept certain things. And a lot of the time it is the things that are of “truth” that people don’t want to accept because sometimes they cannot deal with it or may not be able to handle whatever else comes along with it.

There are a lot of challenges that life brings and many of us do not want to see, hear, face or believe. Ready or not things are going to happen and it is up to the individual whether or not they are going to step up to it or run away. I wish the world wasn’t in the state that it is in but there is absolutely nothing that i can do about it so i just have to accept it but that doesn’t mean that i have to follow along in the state that the world is in.

I still be myself regardless and am able to handle whatever it is that comes around my way because i have a strong sense of myself and purpose. You have those though that for whatever reason who go by, masquerade and try to escape through many efforts. Lying to oneself is definitely not a comfortable way to escape. There is no peace in it. Lies will eventually eat you up inside and destroy you.

Some find a way to escape by believing in their own lies. Believing a lie is the truth brings a sense of security to some since it prevents them from facing a fear or shortcoming.

One lady i use to go to church with a long time ago got on my nerves so i told her how much she stunk when i’d sit next to her wherever we were in front of other church members. The next thing that i knew what i told her had gotten all over the church. One of the church members went back and spread it so i guess the lady got embarrassed.

Later after the incident the lady told me that she knew the reason i told her she stunk was just because i was angry. And that was a perfect example of denial. I was indeed angry when i told her that she smelled bad but i meant what i had said because it was the truth. Someone else i knew even acknowledged that the lady carried an odor. She just didn’t want to accept it.

And it is just the same thing with some of my enemies. They keep saying that i am putting up a big “front”. I don’t have a clue as to what they are talking about. A front for what?

Just because they tried to ruin me in ways that they wouldn’t be able to handle if people had done the same exact things to them does not mean that it affects me. I am not anything like them.

What pertains to them does not pertain to me. I am so much better than they are morally and intellectually.

I don’t know when they are going to wake up and realize that nothing that they did or do bothered or bothers me. I am a free happy spirit living with no worries or fears. I don’t care one bit about what they say or think and believe about me, however, they just can’t and won’t accept that. They are in “deep denial”.

The low level that my enemies are on is quite ridiculous.

It is unbelievable how stupid they all are. They are so stupid to believe that i am actually putting up a front when there is nothing for me to be putting up a front for. I don’t care how much trouble they went through to make my life miserable my Orisha is much, much stronger. The fact is that their efforts just did not work and never will work and whoever told them that their efforts did work flat out lied to them.

They are too stupid to see it though.

My enemies are making complete fools of themselves by continuing to believe what they think to be true then acting on it. When the day comes-and i know that very soon it will-when they all finally have to face reality and see, and truly acknowledge what the real deal is they are going to feel even stupider than they already are. For the meantime though you know the old saying, “Ignorance Is Bliss”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/denial/

Rumors

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 11:27 PM EDT

People have been telling lies since the beginning of time so they are definitely not going to stop now. No doubt, a lot of people are very nosy and love gossip. They gossip over anything, usually about a lot of silly shit. Some will say that everybody gossips. There is a big difference between having a discussion and straight out gossiping.

Most people who like to sit around waiting to hear and spread vicious rumors are pathetic, miserable people who don’t have a life of their own. They are full of envies and petty jealousies over the people that they talk about. As soon as gossip is spread about them though they can’t handle it and most of the time it is because what’s spread about them is the truth so they get mad and spread lies on others who are above them.

I have never spread rumors. I spread the truth.

And i, just like many others, have been the victim of quite a few ridiculous rumors. I’ve heard people say that they would go home and cry over lies that was said about them. I have never shed a tear over lies people told on me. Some of them may have pissed me off very much because i knew what they were trying to do but their talk didn’t affect me because i knew what was circulating was nowhere near the truth.

I know that it does hurt a lot of good people when others hear negative things that are false regarding them then they listen to it and may act accordingly to it. Treating them unfairly, and some of them got the nerve because they are the ones who actually have the dirt on them and the ones they criticize are the innocent ones.

The way i look at the matter is if you know who you are and you know what you did and did not do you shouldn’t give a fuck. People are going to talk about you anyway. Whether you do good or bad. Fuck them!

I scoff and laugh at people who spread rumors about me. I’m better than all of them. I can go and walk around anywhere holding my head up as high up in the sky as i want to because i haven’t done a damn thing! And if i had i’d still be strong enough to pick up and keep moving because i don’t do things that i’d be ashamed of.

People have all type of reasons why they make up lies and spread rumors. Most of the time it is done out of jealousy, hatred, ignorance, and sickness.

One time i hung out with this older woman who came out of jail a long time ago. Her name was Venus. The next thing that i knew people were assuming that because i was a good person and that she was a bad person that i was trying to help her get on her feet or something to that nature. The woman herself even went around lying, telling people that i was trying to save her. Save her from what? I don’t know what they were talking about. It was all news to me. That was a petty lie, unless she was really that dumb enough to perceive that through her own misunderstanding.

Then, later on, i was suppose to had went with her boyfriend (had a relationship with him). And then i became a ho’. And so on, an so on.

See, they are all crazy! And they are suppose to be grown folks. That’s why the dummy and her nigger both have been looking like skeletons for a while now and are rapidly dying from Aids.

You know, the truth always comes out no matter how long it may take. I don’t have no Aids and never had any other diseases for that matter.

That says a whole lot because they hung themselves with their own ropes.

People need to think about what they lie about before they do it. Their shit didn’t add up and now their being eaten up. I knew that they had Aids a long time ago and was waiting until the day for it to really show. I look at Venus and Omar and gloat like crazy. That is what they get for being so jealous of me, a death sentence.

It’s just sad when people’s lives get ruined over shit that they know is not true.

Since most of the time lies spread faster than the truth it gets to them how those who fall for the lies believe in it, and it bothers them how people think of them. I can’t get into any of that shit because it is a waste of energy. It’s not real so why pay any attention to it.

The way i keep looking at it is that they are living in a land of make-believe and i am in reality and i got to keep moving on because i’m not a sick person.

Some probably are making up rumors about why i write blogs. Is that going to discourage me from blogging? No way! I write because i am a natural born writer. I was told that the gift i have would be used to help people even though i did not set out to do so. I just followed the calling. It’s a talent. I’m not trying and never have tried to prove anything to anyone.

I don’t beg people to read my blogs. If nobody likes what i have to say they don’t have to visit and read my writings. I didn’t even tell people that i had blogs they found out on their own. I am expressing myself and i’m going to keep doing it.

And this may sound crazy but if i never got any visitors i’d still post.That is one of the major reasons i don’t and will continue not to be bothered with too many people because they are so stupid and ignorant, jealous, and inferior and not worth my time and energy.

I’m much, much happier being by myself, doing what i like.

Even when i am on my job i keep mostly to myself. So everybody can go on an keep talking while i’ll still be way ahead because i’ve been gone!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/rumors/

Confidence

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 9:18 PM EDT

I’ve always believed in myself. I know that i am worth a million. Is there conceit in me? Hell yeah! I know that i’m great. Do i have an exaggerated view of myself? Hell no! I am just as i know myself to be if not more, it is a fact. Will i continue to ride up on my high horse? You damn right! And i am riding so high.

Sure, there are and will always be people behind the scenes who will try to pull me down. They won’t get the chance though! If i go down in my life it will be because of my own doing. I am the only one who is able to bring myself down.

No matter what i may have been through in life no one has ever been able to take away my confidence. If they had, i never would’ve kept going, knowing, and believing that i’d be the one to prevail because of the person that i was. I knew something had to give. Does that make sense?

When a person loses their confidence they lose who they are. It is not so much about their actions but what they feel inside. It’s not what you do it’s how you feel about yourself. Do you understand what i mean?

A lot of the time people tend to judge other people on what they see on the outside rather than considering how their minds may be thinking or working. Most people don’t know what is going on inside of another person’s head unless they tell them. So how someone acts or reacts doesn’t necessarily have to do with what that person feels.

For example, an individual can know how attractive they are and won’t enter into a beauty competition, not because they don’t think they can win but because they just may not want to. Maybe it’s not their thing. They know how good they look and are able to give competitors a run for their money. The event just may not spark up their interest.

There are going to be certain types of people and things throughout life that will indeed try to discourage you. They’ll do their best to make you doubt yourself when they really know that you do have the capabilities or attributes. Even if someone doesn’t believe in you, underestimates you, or disregards you don’t let it stop you from believing in yourself.

You see, no one can tell me who i am or who i am not because i know and it makes their judgement of no value to me. That is how secure i am with myself and because i know how narrow-minded a lot of people are.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/confidence/

Brainwashed

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:51 PM EDT

It’s a huge world out there. There are so many people who don’t know what they be talking about. Then, you have many who do know what they are talking about. There are so many cultures, lifestyles, beliefs, opinions and ways that people are raised.

When you come into your own is when you really discover what is important since it partly develops into what may define some of your character. Some need to evaluate many of the things that they value or consider a value to them. They need to know where their ideas originated from-whether they made the decision on their own or let someone else decide for them.

Do you live by or go along with something because that is truly the way you feel in your heart or because it is the way that most people do so you just accepted it as the way to go or as it is said “the way it is suppose to be?”

I myself actually have never allowed society or any individual to dictate how i should live my life no matter how negatively or positively they may have decided to view me. I cannot and will not let the opinions of others faze me while i continue to take my journey through this life. Nobody is going to determine how i should feel about things, what i believe in and don’t believe in, and what i should agree with and don’t agree with.

No one can tell me what i don’t want to hear because i am going to have the last word when it comes to my life since i am the one living it! Nobody knows me better than i know myself.

Now, there is absolutely nothing wrong with hearing another person out if you decide what they are saying is worth hearing. It makes no sense to be oblivious to the diversities in the world. However, you don’t have to listen to it. It’s just vital for you to be aware of it and that it is going on and going on with these people.There is plenty of shit going on in the world that is not too kosher as far as i am concerned and i refuse to let my mind be molded and corrupted with some of the things that this society considers appropriate and not appropriate.

Of course, i may not know everything but i know a hell of a lot and enough to know that the so-called generalized way of how our life “in order” should be lived is a big mess. Yes, it is indeed true that whatever life is to one is the way they should live it because nobody’s path is the same.

We all have our own minds and ways of behavior-thank goodness for that! What i am talking about is being consciously or subconsciously programmed by what is displayed by myths, stereotypes, the media and even small things in life that we are taught. I don’t accept something as a fact as to what is right or wrong simply because it is said that it is the way it’s suppose to be or because so many people feel and are in a particular mode. I am also a person and i do count and my ways and thoughts differ greatly than the majority.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/brainwashed/

My Confessions

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January 28th, 2012

Everyone makes mistakes and indeed this was a big one! Everything in my post is the truth except for what I mentioned about God.

I wrote this post about fives years ago and now I can come out with the total truth that I could not say at the time. I don’t really feel that I did anything wrong. I don’t really believe that the only true protection comes from The God Of The Bible.

My actions did not cause me to be open for any attack because I don’t believe in or follow that God of the bible’s sick “will” especially that garbage about a man and a woman becoming one flesh. I will always be whole and complete and no one flesh with nobody.

I truly feel that God was responsible for allowing those sick witchcraft experiences because I never cared for him and belonged to him, and I thank my lucky stars because I don’t ever want to be one of his children.

I have true supervision and protection from my Ancestors and Orishas like I had all through out my life I just had to get reconnected and reacquainted since I was attacked by witchcraft at such an early age ( ever since I was seven ).

Even though I didn’t truly from my heart mean what I said in this post regarding “God” I really regret having done so because I would never intentionally want to give him any type of glory or justification whatsoever!

And I know damn well that my beautiful soul will never enter a place of hell even if I ever did get an abortion. “I’ve seen where i’m going”, God Of The Bible has no claims over me. He does not apply to me or my life. And I am so glad that I am at a place in my life where I can acknowledge it and back it up fiercely. And I don’t give a damn what anyone who is blinded by him has to say about it!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:17 PM EDT

I don’t know why I’m calling this post my confessions. I’ve never had anything to hide. What i really mean by confessing is just acknowledging more in depth how i feel about particular things regarding myself.

I am a female. A woman. And I’m very glad to be. I am strong-minded, strong-willed, determined, stubborn, confident, opinionated, outspoken and a few other things. When i was a little girl i loved to have fun just like most children and i was very creative.

A lot of children have an idea of what they want to be when they become an adult. I knew by the age of ten that i would write and that is the age that i began writing the short stories that i use to. I also knew that when i grew up that i never wanted to marry. I am thirty-one years old now and have never had a boyfriend.

So i really did know what i did and did not want early on. I also knew that one day when i was ready i would want to have two children, preferably two female children. Two daughters. My two little girls. The only problem was how would i get them? I didn’t want no man on top of me.

I thought going to a sperm bank would cost too much money for me at the time since there was no guarantee that conception would occur during the first insemination. I’ve heard of women spending up to six thousands of dollars after numerous tries before actual conception occurred through being artificially inseminated by a doctor.

So if i really wanted to have a child I’d have to do what i had to do and that would mean lying down with a man that i didn’t want. It wouldn’t have been a problem. A whole lot of men were interested in me during my younger years. They just didn’t understand why i didn’t want to be bothered since most young women are man-crazy and are heavily into a man.

I was just the opposite. A few of the reasons i paid my admirers no attention was because the majority of them were nothing, nobodies. They were in my opinion unattractive and definitely undesirable as far as their physical appearance and level of mentality. What turned me off the most, though, is them approaching me like automatically without them even knowing me, that i was suppose to have an inclination for males.

They made a general assumption about me that was definitely not true. I am Asexual and very proud of it. I’ve never ever had any emotional or physical desire for a man. When guys had crushes on me and expressed their feelings in their own ways it disgusted me where others would think that it was cute or normal. And i am very sure most consider having a crush on someone then acting on it normal.

I felt if a guy was attracted to me and wanted to be with me he should have kept it to himself because he didn’t stand a chance with me. Then i began to think about it a little bit, and thought about using a man’s feelings for me to my advantage. You know when someone is into you and you are not into them then you have the upper hand.

Some of the guys who were interested in me had heard that i was a virgin and probably thought ( in their mind if they were to ever get the chance) by having sex with me they could turn me out or that i would change and become attached to them and fall all over them then a man would have some significance to me. Boy did they have me figured out wrong! Some of those male egos and ignorance’s need to go! There is a whole lot that some men really need to learn.

Yes, i was a virgin as far as never ever having intercourse with a man. A male penis had never penetrated my vagina but i had already experienced sexual pleasure without the aid of a man.

You see, i had discovered my clitoris years beforehand. It is a very sensitive area connected to nerves inside the body that with the educated touch of a finger ( i learned naturally on my own ) there are very nice sensations and climaxes to experience. There is absolutely nothing wrong with self experimentation, getting to know and love your own self sexually before letting someone else take control. But when a man is inside of you he is not the one really in control of giving you your pleasure.

It is all up to you and your mind whether or not your body will allow his penis to ignite those sensations. You have to already have an attraction or desire for a man in order to feel any pleasure from him. This particular subject is not embarrassing and it should not be. It is important.

When i was a little girl i curiously took a mirror to see what my vagina looked like. What’s wrong with that? Nothing! None of these things mean that you are being a bad girl or fresh. It is being smart and knowledgeable.

During the very first and only time period i tried to get pregnant by attempting sexual intercourse i felt absolutely nothing, no kind of sensation or pleasure whatsoever from the penis i endured because i had no desire and emotion to be with any male. On the other hand though, i could go and stimulate my clitoris on my own while i was alone and feel all the pleasure in the world because my mind was happily accepting that i was the one who was causing sensations received by myself.

My mind and body was and is not receptive to the thought of being touched by a man since nothing about a man arouses me. My body doesn’t want something pounding inside and out, that is just plain stupid! During clitoral stimulation, there is no penetration. Only i can arouse myself as i am in love with myself. And i haven’t ever been with any other man since. That was years ago. And for the future there won’t be another one.

My vagina is strictly off limits as it has always been. There is no man anywhere around me or in my neighborhood who can honestly say that they had me or will have me because now i have the money to go to a sperm bank if i really want to.

Even if i didn’t have the money i still would not resort to lying down with a man because that is not who i am and because to me it is so unnatural. My clitoris is natural. I was born with it. I know how to take care of myself. If i want a vaginal massage, i prefer myself.

When and if i eventually do get pregnant, like i mentioned before I’d prefer to have girls. My girls because i know they’d be very similar to me i have very strong genes. If i unfortunately get pregnant with a boy I’d be very pissed off and disappointed then I’d go seek an abortion. You see, there is no way in the world that i would want or have anything male growing up inside of me.

I know the way that i feel goes against God’s will just as fornication. God would prefer that i get married then have children and accept the children no matter what the sex is especially since I’m so spiritually blessed the way that i am.

However, i have my own will. And it goes against God’s. Now i live a very clean life as it is. I never went astray. I fornicated on only one occasion and that was done purely to make a baby and not out of any type of lust but i think the act itself left me open and vulnerable to the attack of evil spirits when my enemies worked their witchcraft.

Protection comes with God’s Holy Spirit and his spirit is not to be defiled by any spiritual uncleanliness. Now while witchcraft was unable to affect my strength, mind, actions and emotions it was able to affect my progress in life by interfering with my destiny.

So it wasn’t so much about my enemies having the ability to attack me it was that at the hands of my own actions i gave them the opportunity by disobeying God and defiling his Holy Spirit. If i had been married the act would’ve been clean.

Nevertheless, you know what? I still say even though i am spiritually restored now i don’t think that was fair. And life is not fair. I am a very good person and i don’t deny the power and works of the Lord but my heart is hardened against the way God set certain things.

The only real big sin that i was and am guilty of is rebellion. I still refuse to want to do it the Lord’s way by getting married to have a child and I’d still get an abortion or want to if i ever get pregnant with a male child. If i did get married I’d just be using the man for what i want. It just wouldn’t work out.

I lose patience in just two weeks of being around a man. And like i said before I’d never have any sexual dealings with a man as long as i live so if i lose God’s partial protection again by trying to conceive a child out of wedlock through going to a sperm bank and getting rid of a fetus because it turns out to be a boy then the Lord is just not right. My feelings will never change even if i risk spending an eternity burning in hell for it.

The All Seeing Truth Not Blinded By The Lies

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-confessions/

I’m Steps Ahead

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Thursday, September 21, 2006 at 9:15 AM EDT

As some may know at birth i was born with a double veil which means that i have very strong spiritual abilities. Aside from already being intelligent the reason i have so much knowledge is because i am a very accurate clairvoyant.

This is the month of September, there is only about three and a half more months left before a new year comes in and still my enemies won’t stop endeavoring to destroy me. I’m so tired of having to mention them but they just won’t leave me alone.

I don’t write about each an everything they do and have done but i write about a great deal of their actions because they definitely need to be exposed and because i’m not afraid to and will continue to speak on the things going on in the world that aren’t right.

While there are some in the world aware of my enemies wrongdoings due to their own experiences or through the experiences of others or through things that get wind there are still a great deal who aren’t aware and Divine Spirit may be using me to get the word out to deserving people who are in the dark.

I know i am not the only one who these type of sick people are doing this to it just so happens that i’m a spiritually gifted person who is well aware an in tune with what is going on around me. And i also have a significant source of protection in my favor that my enemies don’t seem and choose to accept.

Obviously they have greatly underestimated my strength, knowledge, power, and purpose. I am set way apart from them and this world-if not they would have been had me by now. They’ll never get me. No one can stop what my higher power almighty “Orisha” puts out!

I am a person who is pure in heart and in mind.

I don’t, and never have smoked, indulged in drugs or alcohol, and i don’t have sexual relations with anyone and that is my business. It is who i am what keeps me strong and standing. My physical self as well as spiritual-but more so my spiritual self because my spirit has got me the way that i am.

I’m truly a good person. This is all a part of my character. I live a clean life which causes no strains in my life because i am naturally this way. In the same it is in a way making me a target.

The way that i am may be foreign to a lot of people but i feel the same way about them. Their way of life is foreign to me and i may think of some of their lifestyles as crazy nevertheless i don’t care.

To me, smoking is stupid, alcohol unnecessary, and men the easiest thing to stay away from.

Now, i don’t knock anybody for what they do because i don’t do it, it’s just i don’t stand for any belittlement for the way how i live my life especially since i’m very proud of the person i was born to be.

This past Sunday and Monday things got a little heated “as far as my enemies are concerned”.

They started their usual crap when they “think” they’re “doing something”. I guess they spent a lot of time indulging in their chanting and candle burning to try to have an affect on my emotions that never really works on me anyway. So when they see me they proceed with talk that is suppose to make me paranoid, nervous, or feel down.

You see, i’ve always known these things because i’m fed knowledge through spirits and intelligence.

Within those two days, as soon as i came into their view, they began referring to me in a sexual nature. In other words insinuating that i’m a wild sex-crazed person who sleeps around all of the time.

As smart as i am i don’t understand why they stay on this particular subject when it comes to them using witchcraft to try to bring me down. With all of the other lies that they can use to say at me they stay on this whore tip. They don’t make any utterances about me being a crackhead, lesbian, or thief. It’s always mostly about me being the big whore that they absolutely wish i was. And it’s so interesting since i know i have never actually done any of the things they are describing yet they feel it should bother me.

So on Monday night when a small crowd finished uttering things about me which never existed i overheard one say to another “It’s not working”.

And, the other responded “It’s okay” or “Don’t worry about it” something to that nature.

They gave themselves away!

Why should it work on me? What they are doing is crazy. They even got certain people on my job going along with it by acting stupid. How can i get paranoid or feel down about things that don’t have anything to do with me? Shit they all created?

Like i mentioned before they have greatly underestimated me.

I know they want me to have a mental and emotional breakdown but i never have, i’m far from it, and so on to them. I wonder how many people they’ve succeeded with who didn’t know any better. It is such a shame. I hope more an more people catch on to these type of sick peoples games because for so many years they have been destroying the lives of so many good people who may have thought that they were crazy due to the subtlety of this matter.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/im-steps-ahead/

Hatred

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 12:58 AM EDT

I’ve heard some people say that it isn’t good or healthy for one to go around carrying hate in their heart. And that it’s a waste of time to hate when it comes to feeling that particular way towards another person because they may not know how you feel about them.

I say that may be true for some but not for all.

I have hatred for certain people in the world and it’s not the hate itself that is the problem it is not being able to do anything with the hatred. Nasty things that we may want to do to people may get us in serious trouble and things that we may want to happen to them sometimes don’t.

And those who may hate us also often feel the same way. So to me it’s not the hatred that is agitating it is when you’re not able to put your hatred into action.

Everyone is an individual so people have their own minds.

I personally don’t focus on the people i hate every day. It’s sometimes when one of them or their kind fucks with me or someone who shares my opinions that makes me think of what needs to be done to them. Otherwise i’m fine.

Hatred does not interfere in my happiness because it’s a come and go thing.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/hatred/

My Job

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006 at 2:47 PM EDT

I’ve been very busy lately as i work evenings and weekends. I don’t have the time to write like i use to but when i do get the chance i write as often as i can. I’ll never give up my first love!

Today is one of my off days and i usually spend my Tuesdays and Wednesdays chillin’ out.

I have been working hard at my new job for exactly one whole month now and my good efforts have definitely paid off for me.

The people over me at my place of work give me nothing but praise and compliments regarding the work that i do and already after the first two weeks of my employment i got a promotion. Wasn’t that very quick?! It usually takes months for people to receive a promotion after just being hired.

Luckily i was recognized early on and got moved a step up.

I like what i do. I love the money that i make, i earn a really good salary. I love the hours i have. I like the hour long bus ride i take just to get to work, and i love the area and environment where my job is located at. I got it goin’ on!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-job/

Body Image

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Friday, May 12, 2006 at 10:07 AM EDT

I’m not self-conscious about anything when it comes to me. I really appreciate the things that i am blessed with. I like the way i look, i like how i talk, i like the way i think, i like the way i walk. and i like how i act. Everything about me is real, natural, and extraordinary!

I have a very slim figure. I love the shape and size of my body, and if nobody else does that is their problem. What does anyone else’s opinion have to do with me?

I listen to some people and how they are so obsessed with their appearance due to what they feel are society’s standards of how one should be displayed.

And, some people starve themselves to be thin by eating then intentionally vomiting up their food or by just not eating at all. Anorexia and Bulimia are quite ridiculous.

I use to be much heavier when i was in my early teens.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with being solid or chubby if you are healthy. The reason i felt i had to get rid of the weight that i had is because my thighs started rubbing together and i’d run out of breath easily. But i don’t cut off my food supply to look a certain way. My metabolism has changed since then so i can eat whatever i want and don’t gain anything.

I do a lot of walking and my energy burns fat off.

But for those who’s food does stick to them rather quickly, so what? Who has the right to say extra meat on one’s bones is not attractive? I’d never compromise myself to be so-called “beautified” to anyone’s bullshit standards. As a black person i may be considered too skinny to some. A lot of black women’s trademarks are having huge behinds, thick thighs, and big hips. I’ve been there, it doesn’t mean a thing to me! I’m little now. I’ve had a little body for a long time now and i love it!

We have to be happy with ourselves and make ourselves happy.

No one can ever make me feel bad about myself because i love myself way too much. If someone doesn’t approve of the way you appear maybe they’re not good enough to be around you, and that goes for anyone- an associate, boyfriend, relative and whoever else!

When i style my hair i do it for me and not to impress people that i come into contact with on the outside. I’ll do my hair when i don’t go out! When i wear my clothes it’s to look good and decent for myself because i may like “my own shit”.

And when others do appreciate or compliment anything about you it can be cool but it shouldn’t be the most important because when you completely and genuinely are secure and approve of yourself anything that anyone feels about you-nice or nasty-won’t be of any deep “fazing”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/body-image/

Anger

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Friday, March 24, 2006 at 8:34 PM EST

Anger is a normal emotion. It’s okay to get angry. The important thing is what you do with your anger, how you handle it.

It takes a lot to get me significantly angry. And when i get mad sometimes the outcome is not good because i have a ferocious temper.

I have gotten revenge on people who have done me wrong and in my eyes i was justified in doing so. Sometimes though, you have to think before giving in to actions initiated by anger. Some matters that lead to trouble are easy to get in then hard to get out of.

So far, i haven’t experienced any serious consequences due to retaliating out of my anger, nevertheless, there is a first time for everything and some things aren’t worth the effort.

People often get back what they deserve so priceless time doesn’t have to be wasted when life will naturally make them reap whatever they may have sowed, and you can move on satisfied without having had to lift a finger.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/anger/

People In The Church

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Saturday, February 11, 2006 at 8:46 AM EST

Some people in the church are the worst people out there. They use their God as a cover, to hide what they really are. Some feel that everybody has skeletons in their closet and that nobody is a saint because everyone has done something wrong and made mistakes in life. But there is a difference between being unscrupulous and making honest mistakes. And everybody who has done something bad is not innately a bad person.

People often have their own interpretations of what is right or wrong and judge others by their own standards. What i’ve observed though, is that people who are too religious and act overly self-righteous have serious issues with themselves. They’ve done things in life that they can’t handle and tend to put their own insecurities on others to mask what they regret.

Sometimes what they see in another person is just a reminder of what they could have been. There is just as much gossip and dirt going on in some churches as there is anywhere else in the world. Some people just go to church for a fashion show, dressing to impress. Some go to church to meet a man. And some just keep putting on airs. Going to church doesn’t prove that one is a good person. You can have church in your own home. Having your God or deity in your heart is what truly matters.

 

i think you have a point here. but i’ve grown so much in my faith by
being around others who have a genuine faith in God… and they’re out
there… and they help me stay on the right path when i get all messed
upby life. so, yeah, some Christians are just putting on a show… but other
Christians show me what its all supposed to be about.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/people-in-the-church/

Knucklehead Men

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006 at 2:11 PM EST
I’m a nice-looking woman but i don’t understand why knucklehead men continue to try to talk to me. They should be able to look at me and see that they don’t stand a chance. They’re undesirable and i don’t even mess around with men anyway.

Men have always been the easiest thing for me to stay away from. “All men are not the same” or, ” have you been in a bad relationship?” Is what some have said and asked me after hearing how i feel about men. And it has nothing to do with either one. I know that all men aren’t the same and that there are good nice men out there i just naturally don’t want to be with one and i’m tired of hearing about it.

“Why you don’t get married?” “You should be married”. What is the big deal with these people? I don’t need a man! They don’t do anything for me. I’m not telling them not to be with a man, i don’t care what people do with their life. Why be worried about me? I’ve never been in a bad romantic relationship because i never had any feelings for a man. I’ve seen other’s around me who were in relationships and i don’t understand it. When they find out their man is cheating they go crazy, i couldn’t care less where a man sticks his penis, how would it hurt me? His body doesn’t belong to me.

And these knucklehead men, you can tell them that you don’t want them and they push themselves on you anyway. Some of them like a challenge or they’re just plain sick because to get back at you and to impress their stupid friends they’ll sometimes say they had you! They use other women to try an make you jealous and you don’t even want them, or women who do want them they try to use you to make them jealous-a bunch of silly shit. And these be full grown men!

More than once i’ve watched guys profile in front of me, trying to make me have a crush on them, and some thinking if they get me i’ll fall all over them. Bullshit! That will never happen. Not in a million years. Can’t no penis take my mind. I know a girl on my block who got sexually whipped by a guy and he married her and got her eating out of his hand. He cheats on her too.

I can’t count how many male associates who were in relationships with women that told me what they be doing behind their girlfriends back. And some women are so stupid they won’t even believe it, they’ll get mad at you for telling them and their man will deny it ,of course, and make you out to be the bad person. But i never got involve with that.

I have a relative who loves to watch the Maury show and Jerry Springer, and almost every day it’s the same ole thing. Somebody fighting over somebody else’s man or woman, and women crying because they don’t know who their baby’s daddy is or because the man don’t want to take care of the child.

If i had a baby it darn sure wouldn’t matter to me if the man didn’t want to be there. I don’t understand none of that nonsense. I couldn’t sit up and watch them kind of shows every day. There are knucklehead women out there too who won’t leave men who don’t want to be bothered alone but when it comes to a man it’s a little worse because they have those pathetic egos.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/knucklehead-men-2/

Happiness

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Saturday, February 04, 2006 at 11:13 AM EST

I find joy in having a peace of mind. I find joy in the strength that my ancestors gave me.

I found joy during bad times because when darkness was around me my light still shined, leading me straight to the path of my success.

True joy comes from the Orishas.

And the joy that i have the world didn’t give it to me, and the world can’t take it away.

 

 

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It is nice to know that somewhere along the road of discovering ourselves, whether struggles or lessons, We come across realizing that we meet half conciousness of the society we belong too. Keep track knowing God deeply, cause i am sure innate happiness is so intimate that nobody could ever take it away from you. The feeling of security comes with solitude cause God is with you.Godbless. :)

Posted by Life_Quest on Monday, April 17, 2006 10:15 AM EDT

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Self Love/Self Esteem

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 at 3:54 PM EST

If someone puts you down do you feel bad about yourself? If someone doesn’t like the way you look or the way that you live your life do you alter yourself or your ways? Do you change what makes you happy to please somebody else?

When i was a child there were other children who didn’t like me and who criticized me or made fun of me, and as i grew up i learned to be grateful to those experiences because it helped to make me who i am today. Most of the time individuals who go around intentionally trying to hurt others are suffering from their own battles with low self esteem. So they inadvertently tell on themselves by irrationally acting out. Lashing out at another makes them feel good, giving them a false sense of security.

It is sad when some feel that they have to make other people feel bad just to feel good about themselves. Things in life can either make you or break you and i learned at a very early age that i am suppose to love everything about myself even if nobody else does. And i always did! None of us are perfect human beings but you have to put yourself first and never let anybody walk all over you and take advantage of your kindness. There are plenty who will take kindness for weakness.

And a lot of people have some type of insecurity that affects them in their life. Jealousy has never been an insecurity of mine. That is one of the worse things out there. Certain people have always been jealous of me though. So i do know about other peoples insecurities. And when you love yourself ultimately and learn how to carry yourself that way there will be no need for you to be jealous of another.

In general, people should respect themselves and make sure that they are respected by others!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/self-loveself-esteem/

God

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:56 PM EDT

It is said that nobody is above God and that we are not suppose to ask “why?” Why things have to be the way they are, and why whatever else.

And i may cross the line when i say this but i feel that i do have the right to ask why because life isn’t fair and because i didn’t ask to come into this world. It is not doing me any great favor by me being here that i should go along with the way life is.

I know none of us are suppose to be “perfect” in God’s eyes and that none of us truly see things the way that he does because we are suppose to be incapable of comprehending his knowledge.

And me, being human, of course do not like all of the rules that he sets and i guess it’s because we’re all born into “so call” sin and are suppose to be sinners by nature.

I feel some things that God sees as a sin should not be. Nevertheless, it is also said that God gives us his laws to abide by not to make us unhappy but for our protection. Very few of his rules maybe i can accept with no problem, and there are the rest that i strongly disagree with.

To be even more honest though. I always thought the bible to be one of the sickest books that i’ve ever read. And as a spiritual person by birth and by nature i have never truly felt any connection with this “God” and have uncovered things about him and life ( things i have always speculated since childhood ) that i will not disclose.

Contrary to the bible and popular belief life (definitely my life in particular) is so much purer, happier, better, fulfilling and peaceful without him.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/god/

A Peace Of Mind

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:43 PM EDT

My spirit doesn’t take too well to negativity. And that goes for negative people as well as negative things. Even though i was able to survive many types of negativity that was set before me by demented individuals i totally despise having to be around it.

There is a particular feeling i’ve experienced on more than one occasion. It’s an intense feeling of natural pure ecstasy. A genuine exalted rapture. And no matter what may be going on around me at the time the mood cannot be spoiled.

I don’t know if there is a name for it but it definitely is spiritual and i wish that i could feel that way all of the time. Unfortunately, in reality nobody feels a great deep mystical emotional high everyday so maybe it’s just a temporary sign of what’s to come eventually.

In the meantime, i’ll settle for the little things that mean a lot to me and make me happy. And, that is being independent! I like to be alone, i like to do things on my own, and when i choose to be around a small number of people they are of genuinely good quality because i am very particular.

It may sound snobbish but my tolerance is very low. I was that way when i was younger-now it’s even worse. I can’t be bothered with what i don’t like and i don’t care at what stake.

Nothing is more important than my well-being. I don’t put up with idle gossip, trouble, and people who are a waste of my time. And those are the few things that contribute to me having a Peace Of Mind.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/a-peace-of-peace/

Prayers/Blessings

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006 at 2:59 PM EST

I’m strong in prayer. In the past, nearly everything that i prayed for came to me.

I’ve had my trials and tribulations. And i’ve had my fun and happiness-in fact, i still do. Everything is not always bad. Some good people experience many afflictions, and we go through them to make us strong enough to endure the things that are ahead of us.

There are prayers and meditations i’ve uttered that haven’t came yet but i know they’re on the way no matter how things look or how long it may take.

I’ve visioned, and often felt the things i want making a transition over into my life. And i will continue to wait until all of those things fully arrive.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/prayersblessings/

Me, Myself, And I

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Sunday, March 05, 2006 at 4:42 PM EST

I love being a woman. I don’t know anything else. I love my breasts and i love my vagina, they belong to me. Carnal knowledge of a man does not make me a woman. Not wanting a man does not make me a lesbian. I am who i am, and who i am comes from within.

Born a female does not mean that i am weak, vulnerable, or docile. And it doesn’t mean that a man can break me down with so-called harsh words. I don’t know who came up with society’s definition of what a woman is supposed to be because i am the complete opposite.

I was born this way. I am smart, strong, independent, confident, trustworthy, and spiritually inclined. I’m not marriage material, but i’m mother material.

I was told that if i ever experience the penis i won’t be able to stay away from it. And those words came from a whore.

I knew that wasn’t true. My vagina has no use for the penis. It doesn’t need or want it. If a man can’t stimulate my mind he can’t stimulate my precious vagina. And i’m all woman, black and proud.

I am nowhere near ugly.

I’m not the best person in the world and i’m not the worst. However, i am enough for myself. I love who i am and what i can do. Some think that i’m crazy, some think that i’m just deep.

I don’t give a fuck because i know that i am unique.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/me-myself-and-i/

Nature’s Way

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Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 7:54 PM EST

If you’re in tune and you’re paying attention you’ll receive the certain messages of the outdoors. And if you’re highly in tune you’ll automatically receive the messages even when you’re not paying attention.

The sky, the wind, the trees, and so on all have a way of speaking to us.

Sometimes it doesn’t look right outside, the certain days in particular may appear to be too bright.

There is a quietness during particular nights of the summer season when you are out that will assure you of safety no matter how late the hours may be. The leaves of the trees also blow a certain way in corroboration to this revelation.

There are also warnings during the calm summer nights that are similar to the warning in particular cool winter night airs, reminders of the dangers that lurk around us.

The beautiful sunlight of a warm clear day can reveal things.

The tidal waves of the oceans also tell us things, especially when the sun or pink-blue-orange skies colorfully mask around the clouds and reflect upon it’s large body of sparkling waters.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/natures-way/

Meditation

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Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 7:35 PM EST

Desires:

The mind is a very powerful tool. I learned throughout my young life how to make my mind work for me.

Spiritually gifted people have the power to draw things to them just by thinking of it. If we strongly wish for something and it’s in compliance with the Divine Spirit we can have it.

I’ve done this many times. Special energy acts in accordance with the universe that attributes to the supernatural. And the energy can work to your advantage if you know how to use it. Though, it is important to not abuse the special energy you have by using it in the wrong way.

Maintenance:

Automatically, my eyes close when i am comfortable and at peace. My body naturally goes into a meditation, revitalizing me and keeping me alert. If i need a answer to something in my life i ponder deeply then ask and i do receive accurate answers.

Meditation is healthy and good for the soul. And it is one of the strongest methods in developing your supernatural powers.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/meditation/

In The World But Not Of It

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006 at 10:38 PM EST

The world is a place of much activity. There are a bunch of things going on. And people have to stay in motion to make the world go around. We all need money, food, and shelter to survive.

Some are unfortunate, they don’t have places to live, food to eat, or money to spend. So many of us take so much for granted and some of us don’t care that we take things for granted.

There are things on this earth that make us happy. There are things that make us sad.

Some people are always optimistic, some people may give up hope. Some take things too much to heart then waste time worrying because they have no faith.

I personally don’t place much value on the things of this world because this is not my permanent home and i know i don’t belong here. I don’t need other people’s approval to make me feel good. I make myself feel good because i love myself and i know all that i’m worth.

When people in the world want to make me feel bad they’re unable to, my mind and my spirit is too strong for that. I can’t be touched as i’m shielded by Divine Spirit’s grace and knowledge, a feeling only his children know.

When my enemies tried to take away my money and hindered my career (spiritually) then spread lies about me it didn’t destroy me because those things don’t define me.

If i was a big zero they wouldn’t have tried to stop me.

All their actions showed me is that those particular conditions mattered to them. People usually try to hurt you with things that would bother and affect them. But i’m nothing like them.

Nobody can really take away my success. I have my mind, my health, a place to live, and my “Divine Spirit” on my side. Who can beat that?!

My enemies have actually promoted me. But they’d never understand that, they’re not able to reach that level. They made me realize even more how lucky i am in life. I’d hate to be in their shoes. I knew their outcome while they thought they were finalizing mine.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/in-the-world-but-not-of-it/

A Special Friend

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Monday, February 13, 2006 at 1:22 PM EST

A lot of people love their pets. I had a dog that i had for seventeen years, ever since she was a puppy. Her name was Brandie and she was a mixed breed.

My collie’s shepherd genes were stronger and her legs gave out so i had to put her down.

I always remember how she wasn’t an ordinary animal. There are those dogs that only come around once in a lifetime. Those animals who are just as human as we are.

I had quite a few dogs growing up but none were intelligent as Brandie.

She knew and could feel things the way i did. It was in her behavior. She still did the same things that a regular dog often does just in her own way. My Brandie was psychic, she helped me out a lot when we were together and she now visits me in my dreams.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/a-special-friend/

Praise To All Of My Spirits

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Monday, April 16, 2007 at 12:41 AM PDT

My Likes: “Energy”

I Feel Good Vibrations. Ultimate Sensations.

My Dislikes: “Odors”

I Hate Funky Underarms. I Hate Stinky Feet. I Don’t Like Shit Messy I Like When Things Are Neat.

You all care for me. You are always there for me. I can depend on you. You all continue to see me through.
You know, i can just call. Whenever i am in trouble. I don’t even have to ask. You will endeavor to keep me strong. Just to make sure that i won’t fall.

If it weren’t for you i wouldn’t know what to do. I’d be lost and alone without any knowledge of my own.

I don’t have to ever be scared. You all taught me not to fear. So i don’t have to worry like i never did i don’t have to shed a tear.

I don’t need anything in this world. You won’t hear me shout, clap, or stomp. I’ll love you all till my death. Won’t even stop chanting praise as i’m on my last breath.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/praise-to-all-of-my-spirits/

 

 

My LiL Brandie ( The Best Human Dog I Ever Had! )

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Thursday, November 30, 2006 at 4:43 PM PST

I think about her almost every day. How she always did things in her own special way. I miss her. I want to kiss her. I look forward to the day when i will reminisce with her.

We are still together as she comes back to me during times that i dream. And we continue to be forever communicating our messages throughout every scene.

We share a bond that no one can break and we have a love that no one can take. Indeed there was no mistake how fate gave then made us powerful enough that we could relate. We were made for one another. We worked so well for each other.

There is an absolute connection. A source of my protection. And a day never goes by where i don’t understand why. She is one of my angels up in the heavens, one of the loyal spirits around me guarding my life.

I recognized what she was while she was down here on this earth and would be a fool now not to know how much more she is really worth.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/my-lil-brandie-the-best-human-dog-i-ever-had/

Bright Lights, Big City!

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007 at 10:19 AM EDT

Ever since i was a little girl i loved when my mother use to take me with her into Manhattan. Then when i got old enough to travel on my own i’d take the train and go all of the time.

I’ve always been so carefree. I just loved everything about Manhattan. I always said when i could i would move there because Manhattan says everything about me!

On the 20th of April of this year i had to take care of some business on 34th st and i hadn’t been down there in that part for a while so when i finished what i had to do i walked all over and around, and spent hours enjoying the scenery. I ate around 42nd street then visited some stores, went and bought a DVD, then went on home.

A beautiful place somewhere in Manhattan will be my home one day.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/bright-lights-big-city/

My New Schedule

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Friday, May 12, 2006 at 3:33 PM EDT

I’ll always be an author no matter what. In the meantime though, i will focus on other capabilities that i have since i love having my own money and being independent.

Two and a half weeks ago i got accepted into a college. I was going to study being a medical assistant. My financial aid was being processed since i was qualified for it. I’d gotten my uniform and i was to pick up my medical books on the first day that i started school. My representative had a part time job hooked up for me too.

However, just the weekend before i was to begin classes i changed my mind.

There was no doubt that i would successfully complete my courses, however, i didn’t want to spend a whole year or more in school when i could be free now making a second career while having my own space. I prefer to work full time rather than go to school then work part time. So i went on a interview and got a job that i like!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/my-new-schedule/

Rest And Relaxation

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007 at 10:34 AM EDT

I have a lot of spiritual experiences day to day.

So i go through a lot spiritually and it can be exhausting at times. So before i soon start my new job back out on the outside, i have been taking it easy with meditation and good sleep when i’m not running an errand or on my computer.

It feels so good to rest and enjoy the positive energies that i feel throughout my body, mind and spirit. It is quite rejuvenating.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/rest-relaxation/