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Acne: Separating Fact From Fiction

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Everybody who has an occasional breakout does not have acne. Acne is mainly characterized by having a numerous amount of blackheads, white heads and pimples that continue to manifest due to over-activity of the oil glands that result in the blockage of the pores.

Acne is hereditary in certain individuals, and a fact is that this particular skin disease will occur in one regardless of their social, racial, or physical background.

In some, acne usually develops during adolescence. And i say this because there are some who skip puberty and develop acne later on in their adult years.

Through out the times there have been many beliefs as to what causes and prevents acne in people. The truth is however, that acne for the most part is brought on by hormonal changes and imbalances as well as a few other reasonable factors.

Women often experience a slight to moderate flare of acne during their menstrual cycle. Pregnancy is known to improve acne in some, but i knew a girl who broke out with severe acne while she was pregnant. So it all depends on the individual and their hormones. Then there are certain birth control pills, which may or may not improve acne depending on the estrogen content.

Although some people are allergic to certain types of food that may cause them to break out in hives and so on. Acne is not always brought on by the things that we may eat. Junk foods, greasy foods and chocolate are not responsible for the true formation of acne.

There are people who actually believe that if a person has pimples or bumps on their face that it is due to poor personal hygiene or a lack of sexual activity. These beliefs are very untrue. You can be the cleanliness person in the world and still be affected with acne. And, sexual intercourse has nothing to do with whether or not a person has breakouts.

A lot of people will also assume that if a person has dark spots or open sores that it is a result from them busting or picking their blemishes. Scarring is the natural result of significant skin inflammation. It is not caused by picking.

However, picking may worsen the inflammation of a pimple so that it is more likely to scar.

The type of pimple that is especially sensitive to manipulation is the deep red bump not surmounted by a pus head. This particular type has nowhere to drain and is fragile, so the manipulation of it is likely to cause more rupture and inflammation in the tissues.

Unfortunately, for those who suffer with acne there is no specific cure. Some just have to grow out of it and for others there are treatments to help keep their acne under control until it clears with time.

misslatoya says:
December 2, 2007 at 11:55 am
I personally don’t have a skin problem i just have knowledge on a lot of subjects whether it comes from my experiences or things that i have observed. I just have a habit of getting the truth out there. My point of the article as well as other things that i write is educating people with the correct information. There is so much ignorance out there in this society about a variety of things. Just for the record though, a pimple is something that has never bothered me. I feel that some people make a big thing out of nothing. I think the link that you left is helpful for certain people who have problems with their skin. What also prompted me to write the post was because to me it is so ridiculous how some people are so self-conscious over a skin eruption. I believe everything begins with self-esteem. Nothing could ever make me feel bad or self conscious about myself.

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susansmith says:
December 1, 2007 at 5:33 pm
Many people feel that their acne is overly embarrassing and unmanageable. I have read story after story of heartache, especially from teens that endure heartless bullying from schoolmates. There are so many different remedies and medications. What most people fail to realise is that each individual has a different biological makeup and what works for one person may not work for everyone. In some cases certain acne treatment can adversely affect already irritated skin. This further causes unnecessary embarrassment and frustration to an already uncomfortable situation.
Propaganda fuels misconceptions about different so-called remedies and even causes. The idea that chocolate and oily food causes acne. When in truth, makeup, unhealthy skin and even perspiration can cause acne.
All of these factors affect the skin. But even your skin makeup can affect your skin and create back acne, scalp acne, large assesses or ingrown hair. There is an acne questionnaire done by a company called Skinmed that will help to diagnose acne problems through a series of questions, and then it n recommends the best acne treatment for each individual.
Teen acne is typically the most difficult to diagnose because of hormonal considerations, but there is a special area meant just for teen acne that has a completely different set of rules when running the formula that determines the best medications or treatments. In some cases simple changes in hygiene and daily washing is all that it takes.
The site also has a free offer on acne facial cleanser that is made up of a three step process. The primary reason most teens, especially boys tend to have more problems with chronic acne is because of a lack of simply washing their face regularly. So this treatment is free is a way to create a healthy daily routine, while gently healing the skin to prevent acne scarring brought on as a result of squeezing the sores. Once daily cleaning is practices, and hormonal issues are taken into consideration, a proper treatment regiment can be highly affective.
At the end of the day most acne, even teen acne , can be eliminated quickly and permanently with the right motivation. After all, we all want to be beautiful don’t we?

Susan Smith

susansmith@hotmail.com

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/09/29/acne-separating-fact-from-fiction/

Street People

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Posted on September 2, 2007 by 

I know all about the street people. There is not anything that anyone can tell me about them that i don’t already know. I grew up around them and i have them on both sides of my family.

I could write a book about those in particular and, it wouldn’t be a very pleasurable one since there is nothing too pleasing about their unwanted existence.

Before i began, i just want to acknowledge that certain misfortunes in life can cause any human being to become homeless. There have been very successful people such as doctors, lawyers and so on who for whatever reason may be have loss everything and had to somehow make a way for themselves out in the streets. I am not talking about them in this post.

I’m mainly referring to those with innate tendencies to become bums, drug addicts, drug dealers, and whores that choose the lifestyles of the street. The streets are their comfortable habitat. The only place where they can function.

Most street people are mentally and emotionally disturbed. Many of them are uneducated and unintelligent.

Some have come from good homes where they had their parents in their corner, encouraging them to do what was right in their life.

And then there are the others who have come from dysfunctional homes and didn’t have any guidance at all.

Many of the drug addicted street woman continue the use of drugs during their pregnancies, messing their children up only to bring a burden on society. Many of the drug addicted parents also sit up and get high with their own children.

I know dope addicts who have raised their children by “training” them to be thieves. It is just the blind leading the blind.

The street people for the most part are a very sad group of people. And the level that they are on is quite appalling and unacceptable.

They are very convincing liars to those who are naive to their schemes. They are sometimes so convincing to some because they believe in their own lies. And aside from being notoriously devious they are extremely malicious, treacherous to a fault, especially when their feelings get hurt.

Through first hand experience and a keen intuitive sense of “understanding” I’ve never been oblivious to the type of people i grew up around. They have always been transparent to me, very easy to read. I will admit with no apologies that i have never at all liked their particular kind.

I tried to keep the peace since i sometimes had to be around them in areas when i went to school, work, or whatever, but there is only so much that i could tolerate when it came to their kind.

You see, they are all on that “street-level”. And one with intelligence would have to come down to their level in order for them to be able to relate to them. They are not equipped enough mentally to rise from where they are. And the thing about it is that the junkies think that they are the one who is smart and, that you are the dumb one!

There is a whole lot of information that i could give on the street people, nevertheless, it would take quite a few pages rather then a single post so I’ll just continue on with just a few more brief paragraphs.

From my personal experience with particular street people have been their ongoing jealousy toward me.

They are indeed sick but one will never truly know the depth of their sickness until they experience it in such a way as i have. They’ve tried at numerous attempts to bring down my character simply because I’ve talked about them and their lifestyle in ways that they didn’t like and couldn’t handle because it was the truth.

You see, when you are not one of them (their kind) and you insult them they get very offended because you haven’t been in their same shoes doing the dirt that they have done. So they automatically assume and know when one thinks that they are better than them.

So to retaliate the street people will endeavor to find a way to “put you in their shoes” by trying to make you the victim of what their life is about by literally ruining you. However, it all depends on the individual target.

Most street people are weak-minded and easily influenced so someone else of that nature will be easy to pull down. A strong-minded, intelligent person of substance and back bone on the other hand is a totally different story. They will be unaffected by the nonsense as the street-life is a whole different life and experience from what they are accustomed to but not necessarily unfamiliar with.

Yes, my street enemies have went around my town trying to defame my character by making up outrageous lies hoping that it would affect me. Unfortunately for them their efforts did not faze me, if anything it inspired me to be even more determined to go out and accomplish the many things in life that i do want to achieve.

And that also inspired them to interfere with certain jobs that i was suppose to get by trying to give me a bad name.

They never stop. They don’t want to lose at their games. But they loss this one because i was never a player in their world.

They’d like for me to have no means of financial support for myself so i could become a bum out in the streets. Too bad they don’t know that day will never come for me. I believe in a higher power, and a power that will dig them in the same exact grave they have dug for me. And they are the one’s who will be buried in it.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/09/02/street-people/

As An ASexual Person I’m Sharing My Personal Views And Feelings

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One thing i don’t hear too much about is people who are Asexual. I personally am Asexual. I’m not into men or women. I would never judge anyone as myself because everyone is an individual.

From my personal experience, however, i’ve never sexually desired a penis and i know there are quite a few other women out there in the world who feel the same way that i do who are not lesbians.

During my teenage years i discovered my clitoris and experienced orgasms. I wasn’t at all afraid to explore my body. Why should i have been? It was my body.

I had never had sexual intercourse with a man. And after experiencing pleasurable sensations from stimulating my clitoris i still did not have the desire or curiosity to explore a penis.

During my mid twenties i decided that i wanted to have a child. It was then and for that reason only that i settled for dealing with a man sexually.

I would have preferred to go to a sperm bank but at that particular time i did not have the money to do so. So i engaged in sexual activity a few times at a very short time period in one month. And the act did not do anything for me.

I did not feel any sexual pleasure at all. To me, sexual intercourse is definitely a mind thing.

I did not have any feelings for the guy that i dealt with for that occasion. In fact, he disgusted me. He was into me and wanted a relationship. I had to get rid of him quick.

Some people will become sexually attached as he did. And, some men are so macho they think their penis can change your mind. But it is not at all in the stroke for me. Sex is all in the mind and can’t no man or his penis do a thing for me!

The thought of a man touching me in any way whether it is with a kiss, caress or touch by penetration turns me off.

My efforts didn’t work in the process. His ego got into the way.

This guy wanted me to want him. It sometimes takes months before conception occurs but i couldn’t let no man have sex with me over and over again!

And when he found out that i was never going to actually come around to desiring him he attempted to pretend that he would conceive a child with me. Just to get back at me.

I didn’t have time for any games. I wanted one thing and one thing only, and that was a baby. I considered having sex a sacrifice because the penetration of a man’s penis was and felt so unnatural to me.

I have not indulged in anymore sexual activity since and that was nearly ten years ago. I don’t ever plan on attempting to make a baby with the assistance of a man ever again.

As being Asexual, another thing in this society is really disgusting to me. And that is how some men try to destroy a women by making up sexual lies about them or telling about what may have went on in the bedroom between the two of them.

Certain types of people tend to believe men when they fabricate tales of sexual encounters and will join in with the slander by trying to degrade the women.

Words like “slut” don’t bother me because the word has nothing to do with me. It is beneath me.

You have those though that don’t look at it that way.

When most men and even some women call other women a derogatory name like “whore” or “slut” they expect it to hurt deep down inside to make the person feel very low. And in this day and age this society still accepts the act of letting men ruin some women’s reputations when it comes to sexual matters.

A man can go around sleeping with hundreds of women while he is considered a “king”. A woman as everybody knows on the other hand will be considered one of the most rotten things in the world.

Many still believe that most women will break down to lose their confidence if a man trashes their name by putting them out there as a skank. It gives them a great sense of power.

I can’t speak for anyone else personally on this matter although i know i’m not the only woman who feels this way since there are such a wide variety of people in our world, but no man or woman could ever lower or make me completely lose my self-confidence by using sexual gestures that are considered offensive in this society.

I am a human being who doesn’t go along with the many brainwashing and beliefs of what is suppose to maintain and lower a woman’s worth.

I don’t think that it is right for a woman to sleep around with many other people if she loves herself. The body is one’s temple and one should want to keep it very healthy and clean.

At the same time i do not believe that a woman who sleeps around lowers her value. I just believe it means that she does not value herself!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/28/as-an-asexual-person-im-sharing-my-personal-views-and-feelings/

Me And A Man

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Thursday, February 08, 2007 at 9:15 AM EST

I don’t understand why certain people are so concerned about me not wanting to have a man in my life. People have always judged me not for what i do but for the things that i do not do and it is really none of their business.

All of this man shit really didn’t get this big until after i severely hurt the feelings of three guys in the past by being very nasty toward them then coldly rejecting them because i did not want them and the outcome has really been ridiculous.

I have heard in my life of some men not being able to handle rejection very well, however, it is very sad when some get hurt so bad that they can’t move on by continuing to seek revenge through lies perpetuated by those who keep spreading them.

I don’t know what these niggers expect to happen to me. I am not going down. For some sick reason do to their stupid egos they want people to believe that my weakness is for a man and that i am the one who has been hurt by a man and i am so tired of this dumb bullshit.

People really need to grow up and get over the fact that i’m a happy, healthy, successful, independent woman who doesn’t and never has gave a fuck about a man.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/me-and-a-man-2/

Denial

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 4:56 AM EDT

A lot of people do not want to accept certain things. And a lot of the time it is the things that are of “truth” that people don’t want to accept because sometimes they cannot deal with it or may not be able to handle whatever else comes along with it.

There are a lot of challenges that life brings and many of us do not want to see, hear, face or believe. Ready or not things are going to happen and it is up to the individual whether or not they are going to step up to it or run away. I wish the world wasn’t in the state that it is in but there is absolutely nothing that i can do about it so i just have to accept it but that doesn’t mean that i have to follow along in the state that the world is in.

I still be myself regardless and am able to handle whatever it is that comes around my way because i have a strong sense of myself and purpose. You have those though that for whatever reason who go by, masquerade and try to escape through many efforts. Lying to oneself is definitely not a comfortable way to escape. There is no peace in it. Lies will eventually eat you up inside and destroy you.

Some find a way to escape by believing in their own lies. Believing a lie is the truth brings a sense of security to some since it prevents them from facing a fear or shortcoming.

One lady i use to go to church with a long time ago got on my nerves so i told her how much she stunk when i’d sit next to her wherever we were in front of other church members. The next thing that i knew what i told her had gotten all over the church. One of the church members went back and spread it so i guess the lady got embarrassed.

Later after the incident the lady told me that she knew the reason i told her she stunk was just because i was angry. And that was a perfect example of denial. I was indeed angry when i told her that she smelled bad but i meant what i had said because it was the truth. Someone else i knew even acknowledged that the lady carried an odor. She just didn’t want to accept it.

And it is just the same thing with some of my enemies. They keep saying that i am putting up a big “front”. I don’t have a clue as to what they are talking about. A front for what?

Just because they tried to ruin me in ways that they wouldn’t be able to handle if people had done the same exact things to them does not mean that it affects me. I am not anything like them.

What pertains to them does not pertain to me. I am so much better than they are morally and intellectually.

I don’t know when they are going to wake up and realize that nothing that they did or do bothered or bothers me. I am a free happy spirit living with no worries or fears. I don’t care one bit about what they say or think and believe about me, however, they just can’t and won’t accept that. They are in “deep denial”.

The low level that my enemies are on is quite ridiculous.

It is unbelievable how stupid they all are. They are so stupid to believe that i am actually putting up a front when there is nothing for me to be putting up a front for. I don’t care how much trouble they went through to make my life miserable my Orisha is much, much stronger. The fact is that their efforts just did not work and never will work and whoever told them that their efforts did work flat out lied to them.

They are too stupid to see it though.

My enemies are making complete fools of themselves by continuing to believe what they think to be true then acting on it. When the day comes-and i know that very soon it will-when they all finally have to face reality and see, and truly acknowledge what the real deal is they are going to feel even stupider than they already are. For the meantime though you know the old saying, “Ignorance Is Bliss”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/denial/

Age

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Thursday, October 12, 2006 at 4:42 AM EDT

“Respect your elders”. “Wisdom comes with age”. I’ve heard people speak those words throughout my lifetime as i am sure others have. However, i strongly disagree with those words.

Just because someone is a little bit or a lot older than one does not mean that they automatically deserve their respect. And wisdom does come with age for some but definitely not for all. I learned that fact early on as a very young child. And it is a fact!

Grown ups had said and done things to me that wasn’t correct and right.

If i knew a little more about something than they did they didn’t want to hear it because in their mind they believed that they were the adult who knew better when in actuality they didn’t know what they were talking about. Often when a particular child, teen, or even young adult is knowledgeable and goes to express an idea or solution that someone older may not see, realize, or grasp the first thing that older person may be quick to verbalize is that the younger person is being “fresh” or “think that he or she knows everything”. And then continues on with “they’ll learn”.

They are very quick to generalize as most people do. It is not fair but it sometimes happens.

It’s been said and i’ve been told all throughout my life by those who have been able to recognize that i am too smart and that i know a lot for my age and that they were nowhere near the level that i’m on when they were at my age. There are decent rational adults out there who don’t have any problem acknowledging and accepting that people younger than them can know just as much as they do and even a little more.

You see, i have always carried a portion of wisdom. I have a good share of it. And i am very wise in ways that a lot of people don’t appreciate. There have been some who’ve misjudged me, accused me of things that i was not guilty of, lied on me, underestimated me, and treated me unfairly. There have been plenty of older peoples asses that i have wanted to kick. A lot of them make me so sick about how they think or thought that they were enlightening me by telling me something while all of the time i was way ahead of them.

Of course, there are those who are informative and beneficial to learn a little or a lot from. They are very helpful and they are the ones that i respect if they genuinely have understanding.

There have been older people who have tried to hurt me, test me, run games on me and so on because they believed and thought that they were so much more experienced.

And you see, that goes back to them making generalizations. Everybody is not the same but you can’t tell them that. So many of them have got it stored in their minds that they’ve been around and that they know and are able to read every type of person that they come across when they don’t know shit! They just think they do. And those are assholes that some of us are just going to run into at sometime or another. They are too ignorant to realize that it is not always necessarily age that makes you wiser but it is the insight and the “individual” experience. And just because one has the age does not mean that they have all of the experience.

A lot of people have gone through life living with the wrong information and mistaking one thing for another so when a younger person comes along knowing the answers he or she is sometimes considered as the one who is misguided, naive, or confused due to their own form of “misguidance”. And when some do come to a realization they are too embarrassed to admit to it.

There are plenty of younger people who indeed are naive, confused, and don’t know a whole lot about life and some of them are just stupid because their parents are stupid. But out here in the world there are older people who can learn from the young and the young who can learn from the old.

Our world is continually changing and while many things continue to change many of the things are going to remain the same.

I have a number of reasons why i don’t have respect for people just because they are older than me. Now that doesn’t mean that i go around disrespecting them. There is a difference between being courteous and having true respect for someone. I just do not underestimate anyone because they are younger than me and i do not overestimate someone simply because they are older. I go by the person within.

Nevertheless, i am aware that maturity also plays a part when it comes to certain people and their age.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/age/

Rumors

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 11:27 PM EDT

People have been telling lies since the beginning of time so they are definitely not going to stop now. No doubt, a lot of people are very nosy and love gossip. They gossip over anything, usually about a lot of silly shit. Some will say that everybody gossips. There is a big difference between having a discussion and straight out gossiping.

Most people who like to sit around waiting to hear and spread vicious rumors are pathetic, miserable people who don’t have a life of their own. They are full of envies and petty jealousies over the people that they talk about. As soon as gossip is spread about them though they can’t handle it and most of the time it is because what’s spread about them is the truth so they get mad and spread lies on others who are above them.

I have never spread rumors. I spread the truth.

And i, just like many others, have been the victim of quite a few ridiculous rumors. I’ve heard people say that they would go home and cry over lies that was said about them. I have never shed a tear over lies people told on me. Some of them may have pissed me off very much because i knew what they were trying to do but their talk didn’t affect me because i knew what was circulating was nowhere near the truth.

I know that it does hurt a lot of good people when others hear negative things that are false regarding them then they listen to it and may act accordingly to it. Treating them unfairly, and some of them got the nerve because they are the ones who actually have the dirt on them and the ones they criticize are the innocent ones.

The way i look at the matter is if you know who you are and you know what you did and did not do you shouldn’t give a fuck. People are going to talk about you anyway. Whether you do good or bad. Fuck them!

I scoff and laugh at people who spread rumors about me. I’m better than all of them. I can go and walk around anywhere holding my head up as high up in the sky as i want to because i haven’t done a damn thing! And if i had i’d still be strong enough to pick up and keep moving because i don’t do things that i’d be ashamed of.

People have all type of reasons why they make up lies and spread rumors. Most of the time it is done out of jealousy, hatred, ignorance, and sickness.

One time i hung out with this older woman who came out of jail a long time ago. Her name was Venus. The next thing that i knew people were assuming that because i was a good person and that she was a bad person that i was trying to help her get on her feet or something to that nature. The woman herself even went around lying, telling people that i was trying to save her. Save her from what? I don’t know what they were talking about. It was all news to me. That was a petty lie, unless she was really that dumb enough to perceive that through her own misunderstanding.

Then, later on, i was suppose to had went with her boyfriend (had a relationship with him). And then i became a ho’. And so on, an so on.

See, they are all crazy! And they are suppose to be grown folks. That’s why the dummy and her nigger both have been looking like skeletons for a while now and are rapidly dying from Aids.

You know, the truth always comes out no matter how long it may take. I don’t have no Aids and never had any other diseases for that matter.

That says a whole lot because they hung themselves with their own ropes.

People need to think about what they lie about before they do it. Their shit didn’t add up and now their being eaten up. I knew that they had Aids a long time ago and was waiting until the day for it to really show. I look at Venus and Omar and gloat like crazy. That is what they get for being so jealous of me, a death sentence.

It’s just sad when people’s lives get ruined over shit that they know is not true.

Since most of the time lies spread faster than the truth it gets to them how those who fall for the lies believe in it, and it bothers them how people think of them. I can’t get into any of that shit because it is a waste of energy. It’s not real so why pay any attention to it.

The way i keep looking at it is that they are living in a land of make-believe and i am in reality and i got to keep moving on because i’m not a sick person.

Some probably are making up rumors about why i write blogs. Is that going to discourage me from blogging? No way! I write because i am a natural born writer. I was told that the gift i have would be used to help people even though i did not set out to do so. I just followed the calling. It’s a talent. I’m not trying and never have tried to prove anything to anyone.

I don’t beg people to read my blogs. If nobody likes what i have to say they don’t have to visit and read my writings. I didn’t even tell people that i had blogs they found out on their own. I am expressing myself and i’m going to keep doing it.

And this may sound crazy but if i never got any visitors i’d still post.That is one of the major reasons i don’t and will continue not to be bothered with too many people because they are so stupid and ignorant, jealous, and inferior and not worth my time and energy.

I’m much, much happier being by myself, doing what i like.

Even when i am on my job i keep mostly to myself. So everybody can go on an keep talking while i’ll still be way ahead because i’ve been gone!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/rumors/

Confidence

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 9:18 PM EDT

I’ve always believed in myself. I know that i am worth a million. Is there conceit in me? Hell yeah! I know that i’m great. Do i have an exaggerated view of myself? Hell no! I am just as i know myself to be if not more, it is a fact. Will i continue to ride up on my high horse? You damn right! And i am riding so high.

Sure, there are and will always be people behind the scenes who will try to pull me down. They won’t get the chance though! If i go down in my life it will be because of my own doing. I am the only one who is able to bring myself down.

No matter what i may have been through in life no one has ever been able to take away my confidence. If they had, i never would’ve kept going, knowing, and believing that i’d be the one to prevail because of the person that i was. I knew something had to give. Does that make sense?

When a person loses their confidence they lose who they are. It is not so much about their actions but what they feel inside. It’s not what you do it’s how you feel about yourself. Do you understand what i mean?

A lot of the time people tend to judge other people on what they see on the outside rather than considering how their minds may be thinking or working. Most people don’t know what is going on inside of another person’s head unless they tell them. So how someone acts or reacts doesn’t necessarily have to do with what that person feels.

For example, an individual can know how attractive they are and won’t enter into a beauty competition, not because they don’t think they can win but because they just may not want to. Maybe it’s not their thing. They know how good they look and are able to give competitors a run for their money. The event just may not spark up their interest.

There are going to be certain types of people and things throughout life that will indeed try to discourage you. They’ll do their best to make you doubt yourself when they really know that you do have the capabilities or attributes. Even if someone doesn’t believe in you, underestimates you, or disregards you don’t let it stop you from believing in yourself.

You see, no one can tell me who i am or who i am not because i know and it makes their judgement of no value to me. That is how secure i am with myself and because i know how narrow-minded a lot of people are.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/confidence/

Brainwashed

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:51 PM EDT

It’s a huge world out there. There are so many people who don’t know what they be talking about. Then, you have many who do know what they are talking about. There are so many cultures, lifestyles, beliefs, opinions and ways that people are raised.

When you come into your own is when you really discover what is important since it partly develops into what may define some of your character. Some need to evaluate many of the things that they value or consider a value to them. They need to know where their ideas originated from-whether they made the decision on their own or let someone else decide for them.

Do you live by or go along with something because that is truly the way you feel in your heart or because it is the way that most people do so you just accepted it as the way to go or as it is said “the way it is suppose to be?”

I myself actually have never allowed society or any individual to dictate how i should live my life no matter how negatively or positively they may have decided to view me. I cannot and will not let the opinions of others faze me while i continue to take my journey through this life. Nobody is going to determine how i should feel about things, what i believe in and don’t believe in, and what i should agree with and don’t agree with.

No one can tell me what i don’t want to hear because i am going to have the last word when it comes to my life since i am the one living it! Nobody knows me better than i know myself.

Now, there is absolutely nothing wrong with hearing another person out if you decide what they are saying is worth hearing. It makes no sense to be oblivious to the diversities in the world. However, you don’t have to listen to it. It’s just vital for you to be aware of it and that it is going on and going on with these people.There is plenty of shit going on in the world that is not too kosher as far as i am concerned and i refuse to let my mind be molded and corrupted with some of the things that this society considers appropriate and not appropriate.

Of course, i may not know everything but i know a hell of a lot and enough to know that the so-called generalized way of how our life “in order” should be lived is a big mess. Yes, it is indeed true that whatever life is to one is the way they should live it because nobody’s path is the same.

We all have our own minds and ways of behavior-thank goodness for that! What i am talking about is being consciously or subconsciously programmed by what is displayed by myths, stereotypes, the media and even small things in life that we are taught. I don’t accept something as a fact as to what is right or wrong simply because it is said that it is the way it’s suppose to be or because so many people feel and are in a particular mode. I am also a person and i do count and my ways and thoughts differ greatly than the majority.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/brainwashed/

My Confessions

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Everyone makes mistakes and indeed this was a big one! Everything in my post is the truth except for what I mentioned about God.

I wrote this post about fives years ago and now I can come out with the total truth that I could not say at the time. I don’t really feel that I did anything wrong. I don’t really believe that the only true protection comes from The God Of The Bible.

My actions did not cause me to be open for any attack because I don’t believe in or follow that God of the bible’s sick “will” especially that garbage about a man and a woman becoming one flesh. I will always be whole and complete and no one flesh with nobody.

I truly feel that God was responsible for allowing those sick witchcraft experiences because I never cared for him and belonged to him, and I thank my lucky stars because I don’t ever want to be one of his children.

I have true supervision and protection from my Ancestors and Orishas like I had all through out my life I just had to get reconnected and reacquainted since I was attacked by witchcraft at such an early age ( ever since I was seven ).

Even though I didn’t truly from my heart mean what I said in this post regarding “God” I really regret having done so because I would never intentionally want to give him any type of glory or justification whatsoever!

And I know damn well that my beautiful soul will never enter a place of hell even if I ever did get an abortion. “I’ve seen where i’m going”, God Of The Bible has no claims over me. He does not apply to me or my life. And I am so glad that I am at a place in my life where I can acknowledge it and back it up fiercely. And I don’t give a damn what anyone who is blinded by him has to say about it!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 8:17 PM EDT

I don’t know why I’m calling this post my confessions. I’ve never had anything to hide. What i really mean by confessing is just acknowledging more in depth how i feel about particular things regarding myself.

I am a female. A woman. And I’m very glad to be. I am strong-minded, strong-willed, determined, stubborn, confident, opinionated, outspoken and a few other things. When i was a little girl i loved to have fun just like most children and i was very creative.

A lot of children have an idea of what they want to be when they become an adult. I knew by the age of ten that i would write and that is the age that i began writing the short stories that i use to. I also knew that when i grew up that i never wanted to marry. I am thirty-one years old now and have never had a boyfriend.

So i really did know what i did and did not want early on. I also knew that one day when i was ready i would want to have two children, preferably two female children. Two daughters. My two little girls. The only problem was how would i get them? I didn’t want no man on top of me.

I thought going to a sperm bank would cost too much money for me at the time since there was no guarantee that conception would occur during the first insemination. I’ve heard of women spending up to six thousands of dollars after numerous tries before actual conception occurred through being artificially inseminated by a doctor.

So if i really wanted to have a child I’d have to do what i had to do and that would mean lying down with a man that i didn’t want. It wouldn’t have been a problem. A whole lot of men were interested in me during my younger years. They just didn’t understand why i didn’t want to be bothered since most young women are man-crazy and are heavily into a man.

I was just the opposite. A few of the reasons i paid my admirers no attention was because the majority of them were nothing, nobodies. They were in my opinion unattractive and definitely undesirable as far as their physical appearance and level of mentality. What turned me off the most, though, is them approaching me like automatically without them even knowing me, that i was suppose to have an inclination for males.

They made a general assumption about me that was definitely not true. I am Asexual and very proud of it. I’ve never ever had any emotional or physical desire for a man. When guys had crushes on me and expressed their feelings in their own ways it disgusted me where others would think that it was cute or normal. And i am very sure most consider having a crush on someone then acting on it normal.

I felt if a guy was attracted to me and wanted to be with me he should have kept it to himself because he didn’t stand a chance with me. Then i began to think about it a little bit, and thought about using a man’s feelings for me to my advantage. You know when someone is into you and you are not into them then you have the upper hand.

Some of the guys who were interested in me had heard that i was a virgin and probably thought ( in their mind if they were to ever get the chance) by having sex with me they could turn me out or that i would change and become attached to them and fall all over them then a man would have some significance to me. Boy did they have me figured out wrong! Some of those male egos and ignorance’s need to go! There is a whole lot that some men really need to learn.

Yes, i was a virgin as far as never ever having intercourse with a man. A male penis had never penetrated my vagina but i had already experienced sexual pleasure without the aid of a man.

You see, i had discovered my clitoris years beforehand. It is a very sensitive area connected to nerves inside the body that with the educated touch of a finger ( i learned naturally on my own ) there are very nice sensations and climaxes to experience. There is absolutely nothing wrong with self experimentation, getting to know and love your own self sexually before letting someone else take control. But when a man is inside of you he is not the one really in control of giving you your pleasure.

It is all up to you and your mind whether or not your body will allow his penis to ignite those sensations. You have to already have an attraction or desire for a man in order to feel any pleasure from him. This particular subject is not embarrassing and it should not be. It is important.

When i was a little girl i curiously took a mirror to see what my vagina looked like. What’s wrong with that? Nothing! None of these things mean that you are being a bad girl or fresh. It is being smart and knowledgeable.

During the very first and only time period i tried to get pregnant by attempting sexual intercourse i felt absolutely nothing, no kind of sensation or pleasure whatsoever from the penis i endured because i had no desire and emotion to be with any male. On the other hand though, i could go and stimulate my clitoris on my own while i was alone and feel all the pleasure in the world because my mind was happily accepting that i was the one who was causing sensations received by myself.

My mind and body was and is not receptive to the thought of being touched by a man since nothing about a man arouses me. My body doesn’t want something pounding inside and out, that is just plain stupid! During clitoral stimulation, there is no penetration. Only i can arouse myself as i am in love with myself. And i haven’t ever been with any other man since. That was years ago. And for the future there won’t be another one.

My vagina is strictly off limits as it has always been. There is no man anywhere around me or in my neighborhood who can honestly say that they had me or will have me because now i have the money to go to a sperm bank if i really want to.

Even if i didn’t have the money i still would not resort to lying down with a man because that is not who i am and because to me it is so unnatural. My clitoris is natural. I was born with it. I know how to take care of myself. If i want a vaginal massage, i prefer myself.

When and if i eventually do get pregnant, like i mentioned before I’d prefer to have girls. My girls because i know they’d be very similar to me i have very strong genes. If i unfortunately get pregnant with a boy I’d be very pissed off and disappointed then I’d go seek an abortion. You see, there is no way in the world that i would want or have anything male growing up inside of me.

I know the way that i feel goes against God’s will just as fornication. God would prefer that i get married then have children and accept the children no matter what the sex is especially since I’m so spiritually blessed the way that i am.

However, i have my own will. And it goes against God’s. Now i live a very clean life as it is. I never went astray. I fornicated on only one occasion and that was done purely to make a baby and not out of any type of lust but i think the act itself left me open and vulnerable to the attack of evil spirits when my enemies worked their witchcraft.

Protection comes with God’s Holy Spirit and his spirit is not to be defiled by any spiritual uncleanliness. Now while witchcraft was unable to affect my strength, mind, actions and emotions it was able to affect my progress in life by interfering with my destiny.

So it wasn’t so much about my enemies having the ability to attack me it was that at the hands of my own actions i gave them the opportunity by disobeying God and defiling his Holy Spirit. If i had been married the act would’ve been clean.

Nevertheless, you know what? I still say even though i am spiritually restored now i don’t think that was fair. And life is not fair. I am a very good person and i don’t deny the power and works of the Lord but my heart is hardened against the way God set certain things.

The only real big sin that i was and am guilty of is rebellion. I still refuse to want to do it the Lord’s way by getting married to have a child and I’d still get an abortion or want to if i ever get pregnant with a male child. If i did get married I’d just be using the man for what i want. It just wouldn’t work out.

I lose patience in just two weeks of being around a man. And like i said before I’d never have any sexual dealings with a man as long as i live so if i lose God’s partial protection again by trying to conceive a child out of wedlock through going to a sperm bank and getting rid of a fetus because it turns out to be a boy then the Lord is just not right. My feelings will never change even if i risk spending an eternity burning in hell for it.

The All Seeing Truth Not Blinded By The Lies

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/my-confessions/

Garbage

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Thursday, September 28, 2006 at 1:49 PM EDT

No doubt, i was born a person of substance and there is no way in the world that i will ever have any regard or respect for those who are worthless. And i’m talking about the trash, of course. I’m tired of living around them, i’m tired of working around them.

I detected what they were from a very young age and ever since then i’ve always had a deep hatred for them.

I resent God for giving them life and if he had any sense he’d correct his mistake by opening up the grounds around them to let them all be swallowed up to their magnificent death.

There is a definite pattern when it comes to their physical appearance, attitude, and behavior. And no matter how much they dress up or what position they may hold at work it is still obvious to tell just how much they aren’t shit.

It is no secret how i feel about them knuckleheads. They are incompetent, sick-minded, and ignorant. And they really kill me how they think if they talk about you severely it’s suppose to mean something and be effective.

I’m a person of substance. Those people don’t count to me.What they say doesn’t mean shit to me!

They can go around talking and trying to turn as many against me as they want and i’ll say “more power to you” because anybody who listens to people like that are just as fucked up as they are and are doing me a favor by keeping their distance. I don’t want no type of trash in my life and in my world!

I should keep my mouth shut but i am going to write this because it is the truth about how i feel and because i don’t care. I came close to killing a mother fucker years ago. One of those nothings. I tried to smother the mother fucker and it felt so good. The only thing is it happened to be a guy who was built a little stronger than me.

See, i’m little in size but i do have a good amount of physical strength and the position where i had him in was perfect. I had a good grip on him. But he struggled until he broke free and he was scared because even though he may have been able to over power me physically i absolutely had and showed no fear.

I was serious, pissed off ,and burning with a passion to get rid of his ass.

I’m in no way joking or trying to be big and bad i am very serious when it comes to my dislike for those types of people. I was born under the sign Taurus and we are very strong people who have violent tempers when we are provoked enough.

I don’t get into the business of others because it never concerns me. When i’m at my job i do my work. I live my life the way i want to and nothing is going to change me. I have my own views, beliefs, and directions about life and my powers are leading me securely.

I don’t care who may think that i’m stupid or a psychopath. I am very special and very wise.

And i am here in this crazy world for a very strong purpose even though i don’t want to be considering the way that it is. I feel i belong in a much better place, nevertheless, i can be here and am here without actually being a part of this because i’m definitely no part of this world.

No matter how i feel i know i have a very long life to live here on earth to experience more of the things that i deserve and am entitled to. And my one an only problem is not life itself, but what is a lot of other peoples problem also, and that is “garbage”.

Yes, they definitely need to go. They all need to be destroyed.

I’m so in tune that my spirit rejects their presence when they’re around me. It lets me know the depth of what they are and how they need to be on a planet of their very own if they really have to exist at all.

They don’t know how to mind their own business, they are big liars, they’re envious and jealous of everybody, they’re petty, they are trouble, and they make me sick.

I really enjoy it when them types are out of view, their auras are dark. Most of them are the devil’s children (demonic) and they need to go straight to hell.

The garbage keep on multiplying and infesting the world with their children and they keep fucking up the world even though it’s already fucked up.

I’d never give birth to one of those things. I’d be very, very particular who’s sperm to get pregnant by.

No matter what goes on or how many fall under i will always be one to be counted on when it comes to cleaning up, getting rid of, and preventing as much of the stinking “garbage” from the further contamination of the world.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/garbage/

Games, Mind Games

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 10:57 AM EDT

I can understand testing someone to see where they may be coming from and a lot of people do it. Then you have those who are out to deceive as a way of life. I despise game-players. Their actions have always been so obvious to me as they thought they were at their slickest.

I’ve watched people run games on other people, messing with their minds in order to gain something from them, to hurt them, or to mislead them for their own personal self-satisfaction.

If someone comes to me playing games it really burns me up because i have never been anybody’s fool.

What kills me about these sick people is when they actually think that they’re getting over with their false words and false actions, and by mixing lies with the truth.

I ask myself “Are they that dumb?” And “Do they think that i am suppose to be dumb?” I know a lot of the time it’s not personal since they do these tricks on a lot of people but some need to realize that they’re making an ass out of themselves.

People are not so stupid.

They may let you believe that you’re fooling them because i have done it. I played the game right along back to assholes who thought they were smart yet too stupid to realize i was way onto them.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/games-mind-games/

Level, Mentality

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 4:04 AM EDT

I’ve mentioned before in the past that people believe and think what they want to think even if it is not the truth. And how i’ve always hated ignorant people since i was a child.

I’m not the smartest person in the entire world but i’m very far from a dummy.

There are so many people walking around with false knowledge. Plenty of those who are up there in age still have misconceptions about certain things going on in life. And if you dare to tell them that their information is wrong they don’t want to hear it especially if it’s coming from a person that is much younger who knows what they’re talking about.

One person’s truth is another person’s lie due to the difference in their points of view and how they may see things.

I’ve learned in life that many people generalize, they don’t know any other way of life and when they get around those who differ from them in ways of thinking and behavior they don’t understand then choose to classify them by their limited definitions of what they’re use to.

As far as i am concerned the world is fucked up period. And all that i know is that i don’t have any time for shit that don’t make no sense to me and i have seen and heard a lot of crazy stuff that is considered normal among many.

It is very important to have an accurate amount of street-smarts, book smarts, and spiritual smarts to survive in this world.

A whole lot of people are getting high these days so they’re in their own world making up their own rules, and whatever age they started experimenting with drugs and then continue on to use them, will be the same mind-set that will carry them for the rest of their life. So if a person begins taking drugs at sixteen and is still on them by the age of sixty he or she remains on that sixteen year old level.

Even the little children these days are born crazy. Seven and eight year old girls are wearing thongs. I’m thirty-one years old and have never walked around with shit sticking up my ass in between the cheeks.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/level-mentality/

Hatred

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 12:58 AM EDT

I’ve heard some people say that it isn’t good or healthy for one to go around carrying hate in their heart. And that it’s a waste of time to hate when it comes to feeling that particular way towards another person because they may not know how you feel about them.

I say that may be true for some but not for all.

I have hatred for certain people in the world and it’s not the hate itself that is the problem it is not being able to do anything with the hatred. Nasty things that we may want to do to people may get us in serious trouble and things that we may want to happen to them sometimes don’t.

And those who may hate us also often feel the same way. So to me it’s not the hatred that is agitating it is when you’re not able to put your hatred into action.

Everyone is an individual so people have their own minds.

I personally don’t focus on the people i hate every day. It’s sometimes when one of them or their kind fucks with me or someone who shares my opinions that makes me think of what needs to be done to them. Otherwise i’m fine.

Hatred does not interfere in my happiness because it’s a come and go thing.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/hatred/

Kill People With Kindness?

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Thursday, August 03, 2006 at 12:39 AM EDT

I have never been the type to kiss anybody’s ass especially when they talk shit to me. However, there are times when you do have to hold back even if you don’t really want to.

Around the first week at my job i met a couple of managers i didn’t like right away. I have come in contact with many types of people throughout my life and i’ve always been able to read people. I know who is good, i know who is no good and i know who is in between. So when i saw the few managers that i knew would be trouble i knew how to handle them. And it worked.

I got a promotion, not all just for my work, but for my positive attitude. I don’t put on airs i just be extra courteous to those who may not deserve it.

I don’t like that i have to behave so humbly on a job that ain’t all that fabulous but i’m motivated by the money, nothing else. My mind is more on what i’m really meant to be and do in life and i’ll get there soon. A customer even came into the store and said please don’t do this forever because i’m way too smart too be working there. I told her i had other plans.

Meanwhile, i make sure to avoid conflicts.

The day before yesterday, one of the female managers over me didn’t want to admit that she failed to include certain information while instructing me to do something and she got a little stink in her attitude and i definitely didn’t like it. I wanted to put her in her place because i knew i was in the right but i had to hold my tongue to keep my job.

She is a manager so she is going to cover her ass because if she leaves things out it shows irresponsibility on her part to those higher over her so naturally she’ll put the shit on me. She doesn’t deny though that i’m a very good worker and that she was on the warpath that particular day but that it wasn’t with me. This was a hint to me to be on guard with her and it confirms things that i read about her when i first met her.

What is wrong with making a mistake? Nobody is perfect. She didn’t want to take fault for one of her own actions and it was something minor.

Last month i overheard a co-worker saying how once this woman became a manager the position went to her head and i see it in more ways than one. I know things like this go on all throughout life in many circumstances. Sometimes us as people have to do what we don’t want just to get where we need to be. We have to put up with people who we don’t like just to keep the peace or to be professional. And we sometimes have to go along with the program while we’re interacting with others.

I don’t have to live with these people so it’s really no big deal. I always keep aware that there will always be people who will cause trouble at some point or another, though. And incidents like these are reminders.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/kill-people-with-kindness/

Profanity

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Monday, April 17, 2006 at 9:44 AM EDT

Bitch, Fuck, Shit and Ass, are all curse words that for a while now have been made legitimate since they can be found inside of a dictionary.

Some people find words of that particular nature offensive or obscene, and it has been said that people who swear on a regular basis are limited in their vocabulary.

Curse words don’t bother me.

I do believe that often some use them unnecessarily. One doesn’t always have to utter bad language in order to get their point across. I use profanity to express myself because it is a small reasonable part of my mode of verbal expression. That is just the way i talk, but it isn’t a habit for me.

There is a time and a place to watch what comes out of your mouth because some things need to be said with a little decency. If one really wants to they can pierce just as much using regular words if they’re ingenious enough to know how.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/profanity/

Black People & Hair

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Monday, April 17, 2006 at 9:34 AM EDT

I come from a family where quite a few of us along down the line were born with a nice grade of hair that is able to grow continuously. Ever since i was a little girl i had a head full of hair.

During my early twenties i let my hair grow all the way down to my back and i got plenty of what i thought was ridiculous attention. Since i’m a black person some other black people acted as if i wasn’t supposed to have long hair and were jealous because they had to go purchase weaves.

I can’t count how many black people’s eyes use to be glued at the long strands of my hair.

“How did you get your hair so long?” “I wish i had hair like that”. “Oh, she think she’s cute cause she has hair”. One girl even yanked my hair because she didn’t have any, and when i’d keep it pinned up people would ask me to take it down.

And the men were just as worse as the women. They all made me sick!

I have distant family members who told me about the reactions they’d get from others regarding a simple matter such as their hair. Well, i guess it’s a simple matter to us because we don’t have a problem with growing any. And, goodness forbid if we were to cut it!

They cut theirs and people had a fit.

When some saw that my hair wasn’t as long as it use to be some actually gossiped about it. “Oh, it probably fell out” or “It probably was a weave”.

“Now she done cut her hair”- like it was the end of the world or like i had done something terrible. It couldn’t be nothing positive.

That all happened years ago and i’ve decided now to allow my hair to grow long again the way that it use to be if i don’t change my mind. You know, for a different look. It can be tiresome managing long hair that i perm and condition. Shorter hair is less time consuming and much easier to manage.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/black-people-hair/

Skeletons In The Closet

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Friday, April 07, 2006 at 5:20 PM EDT

I’ve heard some people say that everybody has skeletons in their closet, shameful things they regret and want to keep as a secret. Yes, everybody makes mistakes and may have regrets, nevertheless, everything is not a “Skeleton In The Cupboard”.

Some people just don’t want to be alone in the things that they do, and have done. So it’s more comforting for them to believe everybody has something dirty on their slate. I’ve also heard people say that some need to stop thinking they’re better than other people because everybody has problems. Yeah, a lot do have problems but why should that count as to whether or not they feel more superior if they want to? Sometimes it is people who give other people their problems. They don’t always make problems on their own.

I have never cared what anyone did in their life as long as they stayed out of my business but sometimes there are those who get so insecure about certain things that they wish they could take back, and try to poke a finger at someone else to make them not feel they’re as high as they think they are.

Some people have tried that shit with me, insinuating that because i didn’t work for anyone for a long period of time (before i became an adult and in my early twenties) that i never tried to do anything for myself or took care of my self financially. Those rumors came from my jealous and crazy great-grandmother who couldn’t do nothing in her life but iron clothes. How much effort does it take to get wrinkles out? There’s no brain work in it.

I didn’t pay it no attention, it’s was all bullshit! I had my own money before i started publishing books, buying my own and paying my way. I just don’t like authority so i prefer to work on my own.

A lot of people have their own hang-ups. And they have to deal with their own unresolved issues without using others as a scapegoat. Some think if one was put into their particular predicament of things that they would do or make the same choices they did.

I know one thing, and i can speak beforehand. I don’t care what hardships life may hand over there are certain things i know i’ll refuse to bring myself to do-even if my life depended on it! I’ll never sell my ass, i’ll never use drugs, and i’ll never commit a murder for anyone.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/skeletons-in-the-closet/

Gossip & People In The Street

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Friday, April 07, 2006 at 4:31 PM EDT

Ignorance is everywhere. In all walks of life there will always be people who read things wrong and spread rumors. One doesn’t have to be a street person to not have accurate knowledge of things or to place high value on the relevance of what people think when it comes to gossip.

I’ve been around street people all of my life and as far as i am concerned they are the most stupidest kind that i have ever come across. Gossip is the only real weapon they have against people who are deeply bothered by being talked about-aside from their practice of working witchcraft.

Of course, all people who constantly hang out in the street are not into or even believe in voodoo, but for those who do it is a major weapon of theirs. A lot of street people are down on their luck and are very envious of those who have it better. Then you have some who may have a little something and still don’t measure up. They talk about everybody-whether they’re in a higher category or a lower one. If you’re in a higher category, though, and you know it and show it, they’ll work their best to try to bring you down lower than where they’re at.

And i know this from my own experiences. Most of the time i am very aware when rumors are being or have been spread about me. The trash have a pattern of making things known to you by verbalizing what they think they know about you. Nevertheless, i am aware of most things because i’m very spiritually inclined to my surroundings.

One summer i was walking down the street of my block when a kid half my age uttered to his playmate “Everybody knows about her and Omar”, a jealous street guy in his fifties who went around our neighborhood spreading sexual lies because he couldn’t get over on me.

“Everybody knows what?” i say, and that is exactly my point! It wasn’t what they knew. It’s what they thought they knew because a lie is the truth to street-trash. And, street people keep their lies up for years. They play on the minds of other street people and people alike because through their prior experience they know what some people will fall for due to the level they are on and the way they think.

For some reason trash feel they have the right to speak at you about the things they may have heard, believing it will do some major damage to someone emotionally. The men especially think that they have control when another man is the source of nasty gossip concerning a woman. Not so long ago males i didn’t know would call me “bitch” or “slut” because in their ignorant mind it was suppose to hurt me and if i acted as their words didn’t bother me they’d prefer to believe that i was just putting up a front. But, i was being my actual self. Their words went through one ear and out the other they did not faze me, what a man says or does has no bearing on me. I just don’t understand why as a woman in this society i’m suppose to be the weaker sex when i’m far from it.

Omar, the man who was taken advantage of and who was jealous of me thought if people believed his lies about me then treated me unkindly that it would affect me. However, it did not and i’ve never been the type to care and worry over what others thought of me. If people believe him and act on it that is purely their stupidity, and it definitely will not stop me from doing anything in my life.

Omar couldn’t handle the fact that i was younger and smarter than him. He made an ass out of himself for chasing after me in the first place, he found out the hard way that i wasn’t the average young girl walking around not knowing too much about life. I do know a lot for my age so he fucked with the wrong one! And i know it! He can tell all the lies in the world he just showed me how deeply his pride got hurt. Everyone isn’t as strong and fortunate as me when it comes to people lashing out at them.

I’ve always been a loner so i can survive without the approval of others.

Some people think that i run my mouth too much, but guess what? I’m going to keep running my mouth. Some think that i’m stupid or headed for trouble because of the way i am, but guess what? I’m going to keep being me.

Some even believe i’m crazy and incapable of doing anything other than my passion for writing, but guess what? I’m exceptionally sane, multi-talented, highly intelligent, and the world will hear of me one day even though i’m not interested in having fame-then all of my haters will have to hate me even more!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/gossip-people-in-the-street/

The Company One Keeps

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Friday, March 24, 2006 at 8:23 PM EST

Many believe in the expression “birds of a feather flock together” and i believe that most of the time the saying is true because people usually get along and hang around with people who have things in common with them. Then, there is a similar saying, “people judge you by the company you keep”.

I grew up in a neighborhood where i’m nothing like the majority of the people, i don’t relate to them at all. However, i use to be around them. You don’t really have to share the same characteristics as a person to be in their company. Everybody in my immediate family smoked and i never did, or picked the habit up. Some of them drank alcohol too. If i wasn’t influenced and copied anything which i’ve seen members of my family do why would i be influenced by anybody on the outside?

Some people think that if you keep in the same company with those who are considered bad news long enough you may eventually go in their particular direction. I’ve been around plenty of no good people, and not always by choice. But when i did associate with those who wasn’t in my class i had my own specific reasons that weren’t negative.

It is good and beneficial to have experience with people who are not like you because you’ll know what to watch out for, how to handle them, and why it can be so very important to stay away from them if they’re not your “cup of tea”.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/the-company-one-keep/

Hurt/Embarrassment

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Friday, March 24, 2006 at 8:08 PM EST

Everybody gets hurt in one way or another in their lives whether it is physical or emotional. What i had to learn growing up is that some people get their feelings hurt by certain things that are said to them. I’ve also learned that some people will say or do things to hurt others with the same particular things that would hurt them.

Believe it or not, there have been people who have lashed out on me about things they automatically assumed would be hurtful but their words and actions didn’t affect me. And they either considered me to be crazy or just a very strong person. The way i see it is that it may have to do with the level some people are on. If you think and feel a certain way about certain things in life and are knowledgeable regarding them, what some consider to be hurtful won’t necessarily have any bearing.

People have told me that i hurt their feelings and i wasn’t even aware of it because i didn’t find what i said or done to be anything harmful. I didn’t intentionally set out to hurt them and it taught me how there are things which seem little to me that mean a whole lot to someone else.

I got hit by a car when i was ten years old. The moment it happened i was taken off guard. Instantly, right after i got hit i flew up into the air and luckily landed on my behind without any broken bones. I did feel soreness days later. I learned as i grew older that a lot of people consider an incident like that one to be an embarrassing situation, especially since i was able to get up and run afterwards. But what i really had felt was startled. I was in shock. I didn’t feel any shame or awkwardness because people witnessed the scene. If anything, it scared me because i didn’t realize what was going on until i flew up into the air, heard a woman scream, then hit the ground.

I am aware that people don’t want to be seen, or deny the way something happened and affected them, when they are embarrassed. In spite of that, everybody’s actions aren’t the result of generalized perceptions held by most. People often get embarrassed due to how they feel others will view them and their situation.

What embarrasses a lot of people doesn’t embarrass me, half the time i don’t even know why they give people the power to make them feel self-conscious about certain things that are inevitable.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/hurtembarrassment/

Truth/White Lies/ Big Lies

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Friday, March 24, 2006 at 7:43 PM EST

I tell the truth most of the time, and i say most of the time because sometimes it is necessary to tell little white lies. You may be in a situation where you have to lie in order to save your life. You may lie to avoid a confrontation that would otherwise get you into trouble, or you may tell a lie because you don’t want to be bothered with someone or something, and so on. Those are what you call harmless lies.

I am a very honest person and don’t believe in lying as a habit or as a way to get by in life. To me, the truth is very important. Lies don’t do anything but cause confusion. There are people who tell lies everyday. They lie to themselves, to others, and they lie on others.

Deliberately spreading lies is something that i have never understood with certain people. Some do it just to hold a conversation, and some do it to harm a person. In my opinion, it isn’t a healthy thing when someone takes the time out to create up a bunch of lies. Everybody knows that there are some that set out to tell big lies on others due to their feelings of hatred and jealousy but that is not right. In fact, it is sick. Lies can and have gotten people killed. Some don’t care as long as their big lies get them what they want or where they want to go in life.

Some are easy to detect when they are lying. They can be so transparent. Even when you catch them in their lies they’ll deny it. But what sometimes burns me up is when you know that you are telling the truth and someone else accuses you of being a liar. Some people just don’t believe or want to hear the truth. And, some are just accustomed to the certain way things usually seem to go and turn out in life that it is hard, or maybe even incomprehensible for them to acknowledge as possible.

 

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I have to admit that i also tell lies in my life, increasingly more to my parents these years as i don’t want to worry them with what i’m doing for they always seem to be at odds with me,hence i decided to tell them only the good things the happy things and keep to myself the troubles,etc. For people brought up in a totally different culture, it’s difficult to imagine how much pressure it may cause if you want to be a filial daughter as well as living your own life. After my attempts to convince them failed, i resort to telling lies or not telling the truth. But my conscience often eats at me. I know sooner or later, i will have to face myself,my family and the shame that my parents think that i would have caused them. Right now i’m doing my best that will help lessen “the shame” or counteract it when the day comes.

Posted by amber on Friday, March 24, 2006 9:03 AM EST

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People In The Church

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Saturday, February 11, 2006 at 8:46 AM EST

Some people in the church are the worst people out there. They use their God as a cover, to hide what they really are. Some feel that everybody has skeletons in their closet and that nobody is a saint because everyone has done something wrong and made mistakes in life. But there is a difference between being unscrupulous and making honest mistakes. And everybody who has done something bad is not innately a bad person.

People often have their own interpretations of what is right or wrong and judge others by their own standards. What i’ve observed though, is that people who are too religious and act overly self-righteous have serious issues with themselves. They’ve done things in life that they can’t handle and tend to put their own insecurities on others to mask what they regret.

Sometimes what they see in another person is just a reminder of what they could have been. There is just as much gossip and dirt going on in some churches as there is anywhere else in the world. Some people just go to church for a fashion show, dressing to impress. Some go to church to meet a man. And some just keep putting on airs. Going to church doesn’t prove that one is a good person. You can have church in your own home. Having your God or deity in your heart is what truly matters.

 

i think you have a point here. but i’ve grown so much in my faith by
being around others who have a genuine faith in God… and they’re out
there… and they help me stay on the right path when i get all messed
upby life. so, yeah, some Christians are just putting on a show… but other
Christians show me what its all supposed to be about.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/people-in-the-church/

Male/Female Gal Pals

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006 at 2:24 PM EST

I know males that want to hang around females not to get into their panties but to just remain good friends because they enjoy one another’s company and that is normal. But you have some who don’t get too close to a female because of what their male buddies may think.

Some guys feel that if a guy hangs around a female all the time and even spends money on her without getting any sex from her he’s a punk or he shouldn’t be around her.

That makes no sense to me but that’s just my point of view. Before you’re a male or a female you are a human being so what does gender have to do with how you regard someone in a friendship?

 

 

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Well honestly i don’t have any male friends, though i have male classmates, schoolmats, or relatives. I hope when i start working, i will make friends with some guys.

Posted by amber on Friday, March 24, 2006 11:56 PM EST

I totally agree with what you are saying. Some of my best friends are guys. It shouldn’t matter what gender your friends are as long as they are good friends. I know alot of people, even guys, who think that having friends of the opposite gender is a good thing becuase you can get into the mind of the other gender.

Posted by Jenni Leigh on Wednesday, February 08, 2006 4:35 PM EST

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Knucklehead Men

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006 at 2:11 PM EST
I’m a nice-looking woman but i don’t understand why knucklehead men continue to try to talk to me. They should be able to look at me and see that they don’t stand a chance. They’re undesirable and i don’t even mess around with men anyway.

Men have always been the easiest thing for me to stay away from. “All men are not the same” or, ” have you been in a bad relationship?” Is what some have said and asked me after hearing how i feel about men. And it has nothing to do with either one. I know that all men aren’t the same and that there are good nice men out there i just naturally don’t want to be with one and i’m tired of hearing about it.

“Why you don’t get married?” “You should be married”. What is the big deal with these people? I don’t need a man! They don’t do anything for me. I’m not telling them not to be with a man, i don’t care what people do with their life. Why be worried about me? I’ve never been in a bad romantic relationship because i never had any feelings for a man. I’ve seen other’s around me who were in relationships and i don’t understand it. When they find out their man is cheating they go crazy, i couldn’t care less where a man sticks his penis, how would it hurt me? His body doesn’t belong to me.

And these knucklehead men, you can tell them that you don’t want them and they push themselves on you anyway. Some of them like a challenge or they’re just plain sick because to get back at you and to impress their stupid friends they’ll sometimes say they had you! They use other women to try an make you jealous and you don’t even want them, or women who do want them they try to use you to make them jealous-a bunch of silly shit. And these be full grown men!

More than once i’ve watched guys profile in front of me, trying to make me have a crush on them, and some thinking if they get me i’ll fall all over them. Bullshit! That will never happen. Not in a million years. Can’t no penis take my mind. I know a girl on my block who got sexually whipped by a guy and he married her and got her eating out of his hand. He cheats on her too.

I can’t count how many male associates who were in relationships with women that told me what they be doing behind their girlfriends back. And some women are so stupid they won’t even believe it, they’ll get mad at you for telling them and their man will deny it ,of course, and make you out to be the bad person. But i never got involve with that.

I have a relative who loves to watch the Maury show and Jerry Springer, and almost every day it’s the same ole thing. Somebody fighting over somebody else’s man or woman, and women crying because they don’t know who their baby’s daddy is or because the man don’t want to take care of the child.

If i had a baby it darn sure wouldn’t matter to me if the man didn’t want to be there. I don’t understand none of that nonsense. I couldn’t sit up and watch them kind of shows every day. There are knucklehead women out there too who won’t leave men who don’t want to be bothered alone but when it comes to a man it’s a little worse because they have those pathetic egos.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/knucklehead-men-2/

Jealousy In The Family

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006 at 1:12 PM EST

Most jealousy starts at home within the family. And this has been going on since the beginning of time, just like with the story of Cain and Abel. I had the potential and “energy” to make a lot of money from the books that i wrote and most of my big bucks never reached me (a spiritual freeze) because of my two most envious relatives. They never wanted me to have anything.

My great-grandmother Amanda and aunt Tina are two of the dirtiest dogs walking the face of the earth. I call them dogs because they’re not worthy of the title “women”. They’ve tried to have me raped and killed but those things didn’t go through, i was able to avoid those situations.

Amanda and Tina used outsiders to aide them in going against me to try to ruin my life. They lied to some people to get them to go along with doing their dirt. And those particular people fell for the lies because some wouldn’t think that a grandmother would go around lying on their grandchildren to destroy them, and since she was old they probably figured that she knew what she was talking about.

Some people are blinded by age. Others went along with them because they were in the same category as Amanda and Tina, low-down and no good.

Amanda and Tina are both dykes. Well, they’re really bisexual ’cause they mess with men too. They have a lot in common. They were beat up and dogged by men before and mistreated by some who were supposed to be their friends, and they are so sick that they both practice evil voodoo. I’ve never let no man or anybody use and abuse me, people can only do that if you allow them to.

Amanda is jealous of other’s within our family also, not just me, and they know about it because we’ve discussed it. She’s talked about all of us like a dog to one another. But we know she’s just mad that our lives turned out better than her’s. Some man that Amanda use to go with had sex with her when she was young and busted her vagina wide open because his penis was too big and she had to get stitched up. I guess that is enough to make anybody mad but it’s not our fault that she was stupid enough to let some man bang her up so badly. What goes around comes back around and every evil thing that Amanda and Tina did to me and my other family members has caught up with them.

They are both dying from AIDS, a disease that the doctor’s can’t cure. My uncle got his too he died from the disease two years ago. I’ve watched them waste away. The two of them are both miserable and are taking their sins slowly but surely to their grave while we-my other family members and i-still have plenty more life to live harmoniously and without regret. And the sad thing about it is that even though Amanda and Tina have a little bit of time left they are still using it to do more dirt. But the good thing is that they can’t touch us anymore. They never really had total power over us, it’s just that their ability to work evil has finally come to an end.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/jealousy-in-the-family/

Cultural Mix

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Saturday, February 04, 2006 at 11:06 AM EST

Ever since i was a little girl i’ve been exposed to all races of people. My mother wanted me to learn about other different cultures because that is what our world is made up of. I’m a black woman who from kindergarten on up went to school with a wide range of different nationalities and that experience was very beneficial to me and my life.

It is no good to be limited in life. The more you know the further you can go.There will always be prejudice out there in the world and everybody doesn’t have to like everybody but i can get along with anybody if i want to be bothered because i know how to socialize on many levels. I just don’t get along with low-life people, i can’t tolerate them, however knuckleheads come in a variety of races.

There have been a few people of other nationalities who were bias against me but i didn’t take it personal because i didn’t care, to me that was their problem. Then there have been quite a few who were very generous to me, one trusting me with her ATM card, and some trusting that i had their best interest but i think that was more of a trust issue than a racial one.

Other races, more so white people, always tried to help me get ahead in life. They treated me better than those of my own nationality. A lot of blacks don’t like to see their own kind prosper if they don’t have anything good going on for them. They are too busy being ignorant and jealous, gossiping and trying to hold people back by doing underhanded things. Instead of putting effort into ruining someone else’s life they need to learn how to conduct themselves and raise their black children right! Some people also don’t like race mixing.

I have blood relatives who are of another race so that matter doesn’t faze me. Some black people want to mix with other races for stupid reasons, because they want their children to come out pretty with light skin and nice hair, when they should be getting with someone for more sincere reasons.

I never really judged people solely on what nationality they were but i will admit that my family didn’t like Haitian and Jamaican people. We didn’t have any of them in our family. Like i said, everybody don’t have to like everybody-nobody’s perfect. We should be good to those who are good to us.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/cultural-mix/

Class Versus Trash

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Friday, February 03, 2006 at 2:37 PM EST

There are all types of people all over the world but is anybody really better than anyone else? My answer is yes. I am sure there are people who would disagree, however, it is a fact.

Everybody is not equal. Everybody doesn’t fit into the same category. There are people who are knuckleheads, they were born to be nothing. And i know because i grew up with and around people like that.

Some of these particular people are in denial they don’t want to accept that they are about nothing. And there are different levels of trash. They try to be more than what they are ( and berate those who actually are the better ones), especially if they have money but money doesn’t make a person. Fancy clothes and a fancy car doesn’t make one anything either. Neither does the color of their skin. It takes character to be somebody.

Knuckleheads are all not necessarily people who hang out on street corners bumming and idling. Some of them have homes and jobs. A lot of them are extremely ignorant yet they think that they’re experts on life. Most of them aren’t capable of doing too many things right because they are worthless. They resort to drugs and alcohol because they can’t cope with their lives and they try to take people who or better down with them if they can.

These knuckleheads love to prey on peoples minds, hoping they are able to mess up a few because somebody was able to mess up their’s. They play so many stupid games and believe nobody can see through it. And when they do get caught they pretend they don’t know what you’re talking about. They are so transparent.They think on a very low level. They can’t function around people with class. They don’t know anything about substance.

All the trash know about is robbing, killing, raping, selling drugs, whoring around, spreading diseases, and lies. And they contaminate the world with their presence. They shouldn’t have life. They are just taking up space. Knuckleheads don’t respond very well to logic, it doesn’t register to them. They’re not intelligent. You have to go down to their stupid level for them to understand what you are explaining.

I’ve always hated the low-life trashy scum of the world, ever since i was a little girl. I loathe them. I can’t express how much i detest them. I can spot their kind a mile away. Most of them have a look. It’s in their mannerism. It’s in their body features and it’s in the way they talk.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/class-versus-trash/

Self Love/Self Esteem

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 at 3:54 PM EST

If someone puts you down do you feel bad about yourself? If someone doesn’t like the way you look or the way that you live your life do you alter yourself or your ways? Do you change what makes you happy to please somebody else?

When i was a child there were other children who didn’t like me and who criticized me or made fun of me, and as i grew up i learned to be grateful to those experiences because it helped to make me who i am today. Most of the time individuals who go around intentionally trying to hurt others are suffering from their own battles with low self esteem. So they inadvertently tell on themselves by irrationally acting out. Lashing out at another makes them feel good, giving them a false sense of security.

It is sad when some feel that they have to make other people feel bad just to feel good about themselves. Things in life can either make you or break you and i learned at a very early age that i am suppose to love everything about myself even if nobody else does. And i always did! None of us are perfect human beings but you have to put yourself first and never let anybody walk all over you and take advantage of your kindness. There are plenty who will take kindness for weakness.

And a lot of people have some type of insecurity that affects them in their life. Jealousy has never been an insecurity of mine. That is one of the worse things out there. Certain people have always been jealous of me though. So i do know about other peoples insecurities. And when you love yourself ultimately and learn how to carry yourself that way there will be no need for you to be jealous of another.

In general, people should respect themselves and make sure that they are respected by others!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/self-loveself-esteem/

Wisdom

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 at 3:08 PM EST

Does wisdom really come with age? For some it may, but definitely not for all and i know this from my own experience. Every old person is not wise and every young person is not dumb. I’m not all that young and i’m definitely not old and i have a hell of a lot on the cap! And i’ve seen in life quite a few brilliant young people and a lot of stupid older people.

Don’t get me wrong, i like and respect wise old people who are open-minded and who know what they are talking about but nothing is worse than a ignorant person who won’t listen to reason. When i was a little girl growing up there were people older than me that i hated because they would underestimate me and accuse me of being a way that i wasn’t.

However, there were smarter adults who liked me and could see that i was a very smart and good child who had to grow up around a lot of no good people. And my great-grandmother was one devilish person that i had to grow up around, always interfering in my mother’s life trying to destroy us.

The old bat is still alive. She’s about ninety or ninety-one now. When my “greasy great-granny” was in her early eighties she was still having sexual intercourse, and with a married man. She even let this man take pictures of her as she wore a light-blue see-through negligee. I saw the pictures a while back in the mid-nineties, she was sitting on her couch with her large droopy tits sagging upon her belly rolls that slapped over one another.

My great-grandmother is definitely not a good example of a wise older person, in fact, she’s a dumb old broad. And i’m not going to go any further in explaining by airing dirty laundry it’s not necessary. My point is, one is never too old to learn something in life and a lot of older people may be surprised to find out just how much knowledge someone younger has stored up inside their mind. Sometimes it is what you have experienced within your time and not how much time you’ve experienced!

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/wisdom/

Addiction

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 at 2:33 PM EST

Last summer i accompanied a relative to the emergency room of a nearby hospital and as we waited in the lobby to be seen by a doctor a young man there who was also waiting to be examined approached the both of us to strike up a conversation.

You know, some people are just like that-friendly. He told us why he’d come in. Supposedly he fell and hurt his shoulder. Anyway, he revealed that he was a crackhead. He said that he loved to smoke crack and that he also dealt crack and claimed that he had a building full of people hooked on the drug, his customers i guess.

When my relative finally got called by a doctor the young man felt comfortable enough to ask me if i’d ever smoked crack or used any type of drug before and my honest answer was no. So he tried to explain the best way he could to me about being addicted to drugs. Why? I don’t know. Maybe it was just something in life that he was going through and wanted or needed to discuss it with a stranger at the moment.

I’ve had other members of my family who were addicted to drugs and i know their behavioral patterns. These particular relatives of mine are nothing but pure low-life scum! Now i don’t feel this way about everyone who use drugs because everybody who use drugs are not the same.

I don’t judge and don’t have the right to judge everyone mainly because their on or dabble with drugs. I haven’t walked in everybody’s shoes so i don’t always know what may inspire them to do certain things. You don’t have to go through the exact same thing in life to be able to relate to a person or their circumstance. In many ways we are all the same, learning and growing no matter how old we are.

I personally knew good people who used drugs and i had respect for them because when we hung out together they never offered me any of their “stuff ” knowing that it was something that i did not do. Misery often likes company and some will try to get you to do what they do knowing that it’s not your usual thing. People have different reasons for using drugs.

From what i’ve heard about crack is that the first high is the ultimate high and from then on the feeling gets dead and that the people continue to smoke the crack-pipe to reach that same ultimate high which they can’t seem to find again.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/addiction/

Talk

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 at 1:46 PM EST

People are going to talk about you whether you do good or whether you do bad. And people spread lies about people each and every day. People will smile in your face and then talk behind your back. Jealousy and envy are two of the worst things in life and often creates much hatred.

The way that i see it if you don’t like somebody stay away from them. If you can’t be happy for them stay away from them. I’m the type if i have something to say about someone i have the guts to tell them to their face i’ve always been like that. And if someone has so much to say about me behind my back go ahead just as long as you tell the truth!

There is one thing that i’ve always hated in life and that is a liar. Some people are so sick that they will believe their own lies. I am thirty years old going on thirty-one and i have never cared what people said or thought about me, i never let people interfere with my well-being.

A lot of people say they don’t care about what others say or think about them but when it really comes down to it some of them really do care. I’ve been tested many times in my life by jealous people who tried to bring me down with their bull-crap.

People in my neighborhood had the nerve to spread rumors about me running around with lots of different men then catching herpes and AIDS, all that didn’t faze me one bit especially since those were the things that they were doing and the nasty diseases that they actually have. They thought by spreading those lies i would feel bad and stay inside my house but how could i feel bad about something that i know i never did or never had? I don’t even have sex.

My advice to all those who are the victim of envious jealous people is to keep your head up and continue on with your business, day to day activities, and the things that make you happy in your life.

A lie may make you very angry but remember that you must be a very important person for a bunch of people to take out time in their lives to put a lot of their energy into trying to bring you down. If they can’t keep your name out their mouth and you are not bothering anybody you’re worth a million, and should flaunt it!

And that should make you even more determined to want to get ahead in life because obviously these particular people are going nowhere but to jail! I see them all the time standing in the same spot- on a corner, in front of their houses, talking about nothing. And most of these people be grown men with no jobs.There is absolutely nothing wrong with constructive criticism that can be helpful but no the difference when someone is trying to improve you because they care about you or if they are just insulting you to try to discourage you.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/talk/

Ignorance

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Monday, January 30, 2006 at 1:51 PM EST

Everybody has an opinion. But everybody is not correct in their personal views. Some even get into heated arguments if they can’t reach an agreement. Misinterpretations can sometimes lead to trouble and misinformation often leads to lies.

Instead of poking noses where they don’t belong, speculating without knowing all of the details, and assuming because one is only familiar with a narrow-minded way of looking at things stand back and give respect. People have the right to live their life the way that they want to as long as they are not harming others.

In my opinion ignorance is a sickness with some. In dictionary terms, ignorance is a lack of knowledge or information regarding a particular subject, and some people just think they know everything. You can’t tell them nothing. And sometimes it doesn’t pay to try to change a person’s mind when they’re stubbornly holding on to something because people are going to think and believe what they want to even if it is something false.

Ignorant people make me sick but there isn’t anything that can be done about it. Many people in this society are the same so there will always be generalizations made, especially when they don’t pertain to particular persons, and anything opposing most of those generalizations are sure to create much controversy.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/ignorance/

Special Wisdom

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 4:17 PM EDT

I’ve always been able to take large peeks into the future. And no, that at all does not make me a genius. But it does make me very aware of what i can expect to happen in my life and in the lives of certain others.

All of my years here on earth i’ve been criticized, misjudged, lied on, hated, and the object of much envy and jealousy among some just like a lot of others have.

One thing i know to count on though and that is i eventually come out on top regardless of the trials i have to sometimes go through or the peoples predictions of what me and my life will turn out to be.

There have been older people in their fifties who were beneath me and who had the nerve to talk down to me, telling me that because they were older than me that made them more knowledgeable and more experienced when it came to going through things. They were sheer fools when they spoke those words to me!

I, one of the people down here on earth who can tell them all about the life that they think they’ve lived and what they will live ahead, am experienced in a way they’ll never know and they need to be more respectful toward people who are able to stir up that type of power.

I feel i’ve been here before, and when i die i don’t want to come back again. I don’t think i know everything because i don’t, but i do know a lot and nothing in this world really excites or surprises me. I’m just making do until “Divine Spirit” uses me for whatever it is that he wants me to do, and brings me into whatever it is that is meant.

And i admit that while i kill time here, it gets boring going over the same shit with certain kinds of people that i already know the answers to, i’m not learning anything new through their actions and way of life as i watch them. And, maybe i just don’t care! I’d benefit more from those who have and seek foundation, we all learn and grow when we’re on that path.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/special-wisdom/

God

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Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 3:56 PM EDT

It is said that nobody is above God and that we are not suppose to ask “why?” Why things have to be the way they are, and why whatever else.

And i may cross the line when i say this but i feel that i do have the right to ask why because life isn’t fair and because i didn’t ask to come into this world. It is not doing me any great favor by me being here that i should go along with the way life is.

I know none of us are suppose to be “perfect” in God’s eyes and that none of us truly see things the way that he does because we are suppose to be incapable of comprehending his knowledge.

And me, being human, of course do not like all of the rules that he sets and i guess it’s because we’re all born into “so call” sin and are suppose to be sinners by nature.

I feel some things that God sees as a sin should not be. Nevertheless, it is also said that God gives us his laws to abide by not to make us unhappy but for our protection. Very few of his rules maybe i can accept with no problem, and there are the rest that i strongly disagree with.

To be even more honest though. I always thought the bible to be one of the sickest books that i’ve ever read. And as a spiritual person by birth and by nature i have never truly felt any connection with this “God” and have uncovered things about him and life ( things i have always speculated since childhood ) that i will not disclose.

Contrary to the bible and popular belief life (definitely my life in particular) is so much purer, happier, better, fulfilling and peaceful without him.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/god/

Manners

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Thursday, March 30, 2006 at 2:05 PM EST

Spring is here and the weather seems to be getting better. I’ll be going out more now than i did during the cold winter season.

Yesterday was a nice day, i enjoyed myself. I enjoy myself most of the time when i go out anyway! I love beautiful warm days an nights. I’m looking forward to those periods in the summer.

I’ve encountered many well-behaved people within my lifetime. Plenty have been generally courteous, showing proper ettiquette. And, i’ve done the same. Then you have some who are just spiteful.

I went into a neighborhood store that usually stays crowded. A woman who looked to be in her forties stood up at the counter waiting for an order she’d put in. And, she was stinking. Either she sprayed perfume over her funk or sweated through the fragrance.

Sometimes people will walk away from the counter and stand somewhere else in the store to let people who are making quick purchases get by and through, to avoid the slight hazard of over-crowding. If i know that what i paid for-like a hero-will take a little while to be made i’ll move out the way so other people can make their purchases.

I had to squeeze through this lady and someone else, and she sarcastically uttered “Don’t say excuse me”.

I didn’t have to respond. And i usually don’t respond to pettiness. But sometimes i strike back out of my being feisty. So i uttered back to her “Fuck you”.

Then she sarcastically replied “You’re not my type”. And i said “You’re not mine either, you stinking #$%&*!” ( my creative way of putting it).

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/manners/

“Retards”

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Sunday, May 14, 2006 at 12:51 PM EDT

I have an aunt who is mentally handicap due to her mother’s negligence during pregnancy. My grandmother drank alcohol and didn’t nurture her body the way that she was suppose to while she carried my aunt. So, my aunt was born on the slow-side.

And, to top it off, when she was sixteen these people she use to hang out with slipped mescaline in her soda, flipping her out then making her situation worse. She was hospitalized and put on medication.

In her late twenties, my aunt got married to a “mentally disturbed” man who abused her, again making her situation even worse than before! When she left him she returned back home talking to herself and running wilder with men than she ever had in her entire life.

She is forty years old now and she totally gets on my nerves. She’s clumsy. She doesn’t clean up after herself, she doesn’t know how to travel or handle any business-and that’s just to say the least! All she desires to do is heavily smoke cigarettes and drink coffee.

Thank goodness she’s attending a program for about four hours a day. My aunt’s behavior is totally off the wall! Innately, she has a very good heart and she is not significantly threatening to anyone. It is deep though how sick some people can be.

She has acted out numerous times in the street, portraying imaginary events made up in her troubled mind. My aunt was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic and her situation is no joke!

This may sound harsh and insensitive but i don’t particularly have too much sympathy for retarded people. Yes, some of them aren’t as bad off as others and some may say that it is not their fault that they came into the world “not right”. Nevertheless, i absolutely have no patience for their trying behavior.

No matter how much you make an effort to teach and show some of them the path of being conductive they fail to produce. A lot of retarded people are nothing but trouble too! They continually lie, steal, then cause conflict with and between others-often getting by this way.

Many people will dismiss their “nuisances” and “menaces” because of their unfortunate circumstance. However, retards are not totally blameless.

There are some who are very aware of how people look at their situation when they’re creating mischief and they take advantage of that, inspiring them to think that they can do and cause as much trouble as they want, assuming that they will be excused.

Yes indeed, these retards know what they be doing sometimes. They are very sick mentally. And their no good behavior should not always be overlooked simply due to the fact that they’re “missing a few screws”. In certain instances their actions are dangerous and need careful attention and evaluation.

http://misslatoya.wordpress.com/2007/08/25/retards/